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Title: The Raft

Author: Coningsby Dawson

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THE RAFT

By Coningsby Dawson

Author Of "The Garden Without Walls"

With Illustrations By Orson Lowell

New York

Henry Holt And Company

1914

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_Their virgins had no marriage-songs; and they that could swim did cast
themselves into the sea to get to land, and some on boars, and some on
other things._




THE RAFT




CHAPTER I--A MAN


It was said of Jehane that she married blindly on the re-bound.
She herself confessed in later life that she married out of dread of
becoming an old maid.

A don's daughter at Oxford has plentiful opportunities for becoming an
old maid. Undergraduates are too adventurously young and graduates
are too importantly in earnest for marriage; whether too young or too
earnest, they are all too occupied. To bring a man to the point of
matrimony, you must catch him unaware and invade his idleness. Love, in
its initial stages, is frivolous.

This tragic state of affairs was frequently discussed by Jehane with
her best friend, Nan Tudor. Were they to allow themselves to fade
husbandless into the autumn of girlhood? Were they too ladylike to make
any effort to save themselves from this horrid fate?--In the gray winter
as they returned from a footer match, on the river in summer as the
eights swung by, in the old-fashioned rectory-garden at Cassingland,
this was their one absorbing topic of conversation. Ye gods, were they
never to be married!

They watched the privileged male-creatures who had it in their power to
choose them: that they did not choose them seemed an insult. When term
commenced, they would dash up to their colleges in hansoms and step
out confident and smiling. They would saunter through the narrow Oxford
streets to morning lectures, arm-in-arm, in tattered gowns, smoking
cigarettes, jolly and lackadaisical. In the afternoon, with savage and
awakened energy, they would strive excessively for athletic honors. At
night they would smash windows, twang banjoes, rag one another, assault
constables and sometimes get drunk. At the end of term they would
step into their hansoms and vanish, lords of creation, in search of a
well-earned rest.

Jehane contrasted their lives with Nan's and hers. "They've got
everything; our hands are empty. We're compulsory nuns and may do
nothing to free ourselves. When _he_ comes to my rescue, if he ever
comes, how I shall adore him."

Then together they would fall to picturing their chosen lover.
Unfortunately the choice was not theirs--their portion was to wait for
him to come.

They knew of lean, striding women in North Oxford who had waited--women
whose hair had lost its brightness, who fondled dogs and pretended to
hate babies.

Jehane and Nan adored babies. They loved the feel of little crumpled
fingers against their throats and the warmth of a tiny body cuddled
against their breasts. They never missed an opportunity for hugging a
baby. They never passed a young mother in the streets without a pang of
envy.

Why was it that no man had chosen them? Gazing at their own reflections,
they would tell themselves that they were not bad-looking--Jehane with
her cloudy brown eyes and gipsy mane of night-black hair, Nan all blue
and flaxen and fluffy. The years slipped by. Where was he in the world?

For eight years, since she was seventeen, Jehane had never ceased
watching. Every New Year and birthday she had whispered to herself,
"Perhaps, by this time next year he will have come." Marriage seemed to
her the escape to every happiness.

Now that she was twenty-five she grew desperate; from now on, with
every day, her chance of being one of the chosen would diminish. As
she expressed it to Nan, "We're two girls adrift on a raft and we can't
swim. Over there's the land of marriage with all the little children,
the homes and the husbands; we've no means of getting to it. Unless some
of the men see us and put off in boats to our rescue, we'll be caught in
the current of the years and swept out into the hunger of mid-ocean. But
they're too busy to notice us. Oh, dear!"

When Jehane spoke like this Nan would laugh; except for Jehane, no such
thoughts would have entered her head. They didn't worry her when she was
with her rector father at Cassingland, occupied with her quiet round
of village-duties. In her heart of hearts she believed that life was
planned by an unescapable Providence. Her placid philosophy irritated
Jehane. She said that Nan's God was a stout widower in a clerical
band; whereat Nan would smile dreamily and answer, "Wouldn't it be just
ripping if God were?"

At such times Jehane thought Nan stupid.

That Jehane should have been so romantic about marriage was
inexplicable, save on the ground that she voiced the passions which her
parents had suppressed in themselves.

Her father, Professor Benares Usk, was the greatest living Homeric
scholar--a tall, bowed man with a broad beard that flowed down below his
watch-chain, a bald and venerable egg-shaped head and a secret habit
of taking snuff. He had lost interest in human doings since Greece was
trampled by the Roman Eagles. Both he and Mrs. Usk were misty-eyed--they
had frictioned off the corners of their personalities in the graveyards
of the past; their minds were museums, stored with chipped splendors,
the atmosphere of which was stuffy.

Mrs. Usk was an authority on Scandinavian folk-lore--a thin,
fine-featured, flat-breasted woman who wore her dresses straight up
and down without a bulge. Her soft gray hair was drawn tightly off her
forehead and twisted at the back into a hard, round walnut.

Only on Sunday afternoons was the house thrown open to visitors; then
Jehane would offer tea to ill-at-ease young bloods, while her father
fingered his beard and made awkward efforts to be affable, and
her mother, ignoring the guests, sat bolt upright in her chair and
slumbered. What a look of relief came into the tanned faces of the men
when they caught up their hats and departed. They had come as a duty to
see not Jehane but her father; and now they went off to their pleasures.
Oh, those Sunday afternoons, how they made her shudder!

Often she marveled at her parents--what had brought them together? To
her way of thinking, they knew so little about love and could so easily
have dispensed with one another. Like dignified sleepy house-cats, they
sat on distant sides of the domestic hearth, heedless of everything save
to be undisturbed.--Ah, when she married, life would become intense,
ecstatic--one throb of passion!

There was a story current in the 'Varsity of how the Professor cared
for Mrs. Usk. He had taken her for a drive in a dog-cart, he sitting
in front and she, characteristically, by choice at the back. Deep in
thought, he had jolted through country-lanes. Her presence did not occur
to him till he had returned to Oxford and had drawn up before his house;
then he perceived that she was not there and must have tumbled out. Some
hours later, having retraced his journey, he found her by the roadside
with a broken leg. For the next three months the greatest living
Homeric scholar did penance, wheeling an exacting lady in a bathchair.
Doubtless, he planned his great studies of the Iliad as he trundled,
and the chair's occupant constructed English renderings of Scandinavian
legends. At all events, next autumn they each had a book published.

These were the influences under which Jehane grew up. Her parents were
more like children to her than parents, gentle and utterly absorbed in
themselves; they were no earthly use when it came to marriage. She could
not apply to them for help; they would have thought her indelicate,
if they had thought about it at all. Probably they would not have
understood. Sometimes marriage came to girls--sometimes it didn't;
nobody was to blame whether it did or didn't. That would have been their
way of summing up. Meanwhile Jehane was twenty-five; she had begun to
abandon hope, when the great change occurred--it commenced with William
Barrington.

It was early summer. The streets had been washed clean by rain and were
now haunted by strange sweet perfumes which drifted over walls from
hidden college-gardens. Nan had driven in from Cassingland and had come
to Jehane for lunch and shelter. It was afternoon; the sun was shining
tearfully over glistening turrets and drenched tree-tops.

Jehane unlatched the window and leant out above the flint-paved street,
looking up and holding out her hands. From far away, out of sight on
the river, came the thud of oars and hoarse shouts where the eights
were practising. Halfway down the street the tower of Calvary soared,
incredibly frail and defiant, against a running sea of cloud.

"There's not a drop. If you don't believe me, feel for yourself.
Let's----"

She drew back swiftly, looking slightly flustered.

From the back of the room Nan's voice came smooth and unhurried, "What's
the matter? Why don't you finish what you were saying?"

"It's a man," Jehane whispered.

In an instantly arranged conspiracy, Nan tiptoed over to her friend.
Cautiously they peered out. No sooner had Nan's eyes found what they
sought than she darted back; Jehane, with rising color, remained bending
forward.

The bell rang. A few seconds later, the front-door opened and shut.
Jehane drew a long breath and stood erect. Laughing nervously, she
patted her face with both hands. "You look scared, you dear old
thing--more fluffy than ever: just like a tiny newly hatched chicken----
But it's happened in the world before."

"Oh, Jehane, how could you do it?"

"Do what?"

"You know--stare at him like that."

"I looked; I didn't stare. Why, my dear, that's what woman's eyes were
made for."

"But--but you flung your eyes about his neck. You've dragged him into
the house.--And I want to hide so badly."

"I don't." Jehane feigned a coolness which she did not possess.

A step sounded on the stairs. Nan buried her hot cheeks in a bowl of
lilac. A maid entered with a card.

Jehane looked up from reading it.

"Don't know him, Betty. What made him come?" Betty looked her surprise.
"To see master, of course. That's what he said."

"But you told him father was out?"

"I did, miss. But he's all the way from London. Seems the master gave
him an appointment. He told me to tell you as you'd do instead."

"Just like father to forget. We're going on the river; I suppose I'll
have to see him first.--No, Nan, I won't be left by myself.--Betty,
you'd better show him up."

Nan threw herself down on the sofa, crushing herself into the cushions,
as far from the door as she could get. "I wish I'd not come. Jehane, why
did you do it?" Jehane seated herself near the window where the light
fell across her shoulder most becomingly. She spread out her skirts
decorously and picked up a book, composing her features to an expression
of sweetest demureness--that it was a Greek grammar did not matter. In
answer to Nan's question she replied, "Little stupid. Nothing venture,
nothing have."




CHAPTER II--"I'M HALF SICK OF SHADOWS"


The strange man was rather amused as he climbed the stairs, but he
showed no amusement when he entered.

Jehane laid aside her book leisurely and rose from her chair; he was
even better to look at than she had expected. It was his clothes that
impressed her first; the gray tweeds fitted his athletic figure with
just that maximum of good taste that stops short of perfection. Then it
was his face, clean-shaven and intellectual--the face of a boyish man,
mobile and keen in expression. She liked the way he did his dark brown
hair, almost as dark as hers, swept straight back without a parting from
his forehead. His eyes were kindly, piercing and blue-gray; for a man he
had exceptionally long, thin hands. She liked him entirely; she wondered
whether he was equally well impressed.

"So thoughtless of father--he's out. Is there anything I can do for
you?"

Jehane was tall, but she only reached up to his shoulders. His eyes
looked down on hers and twinkled into a smile at her nervous gravity.

"We all know the Professor; there's no need to apologize. Please don't
stand."

She was about to comply with his request, when she realized that she no
longer held his attention. He was staring past her. She turned her head.

"Oh, allow me to introduce you, Mr. Barrington, to my friend, Miss
Tudor."

"I thought it was." His tones had become extraordinarily glad. "No one
could forget little Nan, who'd once known her. But Nan, you've grown
older. What do you mean by it? It's so uncalled for, so unexpected.
You're no longer the Princess Pepperminta that you were."

Nan crossed the room in a romping bound and commenced pumping his arm up
and down.

"It's Billy, dear old Billy! You remember, Jehane; I've told you. Billy
who sewed up father's surplice, and Billy who tied knots in my hair, and
Billy who, when I got angry, used to call me the Princess Pepperminta.
You made yourself so detestable, Billy, that our village talks about you
even now."

"A doubtful compliment; but it's ripping to see you--simply ripping."

Jehane stood aside and watched them. She had heard Nan talk of Billy
Barrington and how her father had tutored him for Oxford--but that must
be twelve years back. She had never known him herself and had never been
very curious about him. But now, as she watched, she felt the appeal of
this big, broad-shouldered boy of thirty.

They were talking--talking of things beyond her knowledge, things which
shut her out.

"And why didn't you write in all these years? Father and I often
mentioned you. In Cassingland you were an event. It wasn't kind of you,
Billy."

"Things at home were in such a mess. I'd to start work at once. Somehow,
with working so hard, other things faded out."

"Poor Nan with the rest!"

"No, I remembered you. 'Pon my honor I did, Nan; but I thought----"

"Yes?"

"You were such a kid in those days; I thought you'd forgotten. As though
either of us could forget. I was an ass."

Jehane had turned her back and was looking out of the window. For the
first time she envied Nan--Nan, the daughter of a country parson. It was
too bad.

"Miss Usk."

She glanced across her shoulder.

"We're being intolerably rude, talking all about our own affairs. You
see, once Nan was almost my sister. How old were you, Nan? Thirteen,
wasn't it? And I was eighteen. We've not met since then. My father died
suddenly, you know. I had to step into his shoes--they were much too big
for me. That was the end of Oxford and Cassingland."

"We were going out on the river," said Jehane. "Perhaps you'll join
us. I'll sit very quiet and listen. You can talk over old times to your
heart's content."

They piled his arms with cushions, and together set out through the
glistening meadows to the barges. After the rain, the air was intensely
still. Sounds carried far; from tall trees on the Broad Walk and from
the uttermost distance came the fluty cry of birds, from the river the
rattle of oars being banked, and from every side the slow patter of
dripping branches. Like a canvas, fresh from an artist's brush, colors
in the landscape stood out distinct and wet--flowers against the gray
walls of Corpus, trunks of trees with their velvety blackness and shorn
greenness of the Hinksey Hills. Men in disreputable shorts, returning
from the boats, passed them. Some ran; some sauntered chatting.

Barrington laughed shortly and drew a long breath. "Nothing to do but
enjoy themselves. Nothing to do but grow a fine body and learn to be
gentlemen. I missed all that. After the rush and drive, it's topping to
sink back."

"You're right; it is sleepy. One day's just like the next. We stand as
still as church-steeples. People come and go; we're left. We exist for
visitors to look at, like the Martyr's Memorial and Calvary Tower."

He glanced down at Jehane quickly: she interested him--there was
something about her that he could not understand. The long penciled
brows, the thick lashes, the cloudy eyes and the straight, pale features
attracted and yet repelled him. He felt that she was not happy and had
never been quite happy. The natural generosity of the man made him eager
to hear her speak about herself.

But Jehane was aware that she had struck a discord in what she had said.
He had flinched like a child, with whom the thought of pain had not
yet become a habit. She made haste to cover up her error by directing
attention to himself.

"But you--what are you?"

"I'm a pub."

"A pub! But you can't be. You don't mean that you----"

Nan caught his arm in her merriment and leant across him. "Of course he
doesn't. He's a publisher. He always did clip his words."

"But not _the_ Barrington--father's publisher?"

"Yes, _the_ Barrington. It's funny, Jehane, but it can't be helped.
Anyhow, he's only Billy now."

Barrington stood still, eying the two girls--the one fair and all
mischief, the other dark and serious. "What's the matter with you, Miss
Usk? Why do you object?"

"If I told you, you might not like it."

"Rubbish."

"Well then, you ought to have a long gray beard like father. You're not
old enough."

"I've sometimes thought that myself."

"Billy's always been young for his age," said Nan; "he's minus twenty
now."

But, as they walked on, Jehane was saying to herself, "Then he was only
coming to see father, as everybody comes! It wasn't my face that drew
him."

They strewed the cushions on the floor of the punt. Barrington took the
pole and Jehane seated herself in front so that she could face him.
All that he should see of Nan's attractions was the back of her golden
head--Jehane had arranged all that.

They swung out into mid-stream unsteadily; Barrington was struggling to
recover a forgotten art. Their direction was erratic. They nearly fouled
a returning eight; the maledictions of the cox, each stinging epithet of
whose abuse politely ended in "sir," drew unwelcome attention to their
wandering progress. When they had collided with the opposite bank, Nan
stood up and took the pole herself. Jehane was in luck.

She had often pictured such a scene to herself--a man, herself, and a
punt on the river; in these pictures she had never included Nan. She
had heard herself brilliantly conversing, saying amusing things that had
made the man laugh, saying deep things that had made him solemn; then,
presently she had ceased to torment him, his arms had gone about her,
and she had lain a fluttering wild thing on his breast.

Now, in reality, she had nothing to say. When he spoke, she gave him
short answers. She was not mistress of herself. She trailed her hands in
the water and was afraid to look up, lest he should guess the tumult in
her heart.

The punt had turned out of the main stream into the Cherwell, and
was stealing between narrow banks. Jehane knew that she was appearing
sullen; she always appeared like that with men. In her mind's eye she
saw herself acting the other part of gay, responsive woman of the world.
She was angry with herself.

Barrington, hampered by her embarrassment, had twisted round on his
cushions and was chaffing Nan. Nan was looking her best and, as usual,
was quite unconscious of the fact. In her loose, blowy muslin, standing
erect, leaning against the pole with the water dripping from her
hands, she seemed the soul of summer and unspoilt girlhood against
the background of lazy river and green shadows. There was something
infantile and appealing about Nan. Her flaxen hair fitted her like a
shining cap of satin. Her eyes were inextinguishably bright and blue;
above them were delicate, golden brows. Her red lips seemed always
slightly parted, ready to respond to mischief or merriment. She was
small in build--the kind of girl-woman a man is tempted to pick up and
carry. Her chief beauty was her long, slim throat and neck; she was a
white flower, swaying from a fragile stem. It was impossible to think
that Nan knew anything that was not good.

After they had passed under Magdalen Bridge they had the river very much
to themselves: the rain had driven most of the voyagers to cover. For
long stretches there was no sound but their own voices, the splash of
the pole and the secret singing of birds.

Jehane, with trailing hands and brooding eyes, watched this man; she
wanted him--she did not know why--she wanted him for herself. Sometimes
she became so concentrated in her mood that she forgot to listen to
what was being said. Through her head went humming significant and
disconnected stanzas, which she repeated over and over:

                   "Or when the moon was overhead,

                   Came two young lovers lately wed:

                   'I am half sick of shadows,' said

                   The Lady of Shalott."

Jehane had once been told that she was Pre-Raphaelite in appearance;
she never forgot that--it explained her to herself. She had quarreled
forever with a man who had said that Rossetti's women resulted
from tuberculosis of the imagination. The truth of the remark was
unforgivable--she knew that she herself suffered from some such
spiritual malady.

A question roused her from her trance.

"I say, Billy, are you married yet?"

It was extraordinary how Jehane's heart pounded as she waited for the
question to be answered.

He clasped his hands in supplication, "Promise not to tell my wife that
we came out like this together."

Nan let the pole trail behind her and gazed down at him mockingly. Her
face was flushed with the exertion of punting: the faint gold of the
stormy afternoon, drifting through gray willows, spangled her hair and
dress. "When you like you can make yourself as big an ass as anyone. I
don't believe you are a pub: you're a big, lazy fellow playing truant.
Answer my question."

"But Pepperminta, why should I?"

"Don't call me ridiculous names. Answer my question."

Barrington stretched himself indolently on the cushions. "You've not
changed a bit; you're just as funny and imperious as ever. Soon you'll
stamp your little foot; when that fails, you'll try coaxing. After
twelve years of being away from you, I can read you like a book."

"You can't; I never coax now. I scowl, and get angry and cruel."

He glanced up at her gentle, laughing face. "You couldn't make your face
scowl, however much you tried."

Jehane told herself that they were two children, rehearsing an old game
together. People must be very fond of one another to play a game of
pretending to quarrel. She felt strangely grown up and out of it, and
quite unreasonably hurt. Nan was surprising her at every turn.

"You'll enjoy yourself much better," he was saying, "if I leave you in
suspense. You can spend your time in guessing what she looks like. Then
you can start watching me closely to see whether I love her. And then
you can wonder how much I'm going to tell her of what we say to each
other."

Nan jerked the punt forward. "I don't want to know. You can keep your
secret to yourself." Then, glancing at Jehane, "I say, Janey, you ask
him. He can't be rude to you. He'll have to answer."

Jehane had no option but to enter into the jest. "I know. Father told
me. Mr. Barrington is a widower."

The man's eyes flashed and held hers steadily; they twinkled with
surprise and humor. "Go on, Miss Usk; you tell her. It's altogether too
sad."

While she was speaking, she was excitedly conscious that he was
examining her and approving her impertinence. "Mr. Barrington married
his mother's parlor-maid soon after he left Cassingland. She was a
beautiful creature and very modest; because she felt herself unworthy of
the brilliant Mr. Barrington, she made it a condition of their marriage
that it should be kept secret. Then she got it into her head that she
was spoiling his promising career, and----- Well, she died suddenly--of
gas. After she was dead, a volume of poems was discovered--love
poems--and published anonymously; my mother attributes them to Bacon and
my father used to attribute them to Shakespeare. Then father found out,
but he's never dared to tell mother; she was always so positive about
it."

Nan had stared at her friend while she was talking. Could this be the
serious Jehane? What had happened? At the end she broke into a peal of
laughter. "It won't do, old girl; you're stuffing. Billy hasn't got a
mother."

"And he isn't married," he said; "and he doesn't want to be married yet.
Now are you content?"

Jehane was not content. As they drifted through Mesopotamia with its
pollard-willows, sound of running waters and constant fluttering of
birds, she kept hearing those words "And he doesn't want to be married
yet." Did men ever want to be married, or was it always necessary to
catch them? _Catch them!_ It sounded horrid to put it like that,
and robbed love of all its poetry. As a girl with a Pre-Raphaelite
appearance, she had liked to believe all the legends of chivalry: that
it was woman's part to be remote and disdainful, while men endangered
themselves to win her favor. But were those legends only ideals--had
anything like them ever happened? And supposing a woman wanted to catch
Barrington, how would she set about it?

The roar of water across the lasher at Parsons' Pleasure grew louder,
drowning the conversation which was taking place in low tones at the
other end of the punt. As they drew in at the landing, Jehane
bent forward and heard Barrington say, "I believe you'd have been
disappointed if I had been married"; and Nan's retort, "I believe I
should. You know, it does make a difference."

Nan turned to Jehane, "What are we going to do next? There's hardly time
to go further."

"Oh, don't go back yet," Barrington protested; "let's get tea at Marston
Ferry."

"But who'll take the punt round to the ladies' landing? Ladies aren't
allowed through Parsons' Pleasure, and I hardly trust you to come round
by yourself." Nan eyed him doubtfully. "You may be a good pub, but
you're a rotten punter."

"Dash it all, you needn't rub it in. If the worst comes to the worst, I
shall only get a wetting."

"You're sure you can swim?"

"Quite sure, thanks."

"Well, good-by, and good luck. I should hate to lose you after all these
years of parting."

As they struck out along the path across the island and the screen of
bushes shut him from their view, Jehane felt her arm taken.

"Don't you like him, Janey?"

"What I've seen of him, yes."

"I was afraid you didn't."

"Whatever made you think that?"

"Because he thought it. I could feel that he thought it."

"But I did nothing."

"You wore your touch-me-not-manners, Janey. You looked so tragic and
black. I had to talk my head off to fill in the awkwardnesses."

"I know you did; but I wasn't sure of the reason."

Nan glanced up quickly and her eyes filled; the blood surged into her
face and throat; her lips trembled. She pressed her cheek coaxingly
against the tall girl's shoulder. "You foolish Jehane; you're jealous.
Why, Billy and I use to eat blackberries out of each other's hands."

Then Jehane relented. Drawing Nan to her with swift, protecting passion,
she kissed the wet eyes and pouting mouth. "You dear little Nan, I _was_
jealous. You're so sweet and gentle; no one could help loving you. I was
angry with myself--angry because I'm so different."

"So much cleverer," Nan whispered.

"I don't want to be clever; I'd give everything I possess to look as
good and happy as you."

"But you are good. If you weren't, we shouldn't all love you."

"_All?_ It's enough that you do."

When Barrington rounded the island, he found them standing oddly near
together; then he noticed a moist ball of handkerchief crushed in Nan's
free hand--and he guessed.




CHAPTER III--ALL THE WAY FOR THIS

Jehane had been granted her wish and she was frightened. The river
stretched before her, a lonely ghost, glimmering between soaked fields
and beaten countryside. The rain-fall must have been heavy in the
hills, for the river was swollen and discolored: branches, torn from
overhanging trees, danced and vanished in the swiftly moving current.
With evening a breeze had sprung up, which came fitfully in gusts,
bowing tall rushes that waded in the stream, so that they whispered
"Hush." In the distance, above clumped tree-tops, the spires of
Oxford speared the watery sky; red stains spread along white flanks of
clouds--clouds that looked like chargers spurred by invisible riders.

The man of whom she knew so little and whom she desired was standing at
her side. She was terrified. She had gained her wish--at last they were
alone together.

Behind them, up the hill, the cosy inn nestled among its quiet arbors.
Across the river the ferryman sat whistling, waiting for his next fare
to come up. Moving away through misty meadows on the further bank a
white speck fluttered mothlike.

"She'll get home all right, don't you think?"

"Why not? She always does."

"But it'll be late by the time she reaches Cassingland. She's got to
catch the tram into Oxford, to harness up and then to drive out to the
rectory. It'll be late by the time she arrives."

"She'd have been later if she'd returned by river with us.--See, she's
waving at the stile.--Girls have to do these thing's for themselves, Mr.
Barrington, if they have no brothers."

He stroked his chin. "Girls who have no brothers should be allotted
brothers by the State."

She faced him daringly. "I should like that. I might ask to have you
appointed my brother."

"You would, eh! Seems to me that's what's happened.--Funny what a little
customer Nan is for making her friends the friends of one another: she
was just the same in the old days. One might almost suspect that she'd
planned this from the start--bringing us out all comfy, and leaving us
to go home together.--But, I say, can you punt?"

"I can, but I'm not going to."

He stepped back from her involuntarily and eyed her. There was a thrill
of excitement in her clear voice that warned and yet left him puzzled.
She filled him with discomfort--discomfort that was not entirely
unpleasant. While Nan was present, she had been watchful and silent; now
it was as though she slipped back the bars of her reticence and stepped
out. He tingled with an unaccustomed sense of danger. He weighed his
words before expressing the most trifling sentiment. Usually he
was recklessly spontaneous; now he feared lest his motives might be
mistaken. What did she want of him? She had gazed down from the window
and beckoned him with her eyes--him, a stranger. Whatever it was, Nan
knew about it, and had cried about it the moment his back was turned. He
distrusted anyone who made Nan cry.

Silence between them was more awkward than words--surcharged with subtle
promptings that words disguised; he took up the thread of their broken
conversation.

"If you're not going to punt, how are we going to get back? I'll do my
best, but you've seen what a duffer I am."

"We'll sit in the stern and paddle. With the current running so
strongly, we could almost drift back."

He followed her down the slope. She walked in front, her head slightly
turned as though she listened to make sure that he followed. He noticed
the pride of her handsome body, its erectness and its poise--how it
seemed to glide across the grass without sound or motion. He summed her
up as being abnormally self-conscious and wilfully undiscoverable. He
wondered whether her restraint hid a glorious personality, or served
simply as a disguise for shallowness of mind.--And while he analyzed
her thus, she was scorning herself for the immodesty of her fear and
dumbness.

Kneeling down on the landing to unfasten the rope, he pieced his words
together. "I ought to apologize for what I implied just now. It must
have sounded horribly ungallant to suggest that you should work while I
sat idle." She did not answer till they were seated side by side in the
narrow stern. Taking a long stroke with her paddle, she shot a searching
glance at him; the veil drew back from her eyes, revealing their
smoldering fire. "That's all right. I don't trouble. You needn't mind."

Though she had not blamed him, she had not excused him.

Night was falling early; outlines of the country were already growing
vague. Edges of things were blurred; from low-lying meadows silver mists
were rising. In the great silence grasses rustled as cattle stirred
them, the river complained, and a solitary belated bird swept across the
dusk with a dull cry.

It was dangerous and it was tempting--he could not avoid personalities.
He tried to think of other things to say, but they refused to take
shape. His perturbation seemed the rumor of what her mind was enacting.
Several times inquisitive inquiries were on the tip of his tongue;
he checked them. Then her body lurched against him; their shoulders
brushed.

"You have a beautiful name."

"Indeed! You think so?"

"For me it has only one association."

Again she brushed against him. He caught the scent of her hair and, in
the twilight, a glimpse of the heavy drooping eyelids.

"I mean that poem by William Morris--it's all about Jehane. You remember
how it runs: 'Had she come all the way for this'----?"

"You're frightened to continue. Isn't that so?" Her tones were cold and
quiet. "'Had she come all the way for this, to part at last without a
kiss?'--I remember. It's all about dripping woods and a country like
this, with a river overflowing its banks, and a man and a girl who were
parted forever 'beside the haystack in the floods.' Jehane was supposed
to be a witch, wasn't she? 'Jehane the brown! Jehane the brown! Give us
Jehane to burn or drown.' There's something like that in the poem---- I
suppose I make you think only of tragic things?"

"Why suppose that?"

"Because I do most people."

"In my case there's no reason for supposing that. I oughtn't to have
mentioned it."

"Oh yes, you ought. You felt it, though you didn't know it. It's
unfortunate for a girl always to impress people as tragic, don't you
think? Men like us to be young. You're so young yourself--that's your
hobby, according to Nan.--But if you want to know, you yourself made me
think of something not quite happy--that's what kept me so quiet on the
way up."

"I thought I'd done something amiss--that perhaps you were offended with
me for the informal way in which I introduced myself."

She gave him no assurance that she had not been offended.

"Here's what you made me think," she said:

                   "She left the web, she left the loom,

                   She made three paces through the room,

                   She saw the water-lily bloom,

                   She saw the helmet and the plume,

                   She look'd down to Camelot."

"Rather nice, isn't it, to find that we've had such a cheerful effect on
one another?"

"But--but why on earth should I make you think of that?"

She left off paddling and glanced away from him; a little shiver
ran through her. When she spoke, her voice was low-pitched but still
penetrating.

"Let me ask you a question. Do you think that it's much fun being a
girl?"

"Never thought about it."

"Well, it isn't."

"I should have supposed that, for anyone who was young and good-looking,
it might be barrel-loads of fun to be a girl in Oxford."

"Well, I tell you that it isn't. You're always wanting and
wanting--wanting the things that men have, and that only men can give
you. But they keep everything for themselves because they're like you,
Mr. Barrington--they've never thought about it."

"I'm not sure that I understand."

"Bother! Why d'you force me to be so explicit? Take the case of
Nan--she's one of thousands. She's got nothing of her own--no freedom,
no money, no anything. She's always under orders; she's not expected to
have any plans for her future. She creeps to the windows of the world
and peeps out when her father isn't near enough to prevent her. Unless
she marries, she'll always be prying and never sharing. She's a _Lady of
Shalott_, shut up in a tower, weaving a web of fancies. She hears life
tramp beneath her window, traveling in plume and helmet to the city.
Unless a man frees her, she'll never get out.--Oh, I oughtn't to talk
like this; I never have, to anyone except to Nan. Why do you make me?
Now that it's said, I hate myself."

"Don't do that." He spoke gently. "I'm glad you've done it. You've made
me see further. We men always look at things from our own standpoint.--I
suppose we're selfish."

He waited for her to deny that he was selfish.

"There's no doubt about it," she affirmed.

They paddled on in silence till they came to the lasher. Together they
hauled the punt over the rollers--there was no one about. When it had
taken the water on the other side, Jehane stepped in quickly; while his
hands and thoughts were unoccupied, she was afraid to be near him. He
stood on the bank, holding the rope to keep the punt from drifting; his
head was flung back and he did not stir. Through the network of branches
moonlight drifted, making willows, gnarled and twisted, and water,
rushing foam-streaked from the lasher, eerie and fantastic. He was
thinking of Nan and the meaning of her crying.

"Miss Usk, it was very brave of you to speak out."

She laughed perversely; she was so afraid of revealing her emotion. "You
must have queer notions about me. I've been terribly unconventional."

They drifted down stream through Mesopotamia, pursued by the
sandal-footed silence. When Barrington spoke to her now, it was
as though there lay between them a secret understanding. What that
understanding was she scarcely dared to conjecture. Here, alone with him
in the moon-lit faery-land of shadows, she was supremely at peace with
herself.

At Magdalen Bridge they tethered the punt; it was too late to return to
the barges.

Outside her father's house they halted. Through the window they could
see the high-domed forehead of the Professor, as he sat with his
reading-lamp at his elbow.

"You'll come in? You had some business with father that brought you down
from London?"

"But it's late. If you don't mind, I'd prefer to see him to-morrow."

"Are you staying for long in Oxford?"

"I hadn't intended."

"But you may?"

"I may. It all depends."

"Good-by then--till to-morrow."

Professor Usk sank his head as she entered, that he might gaze at her
above his spectacles. "Home again, daughter? Been on the river with Nan,
they tell me! It's late for girls to be out by themselves."

She answered hurriedly. "Mr. Barrington was with us."

"Ah, Barrington! Nice fellow! Did he say anything about my book?"

She was on tenterhooks to be by herself. "He'll call tomorrow."

"Have you been running, daughter? You seem out of breath. I've a minute
or two to spare; come and sit down. Tell me what you've been doing. Did
Barrington say whether that book of mine had gone to press?"

She backed slowly to the threshold and stood with the handle in her
hand.

"I've a headache, father."

She opened the door and fled.

Locking herself in her room, she flung herself on the bed and lay rigid
in the darkness, shaken with sobbing. Pressing her lips against the
pillow to stifle the sound, she commenced in a desperate whisper, "Oh
God, give him to me. Dear God, let me have him. Oh God, give----"




CHAPTER IV--LOVE'S SHADOW

When Barrington called on the Professor next morning, he did not see
Jehane. She had stayed in bed for breakfast, to keep out of his way.
She did not trust herself to meet him before her parents because of her
face--it might tell tales. She was strangely ashamed that anyone should
know of her infatuation. And yet she longed to meet him that she might
experience afresh the sweet tingling dread lest he should touch her. Ah,
if she were sure that he returned her love, what a different Jehane he
should discover....

Though she did not meet him, she espied him the moment he turned into
the street. Peering stealthily from behind the curtain, she was glad to
notice that he glanced up, as though conscious that her hidden eyes were
watching. Listening at the head of the stairs, she heard his voice. She
heard him inquire after her, and tried to estimate his disappointment
and anxiety when her father answered casually, "The daughter has one of
her headaches.... No, nothing much. She may not be down this morning."

After he had left, she was angry with herself for her cowardice. She
ought to have seized her opportunity. Perhaps he was returning at once
to London, where he would quickly forget her. She might never see him
again.

By a kind of necromancy she tried to arrive at certainty as to whether
or no he would marry her. If she could count a hundred before a cart
passed a particular lamppost, then he would become her husband. When the
cart went too fast for her counting, she skipped numbers and cheated
in order to make the test propitious. Sitting in her bedroom, partly
dressed, with the brilliant summer sunshine streaming over her, she
invented all kinds of similar experiments.

At last she grew impatient of her own company and came downstairs to
lunch. Her dreamy mother, who usually noticed nothing, embarrassed her
by remarking that her face was flushed as though she were sickening for
something. She turned attention from herself by inquiring the result of
her father's interview with Mr. Barrington.

Her father was annoyed because his book had been delayed in
publication--quite unwarrantably delayed, he said. She could not get him
to state whether Barrington had gone back to London. The conversation
developed into an indictment of the innate trickiness of publishers.
Mrs. Usk had never been able to reconcile the place she occupied in the
world of letters with the smallness of her royalty-statements. It
almost made her doubt the financial honesty of some persons. Jehane
had listened with angry eyes while these two impractical scholars,
comfortably interrupting one another across the table, swelled out the
sum of their grievances. Now she took up the cudgels so personally and
so passionately in the defense of publishers in general, and Barrington
in particular, that she was moved to tears by her eloquence.

Her parents peered at her out of their dim eyes in concerned silence.
When the tears had come, they nodded at each other, bleating in chorus,
"She is not well. She is flushed. She is certainly sickening for
something. She must go to bed. The doctor must be summoned."

Jehane pushed back her chair. "You'll do nothing of the kind. I'm quite
well."

After she had made her escape, it was discovered that she had eaten
nothing. In a few minutes she reappeared in her out-door attire and
announced that she was going to Cassingland.

"But, my dear, you can't," her mother protested; "not in your state. You
may give it to Nan; it may be catching. And then, think how Mr. Tudor
would blame us."

Jehane tapped with her foot impatiently. "Don't be silly, mother. I'm
going."

And with that she departed. Only one of the witnesses of this scene
conjectured its true cause--Betty, the housemaid, who on more than one
occasion had watched these same symptoms develop in herself.

At the stable where her father's horse was baited Jehane ordered out the
dog-cart. She did not know why she was going to Cassingland. Certainly
she did not intend to make Nan her confidant--the frenzy of love is
contagious. But Nan must know many pages of Barrington's past, the whole
of which was a closed book to her. Without giving away her secret, they
might discuss him together.

As she drove along the Woodstock road and turned off into the leafy
Oxford lanes, she laid her plans. She would affect to have found him
dull company in the journey back from Marston Ferry; she would be
surprised that anyone should think him interesting. Then Nan, with her
sensitive loyalty to friends, would prove the splendor of his character
with facts drawn from her own experience.

Down the road ahead a man was striding in the direction in which she
was driving. At the sound of wheels he turned and, standing to one side,
raised his hat. Blood flooded her cheeks. Her instinct was to dash by
him. She could not endure his attitude of secure comradeship. He must be
everything to her at once or nothing. Her eyes fell away from his, yet
she longed to return his gaze with frankness.

"I'm in luck. When I called this morning, the Professor told me you were
unwell."

"I'm better."

"I'm glad. I've been blaming myself for not taking sufficient care of
you."

Had he chosen, he could have crushed her to him then; she was made so
happy that she would not have protested. But how was he to judge this
from the proud, almost sullen face that watched him from the dog-cart?

He looked up at her cheerfully. "Bound for the same place, aren't we?
I'm tired of pounding along by myself; if you don't mind, I'll jump in
and let you drive me."

She nodded ever so slightly and he swung himself up. "Going to Nan's?"

"To Cassingland," he assented. "I want to see for myself the lady in her
tower. D'you know, I can't get that out of my head--all that you told me
about girls."

"Really."

She spoke indifferently and flicked the horse with the whip, so that it
started forward with a jerk.

"You're not very curious. You don't ask me why I can't forget."

"Why?"

"Because, with other conditions, it's equally true of men."

"I don't believe that."

"You will when I've told you. To get on nowadays a fellow's got to work
day and night."

"You're ambitious?"

"Of course I am. I want to have power. I've not had a real holiday for
years. Of course I've money, which you say girls don't have; but I've
responsibilities. I know nothing of women--I've had no time to learn.
That's why I'm so grateful to you for yesterday. With me it's just work,
work, work to win a position, so that one day some woman may be happy.
So you see, I have my tower as well as Nan, where I'm doomed to spin my
web of fancy."

"But men choose their own towers--build them for themselves."

"Don't you believe it. Some few may, but so do some few girls. I wanted
to go to Oxford and to write books and to be a scholar, instead of which
I publish other men's scribblings and do my best to sell 'em."

"I never thought... I mean I thought all men... But you're strong:
if any man could have chosen, you would have done it. Tell me about
yourself."

And he told her--his dreams, anxieties, small triumphs, and incessant
round of daily duties. He was very fine and gentle, speaking with
touching eagerness, as though confession were a privilege which he
rarely allowed himself. Yet Jehane was not content; she knew that
in love the instinct for confession is coupled with the instinct for
secretiveness. When she touched him, he was not disturbed as she was;
his voice did not quiver--he did not change color. She told herself that
men were the masters, so that even in love they showed no distrust of
themselves. But the explanation was not convincing.

They were nearing Cassingland. Ambushed in trees, rising out of
somnolent lowlands, the thin, tall spire of a church sunned itself. Like
toys, tumbled from a sack, about which grass had grown up, cottages
lay scattered throughout the meadows. As they came in sight of the
triangular green, with the tidy rectory standing, high-walled, on its
edge, their conversation faltered.

He offered her his hand to help her out. She held back for a second,
then took it with ashamed suddenness. He raised his eyes to hers with a
boy's enthusiasm.

"Miss Usk, it's awfully decent of you to have listened to me."

"It's you who've been decent. You make everything so easy. You seem...
seem to understand."

He was puzzled. "I've done nothing but talk at unpardonable length
about myself. As for making things easy, it's you--you're so rippingly
sensible."

She winced. No man falls in love with a woman for her sanity. It was as
though he had called her middle-aged or robust. She wanted to appeal
to him as weak and clinging. When people are in love they are far from
sensible; she knew that she was anything but sensible at present. If he
had told her she was capricious and charming, she would have shown him a
face exultant.

Nan came tripping to the gate. "This _is_ jolly--both of you together!"

Her coming was inappropriate; for the next few months all her
appearances were to prove ill-timed so far as Jehane was concerned. And
yet, what was to be done? Professor Usk's house was too subdued in
its atmosphere to be congenial. Moreover, the Professor invariably
monopolized a man who was his guest--especially when the man was a
publisher. Then again, Jehane was painfully aware that she was awkward
in the presence of her parents, and did not create her best impression.
So she did not encourage Barrington to call on her in Oxford. Naturally
she turned to Cassingland, where you had the wide free country, and
no one suspected or watched you because you were friendly with a man.
Cassingland furnished an excuse for both of them: Nan was her friend;
Mr. Tudor had been his tutor. Mr. Tudor, with his honest, farmer-like
appearance and frayed clericals, lent an air of propriety to
proceedings. And Nan--she helped the propriety; but she never knew when
she was not wanted. She spoke of Barrington as Billy. She took his arm
and snuggled against him with a naive air of mischief, leading him to
all the spots along the river, in the garden and scattered through the
fields, which years ago had formed their playground. Jehane resented her
innocent air of belonging to him. So, very frequently when Barrington
came down from London and she drifted out, as if by accident, to the
rectory, she wore the mask of reserve and sullenness, and did not show
to best advantage.

Barrington, for his part, was always equal in his temper--too equal
for Jehane. With Nan he was gay and frivolous; to her he was grave and
deferential. She wished he would display more ardor and less caution.
If it had been in her nature, she would have made the running; she was
pained by his unvarying respect.

All summer love's shadow had rested on her. It was September now; the
harvest lay cut in the fields ready to be carried. Nan had sent Jehane a
message that morning that Barrington was expected; so here she was once
more at the rectory, spending the week-end.

They had gone up to bed, leaving the men to smoke; suddenly Nan put on
her dress, saying that she heard her father calling. Jehane prepared for
bed slowly; by the time she was ready to slip between the sheets Nan had
not returned. She blew out the candle; the room was instantly suffused
with liquid moonlight and velvet shadow. In the darkness, as often
happens, her senses became sharpened--she heard a multitude of sounds.
Somewhere near the church, probably from the tower, an owl was hooting.
In the distance a dog barked. She could hear the wash of the river among
its rushes, and the padding of a footstep on the lawn. Romance in her
was stirred.

Going to the window, she leant out; she was greeted by the strong
fragrance of roses. Sheaves, standing in rows throughout the fields,
looked like a sleeping camp. Trees, save where mists thumbed them, were
etched distinctly against the indigo horizon. The white disc of the
moon, like a paper lantern, hung balanced between the edges of two
clouds. Its light, streaming down the sky, was like milk poured across
black marble. Nature seemed to have blinded her eyes and to hold her
breath.

Across the lawn from the open study window, a shaft of gold slanted,
making the darkness on either side intense by contrast. As Jehane
listened, she heard what seemed a panting close to the wall beneath her.
She leant further out and discerned a blur of white. She was about to
speak when the red glow of a cigar, thrown down among the bushes, warned
her.

"At last! You've never given me a chance to be alone with you. I've
wanted you all summer, little Nan."

His arms were round her. As he stooped above her, her face was blotted
out... He was speaking again.

"Your father saw it. That's why he called you.... If I'd had to wait
much longer, I should have asked you before her. Why--why would you
never let us be alone together?"

Nan's voice came muffled beneath his kisses. "Because, Billy darling, I
wanted to play fair."

"Fair?"

An answer followed, so softly whispered that it did not carry--a
surprised exclamation from the man.

Jehane had tiptoed from the window.

With her black hair tumbled about her, her hands pressed against her
mouth, she lay sobbing. The night had lost its magic....

Nan entered the room stealthily. She glanced toward the bed. Thinking
Jehane was sleeping, she did not light the candle, but commenced to
fumble at her fastenings, undressing in the dark. A sob refused to be
stifled any longer. Nan paused in her undressing and stood tense; then
ran and bent above the bed. Seizing Jehane by the shoulders, she tried
to turn her face toward her.

"Oh, Janey, I did, I did play fair. I told you every time he was
coming.... Say you'll still be friends."

But Jehane said nothing.

Next morning she greeted Barrington with her accustomed mixture of proud
restraint and sullenness. "We've been expecting this all summer. We
wondered when it would happen. I hope you'll be very happy."

After that she came less frequently to Cassingland. The lovers had long
walks, uninterrupted, unaccompanied. Once he told Nan, "I can't believe
it, Pepperminta. I'm sure you were mistaken."

"But I wasn't." She shook her curly head sadly.

They rarely mentioned Jehane. They knew that she was troubled; but they
knew of no way in which to help.

At Christmas, when snow lay on the ground, they were married.

Nan, who had never feared spinsterhood greatly, had escaped from it.
Jehane retired to the isolation which she sometimes called her tower,
and at other times her raft. She often told herself savagely that, had
it not been for her shyness in instancing Nan instead of herself on that
journey down from Marston Ferry, she might have been the bride at that
wedding. Secretly, she was bitter about it; outwardly, she kept up her
friendship--otherwise she would have seen no more of Barrington.




CHAPTER V--ENTER PETER AND GLORY

Barrington did everything on a large scale--he knew he was going to
be a big man. He arranged his surroundings with an eye to his expanding
future. It was so when he bought his house at Topbury.

It had more rooms than he could furnish--more than a young married
couple could comfortably occupy. But he intended to spend his entire
life there, hanging the walls with memories and associations of
affection. It would be none too large for a growing family. That was
Barrington all over; he planned and looked ahead.

The house stood high in the north of London; it was one of twenty in a
terrace--all with porches and areas in front, and long walled gardens
at the back. To-day the octopus suburbs, throwing out tentacles of small
mean dwellings, have crept across the broad views and strangled the
rural aspect. But when Nan and Barrington went to live there, they
looked out from their back-windows uninterrupted across the Vale of
Holloway to Gospel Oak and the Heath at Hampstead. The approach to
Topbury Terrace was through quiet fields where sheep were grazing. The
oldest inhabitants still talked of a group of shops as Topbury Village.
Many of the roads were private; traffic was kept back by gates or posts
planted across them.

The house was a hundred years old, spacious and lofty. It had the sturdy
look of Eighteenth Century handiwork. Though standing in a terrace, it
retained its own personality and seemed to hold itself aloof from its
neighbors. Once link-boys had stood before its doors and coaches had
rumbled through Islington Village out from London, bringing its master
home from routs and functions. Probably he was a portly merchant,
accompanied by a dame who wore patches.

Adjoining its bedrooms were powder-cupboards; its lower windows were
heavily grated against attack. All the entries were massively screened
and bolted. It seemed to boast its privacy. In the garden were
pear-trees, a mulberry and a cedar. At the bottom of the garden was a
stable with stalls for three horses.

At first Nan was rather awed--she did not know what to do with it.
Many of the rooms remained unfurnished. That was to be done slowly, by
picking up old and rare articles--pictures and tapestries as they could
afford them, a piece here and a piece there: this was to be their hobby.
She was frightened by so much emptiness, and clung to her husband,
puzzled and proud. Then, gradually, she began to understand: they were
planning for the future greatness which they were to share. She was no
longer frightened; she was glad.

There was one room in which they often sat. Sometimes they would visit
it separately and surprise one another. When they entered, they became
strangely bashful and childlike--it was holy ground. They left all their
cruder ambitions on the threshold. They stopped talking or conversed in
whispers, holding hands. It was on a halfstory, between the first
floor and the second, and looked into the garden. Up the wall outside
a magnolia clambered; against its window a laburnum tapped and shed
its golden tassels. Everything was waiting for someone who was some day
coming. A high guard stood about the hearth to prevent someone, when he
began to toddle, from falling into the fire and getting burnt. A little
bed was ready--a bed so tiny that you could lift it with one hand. On
the floor toys lay scattered. Everything had been thought out for his
reception long before he warned them of his coming. To bring home new
toys and leave them there for Nan to discover was one of Barrington's
absurd ways of telling her how much he loved her.

It was in that room that they kissed after their first quarrel. It was
there she told him that the little hands were being fashioned that were
to be held so fast in theirs.

And he came one bright February morning, when crocuses were standing
bravely above the turf and a warm spring wind was blowing. Nan hugged
him to her breast, smiling and crying--she was so glad he was a man.
They called him Peter--after the house his father said, because the
house was Peterish and old-fashioned. William was sure to be contracted
to Bill or Billy; one Billy was enough in any family-----

It was shortly after the birth of Peter that Jehane caught her man.
It was said that she married him on the rebound, for she never ceased
loving Barrington. She did it more to get off the raft, and to show that
she could do it, than for anything.

Captain Bobbie Spashett had seen her portrait in a friend's house. He
was under orders to sail for India. He had six weeks in which to make
her acquaintance, do his courting and get over the wedding. He proved
himself a man of energy, managing the business with a soldier's dash.
Then he sailed for India, promising to send for her when he was settled.
Unfortunately, before the year was out, he died in action.

In February, almost on the anniversary of Peter's birth, his
daughter came into the world. Jehane named her Glory, because of the
distinguished nature of her father's death.

When Captain Spashett's affairs came to be settled, it was found that
he had left his widow something less than a thousand pounds from all
sources.

Then Jehane discovered that, in stepping off the raft, she had not
reached the land. She went to live with her parents.




CHAPTER VI--JEHANE'S SECOND MARRIAGE

It was his own fault; he knew it in after years. Barrington was partly
responsible for Jehane's second marriage. It was he who suggested that,
since Jehane was not happy with her parents, it would be decent to ask
her up to Topbury for Christmas.

Did he like her? Well, hardly! He felt that she bore him a grudge.
Whenever her name was mentioned, he and Nan had a guilty sense. They
were so happy--they had everything that she coveted and lacked.

They asked her by way of atonement. When she objected that Glory would
be a nuisance, they replied that Glory would be fun for Peter.--And it
was he who, in the goodness of his heart, invited Waffles.

Ocky Waffles was not his sort. His very name was a handicap. A man named
Waffles could scarcely command respect; but the Christian name made it
worse. How could anyone called Ocky Waffles be a gentleman? He was his
cousin, however, and lived alone in London lodgings. His mother was
recently dead. Whatever his shortcomings, he had been an attentive son.
The chap would be rottenly lonely, thought Barrington. Unadulterated
Ocky he could not stand; but, if he could jumble him up in a
family-party and so get him diluted, he would be very glad to do him
a service. In the uncalculating days of boyhood they had been warm
friends. So Mr. Tudor was persuaded to come from Cassingland and Ocky
was invited.

In her twenty-eighth year, Jehane traveled to Paddington _en route_ for
her second adventure in matrimony. Glory was with her, a golden-haired
baby just beginning to toddle, the image of her soldier father. Jehane
still wore mourning--deepest black, with white frills at her wristbands
and a white ruff about her neck. Black suited her pale complexion--it
lent her the touch of helpless pathos that her beauty had always wanted.
Her manner was hushed and gentle, matching her costume. Her large, dark
eyes had that forlorn expression of "Oh, I can never forget," which has
so often sealed the fate of an unmarried man. You felt at once that the
finest deed possible would be to bring her happiness. At least, so felt
Waffles.

But that Christmas there were times when she did forget. In her new
surroundings, where she and Glory were no longer burdens, she grew
almost merry. When memory clouded her eyes and restored the sternness of
tragedy, it was not Bobbie Spashett she remembered, who had died a very
gallant gentleman, fighting for his country; it was simply that, with
proper care, Nan's shoes might have been hers. When she saw Barrington
slip his arm about his wife, and heard her whisper, "Oh, please, Billy,
not now," it made her wild with envy. She felt that it was more than
she could bear. She was unloved, and so was Waffles; they had this in
common, despite dissimilarities.

Ocky Waffles was a kind-hearted lounger. He was always late for
everything--which left him plenty of time to devote to her. His best
friends would never have accused him of refinement. His mind was
untidy; he was lazy and ineffectual. His faculty for conversation was
childish--he _babbled_. He was continually making silly jokes at which
he laughed himself. Because the world rarely laughed with him, he
believed that his bump of humor was abnormally developed. He had met
only one person as humorous as himself--his mother; she, admiring and
loyal old lady, had laughed till the tears came at anything he said. But
she was dead; he had lost his audience. He missed her and was extremely
sorry for Ocky Waffles. No one understood his catch-phrases now,
"Reaching after the mustard," and, "Look at father's pants." They did
not even know to what they referred; he had to explain everything. There
was an element of absurdity and weak pathos about the man; when one of
his jokes had missed fire he would dab his eyes, saying with a catch in
his throat, "Oh dear, how mother'd have split her sides at that!"

Jehane was genuinely moved to compassion. Sinking her voice, she would
lead him aside and whisper, "Tell it again, Mr. Waffles. I think I could
understand."

Before Ocky met her, the denseness of his friends had driven him to
public houses, where other tales might be told without shocking anybody.
With barmaids he could pass for a "nut," a witty fellow. Grief drove him
to it, he told himself. He was well aware that public houses were bad
for his pocket and worse for his health. When Jehane seemed to applaud
him, his thoughts naturally turned to marriage--marriage would cure
every evil, and then---- Oh, then he would become like Barrington, with
a loving wife, art-treasures and a fine house. It was only a matter of
keeping steady and concentrating your willpower.

But to become like Barrington he would have had to be a gentleman. A
top-hat never sat on his head as if it belonged to him. With his equals
in birth and opportunity he could never be comfortable. He found it easy
to be chatty with stable-boys and servants. This he attributed to his
superior humanity. He was fond of walking down the street with a pipe in
his mouth. When he sat on a chair, it was usually on the middle of his
back with his feet thrust out. He slouched through life like an awkward
boy, experiencing discomfort in the presence of his elders.

Since he could not cure himself of his habits, he determined some day,
when he was ready for the effort, to get money; with money his habits
would no longer be bad--they would become signs of democracy and
independence. At the time of the Christmas party he was a clerk in a
lawyer's office--he had been other things before that. This was his
worldly condition, when he met Jehane and fell in love with her.

They drifted together from force of circumstance; Nan and Barrington
were still very much of lovers; Mr. Tudor spent his time on the floor
with Peter and Glory. They were thrown together; there was no escape
from it. Ocky was naturally affectionate; it was part of his weak
amiability to love somebody. He craved love for himself--or was it
admiration? But as a rule no one was flattered by his affection--it was
always on tap. Jehane did not know that. Her wounded pride was soothed
because he selected her. She was hungry for a man's appreciation
and anxious for his protection. And as for Ocky, to whom no one ever
listened--he was encouraged by her pleased attention.

He sought her out at first in a good-natured effort to dispel her
melancholy; his method was to regale her with worn chestnuts. She heard
them with a slow, sweet smile on her mouth, which narrowed and widened,
but rarely broke into mirth. This showed him that all his stories were
new to her. The poor fellow was stirred to his shallow depths. A gusty
passion blew through him; he struggled into seeming strength; he felt he
was a man.--When you're choosing a woman who will be condemned to hear
all your old anecdotes over and over to the day of her death, it is very
necessary to select one to whom they will come fresh, at least before
marriage. Yes, she was the wife for Waffles.

Little confidences grew up between them. She told him about Barrington,
hinting that he had wobbled between her and Nan. And he told her about
Barrington, how as boys they had been like brothers, spending every
holiday together, but now----.

But now, in Barrington's own words, a little of Ocky went a long way;
after an hour or two in his company he felt quite fed up with him.
As with many a clever man, vulgarity of mind disgusted him more than
well-bred viciousness. He found it difficult to hide his feelings from
his guest. In fact, he didn't.

Nan was the first to notice what was happening. "He's making love to
Jehane, I declare!"

Her husband shook his head knowingly. "Jehane's too proud for that."

"But he is. They're always sitting over the fire, oh, so closely, and
whispering together."

"It can't be. She's amusing herself. If I thought it were, I'd stop it.
Ocky may be a bounder, but he wouldn't do that."

"Billy boy, he's doing it."

"But he's hardly got a penny to bless himself, and her little income
wouldn't attract him."

"You may say what you like, old obstinate; it doesn't alter facts."

Jehane was proud, as Barrington said; but not too proud. She realized
quite well what Waffles was, but she hoped to brace him up with her
strength. She was by no means blind to his shortcomings. Often, when
the smile was playing about her mouth, her mind was in a ferment of
derision. At night remorse pursued her--the fine, clean memory of Bobbie
Spashett.--But the constant sight of Nan and Barrington, their stolen
kisses and love-words, were getting on her nerves. She looked down the
vista of the years--was no man ever to conquer her? Was she to grow
into an old woman with that one brief memory of her soldier-man? So
love-hunger drew her to Waffles, despite the warnings of her better
sense. The love-hunger was continually quickened by the sight of Nan's
domestic happiness.

When, after a week's acquaintance, he said, "Mrs. Spashett, will you
marry me?" she replied, "My brave husband!--I cannot.--I must be true to
the end."

When he asked her again two days later, she was less positive. "Oh, Mr.
Waffles, there's Glory."

"Call me Ocky," he said.

Then he changed his tactics. He argued his loneliness, their community
of grief, the loss of his mother. When he spoke of his mother, she liked
him best. "Give me time," she murmured.

The crisis came on the last day of her visit, and was hastened by
two foolish happenings. She detested the thought of the return to her
parents' silent house. She had persuaded herself that she was not wanted
there; her child fidgeted the old people and disarranged the household.
After the glimpse of warmth and heaven she had had, she magnified her
troubles through the glass of envy. Oh, to have her own fireside, and
her own man!--This was how the crisis happened.

Peter, aged three, was playing with Glory. With the clumsiness of
childhood he knocked her down. She commenced to scream loudly--so loudly
that she might have been seriously hurt. Jehane rushed into the nursery,
caught her baby to her breast and, in her anguish, smacked Peter. Peter
in all his young life had never been smacked; he watched her goggle-eyed
and then set up a terrified howl. When Nan arrived on the scene, he was
sobbing and explaining that he had only meant to _softy_ Glory, which
was his word for loving her by rubbing her with his face and hands. A
quarrel ensued between the mothers in which bitter things were said.
How did Jehane dare to touch Peter, her little Peterkins baby, who was
always so sensitive and gentle! Nan was fiercely angry that her child
had been unjustly punished; Jehane was no less angry because her child
had been knocked down. When it was all over, the babies were told to
kiss one another; Peter, when Jehane approached him, hid his face in his
mother's skirt.

Strained relations followed, which made light words impossible.
Barrington, when he heard of it, was extraordinarily annoyed. Waffles,
because she was in the minority, sided with Jehane. That her quiet,
madonna-like adoration of Glory should have turned into tigerish
protective passion attracted him strangely.

That evening Barrington had some friends to dine with him--men and women
of his world, whose good opinion he valued. During dinner and afterwards
in the drawingroom, Waffles had been ousted from the conversation; their
talk was all of books and travel--things he did not understand. He felt
cold-shouldered--crowded out. He resented it, and was determined to show
them that he also could be clever.

He waited for an opening-. A pause in the conversation occurred. He
sprang into the gap. That he was irrelevant did not matter.

"Heard a good riddle the other day. Wonder if any of you can answer it."
All eyes turned in his direction. He cleared his throat and fumbled at
his collar. "If a cat ate a haddock and a dog chased the cat, and
the cat jumped over the wall, what relation would the dog bear to the
haddock?"

There was embarrassed silence. Every face wore a puzzled expression.
Barrington pulled his cigar from his mouth and gazed sternly at the
glowing ash.

At last a lady, who wrote poetry, took compassion on him. She tapped him
on the arm. "I can't think of any answer. Put me out of my suspense. I'm
so anxious to learn."

Waffles beamed his acknowledgments. "That's the answer," he said
eagerly; "there isn't any answer."

Barrington ceased to be vexed with his cigar and laughed coldly.

"You mustn't mind my cousin. He's a genial ass. Sometimes it takes
him like that.--Let's see, what were we discussing when we were
interrupted?"

So there were two people with wounded feelings in that company. Ocky saw
Jehane slip out of the room, and he followed. On the stairs she halted.

"Why are you following?"

"I'm not wanted. Confound their stupidity."

"But why should you follow me?"

"Because you're the same as I am. That's why you left; you're not at
home here. Look how they behaved about Glory. I say, it's our last
evening together. Won't you give me--"

But, ridiculous as it appeared to her, an almost maidenly fear took
hold of her; she fled. He found her in the dark, at the top of the tall
house; she was leaning over her child's cot sobbing. He grew out of
himself, stronger, better; against her will, he folded her to him.

"Won't you give me your answer, darling?"

Silence.

"I'll be very good to Glory."

Still silence.

"Oh, Jehane, I'm so foolish--such a weak, foolish fellow; I need your
strength. With you I could be a man." Then all that was maternal awoke
in her. She remembered how she had seen him looking empty-handed, while
those clever men and women had stared. "You musn't mind my cousin. He's
a genial ass. Sometimes it takes him like that."--Cruel! Cruel! She took
his head and pressed it to her bosom, kissing him on the forehead.

Nan, disturbed by their disappearance, found them kneeling,
hand-in-hand, beside Glory.

That night as she sat before her mirror undressing, she let her hands
fall to her side, listless. Barrington stole up behind her and kissed
her on the neck, rubbing his face against hers.

"That's what Peter calls softying."

"But you weren't thinking of Peter, little woman."

"How did you know that?"

"You looked sad. What's the trouble?"

She bent back her head, so that their eyes met and their lips were near
to touching. "If I hadn't been there that day, would you have loved
Jehane instead?"

"Pepperminta, I was in love with you when we played together at
Cassingland. Why ask foolish questions?"

"Because it's happened."

"You don't mean--?"

"Yes. She's taken him, and I'm sure she doesn't want him."

Barrington drew himself upright, then stooped over her; he was realizing
the perfect joy of his own union with a startled sense of thankfulness.

"Poor people," he murmured.

Three months later Jehane was married. The wedding was quiet; there
were none but family-guests. No one felt that it was an affair to boast
about. It took place from the Professor's house at Oxford; Mr. Tudor
performed the ceremony. Glory was being left with Nan till the honeymoon
was ended. All morning Jehane's face had been gloomy; perhaps she
already had her doubts. Certainly Mr. Waffles did not show to advantage
in art Oxford atmosphere. He was too boisterous. His shoes were too
shiny. The colors of his tie and button-hole clashed. His clothes looked
ready-made. At parting with her mother, Jehane did the unexpected--she
wept.

On their drive to the station through austere streets, with bright
glimpses of college quadrangles and young bloods in shooting-jackets and
dancing-slippers, sauntering bareheaded, Waffles grew more exuberant and
irrepressible; his ill-timed gaiety grated on her nerves. Having taken
their seats in the carriage, the train was delayed in starting. He hung
his head out of the window, jerking jocular remarks to her across his
shoulder. She did not answer him, but sat with her hands folded in her
lap and her eyes cast down. He could not make her out; up to now she
had responded so readily to his merriment. At all costs he must make her
laugh.

The station-master was passing down the platform, his hands clasped
beneath his flapping coat-tails. Not every station-master guards the
gate-way to a seat of learning. This particular station-master felt the
full importance of his position and carried himself with his stomach
thrust forward and his head thrown back.

Waffles leant from the window and beckoned frantically. When the
official came up, he commenced to jabber in invented gibberish,
desperately gesticulating with his hands.

"Don't understand you," the official said tartly; "don't talk no foreign
langwidge."

Waffles paused in his torrent of palaver and winked solemnly at a group
of undergraduates who stood watching. They happened to be pupils of
the Professor. Then, as though an inspiration had burst upon him, he
inquired, "Parlez-vous Fran�ais?"

"Nong. I do not," snapped the station-master, annoyed that his lack of
scholarship should be exposed in this manner.

He was moving away, when Waffles produced his crowning witticism, to
which all the rest had been preface. Jehane would certainly laugh now.
"Hi! Station-master! Does this train go to Oxford?"

He had one glimpse of the insulted official's countenance, then he felt
himself grabbed by the arm and drawn violently back into the carriage.

"Do you want to make me ashamed of you already. Sit down and behave
yourself."

"But darling--"

"Oh, be quiet. Aren't you ever solemn? Is nothing sacred?"

Exceedingly puzzled and utterly extinguished, he did as he was bade,
waiting like a small boy expecting to be spanked.

That was how they began life together.




CHAPTER VII--THE WHISTLING ANGEL

Peter can quite well remember the events which led up to that strange
happening; not that the events or the happening seemed strange at the
time--they grew into his life so naturally. He thought, if he thought at
all, that to all little boys came the same experience; he would not have
believed you had you told him otherwise.

He had recently achieved his fourth birthday and the garden, which was
his out-door nursery, was a-flutter with tremulous spring-flowers.
That night his mother sent away the nurse, and undressed and bathed him
herself. She wanted to be foolish to her heart's content, laughing and
singing and crying over him. Only the slender laburnum, with the kind
old mulberry-tree peering over its shoulder, watched them through the
window. The laburnum was a young girl, his mother told him, with shaky
golden curls; the mulberry, whose arms were propped with crutches, was
her grandfather.

As Peter's mother squeezed the sponge down his back, she stooped her
pretty head, kissing some new part of his wet little body as though
she were making a discovery. And she called him love-words, Peterkins,
Precious Lamb, Ownest; and she pushed him away from her, saying he did
not belong to her, that so she might feel the eager arms clasped more
fiercely about her neck.

When he had been rolled in the towel, his big father entered and took
him, rubbing his prickly chin against Peter's neck; nor would he give
him up. It was a long time before he was popped into his pink, woolly
nightgown. Even then, when he was safe in bed, they stayed by him--his
mother humming softly, while his father knelt to be able to kiss her
without bending. Shadows came out from the cupboard and crept toward
the window, pushing back the daylight; the daylight dodged across the
ceiling, hid in the mulberry where it slept till morning, came back and
peeped in at him tenderly, and vanished. His eyes grew heavy; the next
thing he remembers is an early breakfast, a cab at the door and being
told to be the goodest little boy in the world. He was hugged till he
was breathless; then he saw the face of his beautiful mother, her eyes
red with weeping, leaning out of the cab-window throwing kisses, growing
distant and yet more distant down the terrace.

In later years he knew where they went--to Switzerland to re-live their
honeymoon. At the time he thought they were gone forever.

Grace, his nurse, did her best to comfort him, blowing his nose so
severely that he looked to see if it had come off in the handkerchief.
For Grace he had a great respect. She was a good-natured lump of a girl,
who beat a drum for the Salvation Army under gas-lamps and fought a
never ending battle with herself to pronounce her name correctly. Mr.
Barrington had threatened that the penalty for failing was dismissal.
Now the violence of her emotion and the absence of her employers made
her reckless. "There, little Round Tummy, Grice'll taik care of you,
don't you blow bubbles like that. You'll cry yourself dry, that you
will, and drown us."

An awful suggestion! He pictured the dining-room flooded with his tears,
the furniture floating and Grace swimming for her life. He turned off
the tap to just the littlest dribble. If he'd stopped at once, Grace
would have ceased to be sorry.

She did not keep her promise to take care of him. On the contrary, she
conducted him through London on the tops of buses and left him at a
strange house. It belonged to the "smacking lady," a name which he had
given to Jehane since an unfortunate occurrence previously mentioned.
He had been taught to call her Auntie to her face, but she went by the
other name inside his head.

On many points his memories of this period are muddled. When he was not
in disgrace, he was allowed to play with Glory; if he had been specially
good, he was privileged to splash in the same bath with her before being
put to bed. But this was not often; it appeared that quite suddenly,
since coming to the smacking lady's house, he had developed an
extraordinary faculty for being bad. She said that he was spoilt, and
shut him up in rooms to make him better. He did his best to improve, for
he believed that his naughtiness was the cause of his mother's absence;
she would never come back, unless he became "the goodest little boy in
the world." To judge by the smacking lady's countenance, he did his best
to no purpose.

Her man was the one bright spot in his tragedy; and even he seemed a
little afraid of her. He did not champion Peter in her presence, but he
would take him out of rooms--oh, so stealthily--and carry him to the
end of the garden where a river ran, along the floor of which fishes
flashed, pursued by their shadows. There he would tell him funny
stories--stories of Peter's world and within the compass of Peter's
understanding; and he would laugh first to warn Peter when he was going
to be really funny----

Peter had again been bad, shut up in a room and rescued by the smacking
lady's husband. They were sitting on the river-bank, screened from the
windows of the house by bushes, when they heard the sound of running.
It was the servant; she spoke loudly with excitement and seemed out
of breath. The funny man's face became grave; he rose and left Peter
without a word.

After that, all kinds of people came hurrying; they banged on the door
and went swiftly up the stairs--swiftly and softly. No one paid him any
heed and, strange to say, they were equally careless of Glory. He was
glad of that, for he loved Glory; it made him happy to have her to
himself. All that day they played among the flowers, he following the
shining of her little golden head. When she fell asleep tired, he sat
solemnly beside her, holding her crumpled hand.

That night they were hastily undressed by a stranger and tumbled into
the same bed. She was so strange that she did not know that she ought to
hear them say their prayers. It was Peter who reminded her.

Lying awake in the darkness, he was sensitive that something unusual was
happening. Up and down the creaking stairs many footsteps came and went;
dresses rustled; voices muttered in whispered consultation. In intervals
between doors opening and shutting, there were long periods of silence.
During one of these he heard a sound so curious that he sat up in bed--a
weak, thin wailing which was new to him and, had he known it, new to the
world. He gathered the bed-clothes to his mouth and listened. Voices on
the stairs grew bolder--almost glad. Peter was conscious of relief from
suspense; night itself grew less black.

Again a door opened on the lower landing; there were footsteps. A man
spoke cheerfully. "It's all over and successfully. Thank God for that."

And the smacking lady's husband roared, "A little nipper all my own, by
Gad!"

Peter didn't understand, but they let him see next morning--a puckered
thing, wrapt in blue flannel, with the tiniest of hands, lying very
close to Aunt Jehane's breast. It was the funny man who showed him,
lifting him up so he could look down on it. The funny man was happy.

Did he start asking questions at once, or does he only imagine it?
Perhaps someone tried to explain things to him--it may have been his
friend, the funny man. It may have been that he overheard conversations
and misconstrued them. At all events, he knew that the baby was a girl
and that she had come several weeks before she was expected. Someone
said that Master Peter would never have been there had they known
that this was going to happen.--So babies came from somewhere
suddenly--somebody sent them! This was the beginning of his longing to
have a baby all to himself--but how?

One fine morning the treacherous Grace arrived, not one little bit
abashed. She told him that his mother was coming back to Topbury.

"Then am I the goodest little boy in the world?"

She thumped her great arms round him; he might have been her drum she
was playing. "You can be when you like; and, my word, I believe you are
now."

He learnt before he left that the new baby was to be called "Riska"; and
he noticed this much, that its hair and eyes were black.

His mother had lost her whiteness. Her face and hands were brown; only
her hair was the old sweet color. He had not been long with her when he
made his request. "Mummy, get Peterkins a baby."

She was sitting sewing by the window. She looked up from the little
garment she was making, holding the needle in her hand.

"What a funny present! Why does little Peter ask for that?"

"Mummy, where does babies come from?"

She laid aside her work and took him into her lap. "From God, dearie."

"Who brings them, mummikins?"

"Angels."

"How does they know to bring them?"

She laughed nervously; then checked herself, seeing how serious was the
child's expression. "People ask God, darling; he tells the angels. They
bring the babies all wrapt up warmly in their softy wings and feathers."

"Could a little boy ask him?"

"Anyone could ask him."

"Would he send me one for my very ownest?"

"Some day--perhaps."

"And you asked God to send me, muvver?"

"I and your Daddy together."

He lay so quietly in her arms that she thought his questions were at
an end. She did not take up her work, but sat smiling with dreamy eyes,
humming and resting her chin on his curly head. He clambered down
from her knee, satisfied and laughing, "Ask him again--you and Daddy
together."

Just then Barrington entered. "What's Daddy to ask for now?" Then, "Why
Nancy, tears in your eyes! What's Peter been doing?"

She held her husband very closely, looking shy and happy. "He's been
asking for the thing we've prayed for."

"Eh! What's that?"

"A baby."

"A baby? Funny little beggar! Extraordinary!"

"And sweet!" whispered Nan.

"Come here, young fellow." His father was solemn, but his eyes were
laughing. He held Peter between his knees, so their faces nearly met.
"If your mother asks God for a baby sister, will you always be good to
her--the truliest, goodest little brother in the world?"

And Peter nodded emphatically. His father shook his chubby hand, sealing
the bargain.

Peter watched hourly for her coming--he never doubted it would be a
_her._ He would inquire several times daily, "Will it be soon?" There
was always the same answer, "Peterkins, Peterkins presently."

One night he heard the same sounds that had amazed him at the smacking
lady's house--whispers, running on the stairs, doors opening and
shutting. He waited for the weak, thin wailing; but that did not follow.
Nevertheless, he was sure it had happened: wrapt up warmly, in softy
angel-feathers, God had sent him a sister for himself.

It was very late when Grace came to bed. Peter pretended to be asleep;
he feared she would be angry. Slowly he raised himself on the pillow,
his eyes clear and undrowsy.

"Why, Master Peter!"

She turned from the mirror so startled that, as she spoke, the hair-pins
fell from her mouth.

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"What a fright you give me! I thought your peepers 'ad been glued tight
for hours h'and hours."

"Has she come? Has she come? Did a lady-angel bring her?"

"Lor' bless the boy, he's dreamin'! Now lie down, little Round Tummy.
Grice won't be long; then she'll hold you in 'er arms all comfy."

"But Grace, she's downstairs, a teeny weeny one--just big enough for
Peter to carry."

"Now, look 'ere, you just stop it, Master Peter. It's no time for
talkin'; you'll 'ear soon enough. You and your teeny weeny ones!"

Peter lay down, his little heart choking. Why wouldn't Grace tell him?

"But, Grace------"

"Shut up. I'm a-sayin' of me prayers."

In the morning the hushed suspense still hung about the house. When
he raised his piping voice, Grace shook him roughly. At breakfast his
father's brows were puckered--he wasn't a bit happy like the funny man.
When the table had been cleared, he laid aside his paper and sat Peter
on his knee before him. "Something happened last night, sonny. You've
got a little brother."

"Not a sister, Daddy?"

Peter cried at that; no wonder they were all so sad. "But we asked God
for a sister partickerlarly."

All day as he played in a whisper by himself, he tried to think things
out. God had become confused at the last moment, or the angel had: the
wrong baby had been brought to their house. But where was the right one?

That evening the angel remembered his error and took the baby back.

Peter was being undressed for bed and Grace was crying terribly. She had
just slipped him into his long, pink nightgown when his father came in
hurriedly. He caught him up, wrapping a blanket round him and ran with
him downstairs. The door of the room which he had watched all day was
opened by a man in black. The room was in darkness, save for a shaded
lamp. There were several people present; all of them whispered and
walked on tiptoe. He raised himself up in his father's arms. On the bed
his mother lay weak and listless; her eyes were blue and vacant. She
seemed to have shrunk and tears stole down her cheeks unheeded. Her hair
seemed heavy for her head and lay across the pillow in two broad plaits.
In her arms was a little bundle. The man in black commenced to talk
huskily. No one answered; everyone listened to what he said. Suddenly
he stooped to take the bundle from his mother, but her arms tightened.
"I'll keep him as long as God lets me."

So the man drew aside the wrappings; Peter saw the face of a tiny
stranger already tired of the world. The man in black spoke some words
more loudly and touched the stranger's face with water. Peter shuddered;
it was cruel to wet his face like that. They all stood silent in the
shadows--all except Peter, who cuddled against his father's shoulder.
Someone said, "He's gone," and the sobbing commenced.

That night Peter slept in his mother's bedroom--she would have it. She
seemed frightened that an angel so careless might carry him away as
well. So they set up his cot by the side of her bed; as she lay on her
pillows she could watch him.

Mummikins got happy slowly; she seemed disappointed in God. Gradually
Peter learnt that, although the baby had been left at the wrong house,
they had given him a name and had called him Philip. But the old
question worried Peter--the one which no one seemed able to answer:
where was the sister God had meant to send and which his father had
promised? Since everyone treated him with reticence, he took the matter
up with God himself. Often, when his mother bent above him and thought
him sleeping, he was talking with God inside his head. As a result the
strange thing happened.

In his room, to the left of his bed, was a large powder-cupboard, even
in the day-time full of shadows. One night he had been praying out
loud to himself, but his voice was growing weary and his eyelids kept
falling. As he lay there, coming from the cupboard, very softly, very
distant, he heard a sound of whistling. It was a little air, happy and
haunting, trilled over and over. He sat up and listened, not at all
frightened. He thrust himself up with his elbows, his head bent forward,
in listening ecstasy. His father could whistle, but not like that. A
man's whistling was shrill and strong. This was gentle and glad, like
a violin played high up--ah yes, like his mother's whistling. Then,
somehow, he knew that a girl's lips formed that sound.

He slipped out of bed in the darkness and tiptoed to the cupboard. He
opened the door; it stopped.

When he was safe in bed it again commenced, as though it were saying,
"I'm coming. I'm coming, little Peterkins. Don't be impatient."

It was trying to say more than that, and he racked his brains to
understand. When he lay quiet and was almost asleep, the picture formed.
He saw a girl-angel, standing in a garden, watching God at his work. And
what was God doing? He was making a little sister for Peter, stitching
her together. And every time the angel stopped whistling, God's needle
dropped. And every time she recommenced, God laughed and plucked
feathers from her softy wings to make garments for the little sister.
Peter named her the Whistling Angel. One day, when she and God were
ready, she would bring his little sister to him.

The last thing he heard, as his sleepy eyes closed on the pillow, was
that happy haunting little air, like a tune played high up on a violin,
faintly, faintly.

"I'm coming. I'm coming, little Peterkins. Don't be impatient."

It was like the rustle of wind in an angel's wings who had already set
out on the journey.




CHAPTER VIII--"COMING. COMING, PETERKINS"

Peter took all the credit to himself--she was his baby. And why not?
Nobody, not even his mother or father, had had anything to do with her
advent. For many months after Philip's short sojourn, his mother had
cried and his father had frowned whenever babies were mentioned. Had it
not been for Peter, the little sister might have slipped God's memory.
Peter gave him no chance to forget. Every night, kneeling between the
bed-clothes with his lips against the pillow to muffle the sound, he
reminded God. He realized that this attitude was not respectful and
always apologized in his prayers. He did it because big people wouldn't
understand if they caught him kneeling beside the bed; it would be quite
easy to fall asleep there and get found.--So, of course, when she
came, she belonged to him. But her coming was not yet. He had no end of
trouble in getting her.

After he had heard the whistling, he tried to tell Grace about it. This
happened the very next morning. She had risen late and was dressing him
in a hurry in order to get him down in time for breakfast. She hardly
listened to him at all, but jerked him this way and that, buttoning and
tying and tucking.

"My, oh, my! There's only emptiness inside your little 'ead this
mornin'; you must 'ave left your brains beneath the pillow. What a lot
o' talk about nothin'."

"It wasn't nothing, Grace. I really and truly heard it."

"Now then, no false'oods, young man. God's a-listenin' and writin' it
all down.--There, Grice didn't mean to be h'angry! But you talk your
tongue clean out o' your 'ead."

"But Grace, I did. I did. It was like this."

He pursed his lips together; only a splutter came. Grace rubbed his face
vigorously with the flannel, leaving a taste of soap in his mouth.

"You should 'ear my new sweet'eart." She was trying to create a
diversion. "'E can make a winder rattle in its frame; it's that loud
and shrill, the noise 'e do make. If you're a good boy, maybe I'll get
'im to teach you 'ow."

He was bursting with his strange new knowledge; he was sure his mother
would understand. While his father was at the table he kept silent. His
father soon hurried away; the front-door slammed.

He plucked at his mother's skirt. "Last night God was in my cupboard."

"But darling, little boys oughtn't to say things like that--not even in
fun, Peter."

"I heard him, mummikins. An angel was with him, doing like this."

He puffed out his cheeks; but he wasn't so clever as the angel. No sound
came.

His mother gazed long into the eager face, trying to detect mischief.
"Whistling--is that what you mean? But angels don't whistle, Peter."

"This one did--in our cupboard--in my bedroom."

He wagged his head solemnly in affirmation. Then he drew down his
mother's face. She was smiling to herself. "God was making our baby," he
whispered, "and the angel was waiting to bring her."

The rain came into her eyes--that was what Peter called it. "Hush, my
dearest. That's all over. You're my only baby now."

She pressed him to her; he could feel her shaking. Just then, he knew,
nothing more must be said.

Many times he tried to tell her. One evening, while the angel was
whistling, she tiptoed into his bedroom. Looking up through the darkness
he saw her and seized her excitedly about the neck. "They're there,
mummy. Don't you hear her? She's whistling now." He pronounced it
'wussling.'

"Why _her_, Peter?"

"I dunno; but listen, listen."

She opened the cupboard door. "See, there's nothing."

"She stopped when you did that."

"Go to sleep, my precious. You're dreaming. If there was anything,
mother would have heard it as well."

So he learnt to keep his secret to himself; no one seemed able to share
it. Every now and then, he would stop in his playing, with his head
on one side and his face intent; those who watched would see him
creep upstairs and peep into the big, dark cupboard. Strangely enough,
whatever he thought he heard, he did not appear frightened.

When the doctor was called to examine him he said, "A very imaginative
child! Oh dear no, he's quite well. He'll grow out of that fancy. Won't
you, old chap?"

At the back of his mother's mind was the terror that she was going to
lose him. She kept him always with her. When that dreamy look came into
his eyes and he turned his head expectantly, she would snatch him to her
breast, as though someone lurked near to take him from her. And Peter
lay still in her arms and smiled, for it seemed to him that the angel
leant over the banisters and whistled softly, "I'm coming. I'm coming,
little Peterkins."

But Peter was anxious to make God hurry. It was Grace who taught him
how.

Her faith came in spasms. Although she beat the drum for the Salvation
Army her fervor had its ups and downs. She used to tell Peter. When her
love-affairs went wrong, she was overwhelmed with doubt and refused to
go on parade. "'E can carry the drum 'isself," she would say, speaking
of her Maker. "If 'e don't look after me no better, I've done with 'im.
It's awright; I don't care. 'E can please 'isself. If 'e can do without
me, I can do without 'im. So there."

These confidences made Peter feel that God was an excessively accessible
person. One evening, kneeling in his mother's lap with folded hands, he
surprised her by adding to the petition she had taught him, "Now, look
here, God, I'm tired of waiting. I wants----"

At this point he was stopped by a gentle hand pressed firmly over his
mouth.

"I can't think what's come to Peter," she told her husband; "he speaks
so crossly to God in his prayers."

"That's Grace," said Barrington laughing, "you mark my words. You'd
better talk to her."

"Oh, but I'm so frightened when he does like that. Billy, do you
think----"

He stopped her promptly. "No, I don't. The boy's all right."

Seeing how her lips trembled, he took her in his arms. "You've never
grown out of your short frocks--you're so timid, you golden little Nan."

It was after Grace had been spoken to that she made it up with her
Maker. When this occurred, Peter was with her in the dimly lit hall
where the soldiers of Salvation gathered. She was sitting beside him
sulkily on the back bench nearest the door; suddenly she rose and dashed
forward in a storm of weeping. While the penitent knelt by the platform,
the man who was waving his arms went on talking. Peter was growing
frightened for her, when she jumped to her feet, seizing a tambourine
which she banged and shook above her head, and shouted, "I'm cleansed.
I'm cleansed."

Partly because of her strength and partly because of her righteousness,
she was allowed to carry the drum again and march in the front of the
procession. Peter was impressed. After that when he had been impatient
with God, he would seek forgiveness by declaring himself _cleansed_.
He always thought that, following such confessions, the whistling came
louder from the cupboard.

But it was Uncle Waffles who completed his information. At intervals he
would come over to Topbury with Aunt Jehane. So far as the ladies were
concerned, the talk was usually about their children. Aunt Jehane would
rarely fail to mourn the fact that hers were both girls.

"Boys are different," she would say; "you can turn them out to sink or
swim. But girls! Sooner or later one has to get them married. It's like
my fortune to have two of them--the luck was with you from the first."

Perhaps that was Jehane's way of reminding Nan that she had given her
husband only Peter. Waffles seemed to construe it in that light for,
when she had repeated her complaint more than twice, he would tuck Peter
under one arm and Glory under the other, and steal away to some hidden
place where he could ask him funny questions. If he heard a cock crowing
he would stop and inquire, "Why does the Doodle-do?"

The little boy almost always forgot the proper answer. Uncle Waffles
would have to tell him, "Because he does, Peter."

Peter soon learnt that Uncle Waffles had secrets as well, for, when he
talked in the presence of his wife, he would hold his chin in his hand,
so as to be able to slip his fingers quickly over his mouth if he found
that unwise words were escaping. If he were too late in slipping up his
fingers, she would say quite sharply, "Ocky, don't be stupid. You're no
better than a child."

It was because Uncle Waffles was no better than a child that Peter took
courage to ask him, "How does people have babies?"

His uncle regarded him seriously a moment. "You're very little to ask
such questions. It's a great secret. If I tell you, promise to keep it
to yourself."

When he had promised, his uncle whispered. And Peter knew that it was
true, for he remembered that someone had been lazy and had had breakfast
in bed before the coming of both Riska and Philip. So he learnt the last
piece of witchcraft by which babies are induced to come into the world.
From then on, until it happened, he was continually coaxing his mother
not to get up to breakfast. One morning she took his advice; then he
knew for certain that Uncle Waffles was very wise, even though Aunt
Jehane did call him stupid.

For some time the whistling had been growing bolder: it would come out
of the cupboard as though the angel were running; it would wander all
over the house and meet him in the most unexpected places. When he was
playing in the garden it would drift down to him from the tree-tops,
"Coming, Peterkins. Coming." It had grown quick like that, as though it,
too, were impatient of waiting.

Two years had gone by since God had sent Philip and taken him back so
suddenly. It was within a few days of the anniversary and very close to
Christmas. All day the sky had been heavy with clouds. It was bitterly
cold outside; Peter had been kept in the nursery with a big, red fire
blazing. Everyone seemed busy; they opened the door now and then to
make sure that he was all right, and left him to play by himself.
Toward evening the clouds burst like great pillows, swollen with angels'
feathers; softly, softly, covering up bare trees, putting the world to
sleep beneath a great white counterpane, the snow came down.

He woke in the night; it was like a lark singing right beside his bed.
It was the old haunting little air that it sang, but so much quicker,
"Coming. Coming. Coming." Sometimes it sank into the faintest whisper;
sometimes it would swell into a sound so loud and happy that even
Grace's sweetheart could not have whistled louder. Grace turned drowsily
and, seeing him sitting up, drew him down beneath the clothes, putting
her arms about him. No, she had not heard it.

In the morning his mother's breakfast was carried upstairs and his
father looked worried. Peter grew afraid lest he had done wrong and a
little sister was not wanted. So he hid himself in the big dark cupboard
in the bedroom and was not missed for hours.

Presently voices wandered up and down the house, sometimes sounding
quite near and sometimes quite distant, "Peter! Peter! Where are you?"
They seemed afraid to call louder.

Peter had his suspicions, so he kept quiet. They did not want her--and
they knew that he had done it.

Someone said "Shish!" The other voices sank into silence; now it was
only his father's that he heard. "Peter-kins, Peterkins, father wants
you. Don't be frightened. He's going to tell you something grand."

So Peter came out; when he saw his father's face, he knew that he was
not angry.

"You did want her too--didn't you, didn't you, Daddy?"

"Of course I did, you rummy little chap. But how did you know? Who told
you?"

Although he coaxed and rubbed his scrubby chin against Peter's neck, he
never got an answer to that question. Where was the good of answering?
Either you had ears like Peter's or you hadn't.




CHAPTER IX--KAY AND SOME OTHERS

She filled all his thoughts; the world had become new to him.
Picture-books were no longer amusing; just to be Peter with a little
strange sister was the most fascinating story imaginable.

It was easy to keep him good; Grace had only to threaten that he should
not see her. See her! He lived for that. Early in the morning he was at
the bedroom door, waiting for the nurse to look out and beckon. As he
followed her in on tiptoe, his golden little motherkins would turn on
her pillow, holding out her hand. She was prettier than ever now. If
Peter had known the word, he would have said she looked _sacred_: that
was what he felt. And she seemed to have grown younger. She appeared
immature as a girl, so slim and pale, stretched out in the broad white
bed. Her hair lay in shining pools between the counterpane mountains.

"Pepperminta, you're no older than Peter," he had heard his father tell
her; "you're a kiddy playing with dollies--not a mother. It's absurd."

He knew from watching his father that, if they had loved her before,
they must love her ten thousand times better now. When he went for his
walks with Grace, he spent his pennies to bring her home flowers.

Everything in that room had been brightened to welcome the little
sister. It had a sense of whiteness and a soft, sweet fragrance. They
had to make the little sister feel that they were glad she had come and
wanted her to stay. So a fire was kept burning in the grate. They spoke
in whispers and walked on their toes, the way one does in church.

Climbing on a chair, he would seat himself at the foot of the bed while
his mother's eyes laughed at him from the pillow, "We've managed it this
time, little Peter."

Presently the nurse would turn back the sheet and show him the stranger,
cuddled in his mother's breast; he would see a shining head, like fine
gold scattered on white satin.

"The same as yours, mummy."

"And the same as yours, darling."

When anyone found him in any way like her, Peter was glad.--If he waited
patiently, the blue eyes would open and stare straight past him, seeing
visions of another world.

"She sees something, mummy."

"God, perhaps."

Peter thought he knew better, for he heard quite near, yet so softly
that it might have been far away, the violinlike whisper of one who
whistled beneath her breath.

"Dearest, was Peter like that?"

"Peter and everybody."

There were times when he was allowed to slip his finger between those of
the tiny fisted hand. When he felt their pressure, they seemed to say,
"I'm yours, Peter-kins. Take care of me, won't you?"

He was sure she knew that he had seen God make her.

He did not want to speak; he was perfectly content to sit in the
sheltered quiet, watching. He would listen outside the door for hours on
the chance of being admitted. If Grace missed him, she always knew where
he might be found.

As the little sister grew, he was permitted to see her bathed and
dressed. One by one the soft wrappings were removed and folded, and the
perfect little body revealed itself. No wonder God had taken so long;
he had put such love into his work. By and by she learnt how to crow
and splash. Her first recorded smile was given to Peter. But long before
that a name had to be chosen.

She was christened Kathleen Nancy and was called Kay, because that made
her sound dearer.

Peter was nearly seven at the time of her coming. Of all people, he and
his mother seemed to know her best. They had secrets about her; before
she could talk, they told one another what her baby language meant.
During her first summer on earth, they would sit beside her cradle in
the garden, believing that birds and flowers stooped to watch her.

"You're no older than Peter," his father had said. But, when he came
home from the city, he would join them and seemed perfectly happy to
gaze on Kay, with Peter on his knee, holding Nan's free hand.

Even in those early days, it was strange the power that Peter had over
her. If she were crying, she would stop and laugh for Peter. She would
sleep for Peter, if he hummed and rocked her. When she began to speak,
it was Peter who taught her and interpreted what she said; that was
during her second summer, when leaves in the garden were tapping. They
grew to trust Peter where Kay was concerned. "He's so gentle with her,"
they said.

"Might be 'er father, the care 'e takes of 'er. It's uncanny," Grace
told her sweetheart.

Her sweetheart was a policeman at this moment; his profession did not
make for sentiment. "Father, by gum! Fat lot o' care your father took o'
you, I'll bet."

Grace's father was a cabby and was known to the Barrington household as
Mr. Grace--a name of Peter's bestowing. He drove a four-wheeler and
had a red face. His stand was at the bottom of Topbury Crescent, which
formed the blade to the sickle of which the Terrace was the handle.

When Kay was beginning to toddle, her cot was transferred from her
parents' to Peter's bedroom. Nan was none too strong and Barrington
could not afford to be roused at five in the morning--he worked too hard
and required all his rest. Had Peter's wishes been consulted, this was
just how he would have arranged matters. From the moment when the light
went out to the moment when his eyelids reluctantly lowered, he had Kay
all to himself. Throwing off the clothes, he would slip out and kneel
beside her cot, softying her with his face and hands. He had to do
this carefully lest he should be heard. Sometimes, in stepping out, the
mattress squeaked and a voice would call up the tall dim stairs, "Peter,
are you in bed?" An interval would elapse while he hurried back; then
he would answer truthfully, "Yes." Often the voice would say knowingly,
"You are now."

But the temptation was too great. It was so wonderful to touch her in
the darkness, to hear her stir, to feel her hand brush his cheek and the
warm sleepy lips turned toward his mouth.

"It's only Peter," he would whisper; and, perhaps, he would add, "Little
Kay, aren't you glad I borned you?"

Oh yes, it was he who had contrived her birth. There, as a proof, was
the big dim cupboard where it had all commenced.

In the shadowy darkness of the room, before Grace came up to undress, he
lived in a world of fancy. Through the oblong of the doorway the faint
gold glimmered, made by the lowered gas. In the square of the window,
as in a magic mirror, all kinds of strange things happened. Great soft
clouds moved across it, like mountains marching. Presently they would
stand aside, giving him glimpses of deep lagoons and floating lands.
Stars would dance out, like children holding hands, and wink and twinkle
at him. The moon would let down her silver ladder, smiling to him to
ascend. He laughed back and shook his head. Oh, no thank you; Kay needed
his attention.

Beneath the sky was a muffled world, like a Whistler nocturne, of
house-tops and drowsy murmurs. It was a vague field of seething shadows
in which the blur of street-lamps was a daffodil forest. Dwellings
which were blind all day, in streets he had never traversed, now peered
stealthily from behind their curtains with the unblinking eyes of cats.
What did they do down there? Church bells in the Vale of Holloway would
try to tell him. Sometimes strains of a barrel-organ would drift up
merrily and he would picture how ragged children danced, beating time
with rapid feet upon the muddy pavement. Sometimes in the distance, like
a scarlet fear, a train would shoot across the murk and vanish.

But always from these wanderings his imagination would return to the
cot where the little sister nestled. Who was it put the thought into
his head? Was it some strange confusion between winking stars and the
Bethlehem story? Or was it Grace in one of her flights of poetry? Long
ago, he told himself, like this the Boy Jesus must have sat keeping
guard over a baby sister, while at the bottom of a tall steep house Mary
helped Joseph, making chairs and tables.

Once Peter gave things away completely by trusting too much to his
wakefulness; he was found asleep on the floor beside Kay's cot when
Grace came up to undress.

If the nights had their spice of adventure because such doings were
forbidden, the mornings were not to be sneered at. He would be wakened
by a small hand stroking his face and she would snuggle into bed beside
him. Years after, when he was a man, he remembered the sensation of her
cold feet when she had found him difficult to rouse.

But the greatest treat of all came rarely. When his father went away on
a journey, his mother could cast aside her habits. She would make her
home in the nursery and hirelings would be driven out. Grace would be
given an evening with her policeman, and Peter, and Kay, and Nan would
have each other to themselves. If it were winter, they would have supper
by firelight, after which they would sit and toast themselves while Nan
told stories of her girlhood. Kay would be taken into her lap and Peter
would sit on the rug, cuddling against her skirt.

"How did Daddy find you, Mummy?"

And when that had been told in a simplified version, "Mummy, should I be
your little boy, if you'd married someone else?"

Since there seemed some doubt, Peter made haste to assure her, "Dearest,
I'm so, so glad."

In the dancing flames and shadows, Kay would be undressed and popped
into the tin-bath while Peter helped. Then, all warm and snuggly, she
would be carried to her mother's bed. In a short time Peter would follow
and fall asleep with his arms about her.

Toward midnight he would rouse; the gas was lit and someone was
rustling. Looking down the bed, he would see his mother with her gold
hair loose about her shoulders. "Hush," she would whisper, placing her
finger against her mouth. So he would lie still, watching her shadow
on the walls and ceiling. Again the room was in darkness; his face was
hidden in her breast as she clasped him to her. He was thinking how
lucky it was that his father had found her.

In the morning Kay would wake them, climbing across their legs or losing
herself beneath the bed-clothes. Just to be different from all other
mornings, they would have their breakfast before they dressed. What an
adventure they made of it and what good times they had!

In after years, looking back, Peter realized what children he had had
for parents; they seemed anything but children then. His father was not
too old to be a lion on hands and knees beneath the table, trying to
catch him as he ran round. At last his mother would cry out, "Billy,
dearest, do stop it. You'll get the boy excited."

And then there were those empty rooms at the top of the house to be
furnished. Peter's father led him all over London, visiting beery old
women and dingy old men, whose shops to the unpracticed eye were stocked
with rubbish. Oak paneling, bronzes, French clocks, canvases dim with
dirt, were discovered and carried home in triumph. For the canvases
frames had to be hunted out; the pursuit was endless. These treasures
were driven home in cabs, taking up so much room that Peter had to make
himself smaller. Nan would fly to the door as the wheels halted on the
Terrace.

"Peter, why did you let him? Oh, Billy, how extravagant!"

"But, my dear, it's an investment. I paid next to nothing and wouldn't
sell it for a thousand pounds."

"Couldn't," she corrected; but, as was proved later, she was wrong in
that.

When the empty rooms were furnished--the oak bedroom and the
Italian--the modern furnishings in other parts of the house were
gradually supplanted; even the staircase was hung with paintings which
Barrington restored himself. There was one little drawback to these
prowlings through London which Peter was too proud to mention: his
father as he walked would pinch his hand to show his affection--but it
hurt. He knew why his father did it, so he did not tell him. He bit his
lips instead to keep back the tears.

Four other people stole across his childish horizon like wisps of
cloud--the Misses Jacobite. They lived in an old-fashioned house in
Topbury and kept no servants. Peter got to know them because they smiled
at him coming in and going out of church. There was Miss Florence, who
was tall and reserved; and Miss Effie, who was little and talkative; and
Miss Madge, who was fat and jolly; and Miss Leah, a shadow-woman,
who sat always in a darkened room with pale hands folded, crooning to
herself.

People said "Poor thing! Oh well, there's no good blaming her now. She
wouldn't thank us for our pity; after all, she brought it on herself."

Or they said. "You know, they were quite proud once--the belles of
Topbury. Two of them were engaged to be married. Their father was alive
then--the Squire we called him. But after Miss Leah----" They dropped
their voices till they came to the last sentence, "And the disgrace of
it killed the old chap."

Even Grace, when she took Kay and Peter to visit them, left them if she
could on the doorstep. Her righteous mood asserted itself; she flounced
her skirt in departing, shaking off the dust from her feet for a
testimony against them. "Scand'lous, I calls it. If I wuz to do like
'er, yer ma wouldn't let me touch yer. But o' course, it's different;
I'm only a sarvant-gal. And they 'olds their 'eads so 'ighl Brazen,
I calls it. Before I walked the streets where a thing like that 'ad
'appened in my family, I'd sink into my grave fust--that I would. I 'ate
the thought of their kissing yer, my precious lambs."

Peter was always wondering what it was that Miss Leah had brought
upon herself. Whatever it was, it stayed with her in the room with the
lowered blinds at the back of the house. She never went out; callers
never saw her. Her eyes were vague, as though she had wept away their
color. She spoke in a hoarse whisper, as in a dream; and her attention
had to be drawn to anything before she saw it. But it was her singing
that shocked and thrilled Peter, making him both pitiful and frightened.
Her song never varied and never quite came to an end; she repeated it
over and over. You could hear it in the hall, the moment you entered;
it went on at intervals until you left. She sang it with empty hands,
sitting without motion:

                   "On the other side of Jordan

                   In the sweet fields of Eden

                   Where the Tree of Life is growing

                   There is rest for me."

Where were the "sweet fields of Eden"? Peter liked the sound of them and
would have asked her, had not something held him back. She must be very
tired, he thought, to be singing always about rest. Yet he never saw her
work.

He had been there many times and had only heard her, until one day, as
he was scampering down the passage with Miss Madge pursuing, the door
opened and a woman with dim eyes and hair as white as snow looked
out. She gazed at him without interest; but when Kay toddled up to her
fearlessly, she stooped and caught her to her breast.

Several things about the Misses Jacobite struck Peter as funny. They
divided the visit up, so that each might have a child for part of it
entirely to herself. Each would behave during that time as though she
were a mother famished for affection, returned from a long journey, and
would invent secrets which were to be shared by nobody but the child and
herself. Kay and Peter were carried off into separate rooms, and there
played with and cuddled by a solitary Miss Jacobite. Though the Misses
Jacobite were obviously poor, the children always went home with a
present; often enough it was a toy from the dusty, disused nursery.
When they met Kay and Peter on Sundays and people were watching, they
pretended to forget the other things that had happened.

"I wonder you let your children go there," people said.

Nan smiled slowly and answered softly, gathering Kay and Peter to her.
"Poor things! They were robbed of everything. I have so much I don't
deserve. I can spare them a little of my gladness."

"But, Mrs. Barrington, that's mere sentiment. How does your husband
allow it?"

One day Nan's husband spoke up for himself. "Did you ever hear of the
raft? I thought not. Well, Nan and I have."




CHAPTER X--WAFFLES BETTERS HIMSELF

It was the month of June. A breeze blowing in at the open window
fluttered out the muslin curtains and shook loose the petals of roses
standing on the table. A milk-cart rattled down the Terrace, clattering
its cans. Sounds, which drifted in from the primrose-tinted world, were
all what Peter would have described as "early." The walls of the room
were splashed with great streaks of sunlight, which lit up some of the
pictures with peculiar intensity and left others in contrasting shadow.
One of those which were thus illumined was a Dutch landscape by Cuyp,
hanging against the dark oak paneling above a blue couch; it represented
a comfortable burgher strolling in conversation with two women on the
banks of a canal. Barrington liked to face it while he sat at breakfast;
it gave him a certain indifference to worry before the rush of the day
commenced. But this morning, to judge by his puckered forehead, it had
not produced its usual effect. He glanced up from the letter he was
reading and tossed it across to Nan. "What d'you make of that?"

She bent over it, wrinkling her brows. The letter was in a man's
handwriting and the postscript, which was of nearly equal length, was in
a woman's.

"I don't know; if it was from anyone but Ocky----"

"Precisely, Ocky's a fool. He's always been a fool and he's growing
worse; but Jehane ought to have sounder sense. It's beyond me why she
married him. I never did understand Jehane; I suppose I never shall."

"You're not a woman, Billy; or else you would. She was sick and tired of
being lonely and dependent; she wanted someone to take care of her. Ocky
was the only man who offered. But that's eight years ago--I'm afraid
she's found him out; and she's doing her best to persuade herself that
she hasn't. Poor Jehane, she always admired strong men--men she could
worship."

"That explains but it doesn't excuse her. She had a strong man in
Captain Spashett; the hurry of her second marriage was indecent. I never
did approve of it. I said nothing at first because I thought she might
help Ocky to grow a backbone.--And now there's this new folly, which she
appears to encourage."

"But, dear, is it so foolish? Perhaps, she's given him a backbone and
that's why he's done it." She laughed nervously. "They both say that
this is a great opportunity for him to better himself."

"Bah! The only way for Ocky to better himself is to change his
character. He's a balloon--a gas-bag; he'll go up in the air and burst.
The higher he goes, the further he'll have to tumble. You think I'm
harsh with him; I know him. Jehane's done him no good; she despises him,
I'm sure, though she doesn't think she shows it. She's filled his head
with stupid ambitions and before she's done she'll land him in a mess.
She's driven him to this bravado with private naggings; he wants to
prove to her that he really is a man. Man! He's a child in her hands. It
hurts me to watch them together. Why can't she be a wife to him and make
up her mind that she's married a donkey?"

"It's difficult for a woman to make up her mind to that--especially a
proud, impatient woman."

He paid no attention to his wife's interruption, but went on irritably
with what he was saying.

"So he's giving up a secure job, and he's going into this harum-scarum
plan for buying up the sands of Sandport for nothing and selling them
as house-plots for a fortune. Even if there were anything in it, who's
going to finance him? Of course he'll come to me as usual."

"But he says he's got the capital."

"That's just it--from where? His pocket always had a hole in it. When
he says he's got money, I don't believe him; when he's proved his word I
grow nervous."

Barrington leant across the table, rapping with his knuckles. "Ocky's
the kind of amiable weak fellow who can easily be made bad--especially
by a woman who refuses to love him. Once a man like that's gone under,
you can never bring him back--he's lost what staying quality he ever
had."

Nan rarely argued with her husband. Pushing back her chair, she went and
knelt beside him, pressing her soft cheek against his hand. "You are a
silly Billy, dearest, to be so serious on such a happy morning. There's
no danger of Ocky ever becoming bad; and, in any case, what's this got
to do with the matter? I know he's foolish and his jokes get on your
nerves; but it isn't his fault that he's not clever like you. You
shouldn't be gloomy just because he's going to be daring. I don't wonder
he's sick of that lawyer's office. And it's absurd to think that he's
going to be bad; look how Peter loves him. You like Ocky more than you
pretend, now don't you?"

"If liking's being sorry. I'm always sorry for an ass; and I'm angry
with Jehane because she knows better. She's doing this because she's
jealous of you--that's why she clutches at this bubble chance of
prosperity."

"Ar'n't you a little unjust to her, Billy? Since our marriage, you've
always been unjust to her. You know why she's jealous--she wants her
husband to be like you."

Her voice sank away to a whisper. "Oh, Janey, I did, I did play fair,"
she had said that night at Cassingland; in her violent assertion of
fairness there had been an implied question which Jehane had never
answered. Both she and her husband knew that they had never been
acquitted.

Barrington drew Nan's head against his shoulder. "Poor people." Then he
kissed her with new and eager gladness.

"And it isn't only pity you feel for Ocky?" She persisted. "Now
confess."

He pulled out his watch hastily and, having replaced it, gulped down
his coffee. "When I was Peter's age, we were brought up like brothers
together. I loved him then; I'm disappointed in him now. And yet I'm
always catching glimpses in him of the little chap I played with. You
see, at school I was the stronger and had to protect him. I was always
fighting his battles. And one whole term, when his hand was poisoned,
I had to take him to the doctor to get it dressed---- No, it isn't only
pity, Pepperminta: it's memories."

As he was going out of the door she called after him, "Then, I suppose,
I can write and say we'll have them?"

"While they're moving--the children? Yes."

"Jehane doesn't say how many."

"She means all, I expect. There's the garden for them--it'll be fun for
Kay and Peter."

A week later, Jehane traveled across London to Top-bury Terrace,
bringing with her Glory, aged nine, Riska, aged six, and her youngest
child, Eustace, who was the same age as Kathleen. Jehane was now in her
thirty-seventh year, a striking brooding type of woman. As her face had
grown thinner and her cheeks had lost their color, the gipsy blackness
of her appearance had become more noticeable. She still had a fine
figure, so that men in public conveyances would furtively lower their
papers to gaze at her. There clung about her an atmosphere of adventure,
of which she was not entirely unaware. She was unconquerably romantic,
and would spin herself stories in the silence of her fancy of a love
that was crushing in its intensity. No one would have guessed from the
hard little lines about the corners of her eyes and mouth that this
imaginative tenderness formed part of her character.

Since the birth of Eustace her hair had fallen out in handfuls and she
had adopted a style of dressing it that was distinctly unbecoming. She
had had her combings made up into an affair which Glory called "Ma's
mat." It consisted of half-a-dozen curls, sewn together in rows like
sausages, which she pinned across the top of her head so that they made
a fringe along her forehead. It gave her an old-fashioned look of prim
severity. Jehane retained for Nan an affection which was partly genuine
and partly habit; but she resented Nan's youthful appearance with slow
jealous anger, attributing it to freedom from anxiety and the possession
of money. As for Nan, her attitude was one of gentle and atoning apology
for her happiness. "I'm so glad you brought the children yourself,
Janey."

"And who could have brought them? I'm not like you--I only keep two
servants. When this scheme of Ocky's has turned out all right, perhaps
it may be different."

She turned swiftly on Nan with latent defiance, as though challenging
her to express doubt.

"I'm sure both Billy and I hope it will. Wouldn't it be splendid to see
Ocky really a big man?"

"It would be a good deal more than splendid. It would mean the end of
little houses and cheap servants and neighbors that you can't introduce
to your father's friends. It would mean the end of pinching and scraping
to save a penny. And it would mean a chance for my girls."

Nan slipped an arm into hers and hugged it. "Dear old thing, I think
I understand. And when is Ocky coming over to tell us all about it? He
gave us hardly any details in his letter."

Jehane became evasive. "He's naturally very busy. The chance developed
so suddenly that he's hardly had time to turn round. It came to him
through a client at the office. Mr. Playfair had noticed him at his desk
as he passed in and out to see Mr. Wagstaff. He's told Ocky since that
he spotted him at once and said to himself, 'If ever I want a chap
with-business push and legal knowledge, that's my man.'"

"And he's never talked with him?"

"Hardly. Not much more than to say 'How d'you do?' or 'Good-morning'."

"Wasn't it wonderful that he should have sized him up in a flash?"

Jehane glanced at her narrowly. "It may be wonderful to _you_; it isn't
to _me_. I'm well aware that you and Billy don't think much of Ocky. Oh,
where's the sense in disowning it? You both think he's a born fool."

"I'm sure you never heard Billy say that."

"Heard him say it! Of course I didn't. I'd like to hear him dare to
say anything like that about my husband. But actions speak louder
than words. He thinks it just the same; he thinks that Ocky's good for
nothing But to sit at a desk, taking a salary from another man. P'rhaps,
you didn't know that for years Ocky's been the brains of that office?"

Nan lifted her honest eyes; she was filled with discomfort. This kind of
controversy was always happening when they met; they drifted into some
sort of feud for which Jehane invariably held her responsible. "The
brains of the office! No, indeed, I never heard that. Why didn't you
tell us?"

"Because you and Billy thought he was incompetent, and it didn't seem
worth the trouble to correct you."

"I'm sure I've always thought him very kind, especially to Peter."

"Kind! What's kindness got to do with being clever?" Nan pressed Jehane
to stay to dinner. She would send a telegram to Ocky; she would send her
home in a cab. But Jehane was in an ungracious mood and eager to take
offense. She resented the implication that a cab was a luxury. No, she
couldn't stay; there was too much to do. She had intended to return in
a cab, anyhow. In reality she was anxious to avoid Barrington's shrewd
questioning. She was rising to take her departure, when she saw him
descending the garden steps.

"Ha, Jehane! This is luck. I've had thoughts of you all day. That
letter's got on my nerves. I couldn't work; so I came home early.--Oh
no, we're not going to let you off now. You've got to stop and tell us.
By the way, before Ocky actually decides, I'd like to talk the whole
matter over with him."

"He's decided already."

"You don't mean-------"

"Yes. Why not? He's given Wagstaff notice. Things so happened that he
had to make up his mind in a hurry or lose it.--But I really ought to be
going. Nan knows everything now."

Barrington placed his hand on her shoulder arrestingly. At his touch she
drew back and colored. "This thing's too serious, Jehane," he said, "to
be dismissed in a sentence. I have a right to know."

He spoke kindly, but she answered him hotly. "What right, pray?"

"Well, if anything goes wrong, there's only me to fall back on. And then
there's the right of friendship."

"I can't say you've shown yourself over friendly. If you've had to meet
Ocky, you've let all the world see you were irritated. If you've ever
invited him to your house, you've taken very good care that no one
important was present. One would judge that you thought he lowered you.
I can't see that you have the right to know anything."

"That can only be because your husband hasn't told you. To quote one
instance, it was through my influence that he got this position that
he's now thrown over--Wagstaff is my lawyer."

Jehane tossed her head. "You always want to make out that he owes you
everything---- Well, what is it that I'm forced to tell you?"

Barrington kept silence while they walked down the path to where chairs
were spread beneath the cedar. The children ran up boisterously to greet
him; having kissed them, he told Grace to take them away and to keep
them quiet. When he spoke, his tones were grave and measured: "It wasn't
fair of Ocky to send you to tell us; he ought to have come himself."

"He didn't send----"

Barrington held up his hand. "You can't tell me anything on that score;
from the first he's shirked responsibility. He would never fight if he
could get anyone else to fight for him. Many and many's the time I've
had to dohis dirty work. Now you're doing it. This is unpleasant
hearing, Jehane; but you know it's true. I'd take a wager that you spent
hours trying to screw up his courage to make him come himself."

She lifted her head to deny it, but his quiet gray eyes met hers. Their
sympathy and justice disturbed her. She refused to be pitied by this
man----. A great fear rose in her throat. What if his opinion of her
husband were correct? It was the opinion she herself had had for
years and had tried to stifle. Time and again she had listened to his
plausibility--his boastings that he was the brains of the office, that
luck was against him and that one day he would show the world. She had
used his arguments to defend him to her relations and friends. In public
she had made a parade of being proud of him. In private she had tried to
ridicule him out of his shame-faced manners. And now she was trying
so hard to believe that he had found his opportunity.--It was cruel of
Barrington, especially cruel when he knew quite well that it was him she
had loved. She could not endure to sit still and hear him voice her own
suspicious and calmly analyze the folly of her marriage.

"If you think that my husband was afraid to come and tell you, the only
way to prove the contrary is to let him come himself to-morrow."

"I shall be more than glad to see him."

But Ocky did not come to-morrow, nor the next day. The day after that
Barrington went to see his lawyer.

"Good-morning, Mr. Wagstaff. I should like to speak to you about my
cousin, Mr. Waffles."

Mr. Wagstaff twitched his trousers up to prevent them from rucking as he
crossed his legs. "If there's anything I can do to help you, Mr.
Barrington----"

"I understand he's given you notice."

Mr. Wagstaff sat up suddenly. "Understand what? He told you that?"

"No, he did not tell me. His wife did."

"Ah, his wife! He left her to make the explanations. Just what one might
expect."

"Then he didn't give you notice?"

"Course not." Mr. Wagstaff spoke testily, as though for an employee to
give him notice was an event beyond the bounds of possibility.

"Then he left without notifying you?"

"Well, hardly."

The lawyer noticed that the door leading into the main office was ajar;
he got up and closed it. When he returned he did not re-seat himself,
but straddled the hearth-rug, holding up his coat-tails although no fire
was burning.

"Mr. Barrington, sir, I put up with your cousin's shiftlessness for
longer that I ought to have done; I did it out of respect for you, sir.
There was a time when I hoped I might make something of him. He can be
nimble-witted over trifles and his own affairs; but he never put
any interest into my work. He was insubordinate--not to my face, you
understand, but when my back was turned; he wasn't a good influence in
the office. I tell you this, sir, to prove that I haven't acted without
consideration."

The lawyer waggled his coat-tails and seemed to find a blemish in his
boots, so earnestly did he regard them. When he received no help from
Barrington, he suddenly came to the point and looked up sharply.

"He betrayed professional confidence; so I sacked him."

"Had it happened before?"

"Possibly. He was always garrulous. This time it was an affair of some
property at Sandport. Our client had two competing purchasers, one of
whom was a Mr. Playfair. Your cousin leaked to Mr. Playfair--kept him
informed as to what the other purchaser was doing. Not a nice thing to
occur, Mr. Barrington."

This last remark was as much an interrogation as an assertion. The
lawyer waited for his opinion to be indorsed.

"Not at all nice," Barrington assented. "If it's lost you any money, I
must refund it."

"'Tisn't a question of money. Wouldn't hear of that." As Mr. Wagstaff
shook hands at parting, he offered a crumb of comfort: "Mind, I don't
say your cousin is dishonest, Mr. Barrington; that would be _too, too_
strong. Perhaps, it would be better stated by saying that his sense of
honor is rudimentary."

"Perhaps," said Barrington brusquely. "I think I catch your meaning."




CHAPTER XI--THE HOME LIFE OF A FINANCIER

People who loved Ocky Waffles always loved him for his good; he
would have preferred to have been loved for almost any other purpose.
Affection, in his experience, turned friends into schoolmasters. There
was Barrington, a fine chap and all that; but why the dickens did he
take such endless pains to be so uselessly unpleasant?

Ocky was on the lookout for Jehane when she returned from Topbury. As
she turned the corner, he espied her from behind the curtains and lit
his pipe to give himself confidence. No sooner had she entered than she
commenced an account of her visit, indignantly underlining her interview
with Barrington. Ocky seated himself on the edge of the table, puffing
away and swinging his legs.

"Wants to see me, does he? He can go on wanting. I'm sick of his
interfering. A fat lot he's ever done to help me! And with his position
and friends he could have helped me--instead of that he gives me his
advice. Truth is, Jehane, he doesn't want to see us climb; he'd rather
be the patron of the family. With the best intentions in the world, he's
out to put a spoke in my wheel. Oh, I know him!--If he's so anxious for
information, he can come here to get it."

While he spoke he scrutinized his wife, judging the effect of his
blustering independence. She was suspicious of some hidden knowledge; he
felt it. Something had been said behind his back at Topbury--something
derogatory. Could Barrington have heard already.

Pressing down the ashes in the bowl of his pipe, he struck a match.
Jehane was between himself and the door; he wondered whether he could
slip past her and make his exit if things became unpleasant. He detested
being cornered; he could be so much braver when the means of escape lay
behind him. Meanwhile, it seemed good policy to continue talking.

"I don't like the way they treat you at Topbury; you always come home
down-hearted. There's too much condescension. Nan overdoes it when she
tries to be kind. The rich relation attitude! It riles me. When she
makes you a present it's always a dress--might just as well tell you
to your face that you're shabby. And last Christmas, sending Peter's
cast-off clothes to Eustace! Thank God, we're not paupers and never
shall be!"

As he worked himself into a passion Jehane eyed him somberly. The
everlasting pipe, dangling from his mouth, annoyed her immensely. His
trousers, bagging at the knees, and his pockets, stuffed with rubbish,
were perpetual eyesores; she hated his slack appearance. Other men with
his income at least attained neatness. It was not that he spared
money on his clothes----. She caught herself comparing him with
Barrington--Barrington whose tidy body was the outward sign of his
well-ordered mind. Her husband went on talking and her irritation took a
new direction.

"I'll bet a fiver what they said when you told 'em. 'My dearest, if it
_could_ only happen'--that's Nan. 'Ah yes! Humph! sand at Sandport! We
must talk this over before he decides'--that's Barrington. We can guess
what his advice'll amount to, can't we, old Duchess?"

It was safe to venture the endearment now. If they had nothing else in
common, they were partners in their animosities. When running down an
enemy together, he could dare to express his affection for her; his way
of doing this was to call her _Duchess_. At other times she would brush
him aside with, "Don't be silly, Ocky." She often called him "silly,"
treating any demonstration as tawdry sentimentality. She had no idea how
deeply it wounded.

Now, as she sank into the chair, he bent over and kissed her awkwardly.
"Poor old gel, they've tired you out. Had nothing to eat since you left
here, I'll warrant. Put up your tootsies and I'll pull off your shoes;
then I'll order some supper for you."

"I couldn't eat anything."

The room was in darkness and the window wide. In the street children
were screaming and playing. A mother, standing on her doorstep, called
to her truants through the dusk----- Oh, for a gust of silence--a desert
of sound without footsteps; Jehane felt that her life was trespassed
on, jostled, undignified. Through the cramped suburb of red-brick villas
crept the summer night, like a shameful woman footsore and clad in
lavender. Red-brick villas! They were so similar that, if you shook them
up in a gigantic hat and set them out afresh, the streets would look in
no way different. They were all built in the same style. The mortar
had fallen out in the same places. The front gardens were of equal
dimensions. They had no individuality. If anyone attempted to be
original in the color of her paint or the shape of her curtains, next
day she was copied.

With the stale odor of tobacco mingled the sweet fragrance of
June flowers. She had only to close her eyes and she was back in
Oxford--Oxford which she had exchanged for this rash experiment. She
wondered, had she been more patient, would something more delightful
have happened. The sameness of economy had worn out her strength and its
prospect appalled her.--If Ocky could contrive her escape, even at this
late hour, what right had Barrington to prevent him?

He had gone to fetch her slippers--that at least was kind and
thoughtful. She treated him with spite. She shrank from the familiarity
of his touch. She hated herself for it; and yet she eked out the seconds
of her respite from him.

A lamp-lighter shuffled by the garden railings; at his magic, primrose
pools weltered up in the dusk.--This business of marriage--had she been
less hasty, she might have done better for herself. Oh well, the wisdom
which follows the event...

Footsteps on the stairs! As he knelt to put on her slippers, she
conquered her revulsion and let her hand rest on his head. He started,
surprised: it was long since she had shown him affection. His voice was
shaky when he addressed her.

"Now you're better, old dear. More rested, aren't you?" She held him
at arm's length, her palms flat against his breast. In the darkness she
felt the pleading in his eyes. "Oh, Ocky, you'll do it this time, won't
you?"

"Do what, Duchess?"

"Don't call me Duchess; just for once be serious."

"I am serious, darling. What is it?"

"D'you remember years ago, when you asked me to marry you? D'you
remember what you said?"

"Might, if you told me. Was I more than ordinarily foolish?"

"You said, 'I need your strength. With you I could be a man.'"

"I'd clean forgotten. Funny way of proposin'--eh?"

"It wasn't funny. That was just what you needed--a woman's strength.
I've tried so hard. But I've sometimes thought----"

"Go on, old lady."

"I've sometimes thought we never ought to have married."

"Don't say that. Don't you find me good enough? Come Jehane, I've not
been a bad sort, now have I?"

"I'm accusing myself. I've tried to help you in wrong ways. I've been
angry and sharp and nervous. You've come home and attempted to kiss me,
and I've driven you out with my temper. And I don't want to do it any
more, and yet----"

"You're upset."

"No, I'm not. I'm speaking the truth. I've been a bad wife and I had to
tell you."

"'Pon my word, can't see how you make that out. You've given me your
money to invest through Wagstaff, so he might think I had capital. And
you've given me children, and----"

"It isn't money that counts. It isn't even children. Heaps of women
whose husbands beat them bear them children. It's that I haven't trusted
you sufficiently. I haven't loved you."

"I've not complained, so I don't see---- But what's put all this into
your head?"

"D'you want to know? Seeing Billy and Nan together. They're so
different--you can feel it. They're really married, while we--we just
live together."

Her voice broke. He put his arms about her, but even then she withdrew
herself from him.

"Just live together! And isn't that marriage? Whether you're cross or
kind to me, Jehane, I'd rather just live with you than be married to any
other woman."

"That's the worst of it--I know you would. And I nag at you and I shall
go on doing it. I feel I shall--and I do so want to do better."

"Won't money make a difference? That's what's the matter with us,
Jehane; we've not had money."

She placed her arms about his neck. "And that's what I started to say,
Ocky. You'll do it this time, won't you?"

"Make money? Rather. I should think so. Was talking to Playfair only
this morning and he---- But look here, what makes you ask that? You'll
take all the stuffing out of me if _you_ begin to doubt. Who's been
saying anything?"

"It isn't what they said."

He lit his pipe and crossed over to the window. In the darkness his
outlined figure looked strangely round-shouldered and ineffectual.
Her heart sank and her hope became desperate. His voice reached her
blustering and muffled. She did wish he would remove his pipe when he
spoke to her.

"I know. I know. Confound him! He's been throwing cold water on my plans
as usual. Wants to see me, does he? Well, if he wants badly enough
to cross London, Ocky Waffles is his man. I shan't go to him. That's
certain."

Jehane strove to believe that his opposition to Barrington was a token
of new strength.

Four days later a note arrived. She was tempted to open it, but it
was addressed to her husband. Directly he came in she placed it in his
hands.

"Read it aloud. What does he say?"

She watched Ocky's face and saw how it faltered; then he hid the
expression behind a mask of cynicism.

"If you won't read it to me, let me read it myself."

He crumpled it into his pocket hurriedly, as though he feared that
she would snatch it from him. When all was safe, he turned toward the
mantel-shelf, hunting for a match.

"Why did you do that?"

"It was addressed to me, wasn't it? Barrington don't let his wife read
his letters, I'll bet. Neither do I; I'm not a lawyer's clerk in an
office any longer--I'm going to be a big man."

"But what did he say?"

Forced to answer, Ocky became reproachful. "Duchess, you're suspecting
me again--you remember what you promised the other night. He says he
wants to see me--thinks there may be something in my plan. Daresay,
he'll offer to put money into it. You may bet, this little boy won't let
him. Of course on the surface he advises caution."

"If that's all, why can't you let me read his letter?"

"Because if I did, I'd be acting as though you didn't trust me. You
could have read it with pleasure, if you hadn't made such a fuss."

Jehane knew his weak obstinacy of old and gave up the contest. "You
won't see him, of course--unless he comes to the house."

"Don't know about that."

"But you were so emphatic."

"I can change my mind, can't I? His letter puts a different complexion
on it."

"But, Ocky, Barrington isn't two-faced. He doesn't say one thing to me
and another thing to you. He may be awkward, but he isn't underhand. If
he's in favor of your schemes now, he must have heard something that's
changed him."

"Not a doubt of it. Very soon a good many people who've thought me small
beer'll hear something."

"But you've not answered my question. Where are you going to see him?"

"Oh, maybe at his office."

Whistling, with feigned cheerfulness, he strolled out. As she watched
him slouch down the road, her fingers itched to correct the angle of his
hat.

That night she searched his pockets and found the letter. It read, "_Mr.
Wagstaff has told me the truth. You must meet me at my place of business
at twelve to-morrow_."

It was capable of the construction her husband had put on it; it was
capable of many others.

Feeling through the coat next morning, searching for his tobacco-pouch,
Ocky was shrewd enough to notice that the letter was in its envelope.
Such neatness was not his habit. When he came back in the evening from
seeing Barrington and Jehane enquired what he had been doing, he handed
her the letter with generous frankness.

"You can read it now. I wanted to be sure before I told you. I was
right. Barrington's been talking to Wagstaif and has heard all about it.
Oh yes, I can tell you, he's a very different Barrington."

"How?"

"He's discovered that Ocky Waffles Esquire is a person to be respected."

She scorned herself for her mean suspicions. He deserved an atonement.
"Ocky, darling, I'm so glad."

As her arms went about him, he patted her on the back. "That's all
right, old Duchess. You'll believe in me now--eh?"

She lifted her face from his shoulder. It was tear-stained with
penitence. "God knows, I've always tried to, Ocky."

He must go her one better in generosity. Having deceived her, he could
afford to be magnanimous.

"You've succeeded, old dear. You've given me your strength and made a
man of me. I'm your doing."




CHAPTER XII--THE 'MAGINATIVE CHILD

The bettering of Mr. Waffles marked the beginning of that intimate and
freakish association which was to shape the careers of the children of
both families. Though their relationship was distant and in the case
of Glory non-existent, they had been taught to regard one another as
cousins. As yet they had met so occasionally and so briefly that they
had not worn off the distrust, half-shy, half-hostile, which is the
common attitude of children toward strangers. From now on they were to
enter increasingly into one another's lives.

Though Barrington had said that it would be fun for Kay and Peter to
have Jehane's children to play with in the garden and Nan had assented,
neither of them had undertaken to tell Kay and Peter. They had promised
them a surprise--that was all. Truth to tell, they had their doubts
about Peter and how he would receive their information; his jealous
air of proprietorship regarding his little sister gave them moments of
puzzled uneasiness.

Years ago, before Kay was born, the doctor had told them, "He's an
imaginative child. Oh dear no, he's quite well. He'll grow out of it."
But he hadn't. He stood by her always, as if he were a wall between her
and some threatened danger. He was not happy away from her; his life
seemed locked up in her life. His tenderness for her was beyond his
years--beautiful and mysterious. In the midst of his play he would still
raise his head suddenly, listening and expectant.

He was odd and gentle in many ways; to his mother his oddness was both
frightening and endearing. Cookie shook her head over him and sighed,
"'E's far away from this old world h'already. I doubt 'e'll never grow
up to man-'ood."

And Grace would reply sharply, "Wot rot!" But she would wipe her eye.

He had a habit of asking questions before guests with startling
directness--asking them with big innocent eyes; they were questions for
which his mother felt bound to apologize: "He's so imaginative; for many
years he was our only child."

Peter, wondering wherein he had done wrong, would sidle up to her when
the guests were gone, inquiring, "Mummy, what is a 'maginative child?"

His father, when he heard him, would laugh: "Now, Peter, don't be
Peterish or you'll make us all cry."

So they did not tell him when his cousins were expected.

He was in the garden, on the grass beneath the cedar, with Kay curled
against him. He was telling her stories--his own inventions. On the
wall, partly hidden in creepers, basking in the sunshine, blinking down
on them through slits of eyes, was a great gray tabby. The tabby was the
subject of the story. One day, returning along the Terrace he had found
her. Her bones were poking through her fur: she was evidently a stray.
He had stopped to stroke her and she had followed. After being fed on
the doorstep, she refused to set off on her wanderings again. Whenever
the door opened, she entered like a streak of lightning. She was
determined to be adopted; though cook had broomed her on to the pavement
many times, she was not to be dissuaded by any harshness of refusal.
It was almost as though she knew that Kay and Peter were her eager
advocates.

With a cat so determined there was only one thing to do; take her out
and lose her. So she was captured by feigned kindness and tied in
a fish-basket; Grace was given a shilling and the fish-basket with
instructions to go on a trip to Hampstead and to leave the fish-basket
behind. Now, whether it was that Grace was more kind-hearted than her
statements, or whether it was that she preferred the company of her
policeman to the fulfilling of her errand, the fact remains that the cat
got back before her. An incredible performance if the basket had really
been left at Hampstead! Grace was circumstantial in the account she
gave; there was nothing for it but to accept her word that a cat had
traveled more swiftly than a train.

Stern methods were employed. Doors were closed against the cat; things
were thrown at it. It was encouraged to go hungry. The children were
forbidden to call it.

One morning Peter jumped out of bed and ran to the window attracted by
a strange noise. Looking down into the garden, he saw a flurry of fur
careering across flowerbeds till it was brought up sharply against the
wall with a bang. The bang was caused by a salmon-tin, in which the cat
had got its head fastened while foraging in a garbage-pail. Before
he could go to its rescue, cook came out with her hostile broom and
commenced the chase. The cat, blinded and maddened, by a miracle of
agility climbed a tree, leapt into a neighboring garden and vanished.

A week later it returned, with a ring about its neck where the jagged
edges of the tin had torn it. Such persistence and loyalty of affection
were not to be thwarted. At first the animal was tolerated; then, as its
manners and appearance improved, it was taken into the family. Because
of its adventures, when a name had to be chosen, Peter's father
suggested Romance. When Romance gave birth to kittens, they were named
after various of the novelists.

The history of Romance, where she went and what she did, was a story
which Kay was never tired of hearing, nor Peter of telling. Blinking
down from the wall on this sunshiny morning, Romance listened with
contented pride to the children, much as an old soldier might whose
campaigning days were ended.

"And what did putty say when Gwacie twied to lost her?"

The 'maginative child was about to answer, when his mother came out
under the mulberry: "Peter. Kay. Oh, there you are! Here's your
surprise."

For a day or two, while the cousins were a novelty, there was nothing
but laughter and delight; but when Peter understood that their visit was
of undetermined length, he began to regard their coming as an intrusion.
Kay and Eustace were of the same age and naturally chose one another
as playmates. Eustace was a fat, dull boy, prone to tears, with his
mother's black eyes and handsome hair, and his father's coaxing ways.
He was only four, but he had it in his power to make Peter, aged ten,
wretched; for Kay developed a will of her own, and cared no more for
Peterish stories now that she could have Eustace for her slave.

So Peter was left to Riska and Glory. His old games for two were
useless; he had to think up fresh inventions in which three might
partake. He had no heart for it; Grace came to the rescue with pious
hints from the Bible.

In the stable by a disused tank, they would enact Jacob's wooing of
Rachel; the tank was the well at which Jacob met her and Romance was the
sheep brought down to be watered--she was, when they could catch her.
But the game nearly always ended in flushed cheeks and protesting
voices. Riska would insist on being Rachel, leaving Glory the undesired
part of Leah, who was sore of eye. Of his two girl-cousins Peter
preferred Glory; Riska was too high-tempered and stormy. So, when he
had served for Rachel seven years and instead had won Leah, he not
infrequently was content to stop, setting Bible history at defiance.

One evening his father, walking beneath the pear-trees, heard voices in
the empty stable. "I won't. I won't," in stubborn tones. "But you shall,
you shall," in a passionate wail.

He opened the door in the wall quietly. Glory was sitting on the ground,
placid eyed, watching a hot-faced little boy who held off a small
girl-cousin, fiercely determined to embrace him. When matters had been
sullenly explained, Barrington drew his son to him: "If a lady asks you
to kiss her, you should do it. It's Peterish not to. But polygamy always
ends in a cry. It's better not to play at it."

Then came the inevitable question: "What is polgigamy, father?"

Grace was asked for a fresh suggestion; the result was Samson and
Delilah. To Peter's way of thinking Riska was quite suited to the r�le
of Delilah. Too well suited! In revenge, before he could stop her, she
cut off Peter's hair at the game's first playing.

During her stay at Topbury she committed many such offences. She was a
lawless little creature, strong of character, a wilful wisp of a child,
and extraordinarily like Jehane. Her fragile eager face, with its coral
mouth and soft dark eyes, could change from demure prettiness to a
flame of anger the moment she was thwarted. Yet, smiling or stormy, her
small-boned body and long black curls made her always beautiful--a wild
and destructive kind of beauty. From the first she claimed Peter as
her sole possession, and Peter---- Well, Peter did his best politely to
avoid her.

Glory was his favorite, though he often seemed to ignore her. She was
the opposite to her half-sister in both appearance and temper. She had
nothing of Jehane in her; nor did she resemble her soldier father. She
was oddly like to Kay and to a man whom her mother had desired with all
her heart. It was strange.

She was gray-eyed and her hair was of a primrose shade. She was tall for
her age--taller than Peter--and carried herself with sweet and subdued
quietness. She said very little and had submissive ways. Her actions
spoke loudly for anyone she loved. They spoke loudly for Peter; but he
scarcely observed them. His eyes were all for Kay. Glory was like his
shadow stealing after him across the sunlight through that month of
June. Her hand was always slipping shyly into his from behind. And she
understood his love for his sister, accepting it without question.

She would go to her small half-brother, "Come along Eustace; Glory wants
to show you something."

"But Eustace wanth to play wiv Kay."

"Eustace can play with Kay directly. Just come with Glory, there's a
dear little boy."

She would nod to Peter knowingly, and smile to him, leading Eustace away
and leaving him alone with Kay.

He could fill her eyes with tears at the least show of irritation; her
persistent following did irritate him sometimes. Once, cross because she
followed, he told her to sit on the stable wall and not to move till he
said she might. Tea-time came and there was no Glory. They searched
the house for her and went out into the garden, calling. Not till Peter
called did she answer; then he remembered why. He remembered years after
the forlornness of that tear-stained face. It was Peterish of him to
forget Glory, and to remember her almost too late.

Nan, sitting sewing in the quiet sunlight, would often drop her work
to watch the children. She noticed how they kept together, yet always
a little separate, acting out the clash of temperaments which they had
inherited from their parents. And she noticed increasingly something
else--something which she never mentioned and which explained Jehane to
her: that astonishing likeness of Glory to Kay, as though they had been
sisters.

She would call Glory to her and, as the child sat at her feet, would
say, "Do you like Peter, darling?"

The honest eyes would be lifted to her own in affirmation.

"Very much?"

"Very much, Auntie."

The girlish hand would slip into her own and presently a faltering voice
would whisper, "But he doesn't like me always. I worry him sometimes."

Nan would call to Peter, "Glory's tired of sitting with mother. She
wants her little tyrant."

As they wandered away across the lawn, she would follow them with her
eyes.

"I hope Jehane's good to her," she said to Barrington. "Seems to be, in
her jealous way."

"She's a nice child."

"Nicer than Riska or Eustace. That's thanks to Captain Spashett."

"Ah, yes," Nan would say.

Mr. Waffles, having moved his belongings to Sandport, came to fetch the
intruders. Peter watched them depart with a sense of relief; now things
would settle back into their old groove.

In July the house at Topbury was closed and the Barringtons went for
their holiday to North Wales. The servants were sent to their homes,
with the exception of Grace. Summer holidays were ecstatic times of
fishing-rods and old clothes, when parents put aside their busy
manners, broke rules and played truant. This particular holiday was
made additionally adventurous by a tandem tricycle, on which Peter was
allowed to accompany his father when his mother was too tired, trying to
catch the pedals with his short legs or riding on the pedals away from
the saddle, when his father was not looking.

He was his father's companion many hours of each day, for Nan was often
tired. His father had plentiful opportunities for judging just how
'maginative was his child.

One morning, on going down to bathe, the sea was rough and Peter,
reluctant to enter and still more reluctant to own it, made the excuse
that he was frightened of treading on a dead sailor.

Peter, after hearing a sermon at the village chapel, grew profoundly
sorry for the Devil. It seemed so dreadful to have to burn for ever and
ever. He made a secret promise to God that he would take the Devil's
place. Then he thought it over for some days in horror; he had been
too generous--he wanted to go back on his bargain. His mother found him
crying one night; she suspected that he had been sleeping little by the
dark blue rings under his eyes. She coaxed him, and he told her.

Another sign of his 'maginativeness was his anxiety to know whether cows
had souls.

"That boy thinks too much," said his father; "he needs to rough and
tumble with other boys of his own age. At ten his worst trouble should
be tummy-ache."

Nan smiled. "But Peter's different, you know."

"I know. But, if he's to grow up strong, he must change. Little woman, I
don't like it."

"Billy boy, I sometimes think it's our doing, yours and mine. When we
put toys in the empty nursery before he was born, before he was thought
of, we were making him a 'maginative child."

"The sins of the parents, eh?"

"Not that. The love of the parents shall be visited upon the children
unto the third and----"

"Pepperminta, you know more about God and Peter and love than I do.
You're right, and you're always right. How is it that you learn so much
by sitting so quiet?"

Matters came to a head through Kay. In the cottage where they stayed,
Peter slept with her in the same bed, in a narrow room beneath a sloping
roof. She was nervous to be left alone there--it was so dark, so far
away, so strange; Peter, a willing martyr, went to bed with her at
the same time. Lying awake in the dark or twilight, he would tell her
stories.

"Listening, Kay?"

"Yeth," in a little drowsy voice.

As she grew more sleepy she would snuggle closer with her lips against
his face, till at last he knew by her regular breathing that his
audience was indifferent to his wildest fancies.

One evening his parents returned from a ride and, entering the house,
heard a stifled sobbing.

"What's that?"

"Must be the children."

"You wait here, Nan. I'll go up and quiet them."

"No, I'll come, up too."

As they climbed the stairs and reached the landing, they made out words
which were in the wailing: "I don't want to be a dead 'un. I don't want
to be a dead 'un."

It was Kay's voice. Peter, leaning over her, was whispering frightened
comfort.

When Nan and Billy had taken them in their arms and lit the candle, the
tragedy was explained. Peter had been enlarging on the magnificence of
heaven and the beauties of the future life. Things went well until
Kay realized that there was no direct communication by trains or
buses between heaven and her parents. She didn't want to go there. Its
magnificence, unshared by anyone she loved, was terrifying. She didn't
want to be a dead 'un. She kept repeating it in spite of Peter's best
efforts at consolation.

It was some time before it was safe to blow the candle out and leave
them. Death was very imminent in their minds.

Downstairs, when it was all over, Billy looked across at Nan, his brow
puckered with annoyance and his lips twitching with laughter. "That
decides it."

"Decides! How? What does it decide?"

"Something that I've thought of for a long time. Peter's too
imaginative. He's not a good companion for Kay."

"How can you say that? We all know how gentle he is with her."

"That's just it. It's good for neither of them. Now that Jehane and Ocky
are at Sandport it makes things easier; they can keep an eye on him."

"An eye on Peter!"

Billy leant across the table, turning down the lamp and turning it up
again. He was gaining time. "It's for his own good. You don't suppose I
like it. It'll be hard for all of us." He spoke huskily.

Nan plucked at the table-cloth. She was almost angry. "You mean that you
want to send him to school at Sand-port--send my little Peterkins away?"

"Sandport's famous for its schools."

"But Billy, you couldn't be so cruel. He's so young and sensitive. His
heart would break."

"Rubbish. I was sent to boarding-school when I was eight. I've
survived."

"You! You were different--but Peter!"

She voiced the common fallacy of mothers, that their husbands as boys
were of coarser fibre than their children. She bowed her head on her
arms beneath the lamp and cried. Her little Peter to be thrust out and
made lonely, simply because he had too much imagination! It was cruel!




CHAPTER XIII--PRICKCAUTIONS

There was no withstanding his questions. Peter had to be told why: it
was because he was too Peterish. He was going for the good of Kay. All
these years in trying so hard to love her, he had been harming her--it
amounted to that as he understood it. He was being sent to school that
he might learn to be like other children--like Riska and Eustace, for
instance.

"When I'm quite like them, can I come home?"

Ah, that was in the future.

Unknowingly he had committed an indiscretion, the penalty for which
was exile--the indiscretion was called "'magination." He felt horribly
ashamed, even though Grace did assure him that some of the very greatest
people had been guilty of the same mistake.

"Why, Master Peter, you're gettin' orf lightly, that you are. There was
once a young fellah as dreamed dreams about sheaves bowin' down to 'im,
and the moon and stars makin' a basin for 'im. D'yer know wot 'appened?"

"I think that's silly," said Peter. "How could the moon and stars make a
basin?"

"'Tain't silly neither, 'cause it says it in the Bible. Any-'ow, when
'e told 'is dreams d'yer know wot 'appened? 'Is h'eleven brethren, they
chucked 'im in a pit--yes, they did. And there 'e'd 'ave stayed for
keeps if it 'adn't been for a passin' circus as saw 'e was queer and put
'im in their show, and took 'im away into Egypt. Oh my, for a boy wiv
'magination, you're gettin' orf light."

"What did he do in the circus? Did he ever come home again?"

"'E grew to be a ruler in h'Egypt and saved 'is pa and ma and eleven
brethren, when they wuz starvin'."

"P'raps I'll do that for all of you one day."

"Yer silly little monkey! There yer go again wiv yer queer sayin's."

Peter had been to the Agricultural Hall in Islington and had seen people
in side-shows without arms and legs: bearded women; elastic-skinned
men; horrid persons with one body and two heads or with a little twin,
without even one head, growing out of their chests and waggling their
pitiful legs. He wasn't like that in his body; but he supposed he must
be something like it inside his head. The belief that he was somehow
deformed made him too humble, too abashed to protest; anything that was
for his little sister's sake must be right. But he wished that
someone had warned him earlier; only in this did he feel himself
betrayed.--Anyhow, never in his wildest fancies had he supposed that the
moon and stars could make basins--and that boy Joseph had turned out all
right. Now he was going to his particular Egypt to get cured.

Taking him on his knee, his father had explained matters. He was to be
a little knight and not to cry. He was to ride out into the world alone
for the good of the lady he loved best. One day he would return to her,
and then----.

With his mother it was different; she wept and quite evidently expected
him to weep too. She didn't want him to go. It was not her doing. She
loved him to be Peterish; she would not have him otherwise. To her he
could confess.

"It's here, mother," tapping his breast; "I can't help it really. But
I'll try."

No, he couldn't help it--that was the worst of it--any more than he
could help hearing the whistling angel. He could pretend that he wasn't
Peter, just as he had pretended not to hear the angel whistle. But he
would not be able to change; he could only learn to wear a disguise. If
school could teach him to do that, years hence he might prove worthy to
live again at Topbury. Because he felt that he was to blame, he strove
to be very brave; if his eyes filled with tears sometimes, it wasn't
because he wanted them to.

The respite shortened. Letters passed to and fro between his father
and Uncle Waffles, between his mother and Aunt Jehane. Their contents,
discussed at the breakfast table, cast a gloom over all the day. Many
schools were offered, but the best for Peter's particular case was one
kept by Miss Lydia Rufus. Aunt Jehane would look after his clothes, and
he could spend his Saturdays at Madeira Lodge.

Madeira Lodge! That was the house at Sandport which sheltered Uncle
Waffles. It was stamped in red letters at the top of his note-paper and
proclaimed magnificence. It rather tickled Peter's father's sense of
humor.

"Anything from Madeira Lodge 'smorning?" he would say, with a twinkle,
as he sorted out the letters. "But why stop half-way in intemperance?
Why not Port Wine Terrace, Moselle Park, in the town of Champagne?
Ocky's too modest."

Or he would say, "Lord Sauterne of Beer Castle informs his nephew that
Miss Rufus's pupils require a Bible, an Eton suit and two pairs of
house-shoes."

Peter would greet his father's jokes with a strained but gallant little
smile. "We men must keep up the women's courage," his father had told
him.

It was hard to keep up other people's courage when your own was down to
zero.

By the time they left the cottage in North Wales everything had been
arranged. There was just one short fortnight left in which to get
Peter's wardrobe together, mark his linen and finish off his mending
and sewing. The mornings were spent in visits to shops, where boots and
gloves and suits were fitted on and purchased. A knight when he rides
into the world alone must set out duly caparisoned.

And Peter was thankful for the rush and muddle; he found it increasingly
difficult not to cry, especially when his mother strained him to her
breast and gazed down on him lovingly with her dear wet eyes. He was
glad that people should have so much to do, for he hardly knew how to
conduct himself since the discovery of his awful blemish. He was afraid
to show his affection for his little sister in the old fond ways, and he
could think of no new ways of showing it.

He had come to the last day. It was one of those days when summer droops
her eyes and confesses that she has grown old. There was just a hint
of tears in the sky--a blue film of vapor which softened the valiant
smiling of grass and leaves decaying. In the garden the last of the
roses were falling and Virginia creeper lay like crusted blood upon the
walls. It was as though summer, like a spendthrift woman, put red upon
her cheeks to pretend she was not dying. Peter, in his sensitive way,
was conscious of the sadness of this vain pretending, this mimicking a
beauty that was gone. He was doing the same: preparing for to-morrow
and at the same time trying to persuade himself that the present was
forever--that to-morrow would never dawn.

He ran up and down the house trying to seem merry and excited, watching
his boxes being corded, laughing and chattering--talking of when
he would return for Christmas. "We men must keep up the women's
courage"--one of the women was Kay. He was doing his best to be a little
knight; it hurt sometimes, especially when his mother looked up from
fitting socks and shoes into odd corners of his boxes, unhappy and
surprised. She must think him hard-hearted; she should never guess.

After lunch, having watched his opportunity, he slipped out of the house
without letting anyone know where he was going. His face was set in a
solemn expression of serious determination. He scuttled down the Terrace
and down the Crescent, till he came within sight of the cab-stand; he
was relieved to find that Mr. Grace, as he called Grace's father, was
disengaged. Mr. Grace was a fat, red-faced man, and like many fat and
red-faced men had his grievance. His appearance was against him. People
judged him circumstantially and said that he drank. Even Grace said it.
His stand was suspiciously near Topbury Cock. But most cab-stands are
near to some public house. Peter had become his very dear friend and to
him Mr. Grace had opened his heart, denying all charges and imputing the
redness of his countenance to the severity of his calling and exposure
to the weather.

Mr. Grace was asleep on his box, his face stuffed deep in his collar,
the reins sagging from his swollen hands as if at any minute he might
drive off. When Peter spoke to him, he jumped himself together. "Keb,
sir. Right y'are, sir. H'I'm ready------ Well, I'm blessed! Strike me
blind, if it ain't the little master."

Peter spread apart his legs, thrusting his hands deep in his
knickerbocker pockets. "I'm going to be sent away, Mr. Grace, and I'm
worried."

Mr. Grace twisted his head, as if trying to lengthen his fat neck;
finding that impossible, he shifted his ponderous body nearer to the
edge of the seat and regarded Peter with his kind little pig's eyes.

"Worried, Mr. Peter? Well, I never!"

"I'm worried for Kay--I shan't be here to take care of her." His voice
fluttered, then steadied itself as he lifted up his head and finished
bravely.

"We'll do that, Master Peter. You kin rely on an old friend."

"Thank you, Mr. Grace; that was what I was going to ask you. If anyone
was to run away with her, they'd come to you to drive them. Wouldn't
they?"

"Not a shadder of a doubt. I drives all the best people in Topbury."

"These wouldn't be 'zactly the best people--not if they were stealing
Kay."

"All the better; the easier for me to spot 'em. Any par-tickler pusson
you suspeck of 'aving wicked designs upon 'er?"

"No one in particular, Mr. Grace. I was just frightened that I might
come home and find her gone."

"What one might call a prickcaution?"

"I think that's what I meant."

Mr. Grace's neck had become sore with looking down, so he tempted Peter
to come on the box. Puffing and blowing, he gave him a hand to help him.

When they were seated side by side, Mr. Grace looked fondly at the curly
head and straight little body. "I shall miss yer."

"And I shall miss you. It's nice to be missed by somebody."

"I shall miss yer 'cause you've been my prickcaution."

"I?"

"Yas, you. You've been my prickcaution against my darter, Grace. She's
thought better o' me since we've been friends. And then----"

"I'm glad she's thought better of you. And then, what?"

"Well, you kep me informed as to 'er nights out, so I could h'escape."

Peter regarded his friend in surprise. "Escape! But she wouldn't hurt
you."

"Not h'intendin' to, Master Peter; not h'intendin' to. It's me feelin's
h'I refer to. You don't know darters. 'Ow should yer?--She thinks I
drink, like all the rest of 'em 'cept you. On 'er nights h'out she
brings 'er blooming Salvaition Band to this 'ere corner, h'aimin' at my
con-wersion. It's woundin' and 'umiliatin', Master Peter, for a pa as
don't need no conwersion. She makes me blush all through, and that makes
things wuss for a man wi' a red compleckshon. So yer see, you wuz my
prickcaution."

"But you don't drink, Mr. Grace, do you?"

"No more 'an will wash me mouf out same as a 'orse. It's cruel 'ard to
be suspickted o' wot yer don't do."

Peter looked miserably into the kind little pig's eyes. "I'm suspected
too. That's why I'm being sent away."

"O' wot?"

"They call it 'magination."

"Ah!"

"Why do you say _ah_ like that?"

"'Cause it's wuss'n drink--much wusser. But take no more'n will wash yer
mouf out and yer'll be awright. That's my principle in everythin'----
Master Peter, this makes us close friends, don't it? We're both
misonderstood. I----"

Just then a fare came up--an old lady, very full in the skirt, with
parcels dangling from her arms in every direction.

"Keb, keb, keb. Oh yes, my 'orse is wery safe. No, 'e don't bite and 'e
won't run away. Eh? Oh, I'm a wery good driver. Eh? Three to you, mum;
four bob to anyone else. Am I kind to 'im? I loves 'im like me own
darter.--See yer ter-morrow, Master Peter.--Gee, up there. Gee up, I
tell yer."

Peter sought out Grace's policeman on his beat and made him the same
request with respect to Kay. Then he saw the Misses Jacobite and warned
them. Having done his best for her safety in his absence, he hurried
home.

The evening went all too fast--seven, eight, nine, ten. Every hour the
clock struck he felt something between a thrill and a shiver (a "shrill"
he called it) run up and down his spine. "_The end. The end. The end_,"
the clock seemed to be saying over and over, so that he wanted to get up
and shriek to stop it. Oh, that a little boy could seize the spokes and
stay the wheels of time!

"Tired, Peter? Hadn't you better----"

"Oh, not yet! Please, just another five minutes."

"The dustman's come to my Peterkin's eyes," his mother murmured.

He sat up, valiantly trying to look wakeful.

They had not the heart to cut short his respite--it was such an eternity
till Christmas. His head sank against his mother's knees and his eyes
closed tightly, tightly.

"Poor little fellow," his father said.

"My darling little Peterkins"--that was his mother.

They carried him up to bed. On the half-landing, outside the nursery
door, they halted, remembering how their dreams had shaped his character
long before God had made his body.

Next morning, soon after breakfast, Mr. Grace drove up to the door as
he had promised. He drove all the best people of Topbury to their
battlefields of joy or sorrow. He was Topbury's herald of change, and
had learnt to control his emotions under the most trying circumstances.
But this morning, when the straight little figure came bravely down the
steps, something happened to Mr. Grace's eyes.

"Good-bye, darlingest mother. Good-bye, little kitten Kay. Good-bye.
Good-bye. Good-bye."

"Jump in, old man," his father said.

The door banged.

"Yer awright?" asked Mr. Grace.

"We're all right," said Peter's father.

"Kum up." Mr. Grace tugged savagely on the reins. "Kum up, carn't yer?"
He had to vent his feelings some way.

"Dammitall," he growled as his "keb" crawled down the Terrace,
"dammitall. It'll taik more 'an this fare's worf to wash me mouf out
this time. It's got inter me froat. 'Ope I ain't goin' to blub. Dammit!"




CHAPTER XIV--PETER IN EGYPT

Miss Lydia Rufus was a prim person. Judging from her appearance one
would have said that in her case virtue was compulsory through lack
of opportunity. And yet she had had her "accident"--that was how she
referred to it in conversations with her Maker. No one in Sandport, save
herself and God, knew about it. It had happened ten years before Peter
became her pupil. The "accident" had been born anonymously, as one might
say, and had been brought up _incognito_. After the first unavoidable
preliminaries for which her presence was indispensable, she and the
"accident" had separated. She hardly ever dared to see it, for she
was alone in the world and had her living to earn--to do that one must
appear respectable.

For a woman of such bristling righteousness to have been so yielding as
to have had an "accident" was almost to her credit: it was in the nature
of a _tour de force_, like sword-swallowing, passing a camel through the
eye of a needle or any other form of occult acrobatics. It was a miracle
in heart-magic. And often in the night her heart went out in longing for
the child whom she dared not acknowledge. In her soul, which most people
regarded as an ice-house, a sanctuary was established with an altar of
mother-love, on which the candles of yearning were kept burning. This
chapter in her secret history would never have been mentioned had she
not made Peter the proxy of her "accident," because he was ten and
because he was handsome.

It was lucky for Peter. Her usual attitude toward children was one of
condemnation. She expiated her own sin by uprooting the old Adam from
the hearts of her pupils. In her vigor and diligence she often uprooted
flowers. For the rest, she was a High Church woman, wore elastic-sided
boots and never permitted anything to be placed on a Bible. Her system
of education was one of moral straight-jackets.

Peter found himself in a cramped new house, in a raw new street, on the
outskirts of a jerry-built town. The wind seemed always to be blowing
and, in whichever direction he walked, he always came to sand. It was
as though this place had been planted in a desert that escape might
be impossible. Twenty other little boys, about his own age, were his
fellow-captives. When the school was marched out, walking two abreast,
with Miss Rufus sternly bringing up the tail of the procession, he would
meet other crocodiles of boys and girls, sedately parading, followed
by their warders. These public promenades were a part of the school's
advertisement; deportment was strictly observed. Sandport, as Peter knew
it, was a settlement for convict-children.

Miss Rufus soon formed the habit of keeping him to walk with her. At
first this caused him embarrassment. Little by little--how was it?--he
became aware that with him she was different. As the mood took her,
she spoke to him sharply, was merely forbidding, or was so kind that he
forgot the sourness of her corrugated countenance and the ugly color of
her hair. It was instinctive with him to treat all women as he did his
mother, with quaint chivalry and forethought. An attitude of gallantry
in a pupil was something new to Miss Rufus.

When they came to the miles of beach, all tawny like a golden mantle
spread out with a thread of silver in the far, far distance where the
sea washed its hem, instead of going to romp with the other boys he sat
himself down beside her.

"Go and play," she told him.

"But you'd be alone, mam."

"I was always alone before you came."

"But I'm here now."

He stood before her laughing, with his cap in his hand and the wind in
his hair. He showed no fear of her--that was not his way with strangers.
She gazed in his face--the gray eyes, the flushed cheeks, the red mouth.
This was not the sullen little slave of her normal experience. In spite
of herself, his bright intelligence and willingness to be loved stirred
something in her breast. If she had not cared what people had thought
of her--if she had been brave, her child might have been like that. Her
chapped, coarse-grained features grew wistful. Peter, looking at her, saw
only a disagreeable, faded woman with red hair.

"You don't like me, do you?"

"Us'ally I like everyone," said Peter; "I don't know you yet."

"I'm a cross old woman. If you don't mind losing your play, you can come
and sit beside me."

And Peter sat down. It was dull for him. Across the sands boats on
wheels raced with spread sails, dashing toward the silver thread.
Ponies, which you could hire for a few pennies, were galloping up and
down. Across the flat beach, like a monstrous centipede, with trestles
for legs, the long pier crawled with its head in the sea and its tail
on land. And the pier had its own delirious excitements: on show, in the
casino at the end, was a troop of performing fleas who drove one another
in the tiniest of hansom-cabs. Peter knew because a lady-flea, named
Ethel, had been lost; a reward for her recovery was advertised all over
Sandport. Ten shillings were offered and hundreds of fleas had been
submitted for inspection. Peter had a wild dream that he might find
Ethel: with ten shillings he could escape to London from this Egypt of
exile in the sand.

Miss Rufus broke in on his reverie. She had been wondering how anyone
who had the right to Peter could be so foolish as to do without him.

"Why did they send you?"

"Send me to you?"

"Yes."

"Because I made Kay cry about heaven."

"Humph! D'you know what it says about heaven in the Bible?--that there's
no marriage. Was that what she cried about?"

"Kay wouldn't cry about a thing like that. She's my little
sister--littler than me--and she's never going to marry. We're going
to live together always and have chipped potatoes and sausages for
breakfast."

A smile twisted the thin straight lips of the sallow woman; it was the
first that Peter had seen there. It was almost tender--like a thing
forgotten coming back.

He laughed--he was always ready to laugh at himself. "You think that's
funny? Father thinks it's funny, too. He says, 'Peterkins, Peterkins,
time'll change all that.' But it won't you know, 'cause we mean it
truly."

"But wouldn't it be very sad not to marry? Wouldn't you like one day to
have a little boy just like yourself?"

He shook his head. "I'm an awful worry. No, I don't think so. But I'd
like to have a little girl like Kay--and I'll have her, anyhow."

The arm of the sallow woman stole round his shoulder. "Who says you're
an awful worry?"

"That's why I'm here, you know. I worried them with my queer questions.
When I'm the same as other people, they'll let me come back."

"I don't think you're a worry. I hope you'll never be like anyone else."

"But you mustn't say that, 'cause you're to change me. I'm glad you like
me."

"Then be glad I love you," she whispered.

The lonely woman's heart opened to Peter. He told her all about Kay and
Grace and Romance; he thought she ought to know everything since she
was to cure him. But instead of curing him she almost--almost made him
worse.

There was a strange furtiveness in their relation; the other boys must
not suspect. Miss Rufus despised favoritism; she tried to be very hard
on Peter in lesson-hours. He understood and smiled to himself.

He was terribly homesick. He wanted Kay badly. He wanted to hear her
laughter. He marked each hour by what they were doing at Topbury. Now
they were sitting down to breakfast; now Kay was going with his mother
shopping; now the dinner was being set and his father's key was
grating in the latch. Sounds and smells would bring sudden and stabbing
remembrance. He would hear the garden with the dead leaves rustling, see
the nursery gleaming in the firelight and a little girl being made ready
for bed. Oh, she must be frightened without Peter, at the top of that
tall dark house!

At night, when Miss Rufus broke her rule against favoritism and,
stealing to his room, pressed his head against her bony breast while he
said his prayers, it was then that he thought of his mother with most
poignancy.

But he was to be a little knight, so those weekly letters which
commenced "_My Beloveds_," were written stoutheartedly. They must never
guess. But Nan saw the tremble in the sprawling hand and the blots,
where diluted ink had spread.

"Billy boy, we must have him back, I can't bear it."

"Nonsense, darling. The chap's quite happy."

"He isn't. He isn't. And you know it. Kay wants him--she's fretting.
I want him, and you want him as much as any of us. I want to hear his
footsteps on the stairs, to see his clothes lying about, and--and----"

"But it isn't what we want, little Nan; it's what's best for him. He's
as nervous as a cat--always has been. Give him a year of sea-air."

Nan missed him terribly. No merry voice awoke her in the morning.
The ceiling above her bed never shook with childish prancing. Kay, by
herself, was very quiet. She was always asking where was Peter: had he
gone to heaven?

But it was when she came home at nightfall along the Terrace that Nan's
longing was most intense. Childhood would be all too short at best. Too
soon the years would take him from her. One day she would give anything
for just one evening of the joy that she now might have. Who could
tell what the future held? An old woman, grayheaded, she would sit and
whisper to herself,

          "Oh, to come home once more, when the dusk is falling,

               To see the nursery lighted and the children's table spread;

          'Mother, mother, mother!' the eager voices calling,

               'The baby was so sleepy that she had to go to bed!'"

Thinking these thoughts, Nan would sink her face in her hands,
foretasting the solitude that was surely coming.

But it was for Peter's good, his father said. He looked very intently at
the Dutch landscape by Cuyp, seeking quiet from it, when he said it.

As for curing him, Miss Rufus was the wrong person to do that. Peter was
aware of it. He had made her as bad as himself. He had set her loving.
He must look for help elsewhere.

On Saturdays Mr. Waffles called for him--quite a splendid Mr. Waffles
with soaped mustaches and rather shabby spats. He was taken to Madeira
Lodge, shiny with its newly purchased highly polished furniture. In
the afternoons he walked with Mr. Waffles to Birchdale, where the dunes
stretched away in billows of sand and the air was always blowy. In the
evenings he played with his cousins till it was time to return to Miss
Rufus. Across the road from Madeira Lodge was a Methodist Chapel and
beside it a plot of waste land. To this place he would escape when
he got the chance. The grass grew rank; it was easy to hide among the
withered evening-primroses. He had come to a great conclusion: no one
but God could cure him. There, behind the Methodist Chapel, he argued
with God about it, praying for Kay's sake that he might be made well.
Nothing happened--perhaps because Glory found him and, having found
him, was always following him to his place of hiding. He pledged her
to secrecy, told her his trouble and asked her advice about it. But she
only stared with dumb love in her eyes and shook her quiet head.

Of his longing to return he did not dare to speak to Miss Rufus--she was
too fond of him. Nor must he mention it in his letters. Aunt Jehane--ah,
well, she spoke of his parents as though they were entirely mistaken
about everything. She was always trying to prove to him how much more
broad-minded, clever and generous she and Uncle Waffles were. Her
jealous nature prompted her to steal the boy's heart by every expedient
of kindness and flattery. She told him scandal about her neighbors.
She spoke of love between boys and girls. She made him kiss Glory and
laughed at his awkwardness. She gave him special treats at his meals.
She boasted about her husband, saying how well he was getting on and how
much he would do for Peter. And she did all this that Peter might tell
her that he was happier at Sandport than at Topbury.

Peter couldn't tell her that. He had commenced her acquaintance with
a prejudice. He could never forget that she had once been the smacking
lady. He watched her with his cousins, how she was foolishly lenient
or foolishly severe, but wise never. She allowed herself to punish them
unjustly; but if anyone, even their father, blamed them, they were "My
Eustace" and "My girls." Especially was this the case with Glory, in
whose making Mr. Waffles could claim no share. She could always humble
his uncle by speaking regretfully of Captain Spashett.

For Uncle Waffles Peter had a fellow sympathy; it was to him he turned.
On those walks among the sand-hills they had fine talks together.

"Old son, I did a big stroke of business this week. Oh yes, I tell you,
this little boy knows his way about town. Had two more acres offered
me, and borrowed money for the purchase. They're a long way out, but
Sandport'll grow to them. Now what d'you know about that?"

Uncle Waffles was often confessional with Peter and always exuberant. He
asked his opinion on business affairs as though his opinion mattered. He
seemed to keep nothing back, even touching on things domestic.

"You mustn't think I'm complaining of the Duchess. She's a snorter. But,
you know, she's never understood me. I'm taking her in hand though, and
educating her up to my standard. When first I knew her, she seemed to
think that loving was wicked. Now what d'you know about that?"

Peter watched for the results of the educating and was disappointed.
When Uncle Waffles tried to kiss Aunt Je-hane, she still drew aside her
head, saying, "Don't be silly, Ocky." She left the room when he began
to tell his latest funny story. It was odd, if he was really successful,
that she should always treat him like that.

And there were other secrets Peter learnt--that his uncle had an obscure
disease which no one must mention. His uncle was very brave and laughed
about it. It could be kept in check, so long as he took his "medicine"
regularly. His "medicine" could be obtained at any public house and was
frequently obtained on those Saturday excursions to and from Birchdale.
When Glory accompanied them, Uncle Waffles contrived to do without it.

At Christmas Peter was put in charge of the guard and returned to
Topbury. The month that followed was epoch-making--a bitter pleasure.
Like a man living on his capital, he was always reckoning how much was
left. And then the respite ended and the exile in Egypt recommenced.

He clenched his hands. He would not cry. And yet----.

It was Kay he wanted. His whole life was wrapt up in her.

The first day back at school he noticed that one of his companions was
absent. The second and the third day passed; then the news leaked
out that he was dead. It dawned on Peter that death was a peril that
threatened everybody. No amount of care on the part of Mr. Grace or the
policeman could shield Kay from it. The thought became a nightmare. Miss
Rufus discovered that he was unhappy; he cried at night in bed. She was
hurt; but, when he told her, she was more gentle with him than ever.

Midway through the term a telegram arrived. Its message was broken to
him by Uncle Waffles. Kay was dangerously ill and calling for him; he
was to go back.

A drizzling rain hung over London. The streets were clogged with mud,
and gas-lamps shone drearily through the drifting murk. Throughout the
long and dismal journey he had sat pale-faced; in the intervals between
praying he had told himself that, were she to die, he would never
forgive his father for having separated him from her. He was stunned and
yet fiercely rebellious. In spite of his desperate hope, he was prepared
for the worst.

At the station Grace met him. Indiscreet through grief, she told him how
from the first of her three days' illness his little sister had never
ceased calling for him.

"'Er temp'rature's runned up with fretting, poor lamb; but you was
allaws h'able to quiet 'er, Master Peter."

Before the cab had halted on the Terrace, Peter was up the steps.
Someone had been behind the blinds, watching; the door opened almost
before he had rung the bell. His father stood before him. In his hot
anger Peter dodged beneath his arm and commenced to mount the stairs. If
he had been there, he felt sure, this would not have happened.

From the room in which she had been born came the heavy smell of
eucalyptus. Peter opened the door; a fire was burning, as when he had
first found her there. A cot was drawn up to the fire and from it came
a ceaseless tired wailing. In the wailing he made out his name, uttered
over and over. As he ran forward, his mother rose to put her arms about
him. He rushed past her: she did not count. Bending over the cot, he
gazed into the flushed face. The hoarse voice stopped. The lips, cracked
with fever, pressed against his mouth.

"Little Kay, it's truly Peter. He's never going to leave you."

From the moment he touched her, she began to mend.

Some days later, when relief from suspense left leisure for attention to
other matters, Mr. Barrington wrote to Miss Rufus, saying that his son
would not return. In reply he received a curious confidence. She had
advertised her school for sale, and it was Peter's doing. Peter had
taught her that, except love, nothing mattered.

Peter's father had seen Miss Rufus; he thought that love on her lips
was an odd word. Couldn't one love and still keep a school? It was very
_Peterish_ of Peter to make a lady with a corrugated countenance do
a thing like that. Something lay behind the letter. Later, when the
scandal had become public, Jehane informed them what that something was.

Peter's father felt penitent. He took his son between his knees, resting
his hand on his curly head, and gazed at him intently as though for the
first time he was beginning to know him.

"Have you forgiven me, little chap?" Then, "I was mistaken about you.
Your mother was right. Go on being _Peterish_ to your heart's content.
We love you best like that."

To Nan he said, "You should have seen that woman. She was barbed wire
all round--impregnable. Absolutely. But Peter--well! We've got a queer
little shrimp for our son and heir."




CHAPTER XV--MARRIED LIFE

Peter went laughing through the spring-world--it had become all
kindness. In some strange way he had saved Kay's life. Everybody said
so. He did not know how. And now she was strong and well--more his than
ever.

"'Appy, Master Peter? H'always 'appy," Mr. Grace would say when they met
on the cab-stand.

Yes, Peter was always happy now. His eyes were blue torches of joy which
burnt up other people's sadness. His golden little motherkins forgot her
dread of when he would become a man; she held him tightly in the nest
at Topbury, surrounding him with her gentle love. His father showed his
affection in a man's fashion by making Peter his friend. And Kay, racing
down the garden-path and dancing with the flowers in the sunshine, put
the feeling which they all experienced into words, "The joy's gone into
my feet, Peter; I'm so glad."

Never again would anyone suspect him of harming her. He could gather
her to him and tell her tales to his heart's content. And what games
of pretending they played together! The old-fashioned garden became a
forest of limitless expanse and the house a castle. Kay was a princess
in danger and Peter was a knight who came to her rescue. Peter taught
his mother and father his pretence-language, so that they might play
their part as king and queen of the castle. Peter's father learnt
that he did not go to business in the morning, but to the wars. In
the evening, when he returned, he would sometimes see two merry
faces watching for him from the top-windows--the top-windows were the
battlements. Then he felt that, grown man though he was, he ought to
prance up the Terrace, as his legs would have done had they been really
those of a royal charger.

Peter had brought back the spirit of fun-making to Top-bury. In the
garden by day, where the wind whispered round the walls, and the trees
let in glimpses of high-flying clouds, and in the nursery at twilight,
where the laburnum leant her arms on the window-sill to listen, nodding
her golden tassels, he created his imaginary world. Here the king
and queen would join them almost shyly, as if they feared that their
presence might disturb. They came hand-in-hand on tiptoe. Peter noticed
how different they were from Aunt Jehane and Uncle Waffles: they were
never tired of being lovers.

"Please, Peter, we want to be your little boy and girl. May we hear your
story?"

The invisible arms of the threatened death had drawn them very near
together. Like the spring about them, their hearts were emotional with
exultant tenderness.

Like all children, Kay and Peter had their place of hiding, where they
lived their most secret world. It was the loft above the unused stable.
One had to climb up boxes and scramble through a hole in the ceiling to
get to it. It was thick in dust and cob-webs, but they cleaned a space
where they could sit and pretend it was their house and that they were
married. There was only one window, smothered in ivy, looking out on the
garden. From here they could observe whether anyone was coming. There
were chinks in the floor which served as spy-holes; through one of them
they could see the stall in which the tandem-tricycle was kept. They
planned to explore all manner of countries when Kay's legs were long
enough to reach the pedals.

"Can't think where you kiddies get to," their father said; "I believe
it's somewhere in the stable. I've been calling and calling'."

And Peter laughed, for he knew that grown people were far too sensible
to think of climbing into the loft in search of them. Only one grown
person was so adventurous--but that comes later.

When letters arrived from Sandport they were usually addressed to Nan;
as a rule the first post brought them, and she would read out extracts
as they sat at breakfast.

They were curious letters, written in a jealous spirit, but intended to
create an impression of contentment. They were in the nature of veiled
retorts which said, "So you see, my husband's as good as yours." Without
knowing it, they betrayed envy. If Nan had given news concerning the
doings of herself, Billy or her children, Jehane would reply with
parallel details concerning her family. Just as in conversation she
spoke of her husband as Mr. Waffles, as though the very name were a
title inspiring awe, so in correspondence she quoted his opinions, as a
loving wife would the sayings of a man she worshiped. Jehane wrote
less and less in the mood of spontaneous friendship; if she had nothing
better to say, one wondered that she took the trouble to write at all.
Probably she did it out of habit and, perhaps, in order to hoodwink
herself.

And she was evasive. Questions as to how Ocky's enterprise was
progressing were left unanswered--in place of answers were loose
optimistic statements. A letter from Sandport usually brought with it an
atmosphere of annoyance. Nan exercised her tact in selecting portions to
be read aloud. It was in keeping with Ocky's character that, even when
Barrington had written himself, Jehane did the replying, saying that her
husband was very busy at present with new developments.

One morning Nan passed a letter down the table without comment.
Barrington's brows drew together in a frown; halfway through reading it
he flung it from him.

"Another! Well, I must say they might have waited until they knew
whether they could afford----"

Nan interrupted him quietly. "Billy, not before----"

She glanced at the children.

When they were supposed to have forgotten what their father had said,
Kay and Peter were informed--Aunt Je-hane had another little girl.

That evening the king and queen of the castle talked together after the
knight and the princess had been put to bed.

"They've no right to do a thing like that--bringing another child into
the world. Jehane doesn't love him. It's my belief she never has. The
thing's sordid. What chance will the little beggar have? It puts the
whole business of marriage on a level with the animals. Ugh!"

They were sitting beneath the mulberry in the cool dusk. From far away,
like waves lapping against the walls of a precipice in a cranny of which
they had found shelter, the weary complaint of London reached them.
Within his own house, with his wife and children, Barrington felt lifted
high above all that. He hated this intrusion of strife and ugliness.

Nan's arm stole round his neck; she had never lost the shyness with
which she had given him her first caress. "Billy, old boy, you mustn't
be angry with them--only sorry. Don't you know we're exceptional."

"Not so exceptional as all----"

"Yes--as all that. How many wives and husbands are lovers after they've
been married ten years?"

"Never tried to count."

"How many then would choose one another again if they could begin
afresh?"

"Begin afresh, with full knowledge of everything that was to happen?"

"Yes."

"Not many."

"Then, who are we to judge? We should just be thankful for ourselves and
sorry for----"

"But it's the children I'm thinking of--children who aren't wanted,
begotten by parents who don't want one another."

The silence was broken by Nan. "Perhaps, Jehane was a child like
that. I've often thought it. She's always been so hungry--hungry for
affection."

"Hungry--but jealous. She doesn't go the right way to work to get it."

"She hasn't learnt; no one ever taught her. She's married; yet she's
still on the raft.--Billy, I want you to do something for her."

"Me--for her?"

"I want you to ask her, as soon as she's well, to come here to Topbury
with the baby. She's tired. I can feel it in her letters. I'd like to
help her."

"She'll only misconstrue your help--you know that. She'll bore us to
tears by boasting about Ocky."

"And won't that be to her credit?"

"To her credit, but beastly annoying. If she'd only believe in him to
his face and cease shamming that she's proud of him behind his back,
matters might mend. She won't let us make her affairs our business. Some
day, when it's too late, she may have to. That's what I'm afraid of."

But, when Jehane came, she set that fear at rest. It was impossible not
to believe that Ocky's feet were on the upward ladder: she was better
dressed, happier and had money to spend. She wore presents of jewelry
which her husband had given her--so she said. The money, she told them,
was the result of speculations which Ocky had made for her with the
little capital left by Captain Spashett. She spoke with enthusiasm
of his cleverness. And the happiness--that was because Barrington had
invited her personally. Naturally she kept this knowledge to herself.

Nan had planned to encompass her with the atmosphere of affection.
Little gifts from Jehane, received in her girlhood, were set about the
bedroom to awaken memories--to let her know how well she was remembered.
Jehane noticed the carefully thought out campaign--the efforts that were
made to win her. She wondered what it all meant; then she realized and
was touched.

Nan sat wistfully beside her friend, watching the baby being put to
bed. She kissed its little limbs with a kind of reverence and ministered
humbly to its helplessness. When Jehane pressed its eager lips
against her breast, Nan's eyes filled with tears. Jehane looked up
questioningly.

"I shall never have another," Nan said.

Jehane stretched out her hand and drew Nan to her. She could be
magnanimous when for once she found her lot coveted. When the baby had
been fed and was being laid in its cot, Nan slipped to the window and
leant out, gazing across the roofs of Holloway to Hampstead where the
sun hung red.

There was no warning. She felt lips on her cheeks, lips violently
kissing her ears and neck. She turned with a throaty laugh. "You haven't
done that for ages."

"Not kissed you? Of course I have."

Nan shook her head. "Not like that, as though you wanted to. You haven't
done it since we were girls."

Jehane, half-ashamed of her impulsiveness, looked away. "We've been too
busy to make a fuss. But the feeling's been there."

"I don't call that making a fuss--and it isn't because we've been busy.
We've been drifting apart--playing a game of hide and seek with one
another." Then, before Jehane could become casual, "I do so want to be
friends."

"And aren't we friends?"

"Not in the old sense. We're hard and suspicious, and doubt one
another."

"Then let's be friends in the old sense, you dear little Nan."

Like Peter, when Nan had made up her mind to be tender, no one could
resist her. She treated Jehane with sweet envy, because of the baby on
her breast. She made believe that Jehane was fragile, and kept her in
bed for breakfast. After Barrington had been seen off to business, she
went up to help her dress. It was in this hour that Jehane was most
confessional. She recalled the dreamy Oxford days, with their desperate
dreams of love, when life was unexperienced. She even spoke of the great
disillusion that had followed; she spoke in general terms to include all
wives and husbands. She spoke of Waffles as he had been, only that she
might praise him as he had become. Her fierce loyalty to him, her
wilful consistency in shutting her eyes to his faults, was a form of
self-respect which never faltered. Nan found a difficulty in pretending
that he was all that was claimed for him; they both knew that he was
not. Still, she was convinced that he was mending.

Barrington, noticing the change in Jehane, said, "There are only two
things that could do it: money or love. It isn't love, so we have to
believe that it's----"

But it was love--love for Barrington and the effect of being near him.
Even she herself wondered at how the old infatuation had lasted. Her
very bitterness had been a form of love. Now that he went out of his
way to be kind to her all the passion in her responded--but she had to
disguise its response.

At night, with another man's child in her arms, she lay awake. In
the darkness and silence she told herself stories, juggling with
circumstances.

Once she heard a tapping on her door. She crouched against the wall,
shuddering.

The handle turned. Nan stood on the threshold. "I thought I heard you
moving."

Guilty and angry, Jehane said nothing. Nan groped her way toward the bed
and found it empty.

"Jehane, Janey," she called.

Then she saw her, stooped to her and caught her in her arms, begging for
an explanation. Just as once, when she had asserted, "Jehane I _did_,
I _did_ play fair," so now she got no answer--only, "I'm stupid, dear;
I'll be better in the morning."

Cold with alarm, Nan crept downstairs and hid herself in Billy's
arms. He was too sleepy to give the matter much attention. "She's odd,
darling. Never understood her. Poor old Ocky!"

The intoxication and the madness were gone. Fear had come. Any moment
they might guess. With fear came contrition: she would idolize her
husband more, till he became for her the man he was not. Next morning
she surprised Nan by announcing that she was homesick for Ocky, that her
things were packed and she would return to Sand-port at once. There
was no dissuading her. In her heart she had determined to wipe out her
faithlessness by educating her husband into largeness by love.

When the train had moved out of the station Billy stared at Nan puzzled.
"Really does look as if she'd grown fond of him! Eh what?"

Nan squeezed his arm. "Perhaps she always was fond of him and we were
sceptics."

"She may be now. She wasn't."

"Is it because he's got money?"

"Does make a difference, doesn't it?"

Nan pressed against him and looked up laughing. "Between you and me it
wouldn't."

"Think not?"

"Never."

Hidden in a cab, he caught her to him. "You darling!" She held him from
her, blushing. "But why now? What's this for?"

"Jehane makes me thankful for what I've got."

That evening a man moved along the Terrace, halted as though he were
minded to turn back, moved on and at last knocked at Barrington's door.
While he waited he mopped his forehead; his manner was furtive.

Once inside the hall he became important, handing his card with a
flourish. Left alone while the maid announced his presence, he fiddled
with his necktie and twisted his soaped mustaches.

Barrington burst in on him. "Anything the matter, old man?"

"Matter? 'Course not."

"Didn't you know that Jehane went home this morning?"

"Got your telegram just as I was leaving. Had business in London.
Couldn't put it off."

"Must have been important. She'll be disappointed."

"It was."

"Suppose it's too late for you to start to-night?" Barrington pulled
out his watch. "Humph! Stop with us, won't you?--Had dinner?--All right.
Let's go out. Nan's in the garden."

What was it that had brought him? Barrington kept asking himself that
question. As usual, Ocky was voluble and plausible, but---- His high
spirits were forced; he avoided the eye when watched. He rattled on
about the possibilities of Sandport. He talked of the friends he had
made--men whom Barrington guessed to be of no importance. He repeated
his friends' hilarious stories, "Here's a good one John told me----" It
was Ocky who discovered the humor in the story and laughed.

Trees grew more dense against the dark. Lights in houses were
extinguished. The roar of London, like a voice wearied of quarreling,
which mumbled vexatiously in a last retort, sank away into silence. But
this tireless voice at his side went on, babbling of nothing, talking
and talking.

Nan rose. "I'm sleepy. You'll excuse me, won't you? Billy, darling,
don't be long."

Ocky refilled his foul pipe--with a pipe between his teeth he felt
fortified.

Barrington waited for him to reach his point--there _was_ a point he
felt sure. Ocky's visits always had an ulterior motive.

"Everything all right at Madeira Lodge?"

"Topping."

"And the land investment?"

"Fine."

"Then what brought you?"

Ocky was as shocked as if a gun had been fired in his face. The
question was unkind. He'd tried to be sociable and to stave off
unpleasantness--and this was the thanks he got. He squirmed uneasily;
the wicker-chair creaked, betraying his agitation.

"That's a rotten thing to say to a fellow, Billy. What brought me,
indeed!"

It was Barrington's turn to shift in his chair. He hated to be called
Billy by Waffles. The offence was repeated.

"You're confoundedly direct, Billy. Whenever I visit you, you always
think I've come to get something."

"And haven't you?" Barrington's voice was hard. "Well, I have, now you
mention it."

A pause.

Barrington lost patience. "Why can't you get it out like a man? You've
done something while Jehane's been away--something that made you afraid
to meet her. Haven't you?"

"Jehane!---- In a sense it's her doing. Don't see why she should make me
afraid."

"Her doing! In what way?"

Ocky struck a match; finding his pipe empty, he held the match till it
burnt his fingers. "I'm not blaming Jehane, but it _is_ her doing up to
a point. She wants money to dress her girls up to the nines. She wants
money to make the house look stylish. If it hadn't been for Jehane, I
should never have left old Wagstaff's office. Mind, I'm not blaming her.
But where was the money to come from?"

"You let her believe you were making it."

"Eh? So I was. So I shall if I can only get time."

"Where'd you get the money she's already had?"

"It's her money that I invested for her."

"You've been living on the principal--is that it? On the money that
should have gone to Glory."

The tension proved too great for Ocky. A joke might relieve the
situation. "Seems to me that's where it's gone." When no laugh followed
he hastened to add, "Financial pressure. Of course I'm sorry." Then, "I
want you to lend me enough to tide me over."

"I've been tiding you over all your life. You'll have to tell her. When
you've told her, I'll see what I can do once more."

For the first time that evening the foolish tone of banter went out of
the weak man's voice.

"For God's sake! Don't make me do that. You don't know what a punishment
you're inventing. D'you know what that'd do to her?--kill what little
love she has for me. She'd hate me. She'd despise me even more than she
does already. I've got to live with her. Oh, my God!"

Barrington drew back into the shadow. He was deeply moved, and ashamed
of it.

The other man, goaded deeper into sincerity by his silence, continued,
pleading brokenly.

"You can't understand. Between you and Nan it's always been different.
You're strong and she's so tender. But I--I'm weak. I try to do right,
but I'm everlastingly in the wrong. I've had to crawl for every scrap of
love my wife ever gave me. She's thrown it at me like a bone to a
dog. I'm a poor flimsy devil. I know it. We never ought to have
married--she's too splendid. But she's all I've got. I thought--I
thought if I could take her money and double it, she'd respect me at
last--believe me clever. I did make money for her at first. I saw what a
difference it made. Then I lost. I was afraid to tell her, so went on.
I thought I'd win if I tried again. And she--after the first time, she
expected the extra money from me. Little by little it all went. But
don't make me tell her."

"Then it wasn't lost in land speculation?"

"Part, but most in stocks bought on margins. My life's been hell for the
past six months. Don't make me tell her."

Barrington rose. "It's late. I'll let you know to-morrow. You must give
me a complete list of your indebtedness. Whatever I decide, I think you
ought not to deceive Je---- And, by the way, say the thing you mean when
we talk of this to-morrow. Say _give_, instead of _lend_. I prefer
frankness."

That "whatever I decide" told Ocky his battle was won. One night's sleep
placed all his dread behind him. His lack of self-respect permitted him
to recuperate rapidly. Early in the morning he was up and in the garden,
whistling cheerfully as though he had suffered no humiliation. Peter
heard him and ran to greet him. For an hour before breakfast they
exchanged secrets and Peter, in a burst of confidence, initiated his
uncle into the mystery of the loft.

"A fine place to hide, Peter?"

"Rather."

"And you never told anyone before?"

"No one."

"And you told me! Well, what d'you know about that? You must be somehow
fond of this poor old uncle."

Peter's father heard them laughing and was annoyed. His night had been
restless. He was still more irritated when, on entering the stable, he
found Ocky with his arm round Peter's shoulder. In the sunlight he saw
at a glance how his cousin had deteriorated. His gait was more slouchy,
his expression more furtive, his teeth more broken with constant biting
on the pipe. His attempts at smartness--the soaped mustaches and the
dusty spats--were wretchedly offensive; they were so ineffectually
pretentious.

The weak man's hand commenced to fumble in his pocket as Barrington's
eyes searched him.

"Where's my baccy? Must have dropped it. Seen my pouch anywhere, Peter?"

"It's in your hand, uncle." Peter went off into a peal of laughter.

"Surely you can do without smoking till after breakfast."

Peter's laugh stopped, cut short by the sternness in his father's voice.

In his study, an hour later, Barrington asked, "You're sure there's
nothing else? There's no good in my giving you anything unless you make
a clean breast to me. And mind, this is absolutely the last time I save
you. From this moment you've got to go on your own."

"On my honor, Billy, there's nothing."

Ocky had a constitutional weakness for lies; so he told one now when it
hindered his purpose.

Barrington eyed him doubtfully. "If you've not told me the truth, Jehane
shall know all."

"Can't pledge you more than my honor, Billy."

The check was signed. He had gained a new lease on life. His contrition
left him, expelled by his fatal optimism. He was again a facetious dog,
whose paltry mistakes lay in the distant past. At parting he tipped
Peter a pound, with characteristic careless generosity. As he walked
down the Terrace, he tilted his hat to a more jaunty angle. On his
way to the station he bought some flashy jewelry for Jehane and the
children. Long before he reached Sand-port, he had so far risen in his
own estimation that he thought of himself as a bold financier, who had
done a most excellent stroke of business in an incredibly short space
of time. As for Barrington--oh, he'd always been narrowminded. The money
was a loan that he'd soon pay back.

As he approached Madeira Lodge, Jehane was watering flowers in the
garden. He hailed her from a distance, "Hulloa, Duchess!"

She, being penitent for a treachery of which he had no knowledge,
restrained her disgust at the detested nickname. She was going to be a
good and faithful wife--she had quite made up her mind. The street-door
had scarcely shut behind them, when she flung her arms about him. He was
taken by surprise.

"I was lonely without you, Ocky--that's why I came back."

"Lonely! Lonely for me?"

"Yes. Why--why not?"

"Dun' know. Sounds odd from you, old lady."

"From me? From your wife? Didn't you feel the house--feel it empty with
me away?"

His hands clutched at her shoulders. "And when you were not away
sometimes. Old gel, I've always been lonely for you."

She brought her face down to his. "Hold me close, Ocky--close, as you're
doing now--always."




CHAPTER XVI--THE ANGELS AND OCKY WAFFLES

Ocky was like the jerry-built houses in which most of his life was
spent: the angels who made him had had good intentions, but they had
scamped their work. Consequently he was in continual need of repair.

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If someone had had time to spend a lot of love about him his defects
could have been patched up so as to be scarcely noticeable. As it was
people only came to his help when he was on the point of tumbling down.
They shored him up hurriedly and left him; but no one cared enough to
give him new foundations. The right kind of woman could have rebuilt him
throughout--the kind of woman who knows how to love a man for his faults
as well as for his virtues. But few women are architects where their
husbands are concerned--only those who marry to give more than they get.
Nan could have done it; but she was married to Barrington. Glory could
have done it; but she was only a little girl.--So the angels had to
watch their good intentions crumble.

Ocky knew quite well what was the matter with him--heart-hunger: he
required a wife who would sit on his knee and ruffle his hair, and call
him the funniest old dear in the world. Such a wife he would have had to
carry through life; her dependence would have educated his strength. A
wife who was censorious made him weakly obstinate and foolishly daring.
If he had been patted and hugged, he would have been a good man. His
mother had done that; but Jehane--ah, well, she did her best.

Barrington, when he signed the check, had made Ocky promise to return to
Jehane the thousand pounds she had lent. It wasn't her thousand pounds,
but Glory's, held in trust for her till she married. Ocky had pledged
his word to give it back on one condition--that Jehane was to be kept in
ignorance of the transaction. At the time he had quite intended to carry
out the agreement; but so much can be done with a thousand pounds and an
ingenious mind can invent so many excuses for dishonesty.

The morning after his home-coming he hung about the house instead of
going to his office. Already his methods of holding her closely were
getting on Jehane's nerves. His shiftless easy affection tried her
patience beyond endurance.

"Aren't you going yet?"

"Presently, old gel. I want to have a good look at you first."

"I think you ought to go. You'll have all your life to look at me--and
I've got my work, if you haven't."

"All right, old gel."

"I wish you wouldn't 'old gel' me so much. It's vulgar and silly."

Lighting his pipe, he strolled into the hall and picked up his hat. He
stood there fumbling with it. Only when she followed him did he set it
on his head, retreating toward the door. With the street at his back, he
turned.

"I say, about your money."

"For goodness sake, go. We can talk about that at lunch."

He glanced across his shoulder at the sunlit street; his flight would be
unimpeded.

"Don't lose your wool, old---- I mean, Jehane. I've something to tell
you. Had a nice little stroke o' luck. Made thirty pounds for you."

The flame of hostility sank at the mention of money. They stood gazing
at one another. Each was aware that, within twelve hours of peace being
declared, the old feud had all but broken out. Jehane was frightened
by the knowledge and self-scornful at her lapse into temper. Ocky was
congratulating himself on the dexterous lie with which the crash had
been averted.

"Thirty pounds! And you kept it so quiet!"

He twirled his mustaches fiercely, straddling the doormat, all boldness
and bullying self-righteousness now. "This little boy may be vulgar
sometimes, but he isn't silly--far from it."

"But how did you do it?" She leant against him with both her hands on
his arm, trying to make his eyes meet hers.

"You wouldn't understand. Watched the market, yer know. Sold out just in
time--last moment in fact."

"You _are_ clever--that's what I kept telling Billy and Nan."

"Think so? I've sometimes thought so myself." He held his face away from
hers as she pushed to the door and put her arms about his neck. "And yet
you were treating me like a fool just now. You're too ready at calling
me silly and vulgar. I get tired of it." As he spoke he had in mind the
firm way in which a masterful person like Barrington would act. "You've
got to stop it, Jehane. It's the last time I mention it."

"I know I'm unfair--unfair to you, to myself, to all of us. Oh, Ocky, be
patient with me; I do so want to be better."

She hid her face against his shoulder in contrition and unhappiness.
Ocky was a generous enemy. He found it easy to forgive, being a sinner
himself.

"There, there! That's awright, Duchess. Don't cry about it---- But
I brought this matter up 'cause I think you ought to have your money
back."

She stared at him in surprise. "Ought to! Why, what d'you mean? Is it
a punishment? I don't understand." He set his hat far back on his
forehead.

"I'm not trying to hurt your feelin's; but you don't trust me. Never
have. It's anxious work handling the money of a woman who don't trust
you. If I were to make a mistake, you'd give me hell--I mean, the
warmest time I've ever had. I'd rather--much rather--you took your money
back."

He was drifting away from her--already she had pushed him from her.
Something must be done.

"It's you who don't trust me, if you think that." Her tones quivered
with reproach as she said it.

"Then you want me to go on investing for you?"

"Of course."

"You're sure of it?"

"Quite, _quite_ sure of it."

"Then always remember, I tried to make you take it back and you
wouldn't. Isn't that so?"

"Yes, I wouldn't."

"Awright, I'll do my best; but I do it under protest, don't forget."

"Oh, Ocky, everything that we have we share."

He kissed her and passed out into the street with alacrity; she might
get to considering his motives. But at the garden gate he hesitated,
dawdled, and came back.

"Look here, I don't want Barrington nosing into my affairs. If I do this
for you it's between ourselves."

"I shouldn't think of telling Barrington."

"Well, if you breathe a word to Nan I'll stop dead, and you can manage
your investments yourself."

So he kept to the letter of his agreement with Barrington--and he kept
to Jehane's capital. And he accomplished this by that small lie about
the thirty pounds.

When Mr. Playfair had chosen Ocky Waffles to be office-manager of the
Sandport Real Estate Concern, he had shown remarkable cunning. He was
tricky himself and he required a subordinate who was no more scrupulous,
yet a subordinate who could give to smart transactions an appearance
of honesty. Mr. Playfair's finances were scanty; in order to extend
his credit it was necessary to pose in the eyes of Sandport as a civic
benefactor. Outside investors were attracted by a not too truthful,
but undoubtedly clever, series of advertisements for which Ocky was
responsible, such as:--

"_Houses Built on Sand!_ We all remember the Bible parable of the foolish
man who built his house upon sand: when the winds blew and the floods
came, it fell. Houses built at Sandport are the exception. We have a
lower death rate here, etc., etc. OUR HOUSES STAND."

This was all very well, but several important facts were omitted from
the advertisements: that a number of the land lots offered for sale
were too inaccessible to be of practical value and that those marked as
_sold_, which connected them up with the town, were actually still
on the market; and, again, that many of the immediate and promised
developments, which would increase the value of the property, would be
indefinitely postponed by lack of capital; and, again, that, in certain
cases, building would be impossible by reason of fresh-water springs
which undermined the sand.

In the promotion of a shaky enterprise Ocky was in his element. He could
not have brought the same cleverness to bear on an honest transaction.
The school of life from which he had graduated was one of shifts,
evasions and shams. Even his experiences with Jehane kept his hand
expert. He was so plausible in his gilding of falsity that he made it
appear like the truth itself.

But if Playfair in selecting Ocky had shown his cunning, he had also
shown his lack of business shrewdness, for Ocky was not the person to
trust with money. And he had to trust him, so that he might make him the
scape-goat if any infringment of the law should be found out. Some
of the money which Barrington had given Ocky had gone toward the
straightening of the Sandport Real Estate Concern's accounts, before
Playfair should discover that they had been juggled. Ocky had not meant
to steal; he never meant to do anything improper. He borrowed the firm's
money to support his private speculations. While Jehane's affection
could only be purchased, he was continually tempted to borrow. He fully
intended to pay back. He always fully intended.

The angels made three desperate efforts to prevent Ocky from crumbling.
They gave him Glory. A curious sympathy had grown up between him and the
child of Jehane's first marriage. Perhaps it was that they both suffered
from the unevenness of Jehane's temper. At any rate, he much preferred
her to his own long-lashed, slant-eyed little daughter. Riska, though
she was only seven, had learnt to be both vain and selfish; at the same
time, when there was anything she wanted, she knew how to be attractive.
She was her mother's favorite and belonged to her mother's camp. And
Madeira Lodge tended to become more and more divided into two silently
hostile parties. Ocky had the unpleasant feeling that Riska was amused
by the outbreaks which occurred, and turned them to her own profit.
Whereas Glory----

Already at ten, Glory was a woman in her forethought for him. She would
follow after him, hanging up his coat and hat, rectifying his habitual
untidiness, and stamping out the sparks which were so often the
beginnings of domestic conflagrations. Her gray eyes were always kind
when they looked at him and she was never impatient under his caresses.
"Poor little father," she would whisper, putting her soft arms about
him, "I'm sure mother didn't mean to say that."

And the angels gave him his baby-girl. Mary they called her, which was
contracted to Moggs as she grew older. But Riska called her the M. L.
O., which stood for Ma's Left Over, because she was so small that it
seemed as though Jehane had run short of material when she made her.
Ocky was very glad of Moggs; Moggs was too young to judge him. Even
Eustace judged him, saying, "You's been naughty, Daddy; Mumma's vewy
angwy." There was no pity in the little boy's tone when he said it--only
sorrowful accusation.

Sitting by Moggs's cradle, Ocky would wonder whether the day would come
when she, learning what a fool she had for a father, would turn against
him. In the midst of his wondering, she would wake and he would see two
blue glimpses of heaven laughing up at him. He would take her in his
arms, promising her, because she could not understand a word he said,
that for her sake he would try not to take so much "medicine."

"Medicine," as a means to bolstering up his courage, was a habit which
grew upon him.

Peter, who was the third effort of the angels, noticed a change
every time he visited Uncle Waffles. On those walks across the lonely
sand-hills, Uncle Waffles no longer pretended that he drank the
"medicine" for his health.

"You're a ha'penny marvel, Peter--that's what you are. You get me to
tell you everything. It's 'cause I have to tell somebody, and I know you
won't split on me. Now about this 'medicine'; I'm taking more and
more of it. And why? Because it's my only way of being happy. Before I
married the Duchess I hardly ever touched it. I had my mother then. I
wish you'd known her, Peter; she was a rare one for laughing. I only
feel like laughing now when I've taken more 'medicine' than's good for
me. Not that I was ever drunk in my life. It never goes to my head--only
legs."

He had usually had too much when he made these confessions. Peter knew
he had by the way in which he said, "I got a nacherly strong stomick.
It's a gif from God, I reckon."

Peter kept these disclosures to himself and walked his uncle about till
it was safe to return to Madeira Lodge. Ocky would retire as soon as
they entered, saying that he had a bad headache. They became of such
frequent occurrence that Jehane began to be suspicious.

During the next three years Ocky's visits to Topbury were periodic.
Barrington could usually calculate his advent to a nicety. One
night there would be a ring at the bell and Mr. Waffles would enter
unheralded. While others were present he would joke with his old
abandon, as though he hadn't a care in the world. Then Barrington would
turn to him, "Shall we go upstairs to my study for a chat?"

The fiction was kept up that Ocky's visits were of a friendly and family
nature. The constant fear at Topbury was that the servants might guess
and the scandal would leak out.

When the study door had shut behind them, Barrington would give vent to
his indignation.

"How much this time?"

"I've had hard luck."

"You mean you want me to clear off your debts and pay back the money
you've taken?"

"It won't happen again, Billy. Just this once."

"You said that last time and the time before that, and every time as far
back as I can remember. D'you remember what I said?"

Before the anger in Barrington's eyes Ocky began to crouch. "It won't
happen again. I swear it. I've learnt my lesson."

Barrington knew his answers before they were uttered. "I've told you
each time," he said, "that, if you repeated your thefts, you'd have to
take the consequences. Last time I meant it."

Then would follow from Ocky a series of pleadings and arguments. That
exposure would entail disgrace all round. That he would be arrested.
That his family would be ruined. That the story would get into the
papers and would reflect discreditably on Barrington. When these failed,
Ocky would appeal to their friendship and the common memories they
shared. The scene would usually close with a warning from Barrington
that this was really the last time he would come to his rescue; then the
debts would be added up and the check book would be brought out.

The threat of Ocky became a nightmare to Barrington and Nan--the
children were not supposed to know about it. The finding of so much
money was an intolerable burden, and they were never safe from its
recurrence. On several occasions Barrington had to sell some of his
pictures to meet these sudden demands for ready cash. To add to their
anxiety was the fact that they had so far refrained from telling Jehane,
out of fear that her resentment against her husband would make matters
worse. So her letters still arrived punctually, singing his praises and
saying how splendidly he was making progress.

But the day was fast approaching when the shoring up of Ocky Waffles had
to end. It ended when Barrington discovered that his cousin was tapping
other sources for his borrowing.

On a trip to Oxford with reference to a manuscript, he surprised Ocky
leaving the Professor's house. Nan, when calling on the Misses Jacobite,
recognized an envelope addressed in Ocky's hand.

The next time he made his visit to Topbury, Barrington kept his promise.
Ocky was shown directly into the study without any preliminaries of
family enquiries. He was not asked to sit down. Barrington faced him,
standing with his back to the fire.

"I've been expecting you. My mind's made up. I don't want to hear what
you've come for or any of your excuses. You've lied to me. I know all
about the Professor and the Misses Jacobite. Doubtless there are others.
You can go to jail this time, and I hope it'll cure you. I've been a
fool to try and save you. You're rotten throughout."

Since the accidental meeting at Oxford, Ocky had been prepared for some
such explosion. He had fortified himself with drink for the encounter.
But he was stunned by this unexpected air of judicial finality. He began
to pour out feverish words. Barrington cut him short.

"For three years you've poisoned my life. You've blackmailed me with the
fear that your disgrace would be made known. You yourself have made that
fear certain by applying to my friends. The scandal can become public as
soon as it likes. That's all I have to say. Good-night."

The game was up. Ocky straightened himself to meet the blow. He ceased
to be cringing and humble. The drink helped him to be bold; so did his
desperate sense of the world's injustice.

"You say I'm rotten throughout. Perhaps I am. But who made me like that?
I wasn't rotten when we were boys together, and I wasn't rotten when my
mother was with me. Who made me rotten? You and clever people like you.
You never let me forget that I wasn't clever.

"You never did anything but humiliate me by reminding me that I was on
a lower level. Your gifts were always bitter because they were given
without kindness, to get rid of me or in self-defence; and, in return, I
was expected to admire you. Oh, you hard good man! You couldn't make me
clever just by saying to me, 'Be clever,' or good just by saying, 'Be
good'------ You say I lied to you. Of course I lied--lied as a child
will to escape punishment. You never understood me. Even before I went
crooked you were ashamed of me because I hadn't the brains to think your
thoughts and to speak your language. Your intellect despised me. Yes,
and you taught my wife to despise me. Didn't you call me an 'ass' before
company on the very night I became engaged to her. She remembered that
and took her tone from you. You were her standard. From the first she
was discontented with me because I wasn't you and couldn't give her the
home you'd given Nan---- So I tried to be rich, because to be rich is to
be clever. I gambled with what didn't belong to me to get money to buy
my wife's respect. And now, because _you, you, you_ were always there
setting the pace for me with your success, I've lost everything. But if
I'd won by my sharp-practise, you and Jehane would have been the first
to say that I was a clever chap--I wasn't born bad. What you and my
wife have thought about me has made me what I am. Damn you. I wouldn't
touch a farthing of your charity now. I want to go to the dogs where
both of you've sent me and to make as big a scandal as I can."

He was trembling with hysteric anger; his voice was thick and hoarse
with passion. His weak and genial features were absurdly in contrast
with the violence of what he said. His soaped mustaches and white spats
made him a comic figure at any time, but doubly comic in the r�le of an
accusing prophet.

Barrington eyed him quietly without the quiver of a muscle or the
flicker of a lash. He had hardened his heart beforehand against the
appeal of such a theatric outburst. "Is that all?"

Ocky hung his head; the fire of his self-pity was quenched by the
restrained ridicule of the man who addressed him. He wiped the
perspiration from his eyes with his tired hands. "That's all."

As he was passing into the hall, Peter looked over the banisters and saw
him.

"Kay. Kay. Here's dear old uncle," he called and commenced running down
the stairs.

At the landing his father stopped him. "Not to-night, my boy."

Peter laughed and tried to wriggle past him; but his father held him
firmly, saying, "I meant what I said."

Looking down, Peter saw the face of his friend glance back at him; it
was lined and tortured. Then the front door closed with a bang.

Barrington re-entered his study. Now that he had accomplished the
difficult cruelty his mind was in doubt. If Peter loved Ocky, there must
be some good left in him----

But he had used that argument with himself before. As he sat, pictures
began to form of Ocky as he had been. He saw him about Peter's age,
the weakly schoolboy whose battles he had had to fight because he was
strong. He recalled that term when he had had to take him to the doctor
with his poisoned hand. He remembered how Ocky's mother had always said
of him that he was the most careful and dearest son in the world---- No,
he hadn't been always bad.

His thoughts became unbearable; he needed approval for his act. Stepping
out on to the landing he called, "Nan, Nan."

When she came he was again seated in his chair. The lights were out and
a log of ship's wood, spluttering on the coals, burnt violet and yellow,
making the shadows wag accusing fingers. She curled herself up on the
floor, leaning her head against his knees, like a small child at the
story hour, before it goes to bed.

Nan always brought an atmosphere of kindness with her--of innocence and
goodness. Her ways were those of a young girl, who walks on tiptoe
with hands upon her breast, listening for life to call her. Barrington
watched her shining head and how the fire glinted against the column of
her throat. If Ocky had had a wife like Nan-------

It was some time before she spoke. Then, "Dearest?"

"I had to be a brute and I hate myself. I kicked him out."

"Do you think you did right?"

"If I didn't, I shouldn't have done it. The thing had to end."

"And what next?"

"We've got to think of Jehane and her children. I'm wondering how much
she knows or suspects."

"She'll never tell---- I wonder will she stand by him?"

There was silence.

Barrington spoke. "Ocky hinted at something to-night. It might be
true--something that I never thought about. It explains those letters
of Jehane's. It explains why they've never got on together. I've always
said that a little love would have made Ocky a better man."

"Dear, what was it?"

"It dates a long way back. He said that Jehane had made our home and my
love for you the standard of what she expected from----"

"I understand. And it _is_ true, Billy. She wanted a man like you from
the first."

Silence.

Nan said, "Once she used to talk about the penal servitude of
spinsterhood."

"And now," said Barrington, "she'll have to learn about the penal
servitude of marriage. Whatever happens, unless he ill-treats her, he'll
be her husband to the end."

"But---- But can't we stop this dreadful something?"

Barrington stooped and took her hand.

"Little woman, we've been trying to stop it all these years. We can't
stop it; we can only postpone it and give him more time to drag Jehane
and the children lower down. We've reached the point where things have
got to be at their worst before they can grow better. It's a question
now of how many of them we can rescue. Ocky has to be allowed to sink
for the sake of the rest."

Nan's forehead puckered at the cruelty of such logic. "But I don't
understand. It seems so horrible that we should sit here, with a fire
burning and everything comfortable, saying things like that."

"It is horrible. It's so horrible that, if I were to give him everything
I have, he'd still go to the devil. He's a drowning man and he'll drag
down everyone who tries to drag him out."

She clung to her husband aghast at this painful glimpse of reality. "But
I still don't understand. Why---- Why should he be like that? He's kind,
and he's gentle, and he makes children love him."

"You want to know? And you won't be hurt if I say something very
terrible?"

"I don't mind being hurt--I'm that already."

"I think it's because of Jehane--because of what she's left undone. She
never brought any song to her marriage--never made any joy for him or
happiness."

"And because of that he's to----"

"Yes. Because of that he's to be allowed to go under. It's chivalry, not
justice. At sea one saves the women and children first. He's a man."

In quick revulsion from this ugliness of other people's sordidness, he
bent over her, brushing his lips against her cheek and hair. "Shall I
ever grow tired of kissing you, I wonder, my own little Nan?"

And so, in one another's arms, for a moment they shut out the memory of
tragedy.

But the angels had not done with Ocky Waffles yet.




CHAPTER XVII--A HOUSE BUILT ON SAND

There was one more letter from Jehane. She wrote that Ocky had just
returned from London, where he had been on important business. She
understood that he had been too hurried to be able to visit Topbury. He
was working very hard--too hard for his health. He was overambitious.
While she was writing he had come in to tell her that he was off
again to London. Then followed domestic chatter: how Glory was taking
music-lessons so that she might play to her father when she grew older;
and how Eustace had a new tricycle; and how Riska already had an eye for
the boys. This was the last letter, very foolish and very brave--then
silence and suspense.

The days dragged by. Nights stayed long and the sun rose late. In the
mornings the fields, which lay in front of the Terrace, were blanketed
in sulphurous mist through which bare trees loomed spectral. Railings
and walls and pavements were damp as though fear had caused them to
sweat.

All night Nan and Barrington, lying side by side, feigned sleep or slept
restlessly. Both were afraid to voice their dread lest, when spoken, it
should seem more actual. Once, when a hansom jingled out of the distance
and halted outside their house, they started up together listening. The
fare alighted and walked a few doors down; again they drew breath.

"Why, Nan, little lady, did I wake you?"

"No, I was awake. I thought---- I thought it was I who had made you
rouse."

"I've not slept a wink since I lay down."

"Neither have I."

As he clasped her in the dark, he could feel her trembling. He held her
tightly to him, laying his face against hers on the pillow. Again they
both were listening.

"What makes you so frightened?"

He whispered the question.

"Always thinking, always thinking---- of the future and what may
happen."

She commenced to sob, pressing her forehead against his breast.

He tried to soothe her. "You mustn't, Pepperminta. You mustn't really;
it hurts. I'll think for you. I always have. Now close your eyes and get
some rest."

And she closed her eyes and lay very tense. Hours and hours later London
began to growl. Presently the door of the servants' bedroom opened; the
stairs creaked; the house was filled with stealthy sounds. At last she
drowsed.

When her husband had tiptoed out to his bath, she rose hastily and
commenced to dress. She must get down before him. He must be spared if
the message was there; she must read it first.

The dining-room was in dusk these November mornings. At the end of the
room the fire burnt red and before it Kay and Peter warmed their hands.
Not until she had run through the letters did she greet them. Then, for
their sakes, she tried to appear cheerful. Barrington, on entering, cast
one swift look in her direction and realized that the end was not yet.
Absentmindedly they took their places at the table, scarcely thankful
for this respite from certainty.

The children soon apprehended that all was not well; their high clear
voices were hushed--they spoke in whispers. Peter was fourteen; he had
guessed the meaning of blank spaces on the walls from which some of the
favorite pictures had vanished. The Dutch landscape by Cuyp was still
there above the blue couch, against the background of dark oak-paneling.
Across its glass the flickering reflection of the fire danced, lighting
up the placid burgher as he walked with his ladies on the bank of the
gray canal. Peter noticed how his father's eyes rested on it--a sure
sign that he was troubled.

Almost by stealth Peter would push back his chair and nudge his sister.
Miss Effie Jacobite gave her lessons in the mornings; on his way to
school he had to leave Kay at her house. Shouldering his satchel, he
would lead her out into the misty streets; then at last he would dare to
raise his voice in laughter.

At the departure of the children, Barrington would break off from the
train of thought he had been following, and was incessantly following:
_had he done right by Ocky?_ The door would bang; through the long dark
day Nan would sit alone, and speculate and wonder.

What was happening? Had the smash been postponed? Had Ocky wriggled
round the corner by borrowing secretly from other people's friends?
Billy searched the faces of his business acquaintances and Nan the faces
of their Topbury circle in an effort to make them tell.

Toward afternoon the fog would roll up from the city, dense and yellow.
Footsteps on the Terrace would come suddenly out of nowhere; their
makers were shadows. Nan, rising uneasily, would go to the window;
they might be footsteps of pursuers or of bringers of bad tidings. Even
Grace's policeman filled her with panic when he paused for an instant
outside the house. His tread was the tread of Justice, ponderous and
unescapable.

With the return of the children her oppression lifted. Later Billy's key
would grate in the latch. She was in the hall to meet him before he had
crossed the threshold. "Any news?" The servants must not hear her; she
spoke beneath her breath.

"Nothing. Nothing yet."

The children no longer called to one another as they went about their
play. They tiptoed and looked up anxiously when addressed. No urging was
necessary to send them to bed--bed was escape to a less ominous world.

Muffled, muffled! Everything was cloaked and muffled.

As Peter put two and two together, pain grew into his eyes; even when
others seemed to have forgotten, the expression in his eyes was judging.

Only Romance was unaffected by the sense of foreboding. The servants
felt it and discussed it in the kitchen, wondering whether the master
was losing money. But Romance, with cat-like self-satisfaction, went on
bearing kittens and so did her daughter, Sir Walter Scott, who came by
her name through an accident regarding her sex.

A month had gone by.

"Should I write to Jehane?" she asked her husband.

"I wouldn't. If you do, we shall have Ocky back on our hands. Perhaps he
may pull things together now that he knows that he stands by himself. If
he does, it'll make a man of him. Anyhow, if she finds out and needs our
help, she'll send for us."

But the silence proved too much for Nan. One morning, on the spur of the
impulse, she packed a bag, left a note for her husband and set off for
Sandport. On the journey through sodden country and mud-splashed towns,
she fought for courage, straining out into eternity to pluck the hem
of God's mantle which, when her faith had touched, was continually
withdrawn beyond reach of her hand.

She had rung the bell and stood waiting on the steps of Madeira Lodge.
No one answered. She thought she heard the pit-a-pat of feet on the
other side of the door. She rang again and took a pace back to glance up
at the front of the house. As she did so, she saw a curtain move before
a window--move almost imperceptibly. A minute later the door was flung
open by Jehane; Nan saw the children grouped behind her in the passage.

"Well?"

The tone of her voice was flat and unfriendly.

"I thought I'd come and see you, Janey. Only made up my mind this
morning."

"Did you? What made you do that?"

Nan flushed and her voice faltered. She had not expected this hardness
and defiance. She had come full of pity. "I came because I was nervous.
You hadn't written for more than a month. I hope---- I hope,----"

"Come inside," said Jehane. "I can't talk to you out there. You can stop
your hoping."

Once inside, the appearance of the house told its story. It looked
bare. From the sideboard the silver--mostly presents of Jehane's first
marriage--had vanished. The walls were stripped of all ornaments which
had a negotiable value. In the drawing-room there was an empty space
where there had once been a piano. Only the carefully curtained windows
kept up the pretence of trim prosperity. Jehane led Nan from room to
room without a word and the children, shuffling behind, followed.

"Now you've seen for yourself," she said, "and a nice fool you must
think me after my letters. I've lied for him and sold my jewelry for
him. I've done without servants. I've crept out at night like a thief to
the pawnbrokers, when there wasn't any money and there were debts to be
settled. And the last thing I heard before he left was that he'd stolen
the thousand pounds I lent him. And this---- this is what I get."

"Before he left?"

"A month ago, after my last letter to you. You needn't pretend to be
surprised, because you're not. You suspected. That's what brought you."

Nan felt faint with the shock of the realization. She tottered and
stretched out her hands to save herself. Glory ran forward and put
her arm round her. "Dear Auntie." Nan drew Glory's head against her
shoulder, sobbing. "Oh my dear, my poor little girl!"

Jehane looked on unmoved, merely saying in her hard flat voice, "If
there's any crying or fainting to be done, seems to me I'm the person to
do it. But I'm past all that."

Nan quieted herself. "It so shocked me. I--I didn't mean to make a fuss.
But won't you tell me how it all happened?"

"Nothing to tell. It's just Ocky with his lies and promises."

"Oh, don't say that before the children about their father."

"I'll say what I like; they're my children. They've seen everything."

Nan looked round and saw sympathy only in the eyes of Glory. Moggs,
balancing herself by her mother's skirts, piped up and spoke for the
rest, "Farver's a naughty man." Even her mother was startled by the
candor of this endorsement; turning sharply, she caused Moggs to tumble
on the floor with a bump. Moggs began to yell.

Grateful for a diversion in any form, Nan knelt and comforted the little
girl. Jehane watched her indifferently, as though all capacity for
kindness had left her.

When peace was restored, Nan said, "You're coming home with me, all of
you."

"We're not."

"Why not?"

"My husband may return. If he doesn't, I must stay here and keep up
appearances till he gets safely out of the country. Heaven knows what
he's done!---- And it's likely that I'd come to Topbury to be laughed
at! _You_ may want me, but what about Billy? You've both known this
for a month, and you couldn't even send me a line. Come to Topbury! No,
thank you!"

There was so much to be explained and explanations were so tangled. Nan
saw nothing for it but to make a clean breast. When she told Jehane of
the years of borrowing that had been going on behind her back, she was
justifiably angry.

"So you knew all the time! And for three years it was practically you
and Billy who were running this house! And you kept me in ignorance! I
must say, you've a queer way of showing friendship!"

"We did it because--because we were afraid, if you knew, you wouldn't
love him. And then matters would have been worse."

"Love him! I've not loved him since we married. He started playing
the fool directly after the wedding before the train moved out of the
station. I knew then that I'd have to be ashamed of him always. I knew
what I'd done for myself. He killed my love within an hour of making me
his wife---- But how you must have amused yourselves, knowing what
you did, when you received my letters about his getting on in the
world--_his progress!_ My God! how you must have laughed, the two of
you! Every time he gave me a present it was your money."

All this before the children!

She threw herself down on a couch and gave way to hysterics, wrenched
with sobs, screaming with unhappy merriment, clutching at her breast and
throwing back her head. The children began to cry, hiding in corners
of the room, terrified. Only Glory kept her nerve and, following Nan's
directions, fetched water to bathe her mother's face and hands.

When the insane laughter had spent itself, Jehane lay still with eyes
closed, panting. Shame took the place of harshness. Nan asked whether
there were any stimulants in the house; when a half-emptied bottle was
brought from the cupboard, Jehane gesticulated it away with disgust.
"I couldn't touch it. It's Ocky's." It was all that was left of his
"medicine."

Nan persuaded Glory to take the children out of the room. She seated
herself by the couch in silence, stroking Jehane's forehead.

Presently the bitter woman's eyes opened. They regarded her companion
steadily, with an expression of sad wonder. "You're still beautiful. I'm
old already."

Nan began to protest in little birdlike whispers; she was so nervous
lest she should give offence. She was interrupted. "Even your voice is
young. People who don't want to love you have to---- And I always longed
to be loved." She raised herself on her elbow, brushing back the false
hair. "You've had the goodness of life; I've had the falseness. Things
aren't fair."

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"No, they're not fair," Nan assented. "God's been hard on you, poor old
girl."

"God! Oh, yes!" Jehane spoke the words gropingly, as though
recollecting. "Ah, yes! God! He and I haven't been talking to one
another lately. The cares of this world---- the cares of this world----
What is that passage I'm trying to remember?"

"It's about the sower who sows the good seed, but the cares of this
world rise up and choke it unless it falls on fruitful land. It's
something like that."

Jehane looked at Nan vaguely, only half-comprehending. "Fruitful land!
That's the difficulty. I was never fruitful land---- Tell me, why did
you marry Billy?"

"Why? I never thought about it."

"Think about it now. Why was it?"

"I suppose because I loved him and wanted to help him."

Jehane's elbow slipped from under her. She lay back, staring at the
ceiling, looking gaunt and faded, as though she had passed through a
long illness. "To help him! When I loved I wanted to be helped. God's
not been hard on me, little Nan; I've been hard on myself. I'm a hard
woman. I've got what I deserved. And Ocky---- He was a fool. He had no
mind--never read anything. He was clumsy and liked vulgar people best.
But, perhaps, he's my doing. Perhaps!"

Seeing that she had grown passive, Nan stole out to give the children
their supper and to put them to bed. That night, the first time since
Cassingland, she and Jehane slept together. The light had been put out
for some time and Nan was growing drowsy, when Jehane spoke.

"Madeira Lodge! It's funny. A house built on sand! A house built on----
That's what we came here to do for other people; we've done it for
ourselves. O God, spare my little children, my----"

Nan took her in her arms and soothed her.




CHAPTER XVIII--PETER TO THE RESCUE

It was all up. A warrant was out for the arrest of Ocky. Accusers came
forward from all directions--people whom glib promises had kept silent
and people who had kept themselves silent because they were friends of
Barrington. Now that silence had lost its virtue, they shouted. Their
numbers and the noise they made were a revelation and testimonial of a
sort to Ocky's enterprising character. He must have been skating
over thin ice for years. He had almost established a record. Such a
performance, so dexterous and long protracted, had required a kind of
gay courage that is rarely given to honest men. And Ocky was honest by
tradition, if not in practice. His nerve was admirable. No wonder he
drank.

He was wanted on many charges. There were checks which he had cashed
through tradesmen, drawn on banks where he had no effects. With his
habitual folly, he had left tracks by negotiating some of these
in London since his flight, using letters of a family nature from
Barrington to inspire confidence. These began to be presented five weeks
after his departure from Sandport. It seemed as though he had been doing
himself well and his supplies were exhausted. His name found its
way into the papers, largely because he was Barrington's cousin. So
everything became public.

The day before the reports occurred in the press, a man of his
appearance had enquired at Cook's in Ludgate Circus about the
exchange rates for French money. The Channel boats had been watched in
consequence; but he must have taken warning and altered his plans.

"He's ineffectual even in his sinning," said Barrington. "Why couldn't
the fool have skipped the country earlier and saved us the humiliation
of a trial?"

The Sandport Real Estate Concern had gone into bankruptcy. Its affairs
would not bear inspection. Mr. Playfair had vanished with all the
odds and ends that Ocky had spared. Both of them were badly wanted.
So Jehane's scornful loyalty in stopping on at Madeira Lodge, that her
husband's retreat might be covered, no longer served any good purpose.
Moreover, every thing in the house was seized by creditors--even her own
possessions were no longer hers because they had passed as Ocky's. She
and her children found themselves penniless.

Her father, when applied to, presented her with a list of the sums he
had already advanced, unbeknown to her. He laid pedantic emphasis on
his early objections to the hurry of her second marriage. She had always
been wayward. He offered to take Glory and Riska to live with him for
a time, but couldn't put up with the younger children. Her independence
had been her undoing; it must be her making now. She must work. The
first Homeric scholar in Europe couldn't afford to have his peace of
mind disturbed. He was sorry.

Against her will Jehane was forced to accept the charity of the man whom
she both loved and hated. She came to him a fortnight before Christmas
with her four children--it was the first Christmas she had spent at
Topbury since her engagement to the unfortunate Mr. Waffles.

Barrington's relations with 'Jehane were painfully strained. He hated
the intrusion of her sordid problems on the sheltered quiet of his
family. He was aware that she had grown careless of refinement in
the vulgarity of her experience. She was no longer the Oxford don's
daughter, soft in speech and lively eyed, but a woman inclined to be
loud-voiced and nagging. He blamed her, was sorry for her and wanted
to be kind to her; but it was difficult to be kind to Jehane when her
feelings were raw and wounded. She refused pity and was as hurt by the
comfort which he permitted her to share as if it were something of
which he had robbed her. She spoke continually of "my poor children,"
betraying jealousy for the lot of Kay and Peter.

An additional cause of grievance was found in Eustace; he was an amiable
mild boy, dull and fond of being petted, the miniature of his father.
Barrington knew he was unjust, but his repulsion was physical: he could
not restrain his dislike of the child whose sole offence was his strong
resemblance to the man who had caused this misery. Jehane was cut to the
quick; being forced to be humble, she sulked.

Nan tried to play the part of peacemaker. She was proud of the nobility
of her husband; she understood his occasional flashes of temper. He was
overburdened; he was doing far more for Jehane than she had any right
to expect. He had made himself responsible for all the swindles in which
his name had been employed as an inducement. To fulfil these obligations
he was sacrificing many of his art-treasures; even the landscape by Cuyp
was threatened.

And she also understood Jehane's predicament. She was too gentle to
resent her seeming ingratitude. Looking back over the long road from
girlhood, she marveled at her friend's fortitude--that she could still
lift up her head proudly and, in spite of bludgeonings, plan for the
future. Jehane might scold and grumble to her when Barrington's back was
turned; it made no difference to her unvarying tenderness.

And there were times when Jehane was ashamed of her ferocity and, laying
her head on Nan's shoulder, confessed her folly.

"I'm cruel," she wept; "all the sweetness in me is turned to acid. I
shall grow worse and worse, till at last I shall be quite impenitent. I
can't help it. Life won't grow easier for me---- If you told the truth,
you'd write over me, 'Here lies a mother who loved too much and a wife
who loved too little.' I'm spoiling my children with my fondness and
filling their heads with vanity---- And I shall often hurt you, little
Nan. But you'll stick by me, won't you?"

Barrington was suspicious that violent scenes took place in his absence;
manlike, he was irritated and could not comprehend their necessity. He
was furious that his wife should be upset and forbade the name of Ocky
to be mentioned in his presence.

Peter overheard much of the abuse which was showered on his uncle by
both Jehane and her children. His eyes became flames when harsh things
were said; quarrels were the result. The quarrels were for the most part
with Riska. He could not believe that anyone he loved was really bad.
Glory shared his grieved anger; a defensive alliance in the interest of
Ocky was formed between her and himself. It was the first compact he
had ever made with Glory. But she was too mild for Peter--too much of a
Saint Teresa and not enough of a Joan of Arc. Glory knew that she could
not be valiant; in secret she cried her heart out because he despised
her cowardice.

Barrington might forbid the mention of Ocky's name, but outside on the
Terrace there was a perpetual reminder.

A tall man, with a straight back and wooden way of walking, watched the
house. He pretended not to be watching and, when anyone saw him from
the window, would stroll carelessly away as though he were just taking
a breath of air; but he always returned. He got so much on Barrington's
nerves that he finally made up his mind to accost him.

"What are you doing here, always hanging round? I won't have it."

The man, who had tried to avoid him, finding himself cornered, answered
respectfully "Sorry, sir. H'it's orders."

"But what _are_ you? A plain-clothes man?"

"That's not for me to say, sir."

Barrington slipped him a sovereign, saying, "Come, speak out You're safe
with me. I won't tell. You know, it's a bit thick, having you out here.
The ladies are upset." The man scratched his head. "It ain't the ladies
I'm after. It's 'im. You've got 'is missis and kids in there. 'E was
allaws fond of 'is kids, so they tell us. We calkilate that since 'e
cawn't get out o' the country, 'e'll turn up 'ere sooner or later. These
things is allaws painful for the family. That chap was a mug; 'e should
'a planned things better."

Barrington thought for a minute. Then he asked, "Are you a married man?"

"Married, and five nippers, Gawd bless 'em."

"Well, look here, put it to yourself: how'd you like to have your wife
made ill and your kiddies sent frightened to bed, because a stranger was
always staring in at their windows?"

"Shouldn't like it. I'd get damned peevish, I can tell yer."

"Good. Then you'll understand what I'm going to say. I'm a gentleman and
you can trust my word. If the man you're after comes here, I'll hold
him for you. In return I want you to be a little less obvious in your
detective work. I can't have my family scared. Go further away, and
watch from a distance. Is it a bargain?"

Just then Barrington turned and saw Peter standing with his satchel
across his shoulder. How much had he heard? He was awkward under his
boy's eyes; he often wondered what thoughts went on behind them.

"Run along, Peter. I'll be with you in a second."

Then to the man, "Is it a bargain?"

"It ain't reg'lar," said the man.

"But under the circumstances, you'll do it. I'm not trying to interfere
with your duty."

"My orders were----. Awright, sir, 'cause of the wife and kids I'll do
it."

That night Peter thought matters out. It was he and his Uncle Waffles
against the world. He did not accuse anybody, neither his father, nor
Aunt Jehane; but there was a mistake somewhere. They did not understand.
Whatever Uncle Waffles had done, to Peter he was still a good man.

Peter crept out of bed and across the landing to a window in the front
of the house. He peered into the blackness. By the railing of the
fields, at a point mid-way between two gas-lamps where shadows lay
deepest, he could see a figure watching. He must save Uncle Waffles from
that.

School had broken up. It was the twenty-fourth of December. There was
still no news of Ocky. In their anxiety they had almost forgotten that
to-morrow would be Christmas.

That morning Barrington dawdled over his breakfast, postponing his
departure for business. His wife glanced down the table at him, trying
to conjecture the motive of his dallying. Presently he signaled her with
his eyes, raising his brows at the children. When she had excused them,
he turned to her and Jehane. "Whatever's happened or is going to happen,
we don't want to rob the kiddies of their pleasure, do we? We've got to
pull ourselves together and pretend to forget and try to be cheerful.
What d'you say, Nan?"

"I'd thought of that. But I didn't like to mention it. Janey and I,
working together, can get things ready."

"All right, then. And I'll see to the presents."

He rose and laid his hand on Jehane's shoulder. "Come, Jehane,
things are never so bad but what they may mend. I've not always been
considerate of you. Let's be friends."

It was one of those patched-up truces which, like milestones, were to
dot the road of their latent enmity.

Kay's and Peter's money-boxes were brought out; their savings for the
year were counted. Nan gave to Jehane's children an equal sum with
which to go out and buy presents. Peter was kept running all morning
on errands; in the afternoon he was busy decorating with mistletoe and
holly. The preparations were so belated that everyone was pressed into
service. Tea was over and the dark had fallen when he set out to do his
own shopping.

"Be careful, Peter, and come back quickly," his mother called from the
doorway. And Kay, thrusting her vivid little face under her mother's
arm, piped up, "Don't be 'stravagant, Peter. Don't buy too much. 'Member
birfdays is coming."

Peter felt happy. It was as though a long sickness had ended and a
life that had been despaired of had been restored to them. He knew that
nothing for the better had really happened; but, because people had
laughed, it seemed as if it had. Down in the Vale of Holloway the bells
of the Chapel of Ease were ringing. They seemed to be saying, over and
over, "Peace and good-will to men."

Far away, at the bottom of the Crescent, he could see the spume of
gas-light flung against the dusk. All the shops were there and the
crowds of jaded people who had become for one night extraordinarily
young and compassionate. He began to calculate how far his money would
go in buying gifts for the family. Formerly there had been just his
mother, and father, and Kay, and Grace to buy for. Now there were how
many? He counted. With his cousins and Aunt Jehane there were nine
people. He would divide his money into ten shares; Kay should have two
of them. He was passing the gateway of an empty house; a hand stretched
out of the dark and grabbed him.

"Peter. Peter." The voice was hoarse and terrified at its own sound.

Peter broke away and jumped into the road that he might have room to
run. He turned and looked back. He could see nothing--only the walls of
the garden, the gateway and the wooden sign hanging over it, with the
words, _To Let._

"Don't do that," came the hoarse voice, "they may see you."

"Who are you?" asked Peter, peering into the shadows.

"You know who I am," came the voice; "this little boy can't have changed
as much as that."

_This little boy!_

"Look out. Someone's coming."

A heavy tread was heard. Grace's policeman approached with the
plain-clothes man. Peter bent down to the pavement and pretended to be
searching.

"Hulloa!" said Grace's policeman. "Who's there?"

"It's Peter. How are you?" He continued his searching, moving away from
the gate.

"Wot yer doing?" asked the plain-clothes man.

"Dropped some money. Oh well, I can't see it. It was only sixpence."

He straightened up.

"Cawn't we help?" asked Grace's policeman.

"It doesn't matter. To-morrow's Christmas and I'll get more than that."

"It's more'n the price of a pot o' beer," said Grace's policeman. "If
you can afford to lose it, we can. Goodnight."

"Good-night," said Peter, "and a Merry Christmas."

When they were out of sight he stole back. "Uncle! Uncle! What can I do?
Tell me."

"They're after me. I've nowhere to sleep. I just want to see my kids and
Jehane before they get me. That's why I've come."

"They shan't get you," said Peter firmly.

"Oh, but they will. I once said, 'They shan't get me'; but when you're
cold and hungry----"

"You stop there. I'll be back in ten minutes."

Peter ran down the Crescent. It was he and Uncle Waffles against the
world; but there was one man who might help--a man who wasn't good
enough to be hard and judging. Peter looked ahead as he ran, shaping
his plan. Yes, there he was, dropping the reins on his horse's back from
driving his last fare.

Peter tugged at his arm as Mr. Grace heaved himself down from the seat
to the pavement.

"None O' that, me boy, or I'll tear yer bloomin' tripes h'out---- Oh,
beg parding; h'it's you, Master Peter."

"I want to speak to you, Mr. Grace, somewhere where we can't be seen or
heard."

"Yer do, do yer? Wot abart the pub?"

"Not the pub, people'd wonder to see me there."

Mr. Grace was offended; no one ever wondered to see him there. "Not
respeckable enough! That's it, is h'it. Ah well, you take my advice.
You're young. If yer want to live ter be my age, pickle yer guts.
Yer'll 'ave a darter one day, don't yer worry. Gawd pity a man wiv a
disrespekful hussy---- Suppose yer think I'm drunk?"

The situation required tact. "Not drunk, Mr. Grace; you don't run your
words together. You're just Christmasy, I expect."

Mr. Grace threw a rug over his horse's back and fetched out the
nose-bag. When this was done, he addressed Peter solemnly, steadying
himself against the shafts. "I am drunk. Yer know I'm drunk. I know I'm
drunk. Old Cat's Meat knows I'm drunk. Where's the good o' argify-ing
and tellin' lies abart it? Let's settle the point at once. I'm damn well
drunk and I'm goin' ter be drunker."

The minutes were flying; there was no more time to fence. "Mr. Grace, I
want you to help me. There's no one else in the world I would ask."

Mr. Grace cocked his eye at Peter, a blind kind of eye like an oyster on
the half-shell.

"'Elp! 'Elp 'oo? 'Elp wot? Me 'elp! I need 'elp me-self; I kin 'ardly
stand up."

"Oh please, not so loud! I'm serious. Something dreadful's happening and
you're my friend---- You are my friend, aren't you?"

Mr. Grace clapped his heavy paw on Peter's shoulder. "S'long h'as Gawd
gives me breaf."

"Then let's sit in the cab, so no one will see us and I'll tell you."

"Strange h'as it may seem ter yer, Master Peter, I don't fancy the
h'inside o' me own keb. Know too much abart it. There wuz a bloke I
druv ter the 'orspital t'other day wrapped up in blankits. 'E died o'
smallspecks. But anythin' ter h'oblidge a friend."

The door closed behind them.

"'Ere, darn wiv that winder, young 'un. I feel crawlly wivout air. Sye,
don't yer tell yer pa wot I said abart me keb."

Peter seized the cabman's hairy hand and held it firmly; he had
to anchor him somehow. "Has Grace told you anything about my Uncle
Waffles?"

"Swiped somefing, didn't 'e?"

"Yes."

"Wise bloke. Honesty's been my ruin. H'I allaws returns the numbrella's
wot's left in me keb. I might 'a been a rich man; there's lots o' money
in numbrellas.---- Wot did 'e swipe? 'Andkerchiefs or jewels?"

"He swiped money; but he meant to give it back."

Mr. Grace made an explosive sound, followed by innumerable gurglings,
like the blowing of a bung out of a beer barrel. "Yer make me larf. Wot
d'yer taik me for? I ain't no chicken---- Oh, me tripes and onions! He
meant to give it back! Ha-ha-ha!---- Now come, Master Peter, no uncle o'
yours 'ud be such a fool as that."

"Well, anyway, he didn't give it back and they're after him."

"Oo? The cops?"

"Yes. Grace's policeman."

Mr. Grace sat up with such violence that the cab groaned in its ancient
timbers. "The devil, 'e is! A nice, h'amiable man, my Grice's policeman!
'E's allaws makin' h'enmity 'tween me and my darter. 'E watches the pubs
and tells 'er abart me, and 'im no better 'imself. H'I 'ate' im. So 'e's
after yer uncle?"

"He and a tall thin man who's been watching our house for a fortnight.
My uncle's up the Crescent hiding in the front garden of an empty house.
You've got to help me to get him away and hide him."

Mr. Grace laid his finger against his bulbous nose. "Daingerous work,
Peter! Daingerous work! H'its against traffic reg'lations to h'aid and
h'abet a h'escapin' criminal. Wot yer goin' ter do wiv 'im if I lends
yer me keb?"

Peter bent his head and whispered.

Mr. Grace chuckled, slapping his fat thighs. "Blime! Lord love us! That
ain't 'alf bad. That's one in the h'eye for me darter's young feller.
H'I'm on, me lad."

An irascible old gentleman who had been stamping his feet on the
pavement, looking for the driver, now rattled his stick on the side of
the cab.

"'Ere, don't yer do that. Yer'll knock the paint h'orf."

"I've been waiting out here for half an hour. It's disgraceful. Drive me
to Paddington."

Mr. Grace waddled out of the cab and shut the door behind him, leaving
Peter inside. "I'm h'engaged," he said.

While he removed the nose-bag from Cat's Meat's head and gathered up the
reins, the old gentleman addressed a few remarks, the purport of which
was that Mr. Grace would find himself without a license.

As the cab turned to climb the Crescent, Mr. Grace made an effort to
outdo this burst of eloquence.

"None o' yer lip, old bladder o' lard. I know your sort. Yer the sort
'as ain't got no change fer a tip and feels un-'appy as 'ell abart
payin' a fare."




CHAPTER XIX--THE CHRISTMAS CAB

As they neared the empty house, Peter was about to thrust his head out
of the window. He had the words on the tip of his tongue to say, "Stop
here, Mr. Grace." So much were they on the tip of his tongue that he
almost believed he had said them. But he darted back, crouching in the
darkest corner of the fusty cab. At a little distance, watching the
gate, he had caught sight of a man.

Cat's Meat crawled on, ascending the hill. At the top, where the Terrace
began, Mr. Grace halted. "'Ere, young 'un, where are we goin'? You'll be
'ome direckly."

"Turn the corner," Peter whispered from inside the growler; "turn the
corner quickly."

Mr. Grace turned and lumbered on a little way. Again he halted. "'Arf a
mo', Peter. Wot's the gime? Tell us."

"Did you see that tall lean man, standing outside the garden of the
empty house?"

"May a' done. Thought h'I saw two on 'em, but maybe I'm seein' double---
H'oh yes, h'I saw old Tapeworm."

"He's the plain-clothes man. I know, 'cause I heard him talking with my
father. My father said he'd give my uncle up, if the plain-clothes man
would trust him and not make mother nervous."

"And wery friendly o' your pa, h'I'm sure. Let family love kintinue----
But where's this uncle o' yours as did the swipin'? Come darn to facts,
me friend. Where h'is 'e nar?"

Peter's answer was like the beating wings of a moth, rapid but making
hardly any sound. "He's hidden in the garden of the empty house."

"Jee-rusalem!" Mr. Grace whistled, cleared his throat once or twice
and spat. Then he started laughing. "Leave 'im ter me, me 'earty. I'll
settle wiv the spotter."

He pulled his horse round. But when Peter saw what was happening, he
gave a small imploring whisper. "Oh, Mr. Grace, please, please don't go
back yet; we've got to think something out."

"Think somefing h'out! Crikey! I've thought. H'I'm drunk, me lad, and
when h'I'm drunk h'I think quicklike. You get under the seat and think
o' somefing sad, somefing as'll keep yer quiet--think o' the chap as
died o' small-specks."

Peter took his friend's advice. Oh, what a Christmas Eve he was having!
He had known Mr. Grace both drunk and sober--sober, t'is true, very
rarely. But sobriety is a relative term, according to your man.
Mr. Grace sober was afraid of the law; Mr. Grace drunk was game for
anything.

Mr. Grace jerked on the reins. Cat's Meat flung his legs apart, fell
forward, fell backward, came to rest and grunted. He was for all the
world like a chair giving way and making a desperate effort to hold
together; only Cat's Meat was always successful in dodging disruption--a
chair in collapse isn't.

"I see yer, Mr. Piece o' Sucked Thread. I see yer. Yer cawn't 'ide from
a man as sees double. Come h'out o' that there shadder. Come h'out inter
the blessed light. 'No shadders yonder, no temptations there,' as they
sing in the H'Army o' Salwashun."

When there was no answer, Mr. Grace continued his harangue. "Blokey, yer
ain't got a chawnce in the world. I knows yer by yer 'ang-dawg h'air.
Yer wanted by the cops, I'll bet a tanner. It's Christmas h'Eve, blokey,
so I won't be 'ard on yer; but yer've got ter pay fer ridin' in me keb.
Every bloke 'as, or else I whacks 'im on the snout."

"Shish! Wot's the matter?" The shadow by the wall spoke and stirred.

"Wot's s'matter! I'll let yer know wot's s'matter if yer don't pay me my
fare. H'I druv yer from the Terrace and yer wuz goin' ter King's Cross,
yer were. And yer opened the door by the pub darn there and jumped
h'out."

"You're drunk, me man. H'I'm lookin' fer the very chap yer blatherin'
about. Where did 'e jump h'out?"

The detective stepped into the road so that the lights of the cab shone
on him.

"Kum up, Cat's Meat. I see nar; 'e ain't the feller." Cat's Meat came up
one weary step and the wheels protested.

"No, yer don't." The detective caught hold of the reins. "Where'd this
chap jump h'out?"

"'Ands h'orf." Mr. Grace rose up on his box threateningly, his whip
raised as if about to bring it down. "'Ands h'orf, I sye. Leave me
prancin' steed to 'is own dewices, le'go o' me gallopin' charger."

"Where'd this chap jump out? If yer don't tell me, I'll arrest you
instead."

"Awright, yer Royal 'Ighness! Don't lose yer 'air. Why didn't yer sye
yer was a cop at fust. H'I'm lookin' fer 'im as much as you are. I want
'im wery bad. You and me's friends."

"Friends! I choose me own friends. I'm a respeckable man, I am. Tell me
quickly, where'd 'e jump out?"

Mr. Grace removed his hat and scratched his head. "Of h'all the fiery
blokes I h'ever met, you taik the biscuit, me chap. 'E h'excused
hisself darn there by the pub and the trams. I 'ears the door o' me keb
a-bangin'. I looks round and, lo, 'e'd wanished in the crards."

The detective waited to hear no more, but set off running down the
Crescent. As he dwindled in the darkness, Mr. Grace called after him,
"Me and Cat's Meat'll miss yer--so agreeable yer were. Merry Christmas,
ole pal." Then, in a lower voice to Peter, "Yer kin forget the
smallspecks, young 'un. Yer----"

But Peter had leapt to the pavement and slipped through the gateway
under the sign _To Let_. "Uncle. Uncle. He's gone. Hurry."

He listened. The shrubbery about him rustled. He looked up at the empty
windows, wondering if Uncle Waffles had got inside the house. He was a
little frightened; the darkness was so desperate and lonely. He called
more loudly. "Uncle. Uncle. Make haste."

Then he heard a sound of shuffling and something stirred beneath the
steps. He ran forward and seized the man's coat--it was sodden--dragging
him through the garden toward the road. It was strange that so small a
boy should take command of a grown man.

"You won't give me up, Peter, will you?"

Give him up! That was likely! Fancy Peter allowing anyone to suffer
if he could prevent it! Why, Peter, when Romance's kittens were to be
drowned, would steal them away and hide them. He couldn't bear that
anything should be wounded or dead. He pushed his uncle into the cab
and, before following, held a whispered consultation with Mr. Grace.

"You remember my plan--what I told you?"

Mr. Grace digressed. He twisted round on the box, craning his neck to
look in at the window. "'E don't strike me as much ter make a fuss
abart."

"That's 'cause you don't know him."

"Well, I ain't pining' fer an introduction."

"But you're not going back on me, Mr. Grace! He doesn't look very grand;
but he's kind and gentle." Peter was dismayed by this sudden coolness.

"H'I'm not the chap ter go back on 'is friends. Hook inter the keb. I
remember wot yer told me."

At the top of the Crescent they turned to the left, crawled a hundred
yards and then turned to the right, going down the mews which ran behind
the Terrace. The mews was unlighted and humpy. On one side stood the
high closed doors of stables; on the other, rubbish heaps and the backs
of jerry-built houses not yet finished building.

The man at Peter's side said nothing. Every now and then he shivered and
seemed to hug himself. Once or twice he twitched and muttered below his
breath. There was the stale smell of alcohol and wet clothes about him.
To Peter it was all so terrible that he could not put his comfort
into words. This man, who swayed weakly with each jerk of the cab and
crouched away from him, was a stranger--not a bit like the irresponsible
joking person he had known as his Uncle Waffles.

The cab stopped. Mr. Grace waddled down and blew out his lamps. Then
he tapped on the window. "'Ere we are, Master Peter. H'I've counted the
doors; this 'ere's the back o' yer 'ouse."

Peter stretched out his hand gropingly in the blackness and touched his
uncle's. "I'm going to hide you so you'll never be found."

Ocky's voice came in a hopeless whisper. "Are you, Peter? But how----
how?"

"You remember the loft above the stable I told you about? No one goes
there but Kay and myself--it's our secret. It's too cold for Kay to go
there now. Mr. Grace and I are going to help you over the wall; then
you must climb into the loft the way I once showed you and lie quiet.
To-morrow I'll come to you as soon as I can and bring you whatever I can
get."

"You're a good boy, Peter. You're a ha'penny marvel; I always said you
were."

The whisper was hoarse, but no longer hopeless.

Suddenly the door was jerked open irritably. "'Ere, make 'aste. Come
h'out of it, you in there."

When Peter and his uncle had obeyed orders, the cab was backed up
against the tall doors which gave entrance to the yard of the stable.

"Get h'up on the roof o' me keb, climb onter the top o' the doors and
see if yer kin drop h'over." Mr. Grace spoke gruffly.

Ocky did as he was bidden but, either through timidity or weakness,
failed to scramble from the cab on to the top of the doors. Mr. Grace
growled impatiently and muttered something explosive at each failure.
Now that he was in mid-act of contriving against the law, he was anxious
to be rid of the adventure.

Ocky excused himself humbly. "I'm not the man I was. I've had my
troubles."

"To 'ell with yer troubles! They cawn't be no worse'n mine; if yer want
ter know wot trouble is, taik a week o' bein' father ter my darter----
Kum on, Peter, you and me's got ter chuck 'im h'over."

Standing on the roof of the cab, they each caught hold of a leg and
hoisted. Ocky protested, but up he went, till in desperation he clutched
at the doors and sat balancing astride them.

Now that he had something to do, Mr. Grace's cheerfulness returned.
"Like bringin' 'ome the family wash, ain't it, Peter?" Then, to Ocky
threateningly, "Nar Bill Sykes, yer've got ter tumble darn t'other side;
I'm goin' ter drar awye me keb."

Ocky said he'd break his legs--he might need them, so he didn't want
to do that. He lay along the narrow ledge like a man unused to riding,
clinging to a horse's neck.

"Awright, yer force me to it." Mr. Grace spoke sadly with a kind of
it-hurts-me-more than-it-does-you air. Peter was told to get down. Mr.
Grace having driven away a few paces, dropped the reins and stepped on
to the roof, whip in hand.

"Me and Peter is good pals. Peter says ter me, 'My uncle's swiped
somefing. The cops is after 'im.' 'Righto,' I says. Now h'it appears yer
don't want ter be saved; but h'I've give me word and h'I'm goin' ter do
it.---- Are yer going' h'over?"

Mr. Grace brought his whip down lightly across Ocky's legs; his humor
made him a humane man. Ocky squirmed, lost his balance and disappeared,
all except his hands which clung desperately. Once again the whip came
down and a muffled thud was heard.

Mr. Grace took his seat on the box and gathered up the reins. "Any more
h'orders, sir?" he asked of Peter. "Keb. Keb. Keb.---- Thirsty work,
Master Peter. Poor chap lost 'is nerve; 'e needed a little stimerlant.
We h'all do sometimes."

But when Peter tried to pay Mr. Grace, he refused indignantly.
"H'I h'ain't like some folks as would rob a work 'ouse child o' its
breakfust. Wot I done I done fer love o' you, Master Peter. You buy
that little gal o' yours a present." Then, because he didn't want to
be thought a good man, he spoke angrily. "H'I've got ter be drunk
ter-night. Yer've wasted enough o' me time awready. Kum h'up 'ere beside
me h'at once and I'll drive yer 'ome."

So they drove round the mews to the Terrace and halted this time in
front of the house. When Peter had rung the bell, his friend beckoned
him back. "Sonny, 'e weren't worf it. 'E weren't reelly."

Before Peter could answer, the door opened and he heard his mother's
voice saying, "Why, it's Peter in a Christmas cab! Oh, how kind of Mr.
Grace to bring you back! Were you so loaded down with presents, Peter?"
And he entered empty-handed. He would need all his Christmas money
to help Uncle Waffles. Kay came running to meet him and halted in
bewilderment. "But, Mummy, where are Peter's presents?"

Grace's mind was taken up with another subject; from the steps she had
caught her father's eye and had seen that it was glazed. As she passed
her mistress she sought sympathy, whispering, "Pa's drunk as usual, Mam.
Ain't it sick'ning? Fat lot o' good me prayin'!"

But Mr. Grace, pottering down the Terrace, felt a Christmas warmth about
his heart. It wasn't because he had saved a man from Justice; he was
happy because Peter had told him that he was the only friend in the
world from whom he could have asked help.---- Grace might call him a
drunkard, and to-night he intended to be very drunk; but he must be
something better as well, or else Peter wouldn't have talked like that.

So, because he was happy, he sang as he pottered down the Terrace.
It wasn't exactly a Christmas carol, but it served his purpose. It
expressed devil-may-care contempt for public opinion--and that was how
he felt.

                   "Darn our narbor'ood,

                   Darn our narbor'ood,

                   Darn the plaice where I'm a-livin' nar,

                   Why, the gentry in our street

                   In the cisterns wash their feet,

                   In the narbor'ood where I'm a-livin' nar."

Mr. Grace very rarely sang, because he was very seldom happy. Cat's
Meat quickened his step; he knew what that sound meant. It meant no more
work.

In the distance the lights of the public-house grew up.




CHAPTER XX--THE HIDING OF OCKY WAFFLES

Peter's Christmas cab! Why a cab? What had he brought back in it and
where had he hidden it? It must be something very grand and splendid to
demand a cab. Kay coaxed him to give her just one little hint as to what
it was: she went through all her love-tricks without success, rubbing
her silky hair against his cheek and kissing his eyes while she clasped
his neck. It was useless for him to declare that he had bought no
presents; she snuggled against him laughing--she knew her Peter better
than that.

In the high spirits that surrounded him Peter was very miserable. He was
wondering whether Uncle Waffles had hurt himself when he tumbled into
the yard from the top of the doors. He was wondering whether such
a timid climber had been able to find his way into the loft. He was
wondering how he could help him to escape to safety. Mr. Grace might
not be willing to assist a second time; he had said that Uncle Waffles
"weren't worf it." But he was; _he was_.

Wild plans were forming in Peter's brain. Would it be possible to put
his uncle on the tandem tricycle and ride off in the night undetected?
Would it be possible to----?

And then there was another thought. Ever since he was quite a tiny boy
he had had a secret dread of the loft after nightfall--a fear which he
knew Kay shared. It was all right in the day when the sun was shining;
there was nothing to be afraid of then. But his strong imagination
made him suspect that the loft was used by tramps, hungry, fierce-eyed
tramps, when darkness fell--tramps who climbed over the wall, just as
Uncle Waffles had done. If that should be true and one of them should
find his uncle there----. Peter shuddered.

"Peter, little man, you've been getting too excited," his father said;
"we don't want you ill to-morrow. Don't you think you'd better go to
bed?"

And Peter was glad of the excuse to get away to where no one would
observe him. He felt an outlaw. He had taken sides against his father
and his family. He wasn't at all sure that he hadn't committed a
criminal offence; the police, if they knew, might lay their hands on him
and lock him up with Uncle Waffles. What would Kay think of her brother
then?

In the darkness of his room he lay awake, listening to footsteps in the
downstairs part of the house. The servants came up and the gas on the
landing was lowered to a jet. Then he heard the rustling of paper, and
his mother and father whispering together.

"That's for Glory."

"It won't go into her stocking."

"Oh, yes, it will at a stretch."

"And who's this for?"

"That's for Peter, old silly; go and lay it on his bed." Through
half-closed eyes Peter saw his father enter, straight and tall, with his
cropped hair and direct way of walking, so much like a soldier-man. He
came on tiptoe, trying to be stealthy; but he stumbled against a chair.

Nan came hurrying noiselessly. "Oh Billy, darling, you're a rotten Santa
Claus. Have you wakened him now?"

They listened. When Peter did not stir, his father whispered, "It's all
right, kiddy; the little chap sleeps soundly. By Jove, he's not hung up
his stocking!"

They examined the end of the bed. Then his mother spoke. "No, he hasn't.
He couldn't have been feeling well. He's been worrying, I'm sure he has,
all this last month."

"A boy of his age oughtn't to worry. What about?"

Nan hesitated. "Our Peter's very compassionate---- He loved Ocky. I've
looked through his eyes often lately; I'm sure he's condemning us."

"Us! Poor little Peterkins! It must hurt---- Well, he doesn't
understand."

They bent over him, kissing him, thinking he slept.

"Peter always fancies that everyone must be good whom he loves."

And Nan answered, "You can make anyone good by love--don't you think so,
Billy?"

He slipped his arm about her and leant his face against her hair. "I
know you made me better, dearest."

The gas was extinguished and their feet died out on the stairs.

One! Two! Three! The grandfather-clock in the hall struck out the hours.
Peter could not bear it. He must tell someone. He threw back the clothes
and crept to the door; his parents' room was under his--they must not
hear him. A board creaked. He halted, his fingers on his mouth, his
heart drumming. No one stirred; through the heavy silence came the light
breathing of sleepers.

Pressing his hand against the wall to steady himself, he tiptoed along
the passage, past Riska's room, past Grace's, till he came to the door
of the room in which Glory and Kay lay together. He looked in; a shaft
of moonlight fell across their faces on the pillow. He was struck
with how alike they were: the same narrow penciled eyebrows; the same
sensitive bowed mouth, just a little short in the upper lip; the same
streaming honey-colored hair.

He stood looking down at them. Since he had noticed this, he felt a new
kindness for Glory. Kay turned on her side and the paper on the presents
at the foot of the bed crackled. Should he--should he tell Glory? She
looked so gentle. No, it would be selfish; he must endure the burden of
his knowledge himself. And yet----. He was very troubled.

Up the frosty silence, tremulous and distant, climbed the sound of
music--a harp and a violin playing. His brain set the playing to words:

                   "It came upon the midnight clear

                   That glorious song of old,

                   From angels bending near the earth

                   To touch their harps of gold."

Its beauty quieted his dreads, lifting his spirit to the world of
legend. It hushed, halted and again commenced. It was like the feet of
Jesus on the London house-tops, bringing safety to sinful men. Perhaps
Uncle Waffles heard it.

It ceased. A man's voice rang out: "Fine and frosty. Three o'clock in
the morning. A Happy Christmas. All's well."

Peter had turned his eyes to the window where the moon sat balanced on a
cloud; now that the stillness was again unbroken, he looked down at the
faces on the pillow. The eyes of Glory were wide open. She showed no
surprise at seeing him there. How long had she been watching?

He stooped over her and whispered, "It was the waits, Glory."

Her arms reached up and dragged him down. "Peter, Peter, you don't hate
me, do you? I can't help being a coward."

"Shish! We'll wake Kitten Kay. Of course I don't hate you. I try to love
everybody."

"And me just as one with the rest? Not even with the rest, Peter.--No,
no, kiss me now."

He kissed her; it was almost like kissing Kay. She held him so tightly
that she took away his breath. He drew back, a little thrilled and
startled. He looked down. Kay's eyes were closed; Glory's were smiling
up at him, timid with puzzled longing. Years later he was to remember
that. Then, yet more distant, the waits re-commenced, like the feet of
Jesus bringing peace to sinful men. And that also he would remember.

Back in bed he lay very still. The fear had gone out of him; once again
the world seemed kind and gentle. "Christ was born this morning," he
whispered; "Christ was born this morning. Oh Jesus, who came into the
world a little boy just like Peter, you can understand. I'm so troubled.
Oh Jesus----" But sleep was sent in answer to his prayer.

It was dark when he awoke. What was it he had been dreaming? Ah yes!--He
rose stealthily and dressed. The morning was chilly. His teeth chattered
and shivers ran through him; that wasn't all due to coldness. Without
looking at the packages on his bed, he stole across the landing and
down the stairs. Outside the servants' room he listened. One of them was
snoring loudly; that was reassuring. As he drew further away from the
bedrooms, he moved more hurriedly. All the time he was expecting to hear
a door open and to see a head peering over the banisters. Having reached
the hall, he ran down into the basement, taking less care to make no
sound. His feet on the stone flags of the kitchen seemed as loud as
those of a procession marching. Something brushed against his legs. He
jumped aside with a cry of terror. It came again, a shadow following.
Then he saw that it was only Romance.

What was it he must get? It was difficult to think; a hammer was
knocking, in his temples. He felt along the dresser; sent a pan
clattering; stood tense, listening; found what he sought; struck a match
and lit the gas The light helped him to think more clearly, but it also
convicted him of wrong doing. Everything he saw, even Romance looking up
at him unblinking, seemed to say, "I shall tell. I shall tell."

Things looked cheerless. Chairs were pushed back from the table, just as
they had been left by the servants. The grate was choked with ashes, in
which a few coals glowered red. But he must hurry. What was it he must
get?

In the pantry there were sausage-rolls--so many that no one would miss
a few of them. There were loaves of bread, an uncut ham from which Peter
took some slices, a jug of milk from which he took a glassful, making up
the deficit with water, and a dish of baked apples. He helped himself,
feeling horribly thief-like. Then he thought of how cold it was out
there. He crept upstairs to the cloakroom and unhooked one of his
father's coats from its peg. He returned and took a cushion from
Cookie's favorite chair in which the cane was broken and sagging. Thus
loaded, he unlocked the door into the garden, closing it behind him, and
shuffled out.

How unfriendly and treacherous everything was! Even the kind old
mulberry, stripped of its leaves, seemed to scowl and threaten to reach
down and clutch him. The laburnum, which in summer was a slim gold girl,
pointed thin derisive fingers at him. Across neighboring walls came an
icy breeze, which whispered, "Cut off his head. Cut off his head." As he
tiptoed down the path, the gravel turned beneath his tread. Dead leaves
rustled. His breath came pantingly and steamed through the shadows.

He hoped Uncle Waffles would come to meet him. And yet he dreaded. He
could still feel the shaking of his uncle's clammy hand as he had felt
it last night in the darkness of the cab. Sometimes he fancied that he
saw him crouched beneath the bushes.

He paused irresolute. Should he go forward or----?

He glanced back. The windows were wells of blackness--hollow sockets
from which the sight had been gouged out. He fixed his gaze on the
window ahead, the loft-window behind the ivy, which spied on the garden.
He had always expected to see a man's face there. It was to be a face
about which the hair hung long and lank, with the mouth pendulous and
the eyes cavernous.--What would Kay think if she could see him now?

He raised the latch of the door which led into the yard. He looked
round, hesitating on the threshold. His imagination told him he would be
clutched forward. Nothing happened.

In the stable it was dark as death. He set his burdens down before
entering, so that he might be ready for a hasty exit. He stood still,
his left hand pressed against the door-post; if he had to run, he
would push himself off with a flying start. He was even afraid of Uncle
Waffles now.

Heavy breathing! Where was it? He called. He heard something whirr,
and jumped back. The same instant he recognized the sound: it was
the turning of a pedal on its ball-bearings. From beneath the tandem
tricycle, with many groans and curses, a man emerged.

"Bruised all over. That's what I am.--Hulloa! You there, Peter? Oh damn!
That's another on the forehead. Disfigured for life, I am. Nice way
you've got of treating your poor old uncle."

He pulled himself up by his hands. Even in the dusk he looked crushed
and sheepish. But every situation, however shameful, had to be made an
occasion for jest. "Wonder how I came here! Tandem trikes make strange
bedfellows. You must excuse my language. Your Aunt Jehane always told
this little boy he must never swear."

As his uncle approached him, zigzagging and groping for support
uncertainly, Peter became again aware of the stale smell of alcohol.
He did not need to be told why his uncle had proved such an inferior
climber.

"Why, I brought you here last night--I and Mr. Grace together.--Did you
hurt yourself when you fell?"

"Fell! Did I fall? I'm used to falling these days. I'm a li'le
bird tumbled out of its nest. Broke to the wide, I am. And nobody
cares--nobody cares."

Peter, hearing his weak self-pitying sobbing, overcame his momentary
physical repulsion. "But I care, Uncle. I _do_ care. Glory cares."

"Where's the good o' your caring, dear old chap? You're only a boy and
Glory's only a girl--you can't help me."

"But I can." He pulled at his uncle's trembling hands. "I'm going to
hide you in the loft till they've all forgotten to look for you, and
then----"

"But, chappie, I've got to be fed and my money's all spent."

"I'll get food for you."

Uncle Waffles bent above Peter, trying to catch his eyes.

"You'll get food for me--but from where? Whose food?--You mean you're
going to steal for me. No, Peter, you shan't do that."

Peter was perplexed. "If I don't, you'll go hungry. People aren't good
to you. I won't steal, I'll--I'll just borrow. When you're safe, I'll
tell them and pay it all back."

"That's what I said, 'I'll just borrow.' That's why I'm here. I can't
bear to let you do anything wrong for me."

"But if I don't they'll take you away and lock you up. My heart would
break if that should happen."

Ocky sat down on a box and drew Peter to his knee in the darkness,
putting his arm about him. "I've never been loved like that; if I
had I'd have been a better man. If I let you do this I want to make a
promise. Whether I'm caught or not, for your sake I'm going to be good
in the future.--You don't know what I am--how foolish and bad. I was
drunk last night--I got drunk to forget my terror. Do you think I'm
worth doing wrong for, chappie?"

Peter drew the unshaven face down to his shoulder. "You poor, poor
uncle! It wouldn't be doing wrong if you became good because I stole,
now would it?--You'll let me do it?"

They stood up. "What you got there?"

"Food. We must hurry. If we don't they'll find out.--And here's some
money."

"Did you steal that?"

"I saved it for Christmas. I want you to take care of it. Now, here's
the way we go upstairs."

Peter tried to laugh. He showed his uncle where to find a foothold in
the wall and, by pushing and whispering instructions, got him through
the trap-door into the room overhead. Then he handed up the results of
his foraging and followed.

The loft was big and cheerless, thick with dust and hung with cobwebs.
Across the roof went rafters; where they joined the wall sparrows had
built their nests. Over the stalls were holes in the floor through which
hay could be pitch-forked down. There was only one window at the far
end, which looked out into the garden; several of the panes were broken
and let in the wintry air.

Ocky shivered. For comfort he fell back on his pipe and began to fumble
in his pocket for a match. When he struck it Peter saw for the first
time what he was doing. He snatched it from him and blew it out. "But
you mustn't do that."

"Why not?"

"They might see you from the house."

"Not if I'm careful."

"You never are careful," said Peter wisely.

"But baccy's all I've got."

"You've got me. I'll come as often as I can."

As he was going, Uncle Waffles hesitated and called him back. "Could you
manage to let me see Jehane and Glory? Couldn't you coax 'em into
the garden? I'm longing for a sight of them. They'd never know I was
watching.--It's an odd Christmas I'm going to have."

Peter had no idea that the time had flown so fast. As he passed up the
garden, the sun was swinging above the house-tops like a smoky lantern.
He could see the mold beneath the bushes, glistening and frosty, chapped
and broken into little hollows and cracks. In one of the top bedrooms a
light sprang up; it was Riska's--she must be examining her stocking.

He had hoped to creep into the house undetected, but at the door he was
met by Cookie.

"So that's it, is h'it? There's no tellin' wot you'll be h'up to next.
I was just goin' ter count the forks. I thought as we'd 'ad beargulars.
Awright Grice, it's the young master been h'out for a h'early mornin's
h'airing." He ran past her, but she caught him. "Lor', yer cold, boy.
Come and warm yerself. If you h'ate meat three times a day the same h'as
I do yer wouldn't get blue like that."

Cookie's one claim to distinction, which she invariably introduced into
conversation, was that she was a great meat-eater. It made her different
from other people and, having no beauty with which to attract, afforded
her a topic with which to draw attention to herself.

"You need some 'ot chockerlit, that's wot yer want. Not but wot meat 'ad
be better; but there, that's where h'I'm pecooliar. 'Never was such a
gel for eatin' meat. Lor, 'ow yer runs my bills h'up!' that's wot my ma
used to say abart me. She's dead, Gawd rest 'er bones.--Now, drink that
h'up, yer little sinner. Thought h'it was summer, did yer? Went h'out
to 'ear the pretty burds. I'm only pecooliar abart meat; but, the divil
take me, if you ain't pecooliar all over."

Cookie sat down in her favorite chair; the cane burst under her. Her
legs shot up and her arms waved wildly. "'Elp! 'Elp me, Master Peter.
For good luck's sake!"

Peter helped her.

"H'it's a wonder I didn't break no bones. Bones is brittle this weather.
But where's me cushion? If that cat's 'ad it----"

Peter escaped and slipped into the cloak-room. Hidden behind the coats,
he listened to Cookie stamping up and down, breathing threatening and
slaughter against all cats--especially cats who stole cushions.

In her search for the lost cushion she began to make discoveries.
"Where's them sorsage-rolls? There was twenty. And 'oo's been cuttin'
the 'am? She was allaws a wery honest cat. Can't understand it. Never
knew a cat to cut 'am. Cats ain't us'ally fond o' h'apples--leastwise no
cat I h'ever 'eard of.--Shish, yer warmint! Shish! Get along wi' yer."

Something was thrown. There was a loud me-ow. Romance, followed by Sir
Walter Scott, followed by Cookie, fled upstairs. Peter was pained
that others should be blamed--even though they were only cats--for his
wrongdoing. Anything like injustice hurt him. And Romance knew that he
was the thief! How could he ever face her again, and how could she ever
love him? If a cat could steal a cushion and cut ham, she could also
take a coat. Would they blame her for that?

He was in his bedroom, finishing the postponed odds and ends of his
dressing, when Kay called him. He pretended not to hear her. At last
he had to answer, "Coming." He went to her shame-faced, like a guest
without a wedding-garment: he had no present.

She was kneeling up in bed in her white night-gown. The gas was lit and
the floor was strewn with paper from unwrapping her discoveries.

"Merry Christmas, Peterkins. Oh, come and look! This is what Grandpa
sent me from Cassingland. And this is what Aunt Jehane gave me. And
this---- But why didn't you come sooner? I've been calling and calling."

Peter hung his head. Glory was looking at him. Was it just wonder in her
eyes or a question? Had she guessed? Would everybody guess?

"I didn't come, Kitten Kay, because I haven't anything for you."

She gazed at him incredulously. Her face fell with disappointment. "But
the cab, Peter? The Christmas cab!"

"There was nothing in it. I've not got anything for anybody."

She couldn't understand it; he could see that. She was saying to
herself, "Did Peter forget me?" But her face brightened bravely. "I've
something for you."

"I couldn't take it, Kay. No, really."

He was nearly crying with mortification. "I've nothing for you, little
Kay; and, yet, I love you better than anyone in all the world."

She held out her arms to him with the divine magnanimity of childhood.
"Dear, dear Peter. Softy me. It'll do just as well."

He returned to his room while she dressed. He sat on the edge of his bed
with the gas unlighted. He did not open the parcels which his father
and mother had left. He did not deserve them. He had nothing to give
in exchange. He would be ashamed to look them in the face at
breakfast--especially to meet Riska, who was certain to show what she
thought of his meanness. In the darkness he reflected how wise he
had been to give that money to Uncle Waffles before the temptation
commenced.

Kay entered. "Coming downstairs?"

He took her hand. She pressed his and laughed up at him, trying to make
him smile back.

It was their custom to go to their parents' bedroom first thing on
Christmas morning. Outside the door Peter hung back, but Kay dragged him
forward.

Billy sat up, throwing back the counterpane, pretending to be terribly
excited at the thought of what they had brought him. Kay held up a
parcel. "What is it?" he asked. "Let me have it. What is it?"

"Guess. Father's got to guess, hasn't he, mother?"

"A fishing-rod?"

"Don't be silly, father. How could a fishing-rod be as small as that?"

The guessing went on--such absurd guessing!--until the paper was torn
off and a match-box was revealed.

"And now, what's Peter brought me?"

"Nothing, father. I haven't got anything for anybody. So, please, I
don't think I ought to take any of your presents."

Billy looked at Nan; this explained the absence of the Christmas
stocking. "But, old boy, what became of your money?"

"I--I gave it away, father."

"Last night? To a beggar?"

"Not--not exactly a beggar."

"But to someone who needed it badly?"

"Yes, badly. I couldn't give it to--to them and buy presents as well."
Peter swallowed. He hated lies and would tell the truth at all costs.
"And it wasn't last night. It was this morning."

His father regarded him gravely. "To someone in the house?"

"Not exactly."

"I can't see how it can be both in the house and out of it. It must be
exactly one or the other." Silence. "You don't want to tell?"

"I can't tell. But I want to so badly."

His mother leant out and caught his empty hands, pressing them to her
mouth. What a strange little conscience this son of hers had. "I'm sure
he did what seemed to him more generous. Now here's what mother's got
for you."

"Darling motherkins, I do love you--all of you. But I mustn't take
anything this Christmas."

"Nonsense," said his father.

"I mean it," said Peter proudly.

At breakfast the thing happened which Peter had expected. Riska was too
outspoken. Eustace had asked her a question in a whisper. She replied,
so everyone might hear her, with mocking eyes slanted at Peter, "Because
he spent it all last night in driving about in cabs."

There was another shock when his father remarked that the milk was
rather thin this morning.

When they walked down the Terrace on the way to the Christmas service,
they passed the lean man. He was watching: he was there when they came
back.

Billy noticed that his little son was furtive and restless; he was
always going to the window, when no one seemed to be looking, and
peeping out into the garden. When the coat was found missing and word
was brought of Cookie's lost cushion, he noticed that Peter got red.

He called him aside that evening. "What is it? Can't you trust me? Can't
you tell me, little Peter?"

How he longed to tell. But he looked up with troubled eyes. "I can't
even tell you, father."

During the days that followed food was continually disappearing. Every
morning, as a habit now, they glanced out to see if the lean man was
there. Then the eyes of the elders signaled to one another, "So he's not
caught yet." Peter's responsibilities were increasing. He found it more
and more difficult to go on supplying the wants of his uncle without
betraying his secret. Moreover, Ocky himself was getting tired of his
confinement; a loft has few diversions. It has no refinements: he
had not shaved for many days and his appearance was terrifying. The
mustaches had come unwaxed. The white spats were gray with dust and
climbing. Still, when Peter visited him, he was unconquerably cheerful.
He was only depressed when Peter had again failed to persuade Glory
or Jehane to come into the garden. "I want a sight of 'em, sonny. A
ha'penny marvel like you ought to be able to manage that."

Frequently he discussed marriage with Peter, warning him against it
and tracing his own downfall to it. "It's awright if you meet the right
girl. But you never do--that's my experience. People think you have;
but you know you haven't. I knew a chap; his wife had black hair. They
seemed so happy that folk called 'em the love-birds. Well, this chap
used to get drunk. Not often, you know, but just as often as was
sensible. Well, when he was drunk, he'd give himself away, oh,
entirely--let all his bitterness out. He'd always hoped that he'd marry
a girl with yellow hair. His wife was awright except for that; but he
couldn't forget it. Of course he never told her. But there's always
something like that in marriage--something that rankles and that you
keep to yourself. That little something wrong spoils all the rest.
Then one day there's a row. Chaps have killed their girls for less than
that.--Ah, yes, and folk called 'em the love-birds!"

Or he would say, "Love's a funny thing, Peter. Some men fall in love
with the slope of a throat or the shape of a nose, and marry a girl for
that. Now there was a chap I once knew----- Umph! Did I ever tell you?
This chap and his wife were known as the love-birds and his wife had
black hair." Then out would come the same old story.

Jehane had black hair. Peter wondered whether 'the chap' was Uncle
Waffles. And he wondered more than that; he was surprised that Uncle
Waffles should keep on forgetting that he'd told him the story already.
He supposed it was because he sat there all alone, brooding for hours
and hours.

"Mustn't mind if I'm queer, Peter. I'd be awright if you'd let me have
some baccy."

But Peter wouldn't let him have it; it would increase the risk of
discovery.

One night he ceased to be surprised at his uncle's lapses of memory. His
father and mother had gone out to dinner. The younger children had
been put to bed. Jehane and Glory were sitting by the dining-room fire,
darning socks and whispering of the future. Peter took his opportunity,
slipped into the garden and down to the stables.

Snow was on the ground; every footstep showed like a blot of ink on
white paper. He was surprised to see that someone had crossed the
flower-beds. Then he was startled by a thought. Perhaps the police, or
the man whom Mr. Grace called 'the spotter,' had guessed. He listened.
No sound. He entered the yard; the footprints led into the stable. He
called softly, "Are you there?" No one answered. With fear in his heart
he climbed into the loft: Uncle Waffles had vanished.




CHAPTER XXI--STRANGE HAPPENINGS

Had they caught him? Ever since the beginning of the adventure Peter
had wondered interminably how it would end. He hadn't been able to see
any ending. It had seemed to him that, if nothing was found out, Uncle
Waffles might go on hiding in the loft forever and he might go on
pilfering for him.

Peter had watched his uncle carefully; he knew much more about him
now. He knew that he was a great disreputable child, much younger than
himself, who would always be dependent on somebody. He came to realize
that through all those years of large talking his uncle had never been
a man--never would be now; that he was just a large self-conscious boy,
boastful, affectionate and unreliable, whose sins were not wickedness
but naughtiness. The odd strain of maternity in Peter, which prompted
him always to shelter things weaker than himself, made him love his
uncle the more for this knowledge. And now he was distracted, like a
bantam hen which has hatched out a swan and lost it.

He set to work searching in the coach-house, under the tandem
tricycle, in the harness-room. He went out into the yard, following the
footprints. They led through the door into the garden, under the pear
trees, across a flower-bed to a neighbor's wall and there terminated
abruptly. What could have happened?

The night about him was spectacular and glistening as a picture on a
Christmas card. Everything in sight was draped in exaggerated purity.
Like cotton-wool, sprinkled with powdered glass, snow lay along the arms
of trees and sparkled in festoons on withered creepers. The march of
those countless London feet, that invisible hurrying army, always weary,
yet never halting, came to him muffled as though it moved across a heavy
carpet. "Be quiet. Be quiet," said the golden windows, mounting in a
barricade of houses against the stars. "Be quiet. Be quiet," whispered
the shrouded trees, as their burdened branches creaked and lowered. But
he could not be quiet. Cold as it was, sweat broke out on his forehead.
What had happened?

A crunching sound--a mere rumor, seeming infinitely distant! A head
appeared above the wall, right over him. A man lumbered across and fell
with a gentle thud almost at his feet.

"Oh, how could you? How could you do that?"

The voice which answered was thick and truculent. It made no pretence
at being secret. "And why shouldn't I? That's what I ask. I was tired of
sticking up there. It's no joke, I can tell you."

"Shish! Where've you been?"

"Found a way out four gardens down--the wall's lower. No danger of
breaking one's legs--not like the way you brought me."

Peter was a little staggered by this hostile manner; it was as though he
were being charged with having done something wilfully unfair and cruel.
"But to-morrow they'll see that somebody's been there. They'll follow
your tracks from garden to garden and then------"

"I don't care. Let 'em. You'd never do anything I ask you. You wouldn't
let me see Jehane and Glory. They're my flesh and blood; and who are
you? You wouldn't give me any baccy. You gave me nothing. Buried me
alive, that's what you did for me. So I just slipped off by myself."

It was like an angry child talking. Ocky pulled a bottle from his
pocket, drew the cork with his teeth and tilted the neck against his
mouth. "Must have my medicine. Ah!"

Peter watched him. He was thinking fast, remembering past queernesses of
temper. "You've done this before?"

"Of course. And not ashamed of it either. I'll do it again as soon as I
get thirsty. It's cold up there." He jerked his thumb toward the loft.
"Has it ever struck you?"

Peter disregarded the question. "You did it with my money--the money
that was to help you."

"And isn't it helping me?" Another long draught. "Ah! That's
better!--You gave it me to take care of--I'm taking care of it. See? You
ought to know by now that I'm not to be trusted."

Peter saw that nothing was to be gained by arguing. He helped his uncle
to scramble into the loft. "We'll be lucky if you're not caught by
morning."

"Think so? What's the odds? Couldn't be worse off. Now shut up scolding;
you're as bad as Jehane. Let's be social. Did I ever tell you that story
about the chap whose wife had black hair?"

"Yes, you did. I know now that you'd been drinking every time you told
it."

"Hic! Really! Awright, you needn't get huffy. It's a good story."

Peter had at last hit on a plan. "Will you promise to stop here
to-night, if I promise to find you a better place to-morrow?"

"Now you're talking. Reg'lar ha'penny marvel, that's what you are.
Before I promise I must hear more. Where is it?" He spoke with the
_hauteur_ of a townsman engaging seaside lodgings. He was Ocky Waffles
Esquire, capitalist, who wasn't to be beaten at a bargain.

"Well, it'll probably be in a family."

"Depends on the family."

"Then promise me you won't go out again to-night."

"Shan't be able when I've polished off this bottle."

Peter appreciated the unblushing honesty of that prophecy. Before he
went he said, "It's my fault. I ought to have thought how lonely it was
for you."

Uncle Waffles tried to get up, but found that he maintained his dignity
better in a sitting posture. "Don't take it to heart, sonny. Forgive and
forget--that's my motto." He reached up his hand to Peter with a fine
air of Christian charity. Peter just touched it with the tips of his
fingers.

That night, knowing that her mistress was out, Grace had done a thing
which was forbidden. There was a passage running by the side of the
house, ending in a door which gave access to the Terrace. During the day
it was kept on the latch for the use of the children, the dustman, the
gardener and all persons of secondary importance. It saved continual
answering of the front-door and prevented muddy boots from tramping
through the hall. At night it was locked and the key was hung up outside
the diningroom, where anyone would be heard who tried to get it. Grace
had borrowed the key and admitted her policeman. She very rarely got the
chance, and always had to do it in secret. Barrington was firm regarding
kitchen company. "I won't have strange men lolling in my house without
my knowledge. That's how burglaries happen. The servants can meet their
friends on their nights out. I may seem harsh, but it's none of my
business to supply 'em with opportunities for getting married."

So Grace had to do her love-making on one evening a week, walking the
pavements with the object of her passion. Now and then she contrived
stolen interviews after nightfall, standing on the steps which led up
from the area and talking across the railings. Cookie sympathized with
her and helped her. "It's a burnin' shime," she said, "cagin' us h'up
like h'animals. H'it's a wonder ter me as we h'ever get married. The
master thinks that, 'cause we're servants, we ain't got no pashuns."

This evening when Grace had stopped her lover on his beat, Cookie had
suggested that they should borrow the key and let him into the kitchen
by the side-passage. That was why Peter heard a man's voice when he
crept stealthily into the basement. The sound was so unexpected that he
paused to listen without any intention of eavesdropping.

"It started Christmas mornin', didn't it, Grice?" It was Cookie
speaking. "The door was h'on the latch, the milk was watered, the
sorsage-rolls and me cushion was gone. We blimed the cat at first. H'I
was that h'angry, I threw a broom at 'er. Not but wot I might 'a known
as no cat could water milk if I'd 'a stopped ter thought. And then
Master Peter, 'im that's so ginerous, 'e forgets to give anyone 'is
Christmas presents. H'it beats creation, so it does. And h'ever since
then, though I h'ain't said much abart it, 'cause I didn't want ter git
'is pa h'angry, h'ever since then h'its been goin' h'on. One day h'it's
h'eggs missin'. 'Nother day h'it's beef--little nibbles like h'all
round. And yer may taik my word for h'it, the little master's h'at the
bottom h'of it. What d'yer sye abart that, Mr. Somp? Yer 'andle crimes,
don't yer? Wot's yer sudgestion?"

Mr. Somp was the name of Grace's policeman. Mr. Somp thought. "Kid's
got a h'appetite, ain't 'e?" he procrastinated. "I 'ad a h'appetite
once.--But h'I wouldn't 'a believed it h'of 'im."

Grace giggled. She had evidently felt the pressure of a burly arm. "Not
so frisky, cop. You 'old too 'ard. I ain't a drunk and disorderly."
Then, taking up the thread of the conversation, "A fine policeman you
are! 'Ow could a little boy h'eat Cookie's cushion?"

Mr. Somp growled. Peter could imagine how he threw out his hands as he
said with all the weight of the noncommittal law, "Ah, there yer are!"

"Come h'orf it, dearie. Yer don't know nothing." Grace tittered.

"H'if that's so, h'I'd best be goin'."

Cookie laughed. "Ain't 'e the boy for losin' 'is 'air? And me cookin'
'im a h'om'let? Yer'll 'ave a 'andful ter manage, Grice, when yer marry.
'Is temper's nawsty."

Mr. Somp must have changed his mind at the mention of the omelet, for he
postponed his departure.

In the dining-room Peter found Glory alone.

"Where's Aunt Jehane?"

"Mother's got a headache. She's gone to lie down." Peter took his place
on the hearth-rug, his legs apart, his back to the fire, in unconscious
imitation of his father. Glory bowed her head, hiding her face, and went
on with her darning. Peter watched her. How slight she was! How lonely
she looked in the great arm-chair. Then it struck him that she was
always working, and that Aunt Jehane very frequently had headaches.

"Don't you ever want to play, Glory?"

"Oh, yes, I want."

"Why d'you say it like that? Just _I want_."

"Where's the good of wanting?"

The head bowed lower. The firelight shone in her hair. Her face was more
than ever hidden from him.

"But you're such a little girl--a whole year younger than I am. When I
want to play I do it."

"Do you?"

It was always like that when Peter took notice of Glory--short questions
and short answers which led no further.

Peter leant over her and stayed her hands. "I don't like to see you work
so hard."

"It's sweet to hear you say so, Peter." He felt something splash and run
down his fingers. "I love to hear you say that. But you see, there's no
one to care for us now. I've got to do it. I always shall have to do it,
more and more."

"Not when I'm a man."

"When you're a man, Peter? What then?"

"When I'm a man no one shall be sorry. I'll make people ashamed of
prisons and of letting other people be poor. No one shall go hungry. No
one shall go unhappy. I'll build happy houses everywhere. And, oh Glory,
I'll take all the little children with no shoes on their feet out into
the country to where the grass is soft."

She looked up at him with her grave gray eyes--eyes so much older than
her years. "When you're a man, Peter, you'll be splendid."

"But I didn't say it to make you say that. I said it because I wanted
you to know that there's a day coming when--when instead of making you
cry, dear Glory, I'll make you laugh."

"Just me, Peter, all by myself?"

She tilted back her head, gazing up at him, so that her hair rippled
back across her shoulders and her throat stretched white and long, like
a mermaid's looking up through water, Peter thought.

"Just me only, Peter?"

He couldn't understand why she should always want him to do things for
her only. She wasn't selfish like Riska. He was puzzled.

"Why I'll make you laugh and Kay laugh and everybody, because you know,
Glory, we all ought to be happy."

Her face fell. The eager gladness was dying out of it, so he added
hurriedly, "And most especially I want to help Uncle Waffles."

Was he going to have told her? Probably he did not know himself.
There was a sound of running feet in the hall; Grace burst in on them
breathlessly. "Oh, mum, can I 'ave a word with you? There's a light in
the winder of the---- Where's yer ma, Miss Glory? Quick, tell me."

"She's gone to lie down with Moggs. Her head---- But what's happened?"

Grace was gone. As she climbed the house they heard her calling. Out in
the hall they found the policeman standing, with his baton in his hand;
he was trying to appear very brave, as though saying, "Fear nothing. I
am the law. I will protect you."

Peter took one swift glance at Glory. Did she understand? He almost
fancied----

"Keep them here as long as you can," he whispered; "I'm going out."

The last sight he had was of Aunt Jehane coming down the stairs. She was
in her night-gown with a counterpane flung round her. Moggs was in her
arms, crying against her shoulder. Eustace was clinging stupidly to her
nightgown. Aunt Jehane's 'mat' was off. Her forehead looked surprised
and her scant hair straggled away from it. Grace was explaining
vociferously.

"I've called in the policeman, mum. Luckily 'e was passin'."

"But what's he wasting time for?" Aunt Jehane asked tartly. "If you
didn't imagine the light, they're still there in the loft and he can
catch them."

Mr. Somp spoke up for himself. "H'I was waitin' your h'orders."

Peter flew down the path. The window was in darkness. Directly he
entered the stables he knew what had happened, for the air was heavy
with the smell of tobacco.

"Uncle! Uncle!"

"Here, sonny."

"Quick. Come down. Grace saw you strike a match in the dark and a
policeman's coming to catch you."

Peter had to go up after him, for Ocky's wits were clouded. He shook
him, saying, "Make haste. Can't you understand? Surely you don't want to
be caught."

The fear, in Peter's voice pierced through the fog of alcohol and
reached Ocky's intellect. "But what's to be done?"

"There's an empty tank in the yard--you know it? If you can get in there
before they come, they mayn't find you."

Ocky woke to life. Stumbling and hurrying he dropped down through the
trap-door. As they ran across the yard, they heard the grumbling of
voices approaching. Ocky climbed on the tank, keeping low so as not to
be seen from the garden, and vanished.

"Whatever you do, don't make a sound," Peter warned him.

Uncle Waffles replied disgustedly, "It isn't empty. The water's up to me
ankles."

Peter had hoped to get out of the stable before the search began; it
would look suspicious if they should find him. It was too late for that.
The voices were near enough for him to hear what was being said.

"Nothin' 'ere, me gal. You must 'ave h'imagined it."

"I didn't imagine it, neither. And don't call me 'me gal' as though h'I
was nothin' to yer."

"I calls you 'me gal' in me h'official capacity."

"I don't care abart yer capacity, h'official or defficial, I won't 'ave
it."

"My, but yer crusty, Grice!"

"H'I _am_ crusty and h'I tell yer for wot. Yer doubt my word--throw
h'aspersions on it. I did see a light, I tell yer."

"Well, it ain't there now. The chap's gone."

"Ow d'you know 'e's gone without lookin'?"

"By a kind o' h'inkstink one dewelopes by bein' in the police force."

"D'you know wot I'm thinkin'?--Yer funky."

"Funky, h'am I? H'awright--h'it's h'all over between us. Never tell me
h'again that you loves me."

They had been talking in loud voices from the start--quite loud enough
to warn any burglar. Now that they had quarreled their voices cut the
still night air in anger. Not a word was lost.

Suddenly they paused. "Wot's that?" Grace asked the question in a sharp
whisper.

"Footsteps or I'm no cop."

Peter heard the click of Mr. Somp's lantern; it must have struck against
his buttons as he bent to examine. "Footsteps. Someone's been a-climbin'
this 'ere wall."

"Well, ain't yer goin' ter do nothin'?"

"You stand there, Grice, while I go for'ard. The chap may fire h'on us.
Good-bye, Grice. H'if anythin' should 'appen, remember I died a-doin' o'
me dooty."

"Yer shan't. I'll come with yer. If 'e shoots we'll die together."

"Grice, h'I commands yer in the nime o' the law ter stay where yer
h'are."

But when the door into the yard opened cautiously,

Grace was clinging to her lover's arm. They both looked frightened and
ready to withdraw. Slowly, slowly the bull's-eye swept the surface of
the snow.

"More footsteps!"

The ray of light followed along the tracks till it fell on Peter.

"Well, I'll be blessed. Of h'all the---- I'll be blowed if 'e aren't!"

Peter laughed. "It looked so lovely I couldn't stop indoors."

"Yer've given us a nice scare, young master."

"I didn't mean to. And when I heard that Grace thought it was a burglar,
I thought it would be such a lark to let you find me--just Peter."

"That boy's dotty," said Grace's policeman; "a little bit h'orf."

"Yer come ter bed h'at once," said Grace severely. "I'll tell yer pa.
See if I don't."

She caught him roughly by the arm. Then Peter did something mean--he
hated himself while he did it. "If you do, I'll tell that you had Mr.
Somp in the kitchen. Father'll say you're not to be trusted."

"Ah!" said Grace's policeman. "There's somethin' in that."

"Ain't he artful?" said Grace.

"Well," asked Peter, "will you keep quiet if I do? Is it a bargain?"

"We didn't find nothink," said Grace's policeman. "We was mistooken."

"It must 'a been the snow reflected in the winder," said Grace.
"Cur'ous, 'ow the snow deceives yer!--But oh, Master Peter, I never
thought this h'of yer. I reelly didn't."

"Until to-night I never thought it of myself," said Peter a little
sadly.

"Ah!" sighed Grace's policeman. But to himself he thought, "More in this
than meets the h'eye. I'll be danged if there aren't."




CHAPTER XXII--CAT'S MEAT LOOKS ROUND

Peter kept awake for his parents' home-coming. Long before the cab drew
up he heard the jingle of the horse's harness and was out of bed. The
key grated in the front door; in the silence it sounded to Peter as
though the old house cleared its throat, getting ready to tell. Leaning
out across the banisters with bare feet shivering against the cold
linoleum, he lost little of what was said.

Grace met his father and mother in the hall. "Why, Grace, you ought to
have been asleep two hours. I thought I told you not to wait up for us."

"And you did, mam. So you did. But after the disturbance that we've
'ad----" Her voice sank to a mumbling monotone.

Then his father spoke. "I never heard anything more absurd.--Can't be
away for a single evening without a stupid affair like this happening.
Lights in the stable, indeed! You ought to be ashamed of yourself. And
you a grown woman! I wonder what next!"

Grace was boo-hooing. "H'I'll never do it again. I did think I saw 'em.
No one'll know abart it. Mr. Somp won't tell."

"Oh, go upstairs. The children'll be frightened for months now."

Peter heard Grace come up to bed sobbing. Where would his wrong-doing
end? Romance had had a broom thrown at her; Grace had received a
scolding. The injustice was spreading. He examined the stain on his
heart in much the same way that Lady Macbeth looked at the stain on her
hands. Would it ever be clean again? "Never," he told himself in his
desperation, "never."

As he turned to go back to his room he was alarmed by the sudden scurry
of naked feet. A flash of white disappeared round the corner and a
mattress creaked. Glory had been watching.

When his mother bent over him that night he told another lie--he feigned
that he slept. As her fluffy hair touched his cheek he longed to drag
her down to him and tell her all. She would stretch herself beside him
in the darkness, holding him tightly, as she had done so often when he
had had something to confess. He denied himself the luxury.--That night
as he lay awake and listened, the angel in the cupboard whistled very
softly, very distantly, as though she were carrying Kay far away from
him.

When he had offered his uncle a change of lodging, his uncle had said,
"Depends on the family." Peter had only one family to suggest; he didn't
at all know whether the family would accept Uncle Waffles. Gentlemen for
whom the law is searching are not popular as guests.

During breakfast, despite frowns from Barrington, all Aunt Jehane's
conversation had to do with the shock she had suffered by reason of
Grace's folly. When Barrington banged his cup in his saucer, she lost
her temper. "Well, I don't see why I shouldn't talk about it. I had to
put up with the worry of it."

"My good Jehane, haven't you any sense? You can say anything you like,
except before the children."

"Goodness!" Jehane replied pettishly. "The children were here and saw
it."

Peter slipped out. Through the white snow-strewn fields he hurried and
through Topbury Park where the snow was trodden black, till he came to
a quiet street and a tall house with stone steps leading up to it. Miss
Madge, the fat and jolly Miss Jacobite, answered his knock.

"What a long face for a little boy to wear!"

"If you please, I'd like to speak to Miss Florence." Miss

Florence was the sister who was tall and reserved; she managed
everything and everybody.

"Won't I do, Peter? She's busy at present."

"Please, I've got to speak to her."

Miss Madge ruffled his hair--she had seen his mother do that. "What a
strange little boy you are this morning! You look almost stern."

She wanted to show him into the faded dining-room where a meager fire
was burning; but he said that he preferred to wait in the hall. She
looked back and laughed at him as she mounted the stairs. He did not
reply to her friendliness. Then she ran; he had some trouble which he
would not tell her.

He stood there on the mat twisting his cap. From the varnished paper on
the wall a portrait of old Mr. Jacobite looked fiercely down. It seemed
to say to him, "Little coward, coming to a pack of women! Learn to bear
your own burdens."

But where else could he go? Even if other friends were willing to help
him, they kept servants and had people in and out of their houses.
At the Misses Jacobite, provided he kept away from the windows, Uncle
Waffles might hide for a twelve-month and never be caught.

Eerily, from the second floor, came the sound of Miss Leah singing. Her
song never varied and never quite came to an end. Peter could picture
how she sat staring straight before her through her red-rimmed eyes, her
empty hands folded in her lap.

                   "On the other side of Jordan

                   In the sweet fields of Eden

                   Where the Tree of Life is growing

                   There is rest for me."

It almost made him cry to hear her. He was beginning to know just a
little of that need for rest.

A door opened. The singing came out. To his astonishment Peter saw
Miss Leah approaching. Up to now she had never left her room to his
knowledge. She beckoned. Then she spoke in that hoarse voice of hers. "I
heard her tell Florence that you're in trouble. You're too young to know
sorrow. That comes surely. But for you not yet."

She placed her thin hand on his shoulder and drew him with her into
the room where the blinds were always lowered. Closing the door, she
searched his face. "You have the look. Sorrow! Sorrow! I have suffered
and can understand. Don't be afraid. Tell me."

And he told her--he never knew why or how. She listened, rocking to and
fro in her chair, with her dim eyes fixed upon him. When he paused for
a word she nodded encouragement, pulling her woolen shawl tighter round
her narrow shoulders.

"And in spite of that you love him?--You're like a woman, Peter. You
love people for their faults and in defiance of common sense. And you
refuse to think he's bad?"

"He's not really," said Peter. "The world's not been good to him."

"Not really!" She spoke reflectively, as though she groped beneath the
words. "No, we're never bad really--only seem bad to other people till
they make us seem bad to ourselves.--Yes, you can bring him."

But to bring him Peter needed Mr. Grace's help, and Mr. Grace had been
so candid in saying that "'e weren't worf it."

When he reached the cab-stand, Mr. Grace wasn't there. He had waited an
hour before he saw Cat's Meat crawl out of the traffic.

"Well?" said Mr. Grace, with an instinctive fore-knowledge.

He let Peter explain his errand without comment till he came to the
account of the part played by Grace's policeman.

"'Oly smoke! 'Fraid, was 'e?--But wot yer tellin' me h'all this for?
H'out wiv it?"

"I want you to drive down the mews to-night and take us round to the
Misses Jacobite."

Mr. Grace became very emphatic and solemn. "Cawn't be done. H'I wash me
'ands of 'im. Plottin' ag'in the law. Too daingerous."

"Mr. Grace," asked Peter, softly, "who's afraid now?"

"H'I'm not. Me afraid o' Grice's young man! Was that wot yer was
h'insinooating?"

"But aren't you?"

"No, I ain't."

"Then prove it."

"'Ow?"

"By doing what I've asked you."

Mr. Grace stared between Cat's Meat's ears, twisting a straw in his
mouth. The ears were pricked up. He nudged Peter. "D'yer see that? The
'oss is a-listenin'. 'E ain't much ter look h'at, but 'e's won'erful
h'intelligent. When h'I'm drunk 'e just walks by h'every pub and pays
no h'attention to my pullin'. 'E's like a mother, that 'oss is, ter me.
'E's more kind than a darter, which ain't sayin' much."

"Well?"

"Well wot? Oh, yes. H'am I goin' to 'elp yer stink-pot of a h'uncle? Ter
be frank wiv yer, I h'am."

Cat's Aleat frisked his tail. Again Mr. Grace nudged Peter. "See that?
'E likes h'adwentures. Won'erful h'intelligent h'animal, but not much
ter look h'at!"

With the falling of dusk they met. Peter heard the wheels coming down
the mews; slipping the bars from the stable door, he let his uncle out.

"Yer a nice old cup o' tea," growled Mr. Grace, addressing Ocky, "a
reg'lar mucker. Tell yer wot yer oughter do--yer oughter sign the
pledge. 'Ope yer ain't got much luggage; me keb ain't as strong as it
were."

Ocky retreated into the darkness of the interior. He had promised Peter
he would become a good man and for once was ashamed of himself.

Seated by his side, Peter felt after his hand. "Don't mind what he
says."

"But I am. It's true. I've been a mucker to you from first to last."

Ocky coughed; the water in the tank had given him a cold on the chest.

"I'm sure you haven't. Anyhow, you're going to be better now."

"Going to try till I bust."

As the cab lumbered out on to the Terrace a man saw it. He scratched his
head, thought twice, then began to run and follow. Coming up behind he
did what street-urchins do--he stole a ride on the springs, crouching
low so as to be unobserved.

Cat's Meat alone was aware that something wrong had happened. He felt
the extra weight and halted.

"Kum up."

He refused to come up.

"Kum up, won't yer?"

No, he wouldn't. He planted his feet firmly. There was something that
had to be explained to him first.

Very reluctantly Mr. Grace got out his whip--it was there for ornament;
he rarely used it. "Nar, look 'ere old friend, h'I don't wanter do it."
But he had to.

Cat's Meat shook his head sorrowfully and looked round. His feelings
were hurt. When his master was drunk he accepted worse punishment than
that without resentment, but his master wasn't drunk now. Mr. Grace laid
the whip again across his back. Cat's Meat shrugged his shoulders and
snorted, as much as to say, "Don't blame me. Never say I didn't warn
yer." Then he moved slowly forward.

"Now h'I wonder wot was the meanin' o' that?" reflected Mr. Grace.
"Don't like 'is cargo, h'I bet. Well, h'I don't, either. Won'erful
h'intelligent h'of 'im!"

Inside the cab Peter was asking, "But if you don't like the 'medicine,'
why do you take it?"

"Life's dull for a chap," said Ocky. He would have said more, but was
shaken by a fit of coughing.

They crawled along by ill-lighted streets purposely, avoiding main
thoroughfares. As they drew up outside the Misses Jacobite's house,
Peter saw the slits of the Venetian blinds turned and guessed that four
tremulous ladies were watching. He opened the door for his uncle to get
out As Mr. Waffles alighted, a man jumped from behind the cab.

"Yer caught, Cockie. Come along quiet."

Mr. Grace heaved himself round. "Wot the devil!" He was blinking into
the eyes of Grace's policeman.

"We can walk to the station," said Grace's policeman, "but h'if you'd
care to drive us---- Yer seem kind o' fond o' conductin' this party
round."

"I'll drive 'im, but I'll be 'anged h'if I'll drive you, yer great fat
mutton 'ead."

"Mutton 'ead yerself."

Peter jumped into the gap. "Oh, do drive them, Mr. Grace. Don't let him
be dragged there in public."

"If that's the wye yer feel abart it---- Anythin' fer you, Master
Peter."

"Look 'ere," said Grace's policeman, "h'I'm in love with yer darter--as
good as one o' the family. We don't need to sye nothink abart the keb."

"Get in, mutton 'ead."

They got in.

Cat's Meat shook his harness as much as to say, "Now you're sorry, I
suppose. What did I tell you?"

Peter, as the cab grew dim in the distance, leant against the wall
sobbing. The door at the top of the steps opened timidly and Miss Leah
looked out. "Peter. Peter." But he couldn't bear to face her.

As he stole home through the unreal shadows, he tried to persuade
himself that it hadn't happened. It must be his old disease--his
'magination. It was as though he had been playing with fear all
this while and now he experienced its actuality. It hadn't happened,
hadn't---- Then the pity of the pinched unshaven face, the huddled
shoulders and the iron hardness of the world overwhelmed him.

And Uncle Waffles hadn't said a word when he was taken--he hadn't even
coughed.




CHAPTER XXIII--AND GLORY SAID

Peter asked to see his father alone. They went up together to the
study. Barrington knew that a confession was coming. He was curious.
Peter's sins were so extraordinary; they were hardly ever breaches of
the decalogue. His sensitive conscience had framed a lengthier code of
commandments, which no one but he would dream of observing. Barrington
struggled to keep his face grave and long; inwardly he was laughing.
He drew up his big chair to the fire--his soldier's chair the children
called it. He put out his knee invitingly. "Sit down, little son. What's
the trouble?"

"I'd rather stand, father. You'll never want to speak to me again when
I've told you."

Barrington observed Peter's pallor and the way his hands kept folding
and unfolding.

"It can't be as bad as that, old man. Nothing could be."

"But it is, father. I'm a thief and a liar, and I expect I'll be
arrested before morning."

Peter's tense sincerity carried conviction. This time there was
certainly something the matter.

"Well, Peter, I'll forgive you before you tell me. Now speak up like a
little knight. The bravest thing in all the world is to tell the whole
truth when it's easy to lie.--Queer things have been happening lately.
It's about those Christmas presents, now, isn't it?"

Peter stood erect with his hands behind him, his curly head thrown back
and his knickerbockered legs close together. "You mustn't be kind to me,
father. It makes it harder. I'm going to hurt you."

Barrington had never felt prouder of his son. He rested his chin on his
fingers and nodded. "Go on."

In a low, tremulous voice he told him all, keeping the tears back
bravely. When he paused, his father waited; he wanted to hear Peter's
own story without frightening him by interruption. He had had an
important engagement that evening, but he let it slide. As the account
progressed he saw that here was something really serious. And yet how
Peterish it was to feel so poignantly the unjust punishing of Romance!
The humor of it all vanished when Peter told how Uncle Waffles had been
arrested.

"And then," he said, "I came straight home to tell you. I don't suppose
you'll want me to live here any longer. It wouldn't be good for Kay; I'm
too wicked. I'm almost too bad for anybody. Kay--Kay'll never be able to
love me any more."

They gazed at each other in silence. Barrington did not dare to trust
himself to talk; he knew that his voice would be unsteady. He was
frightened he would sink below Peter's standard and give way to crying.
He had to keep his eyes quite still for fear the tears would fall. And
he recalled the last confession that this room had heard--it was from
Ocky. He compared it with Peter's.

The minutes dragged on. Peter watched his father's face; he saw there
the worst thing of all--sorrow.

A coal falling in the grate took their attention for a moment from
themselves.

Barrington leant further forward. "What made you do it, Peter?"

"I loved him."

"But what made you love him when you came to know all?"

"Because nobody else loved him." Peter caught his voice tripping on a
sob and stopped.

"But he made other people unhappy. Just think for a minute: Aunt
Jehane's homeless and so are all your cousins."

"I know. But it seemed so dreadful for him to be lonely, wandering
about--wandering about at Christmas."

"But wasn't it his own fault?"

Peter bit his lip--he'd never thought of not loving people just because
they'd done wrong. Things were all so tangled. He remembered Jesus and
the dying thief on the cross. Surely that, too, was the thief's own
fault? But he knew that people rarely quoted the Bible except on
Sundays--so he just looked at his father and said nothing.--Again the
minutes dragged on.

There was a tap at the door. Glory entered shyly. "I'm going to bed,
Uncle. May I kiss you and Peter goodnight?"

Barrington nodded. "Come here, little girl; but first close the door."

As she stooped over him, he slipped his arm round her and drew her to
his knee. "Peter isn't going to kiss you to-night. He thinks he isn't
worthy."

"Peter not worthy!" She shook back the hair from her eyes and gazed from
Peter to her uncle incredulously.

"He doesn't think he's worthy to be loved by any of us. He expects he
won't live here much longer."

"But why? Why?--Peter can't have done anything wicked."

"I'm going to ask him to tell you what he's done, just as he told me.
And then I want you to say what you think of him."

It was hard to have to repeat his confession, but Peter did it. While
he spoke, his father could feel how Glory's body stiffened and trembled.
Sometimes her eyes were unexcited, as though she were listening to an
old story. Sometimes they were like stars, fixed and glistening. When
the end was reached, she bowed her head on her uncle's shoulder, shaken
with deep sobbing. "Poor father! Oh, poor father!"

As she grew quiet, Barrington turned her face toward his. "And that," he
said, "is why Peter thinks he isn't worthy. He's waiting, Glory. You've
not told him yet what you think of him."

She looked toward Peter, dazed, as though not fully understanding. Then
she saw how alone and upright he was standing; it dawned on her that he
was really waiting for her to pronounce his sentence. She rose to her
feet; her uncle's arm still about her.

"Why--why, I think Peter's the most splendiferous boy in the world."

Barrington laughed. "D'you know, I didn't dare to say it; but that's
just what I've been thinking all evening."

It was only when Glory's arms went about him that Peter sank below his
standard of courage.

"I guessed it all the while," she whispered; "I was waiting for you to
tell me. Why wouldn't you let me help you?"

Ah, why, why? How often in years to come would she ask him that
question, not with her lips as now, but with her gravely following eyes!




CHAPTER XXIV--THE TRICYCLE MAKES A DISCOVERY

H'I'm a better man than you are," said Mr. Grace.

"In wot respeck?" asked Mr. Somp.

"In h'every respeck," said Mr. Grace. "Nice wye yer've got o' h'arsking
fer me darter's 'and."

Mr. Somp rubbed his nose, finished off his beer and winked at the
barmaid. Then he turned with a smile of tolerant patronage to his future
father-in-law. 'Any'ow, Cockie, h'I didn't need to h'arsk yer. Yer must
allaws remember that you come in on the second h'act."

"Wot d'yer mean?"

"H'I mean the curtain was h'up and the play'd began when you h'entered."

"H'information ter me--I'm larnin'." Mr. Grace tossed off his pot to
show his supreme contempt and signed for another. Having wiped his mouth
with the back of his hand, he spoke reflectively. "So I h'entered when
the bloomin' curtain was h'up! Now I h'allaws thought as I wuz be'ind
the scenes and 'elped ter mike 'er."

"A peep be'ind the scenes," chirped the barmaid; "read a book called
that once. Mr. Grice this 'ouse is respeckable. If you ain't careful
you'll get chucked h'out."

Mr. Somp looked deeply shocked. "That ain't no subjeck to mention before
ladies--birth ain't a matter ter be discussed in publick. It 'appens to
h'all of us, but people as is well brought h'up tries to ferget it."

Glancing round and seeing that opinion was against him, Mr. Grace
retreated a step in the argument. "You said as h'I came in on the second
h'act. As 'ow?"

"H'after I'd h'arsked yer darter and she'd said 'yus.' In 'igh society
h'it's considered perlite to h'arsk the purmission o' the parent."

"'Igh society be blowed. Pooh!"

"Well, and 'avn't I been purmoted?" said Mr. Somp importantly, scenting
an affront.

Mr. Grace was surprised into an expression of astonishment. Then, in an
effort to recover lost ground, "Wot mug purmoted you?" To the barmaid he
said, "H'I'll be King's jockey if h'I wite long enough."

Mr. Somp swelled out his chest. "H'I got purmotion fer nabbin' that
bloke Waffles. Wot d'yer sye ter me proposal now?"

An audience of tap-room loafers had gathered; there was a reputation to
be won. "H'I sye wot h'I've awready said. H'I'm a better man than you are
and me darter's better."

"In wot respeck?" Mr. Somp was tenacious.

"She's a h'orator as yer'll soon find h'out if yer marry 'er."

The policeman gazed at the cabman sombrely. "That don't mike 'er no
better; h'it mikes 'er wuss. H'I've found that h'out. It's my h'opinion
that wimen should be seen and not 'eard."

"So yer've found it h'out, 'ave yer?" Into Mr. Grace's voice had crept a
sudden warmth of fellow-feeling and friendliness.

"Ter my regret," sighed Grace's policeman, wagging a mournful head. "If
I'd knowed before h'I got ter love 'er---- Ah, well! It don't mend
matters ter talk abart it."

Mr. Grace heaved himself off the bench. "Shike 'ands, old pal; yer goin'
ter suffer."

Mr. Somp gloomily accepted the proffered hand, looking at the barmaid.
"H'I'm afraid I h'am."

"Then why not taik me?" asked the barmaid cheerily.

"And why not? That's the question. My dear, you might mike me suffer
wuss."

"And I mightn't 'ave you," she said coyly. "Any'ow, Mr. Somp had no
sympathy with the Salvation Army old top, try me next. Yours truly,
Gertie, h'always ready ter oblige a friend."

It was the day after the honeymoon, which had consisted of a
steamer-trip to Greenwich, that Mr. Somp confided to Mr. Grace, "Too
much religion abart your gel." At that hour Mr. Somp and Grace's father
became friends.

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Grace's husband had no sympathy with the Salvation Army--he didn't feel
the need of conversion; and Grace, for her part, had no patience with
men who refused to sign the pledge. Mr. Somp took revenge for domestic
wrongs in his official capacity, by moving his wife along when he
found her beating her drum at street corners. Mrs. Somp punished him by
keeping him awake at night while, to use his own words, she sneaked to
God abart him. She even addressed God in the highways on this intensely
private matter, when she saw her husband approaching. She followed
St. Paul's advice by being urgent in season and out in her rebuking,
long-suffering, teaching and exhorting. Her lofty sense of right and
wrong depressed him; he grew slack, lost his standing in the force and
gradually ceased to work. His self-confidence melted before her superior
morality.

So she went back to the Barringtons by the day to do charring and to
give extra help. That was how Peter came to know all about her intimate
matrimonial problems. He heard the other side from Mr. Grace and Mr.
Somp, who now had a common grievance--they wanted to drink and Grace
tried to prevent them. "Don't you never marry a good woman," they both
advised him; "good wimen is bad."

Grace, on the other hand, despite her frequent complaints, held that
her husband was a very decent man, but bone-lazy. Having proved prayer
useless, she could think of only one other remedy. "If I was ter die,
father'd be sorry and my 'usband 'ad 'ave ter work; but I ain't got the
'eart ter do it."

To which Cookie would reply, "I'm sure yer 'aven't, dearie. It's them as
should do the dyin'."

After Ocky's arrest a period of flatness followed. The uncertainty which
had kept the household nervous and hoping for the best no longer buoyed
them up. Until they heard that Waffles had been sentenced, they could
make no plans for Jehane's future. Barrington placed money at his
disposal for his defence and went to see him once. He never disclosed
what happened; but his face was ashen when he returned. All that
evening, when anyone spoke to him, he seemed to have to wake before he
could answer. Next morning he told Jehane, "Ocky wants to see you." She
shook her head. "He's dragged me low enough. I never intend to see him
again."

"If that's the way you feel, you couldn't help him; it's better that you
shouldn't visit him."

She looked into the shrewd gray eyes fiercely. She wanted to find anger
there--she could resent anger; she found only quiet judgment. "You don't
mean that you actually expected me to go to him?"

"I expected nothing, but he's in trouble. You've given him
children--he's your husband. In all your years together there must have
been some hours that are sweet to remember. I did rather hope that, now
that he's in trouble, you might have remembered them."

"Well, I don't. I'm ashamed that I ever had them."

"All right. It's strange; but I think I understand. He still loves you,
Jehane, and you could have helped the chap."

"Love! What's the value of his love?"

"I think its value once was whatever you cared to make it."

Later in the day he said to her, "And you wouldn't let Glory see him, I
suppose? He mentioned her."

"No, I wouldn't. He's not her father. Captain Spashett was a gentleman."

The children were never told what occurred at the trial; all they knew
was that the man who had laughed and played with them, who had loved the
sunshine so carelessly, was to be locked up for a time so long that it
seemed like the "ever and forever" of the Bible. It was like burying
someone who was not dead--they seemed to hear him tapping. And they must
not go to him; they must pretend they had not heard. He was a thing to
be shunned and forgotten.

Jehane was anxious to earn her living. But how? She had been trained to
do nothing. Barrington bought her a little cottage near Southgate, which
at this time was still in the country. Gradually he got into the habit
of letting her do a little outside reading for his firm--he did it to
enable her to pretend that she was self-supporting. To his surprise she
developed a faculty for the work and he began to trust her judgment. She
had inherited a literary instinct of which, during her married life, she
had remained unaware. It was a feeble instinct, but in the end it proved
sufficiently rewarding. She took to writing sentimental novelettes,
which found a market. Whatever her faults of heart, she had always been
capable and gifted with a strong sense of duty; so, now that she had
found a means of making money, she worked hard with her pen, stinting
herself and treating her children with foolish liberality.

Her chief regret was that Ocky had spoilt the marriage chances of her
girls; she tried to rub out this social stain by creating the impression
that her husband was dead. She had two extravagances--the purchase of
hair-tonics and a mania for visiting fortune-tellers. She had one great
hope--that in the future she might re-marry. This would entail Ocky's
death; but she was not so cruel as to reason that out. She had one
great mission--to teach her daughters to catch men. Her chief theme of
conversation with her children was the wickedness of their father and
the heroic loyalty of her own conduct. No doubt there were times when
her conscience troubled her.

Peter was just fifteen and Kay was nearly nine when all this happened.
It made a deep impression on both of them, but especially on Peter. For
months the crushed shoulders and sunken face of Uncle Waffles haunted
his memory, so that it seemed a crime to be happy. He could not bear
to enter the stable; he was always expecting to hear a hoarse voice
addressing him in a whisper from the loft, calling him a ha'penny marvel
or enquiring whether he knew the story of the husband whose wife had
black hair. Often in the street he would turn sharply at the sight of
some shabby outcast, shuffling through the crowd with bowed head. He
would run to the window, hardly daring to own what he expected, when
he heard the mournful singing along the Terrace of a group of
out-of-works:

                   "We've got no work to do,

                   We've got no work to do;

                   We're all thrown out, poor labourin' men,

                   And we've got no work to do."

Sooner or later he would recognize, he knew, in one of the tattered
singers his Uncle Waffles. Peter was suffering from a suddenly awakened
social conscience; he did not know enough to call it that.

It was partly because Barrington had observed and was distressed by his
boy's sadness, that he granted his desire. He granted it to give him a
new interest. Peter had always dreamt of a day when he should polish up
the tandem tricycle, put Kay on the back seat and ride off with her into
the country.

"Well, Peter, I'll let you do it if you'll promise to be very careful."

It was early summer when these splendid adventures commenced. Peter had
to do all the work--Kay's legs were too short to reach the pedals. But
what did he care? Just to have his little sister all to himself, London
dropping away behind and the world growing greener before him--what more
could a boy ask to make him happy?

The tandem trike was a clumsy solid-tired affair--desperately heavy and
beyond belief old-fashioned. Peter managed to accomplish six miles an
hour on it. The way out, along Green Lanes to Wood Green and up Jolly
Butcher's Hill, would have been full of ignominy for anybody less
light-hearted. Kay's flying hair and plunging legs would have attracted
attention had the tricycle been ever so new and handsome.

Errand-boys stood still and whistled after them. Tradesmen followed
them in their carts, offering to race them and grinning ridicule. Very
frequently insult set itself to the words of a street song then in
fashion:

                   "It won't be a stylish marriage;

                   For I can't afford a carriage;

                   But you'll look sweet with your two little feet

                   On a tricycle made for two."

What did Peter care? Ill-nature failed to touch him. Little boys who
pulled faces at him from the pavements, made long noses at him or stuck
out their tongues, did it in envy. He wished he could take them too. So
he and Kay turned their heads and threw back laughter. It was fun--all
fun. And then there was the anticipation of lunch; two shillings between
two people can buy so much.

Shortly after Jolly Butcher's Hill the country began. At Southgate they
would stop to see their cousins. Riska affected to despise their means
of traveling. She was shooting up into a tall girl, like her mother; she
was darkly handsome and carried herself with a gipsy slouch. Jehane's
philosophy, of teaching her girls how to catch men, was already
beginning to take effect. Outside the cottage-gate she had a little
table from which she sold ginger-beer to Cockney cyclists. She did it
to make pocket-money; even as a child, by this means of introduction she
gathered about her a group of boy-lovers. She was learning early how
to attract when she cared. Her mother was pleased by her foolish
conquests--in the rose-scented air of the cottage garden they seemed
very guileless and humorous. In the presence of men, whatever their
years, Riska invariably tried to fascinate.

"It's an instinct with her, the little puss," said Barrington; "she even
tries to make love to her old uncle."

It was a subject for laughter in the family.

On these short visits Kay and Peter saw hardly anything of Glory--she
was doing the work. Just as they were going she would come out from
the kitchen, untying her apron, or would pop her head out of a bedroom
window to shake a duster and smile at them. Then, as the pedals began to
turn, Riska would sing half-tauntingly, and Eustace and Moggs would join
in with her pipingly:

                   "Daisy, Daisy, give me your answer true,

                   I 'm half-crazy, all for the love of you.

                   It won't be a stylish marriage,

                   For I can't afford a carriage,

                   But you'll look sweet-"

The words would be lost as the tricycle lumbered into the sunshine
between the hedges.

Kay used to say, when she was very little, that the gladness went into
her feet when she was happy. On these expeditions it went everywhere,
into her feet, her eyes, her lips, her hands. She did the things that
boys do, and yet she had the sweetness of a girl. She ran like a boy and
she swam like a boy. She was a darling and a puzzle to Peter; he could
never make her out. He was always trying to put her dearness into words
and always failing.

"Your voice is like the laughter of birds," he said. "But why do you
love me so much, Peter?"

He slanted his eyes. "Because I borned you." He knew better than that
now.

Sometimes they spoke of their cousins.

"I did something horrid this morning."

"Don't believe it."

"Oh, but yes. I was brushing the dust off my shoes in the kitchen, and
what do you think I found?"

"Hurry up and tell me."

"That Glory hadn't had time to eat her breakfast and that some of the
dust had gone into her plate of porridge."

"Oh, Peter! How careless! Did you tell her?"

"She came in and saw it. You'd never guess what she said.--'Never mind,
old boy. One's got to eat a peck o' dirt before one dies. So mother
says.' And she took a spoon and-----"

"And ate it?"

Peter nodded, trying to look penitent, but laughing.

Then Kay became grave-eyed and asked one of her questions. "But do you?"

"Do you what?"

"Have to eat a peck of dirt before you die?"

Peter wriggled his toes in his shoes and looked down to see them moving.
"Don't know. You and I don't. But that's what Glory says."

Having learnt to walk like a boy, Kay learnt to whistle. One hot
summer's afternoon they had ridden out and were lying on their backs
in a field tall with grass, nearly ready for cutting. Peter had almost
drowsed with the heavy smell of the wild flowers, when he sat up
suddenly and seized his sister by the arm quite roughly. She was only
whistling a little tune softly and was surprised at the strength he
used.

"Peterkins, what's the matter? You're hurting. I'm sure you've made a
bruise."

He paid no attention to her protest. "Where'd you learn that?"

"What?"

"That tune you were whistling?"

"Don't know. Just made it up, I suppose. I never heard it."

"But you must have."

"But I haven't, Peter." She was frightened by his earnestness, mistaking
it for anger.

"Did you never hear it in the cupboard in the bedroom--the one that was
yours and mine?"

She hardly knew whether to laugh or cry. "You're joking."

"I'm not. I'm in dead seriousness."

The tears came. "I'm telling the truth. I never knew it till this
moment."

"Whistle it again."

"I can't. I forget it."

As the children's legs grew stronger they went further afield,
conquering new territory, exploring all kinds of dusty lanes and
by-roads. They had turned off from Potter's Bar to Northaw, working
round through Gough's Oak to Cheshunt when they were hailed by a
freckled boy, about Peter's age, who sat astride a gate, playing a
mouth-organ.

"Hey, kids! Want to buy anything?"

They jammed on the brakes and addressed him from the trike. "Got
anything to sell?"

"Nope. Just wanted to talk and had to say something."

"But who are you?"

"I've lived in America and now I'm living here in Friday Lane. I've
often seen you go by."

They looked round to discover Friday Lane; on every side was a sweep of
country, rolling away in sun-dazzled fields and basking woodlands.

"But--but it's lonely here."

"Yup. But it's lonelier where I come from. Nothing but Indians and
prairie."

Even Indians didn't turn them aside; they were trying to unravel the
mystery of Friday Lane.

"Is this road the Lane?"

"That's the Lane." The boy pointed with a brown hand to a grass-grown
field-track starting from the gate on which he sat and vanishing between
a line of tall oaks--oaks which had probably been standing when the land
was part of the royal chase.

"But there aren't any houses."

The boy laughed. "Oh, aren't there? There's our house, right over there,
out of sight."

"And who are you?" Kay and Peter asked together.

"I'm Harry Arran and the house belongs to my brother. He's the Faun Man;
I kind o' look after him and keep him straight. He's a wonder; you'd be
lucky if you knew him."

"We'd like to know him. We'd both like to know him very much." Again
they spoke together.

The boy thrust his hands in his pockets and eyed them.

"Don't know so much about that. I'm very particular about my brother. I
don't let him know just anybody."

He twisted round on the gate, turning his back on them, and re-commenced
playing, giving them plainly to understand that their too eager interest
in his family affairs had made conversation undesirable.




CHAPTER XXV--THE HAPPY COTTAGE

It was the way in which the boy had said "just anybody." Peter gazed
beyond the gate into the green mysterious depth of country--an Eden from
which he was excluded by that hostile back. His eyes followed Friday
Lane: it ran on, trees, sunshine and shadows, tremulous with the wings
of birds, a canopied track, across fields, into the heart of wooded
fairyland. What promises lay over there? A voice of ecstasy kept
calling.

Reluctantly he set his feet against the pedals, glanced across his
shoulder to Kay and was going to have said--

Something that glistened shot down her cheek and swiftly vanished.

Very deliberately he dismounted. Yankee-Doodle, or a tune not unlike
it, was being played at the moment. He thumped the student of the
mouth-organ in the place from which Eve was created. Kay, all legs,
flushed face and blown hair, watched from the back seat of the trike the
novel sight of her brother being violent.

The boy tumbled from his perch, putting the gate between himself and
Peter. Yankee-Doodle ended abruptly--the mouth-organ slipped from his
hand. The freckled good humor of his face changed to an expression of
amused and fierce intelligence. It was his way to be amused when he was
angry or in danger--Kay and Peter were to learn that later. He bobbed
in the grass, recovered his fallen treasure, rubbed it on his sleeve,
stuffed it into his knickerbockers' pocket and grimaced across the rail.

"You're a fresh kid."

Peter removed his cap; his curly hair fell about his forehead. "You've
made my sister cry," he said. His hands were clenched.

One leg hopped over the gate; then another. "I haven't," the boy denied
stoutly.

"You have. You called her 'just anybody.'"

The boy stepped into the road--a pugnacious little figure. "Pshaw! What
of it? Girls cry for nothing."

Peter drew himself erect. "My sister doesn't."

The boy raised his eyes and met Kay's. Ashamed of himself, but more
ashamed of showing it, he spoke stubbornly, "She's doing it now."

There was silence. A small strained voice, which sounded not at all like
Peter's, said, "I never hurt people. I never fought in my life. But if I
did ever fight, I'd like to punch your head. And--and I think I could do
it."

The boy lost his shame and became happy. "Guess you can't. Anyhow, why
don't you have a shot at it?"

Without waiting for a reply, he commenced to take off his coat and to
roll up his shirt-sleeves. He did it with an air of competence which was
calculated to intimidate. All the while he carried on a monologue. "So
he'd like to punch my head--_my_ head. Why, I could get his goat by just
looking at him. In America I've licked boys twice his size, and they
hadn't curly hair, either." He faced Peter, doubling his fore-arm, and
inviting him to feel his muscle. "See that. Say, kid, I'm sorry for
you.--Ready?"

Peter nodded; before his nod had ended something hit him on the nose. He
threw up his arms to defend himself, but the something seemed all about
him. Always smiling into his own was the freckled face of a pleasant
looking boy--so pleasant that it was hard to believe that it was he who
was doing the hurting. And Peter--he hit back valiantly; but somewhere
at the back of his brain he kept on seeing pictures of the boy dead. It
was disconcerting; every now and then, when he should have pressed home
his advantage, he shortened his blows intentionally, with the strong
weakness of the humanitarian.

A bird rose twittering out of a hedge. From a meadow across the road,
a cow hung its mild head over, looked shocked, switched its tail
disapprovingly, mooed loudly, swung round and lumbered away uncertainly,
like a distressed old lady with gathered skirts, in a futile endeavor to
bring help.

Peter saw it all. His faculties were unnaturally and desperately alert.
It was odd how time lengthened its minutes--how much he saw and heard:
the deep blue stillness of sky-lagoons, the foam and wash of traveling
clouds, the erect and listening quiet of tree-sentinels and hedges,
and, somewhere out of sight, the sigh-sigh-sighing of wind in distant
country.

There was a cry behind him. How long had he been fighting? He could not
guess. Between himself and the boy rushed a little girl. Her small hands
commenced to beat the boy furiously. She could not speak; she was choked
with sobbing. The boy's arms fell to his side; he let her aim her puny
blows at his impudent face, making no attempt to stop her. Suddenly she
swayed and sank into the flowers at the side of the road. Peter stooped;
his arms went about her. The boy looked on, gazing from these strange
invaders to the waiting trike. It was he who was excluded now. He wanted
to say something--opened his mouth several times and halted. At last he
stumbled out the words.

"I'm--I'm sorry. And you're not just anybody." And then, "I say, you're
plucky 'uns--won't you shake hands?"

The bird came back to the hedge and dropped into its nest. The cow,
having sought help in vain, looked distractedly into the road and saw
a boy pushing open a gate, while another boy, a little bruised and
battered, pushed an ancient tandem tricycle into a meadow, and a small
girl, with flushed face and blowy corn-colored hair, dabbed her eyes
furtively with the hem of her dress.

The trike had to be hidden. It was unlikely, but always possible, that
it might be coveted by tramps. Friday Lane lay before them. The boy
turned to them with abrupt frankness. "Here, what your names?"

"Mine's Peter, and my sister's is Kay."

"Well, Peter, I guess I hit harder than I meant. But--but I reckon you
could have punched my head if you'd chosen. Didn't get warmed up to the
work before she stopped us--was that it?"

They were up to their knees in the meadow-world; the air was full of
kind new fragrances. Peter's eyes were dreamy. The boy rambled on,
leading deeper into the avenue of oaks, so that already the first
straggling fringe of woods commenced. "My brother's like that. In
Alaska, when the dogs took to fighting, he'd just stand still and laugh
and holler at them. Then, all of a sudden, when he saw that they were
eating one another, he'd go clean mad and wade in among 'em and lay 'em
out with the butt of his rifle. He's a wonder, my brother."

"I'm sure he is," said Peter, and Kay, trotting closely by his side,
repeated his words to show her interest.

The boy, flattered by the attention of his audience, with the treachery
of the born story-teller, sharpened their appetite by suspense. He
wagged his head mysteriously. "I could tell you heaps about him if you
were to come here often."

He waited to see what effect that would have. Kay had been hiding behind
her brother, clinging to his hand. Now she came level with him, bending
her face across him so that she could meet the eyes of the boy. She
asked, "May we, Peter? Do you think we can?"

"Not often," said Peter guardedly; "but as often as we can."

The boy held out a further inducement. "One day I might show him to you.
He's like that with dogs and--and especially with girls: laughs at 'em,
hollers at 'em, and then-----. He's the most glad-eyed chap that ever
came down the pike, I reckon. That's what gives me all my trouble."

Neither Kay nor Peter knew exactly what was meant. So Peter said,
"You've been everywhere, haven't you? And we--we just tricycle out
and----"

The boy had drawn his mouth-organ from his pocket and was playing,
stamping his feet and swaying his body. Suddenly he stopped and his
voice took up the air:

                   "I've been shipwrecked off Patagonia,

                   Home and Colonia,

                   Antipodonia;

                   I've shot cannibals,

                   Funny looking animals,

                   Top-knot coons;

                   I've bought diamonds twenty a penny there,

                   I've been somewhere, nowhere, anywhere--

                   And I'm the wise, wise man of the

                   Wide, wide world."

They gazed at him wide-eyed in the hushed summer woodland. Then they
beat their hands together, crying, "Oh, again, again, please."

The boy smiled tantalizingly. "Can you climb?" He shot the question out.
The next moment he was scrambling up a tall oak. Sometimes his body
was lost in leaves. Sometimes it sounded as though he were tumbling,
tumbling through the branches to the ground. At last, from a bough high
up where the sky commenced, his impish face gazed down on them. First
they heard the mouth-organ, then the voice, singing of somewhere,
nowhere, anywhere--of the splendidly imagined No-Man's-Land through
which every child has longed to wander.

And they believed his song, as though it were autobiography. In a
picture-flash they saw the world, beautiful, tumultuous, full of
terrors--saw it as a vast balloon, swimming through eternal clouds,
painted with the dreams of young desire: islands in sun-drenched seas,
where palms stood motionless, pointing to the skies with silent hands;
countries of yellow men, small and crafty, who lived in paper houses and
fed on flowers; enfeebled cities, dazzlingly white, whose eyes had
been burnt out by the door of hell left open in the iron heavens; and
snow-deserts where the frost carved Titans with his breath.

This freckled pugnacious master of the mouth-organ,

This pugnacious master of the mouth organ, caroling a street song in the
tree-turrets of Friday Lane, became for them the embodied soul of
adventure.

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The boy came slithering down. Kay watched him, how he dangled by
his arms, caught on with his legs, dug in with his toes, got himself
completely dirty and always saved himself at the last moment from
falling.

He dropped breathless at their feet. "It's fine up there. Different from
down here. Up there it belongs to anybody."

Kay wasn't quite sure that she approved of him. He had ripped his coat,
and it didn't seem quite kind to give his mother so much work. She spoke
reproachfully. "D'you like tearing your clothes?"

He gazed at her out of the corners of his eyes with a sly expression.
"I don't mind. Don't need to mind--my clothes are magic. They mend
themselves."

"Mend themselves!" She tugged at Peter, to see in what spirit he was
accepting this amazing assertion. "Why, how wonderful!" And then,
reluctant to show doubt, "But--but how can they?"

The boy grinned broadly. "Not really, you know--just pretence. I--I mend
them myself. I'm an awful liar. Come on now."

Confession had made him self-conscious; he darted ahead. Kay and Peter
followed slowly. He turned. "Aren't you coming?"

It was Peter who answered. "But to where?"

"To where I live--the Happy Cottage."

Was this also pretence? The name sounded too good to be true--and yet it
was the kind of name you tried to believe, despite yourself.

The boy left the grassy avenue and broke into the undergrowth of woods.
He went in front, parting the branches for Kay. He explained to them,
"Friday Lane's shorter, you know; but this other way's heaps jollier."

Presently above the rustle of their passage they heard a little singing
sound. Sometimes it grew quite loud and near them; sometimes it died
away into the merest breath.

It was like someone who was almost asleep, humming over and over the
first two notes of a tune that refused to be remembered. Kay snuggled
her hand into Peter's; she was a little scared. Everything was so dark
and eerie. The sound drew near and seemed to slip away from under her
very feet. She cried out; it was as though someone had touched her and
had vanished before she could turn round.

The boy heard her cry and looked back. He nodded reassuringly. "It's
always doing that--plays no end of pranks. You needn't be frightened; it
won't hurt you."

"But what is it? What won't hurt you?" Peter asked almost angrily.

The boy laid his finger on his lips. "The wood's haunted. That's the
queen fairy calling. There are all kinds of fairies hidden about here.
When you see them, they turn into rabbits and birds, and----" Because
Kay had covered her face, he stopped. "I'm--I'm an ass. It isn't really,
you know. I just tell myself that."

"Then what is it?" asked Peter, slightly awed, for the voice kept on
singing.

The boy laughed. "It's the tiniest little river that's lost itself. It
creeps about under the bushes and wriggles through the leaves on its
tummy, trying to find a way out."

"And does it find it?" asked Kay, plucking up her courage.

"You bet you. Wait till we get to the Happy Cottage." And all of a
sudden they got there. It was as though the little river had led them,
for just where they broke out into the sunlight it rushed past them,
flashing silver and singing merrily, with all the words of its song
remembered. At first they saw a green, green stretch of grass, over
which the yellow of cowslips drifted like blown gold-dust. Then they
saw Friday Lane, with its tall oaks holding back the woods, like big
policemen marshaling a crowd when a procession is expected. And then
they saw the Happy Cottage--a bee-hive, with low-thatched roof, set down
in a refuge of flowers. It had one chimney, from which smoke was lazily
ascending; and it must be logs that the fire was burning, for the air
was filled with the indescribable homey smell that sets one dreaming
of all the country cottages, tucked away in gardens, and all the summer
happiness he has ever chanced on.

They followed the little stream right up to the high hedge which went
about the Happy Cottage; they crossed it by a plank, pushed open a gate
and entered. Flowers, flowers everywhere and the banjo-music of bees
humming. A red-tiled path, moss-grown and edged with box, led through a
wilderness of beauty, comfortably untrimmed and neglected. The door of
the cottage stood open; across its threshold lay a Great Dane, which
rose up and growled at sound of their footsteps. The boy called to him,
"All right, Canute, old dog. Come here, old fellow."

Canute came with the solemn suspicion of majesty, ignoring the
strangers, and placed his great head against his master's breast, gazing
up attentively.

"Canute, this is Kay and this is Peter. They're my friends. You've got
to look after them. D'you understand?"

The dog blinked his eyes and turned away indifferently, as much as to
say, "Your friends! Humph! We'll see. Very sudden!"

"He's always like that with newcomers," said the boy. "He's very
particular about my brother. Guess he's thinking what I said, that he
don't let the Faun Man know just anybody." Fearful lest he should have
given offence, he made haste to add, "But you're not just anybody any
longer."

The door opened without ceremony directly into the living-room. The
leaded windows were pushed back; roses stared in and bent inquisitively
across the sills, spilling their petals. The house was silent; it was
like stealing into someone's heart when the soul was absent. Guns on
the walls, brilliant little sketches, golf-sticks in a corner, old oak
furniture, a mandolin lying in a chair--everything betrayed the room's
habitation by a strong and alluring personality. Peter, looking round,
became conscious of a spirit of loneliness and yearning. On the walls
were pictures of many beautiful women, but in the house itself were no
signs of a woman's hands.

The boy explained. "He's not here to-day. He's gone to town. This
is where we play; it's upstairs that he works." He volunteered no
information concerning the task at which the Faun Man worked. Casting
his eyes round the walls, he said, "Those are all his girls. Pretty! Oh,
yes. But they give me an awful lot of trouble. Want some tea? Yes?"

He went out into the kitchen at the back. He let the children follow
him, but refused their offers of help. "I'm a rare little cook, I can
tell you. Had to be on our ranch in America--there was no one else. You
just watch me."

But Kay had been thinking. She had supposed that there were mothers
everywhere--that every boy had a----. She said, "Where are your mother
and sisters?"

He looked up from toasting some bread. "Haven't any."

She laid her hand on his arm. "But--but didn't you ever have any?"

He answered cheerfully, not at all sorry for himself, "Nope. Not that I
remember."

She glanced at her brother. "Peter and I've always been together."

Peter added, "So that's why you thought girls cried for nothing? You
don't know anything about them. I shouldn't have been angry."

The boy winked joyfully. "Oh, don't I know anything! Leave that to the
Faun Man. I know just as much as I want to. But say, I'd have liked to
have had your sister for my sister. I really would have."

Kay leant over his shoulder as he knelt before the fire. "If I were your
sister, d'you know what I'd do for you? I'd tell you not to climb trees
and, if you did do it, I'd mend your clothes for you."

He told them something of his history as they sat at table. How he'd
left England with his brother when he was so little that he couldn't
remember. How he'd lived on a cattle ranch and knew how to ride
anything. He tried to make them understand the freedom and the
solitariness of his life in those wide stretches, where there weren't
any street lamps but only stars, and where one gazed on green-gray grass
for miles and never saw a single house. And he told them of the places
he had been to--the queerly natural ghost corners of the earth, Alaska,
Mexico and the South Sea Islands. Every now and then his imagination
would gallop away with him. Then he'd twist his head and stoop forward,
as if listening for the first expression of doubt. Before it came, he
would try to forestall it by saying, "You know, that last part's not
really."

When he had said it several times Kay laughed softly. The boy looked up,
a little offended. "What is it?"

Her eyes were dancing with happiness. "You're--you're a very pretence
person, aren't you? Peter and I, we're pretence persons. We're always
going to one place and telling ourselves we're going somewhere else."

The boy sank his head between his hands. His words came timidly. "It
makes one happy to pretend, especially when one's always been lonely.
It's like climbing a tall tree--it belongs to anyone up there." He
turned slowly, staring at his guests. They wondered what was in his
mind. At last he said, "I wish--I wish you'd call me Harry. And please
don't tell me where you come from. Let's be pretence persons---- I'd
like to be your friend."

With the quaint solemnity of childhood, they clasped hands. Outside the
bees played their banjo-music, the flowers whispered, laying their faces
close together, and the stream ran singing past the cottage, with all
the words of its song remembered.




CHAPTER XXVI--THE HAUNTED WOOD

Life at its beginning and its end is bounded by a haunted wood. When no
one is watching, children creep back to it to play with the fairies
and to listen to the angels' footsteps. As the road of their journey
lengthens, they return more rarely. Remembering less and less, they
build themselves cities of imperative endeavor. But at night the wood
comes marching to their walls, tall trees moving silently as clouds and
little trees treading softly. The green host halts and calls--in the
voice of memory, poetry, religion, legend or, as the Greeks put it, in
the faint pipes and stampeding feet of Pan.

We have all heard it. Out of fear of ridicule we do not talk about it.
Do we revisit the wood, it is when sleep, or the dream of death, has
claimed us and made us again children.

Because secrecy adds to happiness, Kay and Peter told no one of
their discovery. In the early morning they would tricycle out through
red-brick suburbs, where nurse-girls wheeled fretful babies in prams
and wondered what love meant. Having spent their day in fairyland, they
would tricycle back through those same brick suburbs where tethered
people found romance in twilit reality. They almost feared to speak
aloud of their doings, lest speech should break the spell--lest, were
they to tell, they might search in vain for Friday Lane, Canute, and
Harry of the mouth-organ, and find them vanished.

On their first visits they did not meet the Faun Man; in proportion as
they failed to meet him, they grew more curious about him. Sometimes
they were quite certain he was there, but Harry---- He was strangely
reluctant to share him--as reluctant as Peter was to share his sister.
And yet, in-all the rest of his secrets he was generous. He showed
them how to find beneath stones in the river the homes of fishes--tiny
fellows, who darted away with agitated tails the moment you took the
roofs off their houses. And he showed them how you could make whistles
out of boughs, if you chose the right ones. He taught them to mimick the
notes of birds, so that they would follow through the woods, answering
and hopping, twisting from side to side their perky heads. He was the
Pied Piper of the open world, and willing to make them his confederates.
"Where--where did you learn?" They asked him. Sometimes he looked away
from them, narrowing his eyes; sometimes he answered, "The Faun Man--he
taught me." So the Faun Man became a kind of god, whose handiwork was
seen in many wonders, but who never showed himself.

It was a scorching afternoon. In London water-carts were going up and
down; the less refined portion of mankind had removed their collars and
had knotted handkerchiefs about their necks. Along Green Lanes and as
far as Jolly Butcher's Hill, costers tempted villadom to extravagance,
crying, "Strarberries. Fresh strarberries," in voices grown cracked from
over-use and thirst. It made one's throat dry to listen to them. The
tricycle seemed to feel its weight of years; despite frequent oiling,
it insisted on running heavily. At Aunt Jehane's house they halted for
a rest; then, on again. The country drowsed: big trees in the meadows
seemed to fold their hands; birds had hidden themselves; there was
scarcely a sound.

When they came to the gate leading into Friday Lane, Harry wasn't there.
Pushing the machine behind a hedge, they went in search of him. They
called his name and paused to listen. He had tricked them before, trying
to make them believe that they wouldn't find him, then startling them
into laughter by playing his mouth-organ in a tree right above their
heads. They persuaded themselves that that was what was happening now.
Every few steps they would stop and look up into the boughs, shouting,
"We've found you. We know where you're hiding. You may as well come
down." If he heard them, he refused to fall into their trap.

They came to the Haunted Wood and entered. In its dark green shadows,
where all things trod softly, they dared not shout. They whispered their
assertion that they had guessed his whereabouts. Only the little river
answered, now mocking them secretly, now babbling hoarsely, alarmed that
it would never get out. They began to tiptoe. Fear of the silence seized
them. A branch cracked; they only just saved themselves from running.
It seemed as though a magician had waved his wand, casting a spell;
everything slept. Everything except the river--and at last, because its
voice was solitary, it became terrible, like that of a dying man in a
shuttered room, who muttered deliriously and tossed upon his bed.

The green stretch of grass, with the cowslips scattered over it, brought
relief to their suspense. But, here again, there was no welcome. Bees
hummed above the flowers, quite indifferent to their presence. The
bee-hive cottage stood with door and windows wide, as though its
inhabitants had been called away suddenly and would never return.
Beneath the smiling of the summer stillness lay the threat that
something evil had happened. Even Canute had vanished.

They stole round the house and at last crossed the threshold. Everything
was as they remembered it, even to the mandolin lying across the
chair. They listened. Voices! Yes, certainly. Then laughter, clear and
pleasant; it broke off in the middle, as if someone paused for breath.
It came from the Faun Man's room overhead, which Harry had never invited
them to enter. Hand-in-hand they' climbed the stairs--steep and narrow
stairs, which ended abruptly in a white door. They tapped. A man
answered. Peter raised the latch.

The ceiling sloped down from the centre, giving to the room the
appearance of a tent. There were two lattice-windows, on opposite sides,
which opened outward on to the thatch. Against one of them stood a desk,
littered with papers, from which a rush-bottomed chair had been pushed
back. A pen, lying on a sheet of partly written foolscap, had rolled
across it, leaving blots, as if the writer had put it down and turned
hastily at the sound of someone's entrance. In one corner of the room
there was a high-peaked saddle and on the walls a strange collection of
memories and travel--a study of a girl's head by Rossetti, old Indian
muskets used in frontier warfares, a pair of sabres, a college oar with
the names of the crew gilded on it, and everywhere the faces of women.
Among them one face occurred often--Peter had noticed its frequence on
the walls downstairs. And now he saw the living woman before him.

She was dressed in white, lying on a rose-colored couch, stretched out
carelessly full-length, with her small feet crossed. Her age might have
been anywhere from twenty upward. It didn't matter--one forgot years
and only thought of youth in looking at her. Was not Helen past mid-life
when two continents went to war for her beauty? Somehow she reminded one
of Helen--was it the way in which experience mixed with artlessness in
her expression? The mind went back. Dr. Faustus might have addressed his
sonorous lines to her:

               "Was this the face that launched a thousand ships?

               And burnt the topless towers of Ilium?

               Sweet Helen, make me immortal with a kiss:

               Her lips suck forth my soul, see where it flies:

               Come, Helen, come, give me my soul again.

               Here will I dwell, for heaven is in these lips."

She was golden, splendidly negligent of what was happening about her,
insolently languid with a lazy ease that seemed to take all the world
into her confidence and actually shut all the world out. She was a
lonely tower of snow and ice, rosy in the sunlight, luring, cold and
inaccessible. Her eyes were intensely blue and innocent. She had fine
teeth and an almost childish mouth, which was contradicted by the
powerful molding of her chin and throat, and the capability of her
hands. One wondered what difference it would make to her if she were
ever to be roused by love or anger. She was built on heroic lines,
long and full and gracious, yet she seemed to prefer to be treated as
a plaything. One arm was curled beneath her golden head, the other hung
down listlessly and was held by a man who was pressing the hand to his
mouth. Peter noticed in a flash how the woman paid no attention to what
the man was doing. And the man----

Peter had never seen anyone quite like him. He was tall and strong and
slender. Even though he was kneeling, Peter knew that he must be of
great height. His face was smooth, lean and tanned. His lips were
thin--unusually red and delicate for a man's. His nose was straight and
arched at the nostrils. His ears were set far back and pointed. But it
was by his eyes that Peter recognized him as the Faun Man. They were
brown and filmed over with blue like a dog's, showing scarcely any
white. They had a dumb appeal in them, a hunger and melancholy because
of something which was never found, which the eager happiness of
the rest of his appearance disguised. They had a trick of veiling
themselves, of becoming dull and focusless, as though the spirit, whose
windows they were, had drawn down the blinds and lay drugged with
sleep and satiety. Then suddenly they would flash, become torches, all
enthusiasm, crying out that there was no truce in the forward march of
desire. At such times the face became extremely young--as young as his
long fine hands. Only the black hair, brushed straight back from the
forehead without a parting, betrayed his age by the gray which grew
about the temples.

The golden woman withdrew her hand from his, and raised herself on her
elbow at the children's entrance. She gazed at them doubtfully, like a
young pantheress disturbed. Her red mouth pouted. Her blue eyes feigned
a laughing shyness. Only one small foot, tapping against the other, told
of her impatience. "Oh, it isn't---- I thought it was Harry. Who are
they, Lorie?"

Her voice was soft and caressing. She spoke in the "little language"
which mothers learn in the nursery. In her way of talking there was a
guttural quality which marked her foreign parentage.

The Faun Man, unabashed by the unexpected company, bent toward her and
kissed her arm. "I don't know," he laughed. Then he turned with a smile
that was all courtesy and kindness, "Won't you tell us? Who are you?"

Peter didn't answer at once. He was fascinated. He had never seen a
man's ears move like that. As the Faun Man had asked his question, his
ears had pricked up as a dog's do when he pays attention. And then there
was something about his voice---- It was so sad and intense.

It hurt by its longing. It didn't seem right to meet this man in a
house. Peter both distrusted and liked him--the way we do nature.

The white room became a blur as he gazed into the soft brown eyes. Woods
and meadows, seen distant in the sunlight, became flat like painted
canvases hung across the windows. Real things grew vague, or took on the
aspect of artificiality. The question came again. "Tell us, little chap.
Who are you?"

Peter's brain cleared. "If you please, we're friends of Harry, the boy
with the mouth-organ."

The golden woman leant forward, resting her hand intimately on the Faun
Man's shoulder. She was interested and her face became gentle. "Harry's
friends! But we're in disgrace with Harry. He's run away with Canute
because--because he's jealous. He wants his big brother all to
himself---- What shall we do with them, Lorie? I think we'll have to
make them our pals."

Kay had been hiding behind Peter in the doorway. She looked round him
timidly, still ready for escape. "But--but will Harry come back?"

The concern in her voice made the woman clap her hands. "He always comes
back. Men always do come back, don't they, Lorie?" She slipped her feet
off the couch and came across the room. "What a dear little girl!"

Kay looked up at her, willing to be frightened. Then her arms reached up
and the woman stooped over her. "You're nice," she said.

"Have you been here often?" It was the Faun Man speaking.

Peter thought. He tried to reckon. "Not often, but several times."

The Faun Man took him by the shoulders, looking down on him. Seen that
way, from below, he seemed tremendously high. "You needn't be afraid,
young 'un; I'm not angry. You won't get Harry into a row. Where d'you
come from?"

"Come from!" Peter laid his fingers on the thin brown hand. "Would you
mind very much if I didn't tell? You see, Harry doesn't know. It's such
fun--we're just pretence people. We tricycle out from--from nowhere on
a tandem, Kay and I. And then we meet Harry and leave the trike behind
a hedge and go into the Haunted Wood together. You see, if Harry doesn't
know who we are, it's almost as though we were fairies, and as though he
were a fairy, and we---- You know what I mean: we meet in fairyland, and
can do what we like with the world."

The Faun Man turned his head. "Eve, did you hear that? He wants to do
what he likes with the world. He's one of us."

But Eve had Kay on her lap and her lips were in her silky hair.
Something had happened to her--something difficult to express. She
had melted. With the child pressed against her bosom, she looked a
mother--very young and good. As the Faun Man watched her, his eyes
became tender--oddly tender.

"Eve. Eve."

He went over to her and took her hand. She lifted her face to his. "If
you hadn't kept me waiting----" He got no further.

There was a pause.

"I was thinking the same," she said; "and yet----"

"And yet?" he questioned.

She drew Kay nearer to her. "Where's the good of talking. We've talked
so often--so often."

He went to the open window and stared out. A butterfly flew in and
alighted on his forehead. He took no notice; he stood rigid like a man
of stone. A little muscle in his cheek kept twitching; his arms hung
straight down and the fingers worked against the palms of his hands.
Seen on either side of him, in two narrow strips, was the basking
unimprisoned country, which rolled on marvelously, this visible
landscape building into the next, and the next into all the others that
lay beyond the horizon, continents, seas and wonderlands, like a carpet
of ever-changing pattern wrapped about the world for his feet to tread.
And he, without bonds, was a prisoner.

He swung round. To Peter's surprise he was laughing. His dark face was
narrow in mockery. "Come on, young 'un," he said; "let's get out."

He had to double himself up to pass down the low-ceilinged stairway.
Peter followed; in leaving the room, he glanced back. The golden woman
had raised her eyes--the eyes of a child who has been selfish and has
wounded itself. She was fondling Kay, as though she thought that her
kindness to the little girl would atone for her unkindness to the man.

As he crossed the living-room, the Faun Man picked up the mandolin from
the chair. He did not walk through the garden; he walked into it. That
was his way with everything. Leaving the path, he pressed waist-deep
through roses and fuchsias, scattering their blooms and petals. Like
soldiers approving his lawlessness, sunflowers swayed their golden heads
and nodded. Swarms of winged insects, whose homes he had disturbed,
rose up in busy protest. His face was wrinkled with determination to be
glad--to be glad whatever might lie in the future. In the heart of the
fragrant nature-world he halted, and sat down on the hard-baked earth.
He looked like a great supple hound with his legs crouched under him.
Through the walls of their house of leaves and blossoms they could see
the window of the room they had left.

The Faun Man commenced to tune his mandolin. "Ever been in love, Peter?"

The boy reddened. He didn't know why he reddened. Perhaps he was proud
that he should be asked such a question. Perhaps he was a little angry
because--well, because everyone he had ever met seemed a little ashamed
of love--everyone except the Faun Man. So he answered, "Only with my
little sister."

The man laughed. "That isn't what I meant. That's different. Love's
something that burns and freezes. It fills you and leaves you hungry. It
makes you forget all other affections and keeps you always remembering
itself. It makes you kindest when it's most cruel. It demands everything
you possess; and you're most eager to give when it gives you nothing
back. It's hell and it's heaven. No, I'll tell you what it is. It's a
small child pulling the wings off a fly, and then crying because it's
sorry, and didn't know what it was doing. Ah, Peter, Peter, you haven't
met love yet." He bent forward and tapped him on the arm. "Be wise. Run
away when you see love coming."

Peter felt embarrassed. The Faun Man closed one eye and watched
him--watched how the sun splashed through the creeping shadows and fell
on the boy's flushed face and curly hair. "Here's a little song about
love," he said. "A very high class song, written not improbably by the
poet Shelley."

He struck the strings of the mandolin, playing a little jingling
introduction and then commenced, lifting his long face to the window
in the thatch, singing through his nose and burlesquing all that had
happened:

               "If yer gal ain't all yer thought 'er,

               And fer everyfing yer've bought 'er

               She don't seem to care a 'appenny pot o' glue;

               If she tells yer she won't miss yer

               And she doesn't want ter kiss yer,

               Though yer've cuddled 'er from 'Ammersmif ter Kew;

               If yer little side excurshiums

               To lands of pink nasturtiums

               Don't make 'er 'arf so soft as they make you,

               Why, never get down-'earted,

               For that's the way love started--

               Adam ended wery 'appy--and that's true."

He had scarcely finished, when the golden woman came to the lattice in
the thatch. She stood framed there, with the whiteness of the room as a
background. Her hands were crossed upon her breast. The shining masses,
wrapped about her head and forehead, accentuated her vivid paleness. She
looked as idealized as a girl on canvas, put there by her lover in a bid
for immortality. She glanced this way and that to discover the Faun Man.
She leant out, listening and searching. She could not detect him.

"Lorie," she cried, addressing the garden, "you're unkind. I hate
you when you're flippant." She waited for him to answer. Nothing but
silence, and the little river whispering to itself beyond the hedge.
"Lorie, I suppose you think I've got no right to talk about being
flippant, because---- But I'm not flippant. I like you, and----
But I can't help myself if God made me as I am." Again she waited.
"Lorie, I'll be awfully nice to you if you'll only show yourself. I do
so want to see----"

The Faun Man stood up ecstatically, with his arms stretched out to her.
It was absurd to call him a man. The pollen of flowers had smirched his
face and hands. His head was bare, and the hair had fallen forward over
his forehead.

"I'm crying for the moon," he chanted, "and because she won't come
down to me I'm calling her names--saying that she's a Gorgonzola cheese
flying through the heavens."

"My Lord," laughed the golden woman--she pronounced it Looard, in her
most foreign accent; "what an imagination you have!"

"Jump down," urged the Faun Man; "I'll catch you, little Eve. I'd catch
you and carry you anywhere."

She thought and slowly shook her head, as if she had been considering
his suggestion as a feasible, if unconventional, plan of descent. "I'd
rather trust the stairs."

"You'd rather trust anything than trust me," he said ruefully; "but I
don't care, so long as you do come down." She was leaving the window,
when she turned back. "What was that silly song you were singing?"

He answered her promptly. "Words by Shelley. Accompanied by Lorenzo
Arran. Title, 'A Bloke and 'is 'Arriet.' Scene laid in London. All
rights reserved." She pulled a face, exceedingly provocative and
naughty. "Words by Shelley, indeed! But I can believe all the rest."

She vanished.

The Faun Man turned to Peter. "You see, young fellow, it's as I told
you. Love's always like that. It comes to a window and looks down at
you. You hold out your arms to it and say, I want you.' Love came to the
window that you might say that; but the moment you say it, love shakes
its head. If you told it to walk decently down the stairs to you, it
would immediately fling itself over the sill and toboggan down the
thatch. You're fool enough to say to it, 'Slide down the thatch,' and
it immediately walks decently down the stairs. If I were you, Peter, I'd
never fall in love with anybody."

Then Peter surprised himself; he mimicked something he had just heard.
"My Looard!" he said, "I'm never going to."

The Faun Man held his sides and threw back his head, laughing loudly.
That was how the golden woman found him when she came with her arm about
Kay's neck. She halted on the path, six feet away, smiling at him across
the barricade of flowers. She cuddled the little girl closer to her.
"Aren't men funny, Kay?" And then, slanting her face and stooping with
her neck, "Lorie, you queer boy, what's the matter now?"

The Faun Man waded through the roses to her, catching her by the
shoulders and bending over her. "Peter's the matter. I was telling him
never to fall in love with anybody, because--well, because love's cruel
and only looks out of a window in order to go away and leave the window
vacant. And what d'you think he said? I'm never going to.' He said it
sharply like that, as if I'd been telling him never to be a pickpocket.
Fancy a little boy having made up his mind never to walk in the sunlight
because the sunlight scorches."

"Ah, but he did not mean it." She spoke as though Peter had been unkind,
and had said that he would not love her. "But he did not mean it," she
repeated, tilting Peter's face up in her hollowed hand. "And love isn't
cruel--he mustn't believe what Lorie says. Love is the flowers and the
dusk falling, and the sound of birds and rivers, and the dearness of
little children. Love is---- How shall I put it? Love is eyes in the
head. Without love one can see nothing."

Peter gazed into her eyes. She was charming. He felt as though he had
hurt her. And he felt that, if he had hurt her, he ought to go
all across the world on his knees and hands till he obtained her
forgiveness. He remembered afterward that, when her eyes were on his, he
saw nothing but blue--just her eyes and nothing else.

"He didn't mean it, did he?" she coaxed.

In a very small voice he answered, "I did mean it. You see, there's Kay;
I have to love her."

"But some man may love Kay presently--may take her away from you. What
then?"

Peter had never thought of that. He wouldn't think of it now, just as
years later he refused to face up to it. "Kay would never allow anyone
to take her. Would you, Kay?" Kay shook her head. "I only want Peter."

She freed herself from the golden woman and went and stood beside her
brother with her arm about him--an arm so small that it wouldn't come
all the way round.

The man and woman stared at them. Here was something outside their
experience. They had found hard knocks in the world and occasional
stolen glimpses of tenderness--not a tenderness which one could carry
about as a thing expected, could arrange life by, and refer to as to a
timepiece in the pocket. Both were conscious of a hollowness in their
living. And the woman--she had dreaded permanency in affection lest it
should become a chain to gall her.

A shadowy hurdler, very distant as yet, over trees and fields and
hedges, evening came vaulting. No one could hear his footsteps, only
the panting of his breath. He was racing from the great red door in the
west, from which he had slipped out--racing, with his head turned across
his shoulder, as though he feared to see a presence on the burning
threshold and to hear a voice that would call him. The small applauding
hands of leaves moved gently. The red door sank lower. Snared in the
branches of the Haunted Wood, it came to rest.

Far away and out of sight, deep-toned and mellow, came the lowing
of cattle and the staccato barking of a dog, driving the herd to the
milking. One by one live things of the country-side commenced to wake
and stir. Rabbits hopped out among the cowslips and nibbled at the turf.
Birds, like children put to bed and frightened of being left, called
"Good-night. Good-night. Good-night," over and over. From watch-towers
of tall trees mother-birds answered, "Good-night. Good-night.
Good-night." The world had become maternal. The spirit of life's
brevity, of parting, of remembrance, of regret, of happiness withheld
was in the air. The golden woman felt her loneliness. Looking at the
children, so defiant in their sureness of one another, she recalled her
lost opportunities.

An arm stole about her. A brown hand covered hers. She leant back her
head so that it lay against the Faun Man's jacket. So many things seemed
worth the seeking in this world--so few worth the keeping when found.
For the moment she liked to fancy that her search was at an end.

Peter spoke. "If you please, I think we must be going. I've got to get
Kay back, you know. Even now, I'll have to light the lamps."

"But--but we haven't seen Harry."

A light woke in the golden woman's eyes. She was about to speak; the
Faun Man pressed his hand against her mouth. "You can see him to-morrow,
little girl, if Peter will bring you."

"But where is he?"

The Faun Man swept the horizon. "Somewhere over there. He's gone away
into the wood with Canute, because we hurt his feelings."

"But what's he doing?" Kay insisted.

The Faun Man looked at the golden woman; his eyes asked, "Shall we
tell?" They turned back to Kay. "What's he doing? Sitting with his head
in his hands. Crying, perhaps---- Do boys cry, Peter? He doesn't like
his brother and this little woman to be together. The poor old chap
doesn't think we do each other any good."

"And do we?" The golden woman spoke softly.

The Faun Man became very solemn. His voice was husky. "We don't. But we
could."

She twisted round in his embrace so that she met him breast to breast.
"Ah, there's the voice of every tragedy! We don't. But we could---- And
we know we could; and yet we don't."

Down the garden, over the plank-bridge, across the meadow, through the
Haunted Wood they went together: the boy and girl, like lovers with arms
encircling; the man and woman, like brother and sister, holding hands,
brushing shoulders, and following. As they entered into Friday Lane, Kay
looked back. At the foot of a big oak Canute was lying, his nose between
his fore-paws, his eyes red-rimmed with vigilance.

She tugged on Peter's arm. "Why he must be up there. Oh, do let's be
nice to him. Just one minute. Let's."

But when they approached, the dog's back bristled and he growled. He
lifted his black lip, showing the whiteness of his fangs. His sullen
eyes were on the golden woman. Like one embittered, who had ceased to
believe that virtue could be found anywhere, he regarded all four of
them in anger.

The Faun Man shrugged his shoulders. "When he climbs trees that means
he's getting better. There's no sense in worrying him; he won't come
down till he's ready."

"Good-night," Kay called to him with piping shrillness.

"Good-night," called Peter.

And again, when the tree was growing small in the distance, Kay shouted,
"Good-night, Harry. We've missed you."

From up in the clouds, very faint and little, came the sound of a
mouth-organ playing the wander-tune of romance:

                   "I've been ship-wrecked off Patagonia,

                   Home and Colonia

                   Antipodonia;

                   I've shot cannibals,

                   Funny-looking animals,

                   Top-knot coons.

                   I've bought diamonds..."

Their memories set the tune to words.

The old tandem trike was trundled out from its hiding place behind
the hedge. The Faun Man lifted Kay on to her seat at the back; Peter
mounted. All was ready.

"So you're riding away from fairyland," sighed the golden woman.
"Foolish! Foolish! It's so easy to do that---- And when you've gone and
until you come again, there won't be any fairyland. It's so easy to ride
away; so difficult to come back."

Kay thought that a doubt was being cast on Peter's cleverness. "It isn't
difficult at all," she protested; "not if you have a tandem tricycle and
a big brother like Peter."

The golden woman laughed with her hand against her throat. "But I
hav'n't a tandem tricycle, and I hav'n't a big brother like Peter."

Kay knew she hadn't; she wondered what made the golden woman say that,
and---- yes, why she choked at the end of her words.

"Good-by till we come again."

They rang their bells as a parting salutation. The wheels began to turn.
They disappeared between the hedges down the road, a vision of plunging
legs, bent backs and flying hair.

The man and woman were left alone on the highway between the Haunted
Wood and the town, to both of which these children had such ready
access.

Slowly, slowly the sun was vanishing; once a ball of fire; now the
boldness of sight on which an eye-lid was closing; at last a glory to be
taken on faith and conjecture. The country became vague as though seen
through water. Its greenness had a coolness which was more than color;
which had to be realized by a spiritual sense. The evening dimness, like
the hand of death, removed sharp temporary edges from the landscape and
revealed an expression which was timeless, which had been always there.
Birds had ceased calling. The moon floated out--the soul of the night,
high-lifted and inspired. Trees sought to touch her with their fingers;
she slipped by them, unhurried by their effort.

He had said so much to her in the past with his eager lips and words.
Now, for some time, he had been saying everything, while seeming to say
nothing.

He held her pressed against him. "Ah dearest----"

She stirred. "But I'm not good."

"You are. But you're not kind to me often."

"Not often," she murmured.

He stooped; in the darkness he could say it--the old, old question
which, through repetition, had lost its generosity and splendor. "Am I
never going to make you love me?"

She turned her face away, so that his kiss fell on her neck. "I don't
know, don't know, Lorie? How should I? I don't want to hurt you. You
do believe me when I say that? But I'm fickle. I'm not at all what you
think me. I'm all wrong somewhere inside--cold and bad-hearted."

He laid his cheek against hers, holding her more tightly. "Little Eve.
Please! You shan't accuse yourself. It wounds."

She broke away, but only that she might return of herself. She caught
him by the lapels of his coat and tiptoed against him. "But I am.
Harry's quite right to hate me. I send you on long journeys, and you
can't forget me. I won't love you myself, and I keep you from loving
another woman. You offer me your soul, and I allow you to go thirsty. I
torture you, and give you nothing."

He spoke very gently, for the first time honest. "I can put it in fewer
words: you want to be loved; you won't pay the price of loving. Isn't
that it?"

She pressed her golden head against his shoulder in ashamed assent.
Behind her shuttered eyes she had the vision of a long white road
leading up to a city, of a curly-headed boy and an elfin-girl steering
through the traffic beneath street lamps. She wanted to have the
palm without the dust, to be a mother without the sacrifice of having
children. Seeing the vision of children going from her, and knowing that
he would understand, she whispered, "One day I shall be old--and I shall
have missed all that."

"Poor little Eve! Poor little girl!"

He picked her up in his arms and commenced to walk through the twilight,
across fields, to the cottage.

She raised her hand and touched his cheek. "You wonderful, strong Faun
Man."

He halted in his stride and bent over her; then went on into the
shadows.




CHAPTER XXVII--PETER FINDS A FAIRY

At the Faun Man's birth an angel and a witch attended. The angel
brought him the supreme gift of making people love him. The witch made
the gift fatal, by wishing that he might be loved not as a man, but as
a woman is loved--with jealousy. So his friends were all enemies to each
other because they had to share him. Even Canute was like that; he had
to be chained when admirers were calling.

Strange company invaded the Happy Cottage. Women predominated--women who
tried to treat the Faun Man as their property. They wore fluffy gowns
and had fluffy manners; even their voices were fluffy. Their attitude
was that of princesses who had journeyed into the wilderness to borrow
something. They were a little annoyed by the country, and found it
dirty. Very few of them addressed him as Mr. Arran; each invented a
pet-name for him, which seemed to make him hers peculiarly. They were
all consumed with a desire to touch him and to go on touching him,
beating about him like birds about a lighthouse which shines out
hospitably, but permits no entrance. Most of them mingled with their
admiration a concerned and respectful sorrow. His lonely manner of
living moved them to the depths. They formed individual and brilliant
plans for the glorious reconstruction of his future--plans which these
female geographers handed to him boastfully, as though they were maps
of fascinating lands which awaited his exploring. For satisfactory
exploration the presence of the female geographer was necessary.

Peter was usually forewarned that an invasion was in progress by the
crescendo cackling which rushed out from doors and windows into the
basking stillness of the garden. Then he would hear the mild protest of
the Faun Man, "But, my dear lady, my dear lady--but really----" Harry
would meet him by the hedge, his face flushed and his mouth sulky.
Jerking his thumb across his shoulder he would whisper, "The Hissing
Geese! Hark at 'em! Ain't it sickening?" Sometimes he'd call them the H.
G. for brevity. He called them that because of the way in which they sat
round his brother with their necks stretched out, all making sounds. He
hated them unreasonably, and hated them to excess when they tried to
curry favor with him by kissing. And yet, it was silly of him; with a
few years added to his age, he would have found most of them pretty and
quite suitable for loving.

Surliness on these occasions gave Harry a strong sympathy for Canute.
If he had been a dog and unrestrained by chivalry, nothing would have
pleased him better than to have bitten the ladies' legs. He felt that it
was unjust to chain Canute up as a reward for his loyalty. So usually,
when Kay and Peter had arrived, the three of them would sneak round
the cottage to the kennel and attempt a rescue. Then came the exciting
escape through the garden, crouching low and stealing behind the flowers
so as not to be observed, holding on to the collar of the Great Dane for
fear he should break away and glut his anger. Sometimes they were heard
above the rattle of tea-cups and the ladies would bunch themselves in
the cottage window, like a nosegay, with the Faun Man in their centre.
Then would follow a series of high-pitched questions and exclamations,
fired off for the sake of noise. "What dear children! Is that your
sister? Are they both your brothers? What a perfectly sweet dog!"

The "perfectly sweet dog" would growl and show his fangs, as much as
to say, "Leave me out of it. Look after your legs. I wish I had half a
chance of showing you how perfectly sweet I am."

Where did they all come from, these amorous butterfly excursionists?
Harry kept his mouth shut. He wasn't going to tell, only---- Well, he
hinted that they might be insincere experiments of the golden woman,
sent to supplant her--sent because she knew they couldn't do it. "And
jolly good care she takes not to send the right one. Trust her." Harry
said it in a growl which he copied from Canute.

It wasn't until they had entered the Haunted Wood and the green wall of
bushes and make-believe had shut out intruders, that his ruffled spirit
regained its levity. Then he'd light a fire, and play at Indians who had
taken their revenge in scalps. Presently, if the Faun Man had been lucky
in getting rid of his worries, he would join them. They would boil a
kettle and have tea in the open, after which the Faun Man would light
his pipe and smoke it, lying flat on his back. They knew what to expect.
Soon he would sit up, press his tobacco down with a lean finger, pluck a
twig out of the fire and use it as a match. Then, very deliberately, he
would begin, "I remember, once upon a time."

What a lot of magnificent things had happened once upon a time that he
could remember! He had chased cattle thieves across the border and had
come up with them, intending to shoot if necessary, only to find them
such human fellows that he'd parted friends. "Human" was his word for
describing the kind of people he liked, many of whom were disreputable.
One night, when camping in the Canadian Rockies, a hundred miles from
anywhere, a stranger had crept from the forest and shared his supper and
blanket. They had talked of London, London street-songs and Leicester
Square, till the stars were going out. Next morning he was wakened by a
member of the North West Mounted Police who was hunting a murderer. The
fugitive had already vanished. "A pity he'd killed some one," said the
Faun Man; "he was one of the most charmin' chaps I ever met. Oh yes, he
was caught and hanged."

The Faun Man had played hide-and-seek with death in many quaint
corners of the world--getting his "liver into whack," he called it,
and gathering "local color." What local color might be, and why anyone
should want to gather it, Peter didn't understand. But he learnt that
its gathering took you down into Mexico in search of secret gold, where
Indians hid behind rocks and potted at you with poisoned arrows, and
that it took you up to Fort Mackenzie with dogs to the very edge of the
Arctic. While he listened to these stories of adventure, the shadows of
the Haunted Wood lengthened, the river sang more boldly, evening fell,
and the fire, from a pyramid of leaping flames, became a hollow land of
scarlet which grew slowly gray, fluttering with little tufts of ashen
moss and ashen feathers, until it at last lay charred and dead.

The Faun Man captured Peter's imagination and affections. He filled
him with strange new longings. He sent his spirit reaching out after
unattainable perfections, whose lure and desire are both the glamour and
torture of childhood. He made Peter want to be a man, so that he might
be like him. The Faun Man was a stained-glass window which, when looked
through, tinted and intensified life's values. Peter was going through
the experience of hero-worship which comes to most boys when sex is
dawning, and they have not yet realized that its sole and splendid
meaning is that woman shares the same world.

And yet there were moments when Peter almost feared his friend; his
character was a sand-desert in which the track followed yesterday was
soon wiped out. One day he would cry, "Ah, I know him!" and the next,
"I know nothing." The whole passionate urgency of a child's heart in
friendship is to know everything.

But the Faun Man was too big and elusive to be known by one person.
Four walls could not contain him. He came into a house like a half-tamed
animal--but where had he been, where had he come from? He had tricks,
curious tricks, which linked him to the creatures which make their
homes in the leaves and holes of the earth. He seldom sat on chairs, but
huddled himself on the floor while he talked to you. He could sit for an
hour, saying nothing. In the middle of a conversation he would jump up
and go out without apology, as if he heard a voice which you had not
heard. And he had. The sound of the wind told him something, the altered
note of a thrush, the little shudder, scarcely perceptible, that ran
through the flowers; to him they all said something. If you asked him
what they said, he could not tell you. So it was no good wanting him to
belong to you; he belonged out there.

To Peter, who had always been smiled at for his compassion, it was
comforting to find some one as compassionate as himself. It removed the
dread of abnormality. There was a nightingale which used to come every
evening to sing in an apple-tree near the Happy Cottage. They used to
wait for the romance of its silver voice slanting across the velvet
dusk, as though it were a thing to be seen rather than heard. One night
they waited; it did not come.

The Faun Man grew nervous. He could not rest; at last he went in search
of it with Peter. Beneath the apple-tree they found it still warm, with
its wings stretched out. And then the unexpected happened. Kneeling
in the twilight beside the dead singer, as though music had departed
forever from the earth, the Faun Man wept.

And yet the same man could be harsh in anger--that was how Peter found
the fairy. On entering the cottage one afternoon he heard the sound of
sobbing upstairs and a voice protesting, "I didn't mean to do it. She
drove me mad--you and she together. You don't care for me--don't care
for me; and I love you better than anything in the world. Oh, do forgive
me, kind Faun Man."

A pause. Peter knew she was on her knees before him, kissing his hands.
It was as though he could see her doing it. "But you did mean to do it,
Cherry." It was the Faun Man speaking deliberately and coldly. "You did
it on purpose. It was stupid and babyish of you. It didn't do her any
harm, and it didn't do you any good. I don't want to see you, and I
don't like you any longer."

A passionate voice declared, "If you say that again, I'll kill myself."

Again a pause. The door overhead opened; a wild thing came tearing down
the stairs. Peter had a vision of something in skirts, something with an
intense white face, tragic gray eyes and a mass of black flying hair. He
was bumped into. In stepping backward he tripped against a chair.
When he picked himself up and looked out into the garden she had
disappeared--all he heard was the running of her swift feet growing
fainter and fainter.

He gazed about the room, wondering what he ought to do. Should he steal
back quietly to where he had left Kay and Harry, and pretend that he had
seen nothing? His attention was arrested. So that was what had caused
the disturbance? Every portrait of the golden woman had been torn from
its place on the wall and trampled. While he hesitated, he heard the
Faun Man descending. It was too late to go now.

The Faun Man entered without seeing him. His face was stern; two deep
lines stretched like cuts from the nostrils to the corners of his mouth.
He looked leaner than ever. He was already stooping over the ruined
portraits when Peter addressed him. "Won't you ever forgive her?
Please do. Never to forgive a person, not forever and forever, seems so
dreadful."

The Faun Man jumped; his eyes, when they turned on Peter, were the eyes
of a stranger. "And where did you come from? And who asked you for your
opinion? You'd better get out."

When he came to the plank which crossed the little river, Peter halted.
Down Friday Lane he could hear the mouth-organ and, looking, could see
Harry beating time with one hand while Kay danced to it. No, he didn't
want to join them. Harry would laugh at him for paying heed to one of
the Faun Man's moods. And Kay--why, if she guessed that he was unhappy,
of course she'd become unhappy, too----. And that girl--she'd said that
she was going to kill herself. He ran across the meadow to the Haunted
Wood. She must be there. She shouldn't do it.

Just where he entered, he stooped and picked up something white. She had
dropped her handkerchief, so he knew that he was on the right track. He
followed on tiptoe, afraid lest, if he overtook her suddenly, he might
scare her. In the stealth of the pursuit a novel excitement came upon
him. His eyes were glowing. His breath came and went pantingly. He had
removed his cap; his curly hair lay ruffled on his forehead. He went
forward timidly, half-minded to turn back, ashamed lest he might find
her looking at him. As he penetrated deeper, the stillness grew
and magnified ievery sound. Overhead the branches were woven closer
together, shutting the sunlight out. An air of secrecy gathered round
him. Birds, hopping out of his path under bushes, looked back at him
knowingly. They knew what he did not know himself.

Out of sight, beyond him, there was the sound of moving. Leaves rustled;
silence settled down. They rustled again. He followed. Then he heard the
voice of the river--a little voice which grew louder. It sang to itself
softly. It seemed to be trying to say something. Did it sing in lurement
or warning? Now it seemed to be saying, "Turn back, turn back, turn
back"; and now----. But he couldn't make out the words.

He lifted his face above a clump of shrub-oak and found his eyes
peering into hers. She was too startled to jump back from him; she gazed
wide-eyed, with lips parted and one hand plucking at her breast. She saw
a boy, swift and straight as an arrow, a boy who seemed to stand tiptoe
with eagerness, who had the grace and strength of a Greek runner and the
smooth skin and gentle mouth of a girl.

And Peter in looking at her saw a white face, sensitive as a flower's;
and a mouth, red as a cherry, long and drooping and curved; and two
great gray eyes, clear and wistful in expression; and over the eyes,
dark brows, like a bird's wings spread for flight. Her black hair
had broken loose and hung about her shoulders, giving her a touch of
wildness. Across the whiteness of her forehead it brooded like a cloud.
In the green church of the wood she seemed sacred to Peter.

She laughed throatily, breaking the suspense. "Oh, it's only you."

Peter stepped out of the underbrush. Then he saw that she had removed
her shoes and stockings, and was standing on the edge of the little
river. Her feet were wet and as small as her hands. They looked cold as
marble in the green dusk. Why was it? More than anything else, the sight
of her feet made him unhappy for her, made him want to care for her,
made him want to bring a smile to her mouth.

"Yes, it's only me," he said; "but--but I wish it wasn't. I'm sorry."

She tossed her head, as though she were indignant with him for being
sorry, but she looked at him slantingly, curiously and kindly. "Why
should you be sorry? You don't know who I am? You're not sorry; you only
say that."

He protested. "But I am. I didn't mean to overhear; but, you know, I
heard what you said---- I was afraid you'd do it."

She sat down, trailing her feet in the water. She was smiling now,
secretly and to herself, as if she didn't want him to know it. "It's too
little," she pouted. "I couldn't drown in that."

Peter seated himself at her side, with his knees drawn up to his chin.
When he spoke, it was with an air of grave confession. "I'm awfully glad
it was too little."

She turned her head, looking at him from under her long lashes
provocatively; but he was staring straight before him with vacant eyes,
as if something very sweet and awful were happening. She reached out
her hand and touched him; she noticed how he trembled. "And if it hadn't
been too little, it wouldn't have mattered--not to you."

He didn't answer her immediately. When he spoke it was slowly, as if
each word hurt as he dragged it out. "It would have mattered, because
then you wouldn't have been in the world."

"But you didn't know that I was in the world this morning."

He shook his head, as much as to tell her that her objection was quite
beside the question. "I know that. But I think I should have missed you
just the same, without knowing exactly what I was missing."

She laughed outright, swaying against him and burying her hands in the
green things growing. "You are funny--yes, and dear. I never met a boy
like you. You didn't really think----?"

He gazed at her wonderingly. Each time he looked at her, he found
something new that was beautiful. It was her throat this time, long
and delicate like a Lent lily. As he watched it, he could see how the
laughter bubbled up inside it; he longed, with the instinct of a child,
to lay his fingers on it.

"You didn't really think----?"

He nodded. "That you were going to kill yourself? Yes--and weren't you?"

She ceased laughing. "I don't think so. I'm such a coward. And then,"
she commenced laughing again, "killing yourself is such a worry--you
can only do it once and, if you're not careful, you don't look pretty. I
always want to look pretty. Do--do you think I'm pretty?"

He choked and swallowed. His mouth was dry. He couldn't bring his voice
to the surface. She drooped her face away from him, pretending to take
offense. "You don't. I can see that. You needn't tell me."

His words came with a rush. "I do! I do! I think, when God made you,
He must have said to Himself, 'I'll make the most beautiful person--the
most beautiful person I ever made.' It was something like that He said."

His quivering earnestness made her solemn. She hadn't meant to stir him
so deeply. "What an odd way of saying things you have. I don't suppose
God cared much about my making. He just had me manufactured with the
rest."

A warm hand slipped into hers and a shy voice whispered, "He made you
Himself. I'm certain."

She gazed at him, at the narrow sloping shoulders and the shining curly
head. She felt very much a woman at the moment--years older than the
handful of months which at most must separate them. She laid her cheek
against his and slid her arm about him. "I'm so glad you're not a man."

He stared straight before him. "I shall be soon."

"How old are you?"

"Sixteen next birthday."

She drew him nearer to her. He was so young as that! "How old d'you
think I am?"

He searched her face, trying to make her as near his own age as
possible, and not to be mistaken. "Sixteen?" he suggested.

"Almost seventeen," she said; "I'll soon be twenty, And then----"

"And then," he interrupted, "I'll be eighteen--almost a man."

She withdrew her face from his. "Stupid. I don't want you to be a man.
When you're a man, I shan't like you; you'll become hard and masterful
like... like the rest."

"I shan't."

She relented. "No. I don't think you will. But then it'll be all
different."

Yes, it would all be different. Peter had been a child when, in the
early summer, he had stumbled on the Happy Cottage. Until then he would
have been perfectly contented to have gone on living at Topbury and
to have been fifteen forever. It had scarcely occurred to him that
childhood was a preparation which would soon be ended. He had never
looked ahead--never realized that he, with all the generations of boys
who had lived before him, must one day be a man. In a vague way he had
known that once his father and mother had been young and protected,
as he and Kay were young and protected. But it had seemed a fanciful
legend. And now the great change, which formerly he would have dreaded,
he yearned for. The ignorance and inexperience of being young, the habit
grown people had of treating him as a person of no serious importance,
galled him. It had begun with the Faun Man and his desire to be like
him. It was ridiculous when he imagined his own appearance, but
he wanted to be respected. These longings had not come home to him
before--they had been a gradual growth of weeks and months. It was
contact with a vitalizing personality that had done it, and listening
to talks of strange lands and the doings of strong men. And now this
girl----. To her he was no more than amusing. She could do and say to
him things that she would never do or say to men. Yes, when he was older
it would all be different. She had wakened him forever from the long
and irrecoverable sleep of childhood. He might dose again, but he could
never sink back into its deep unruffled calm and indifference. Was it
this that the river had tried to tell him, when he had heard it singing,
"Turn back, turn back, turn back"? It still sang, going round the
white feet of the girl in little waves and eddies, but its voice was
indistinct, like that of an old prophet, who mumbles a forgotten and
disregarded message.

The girl at his side stirred. "What do they call you?"

And he returned the question. She leant her head away from him on her
shoulder. "What do you think they call me? What name would suit me best?
But you'd never guess. They call me Cherry, because my lips are red."

Cherry, because her lips were red! And who were _they_, who had called
her that? He felt jealous of them. _They_ knew so much about her; he
knew nothing. And here was the supreme marvel, that for years she had
been walking in the same world and, until now, he had found no hint
of her. He might have passed her in the street--might have come often
within touching distance of her. Some of this he tried to say to her;
she listened with a faint smile about her mouth. He fell silent, fearing
that he had amused her by his sentiment.

She patted his hand. "D'you know, you're rather wonderful? You put such
private thoughts into words. Do you always think behind things like
that?" Without waiting for him to reply, she continued, "But you never
passed me in the street. You couldn't have met me any earlier, because
I've lived always in America. I was born there. That's where I met----."
She did not name the Faun Man, but her face clouded. "I must be getting
back," she ended vaguely.

Outside the wood he would lose her--lose her because she had belonged
to other people first. He would become again a schoolboy, tricycling out
into the country with Kay. It would take years to become a man.

She stood up. "You must go now."

How sweet and slight she looked, like a tall white flower swaying in the
shadows. He had read in books of spirit-women who, in the bygone days of
romance, had lifted up their faces from amid the bracken to lure knights
aside from their quest; and the knights, having once kissed them,
had lost them and hungered for their lips forever. He wanted to
speak--wanted to say something true, wanted to tell her of this dynamic
change that she had worked for him. All that he could say was, "Cherry";
and then, "But how shall I find you?"

"Find me!" she laughed, tiptoeing on her bare feet with her hands
clasped behind her head. "Oh, you'll find me," she nodded.

"But promise."

She half-closed her eyes, as though tired by his urgency. Then she threw
her hands to her side. "I like you, Peter. I promise."

Picking up her shoes and stockings she pushed back the bushes. "You're
not to follow."

He listened. Was she standing there, hidden by the screen of leaves? He
had not heard the rustle of her going. Suddenly the branches were thrust
back, and again he saw her. Her eyes were alight with merriment and her
mouth was puckered. "Oh, little Peter, if you'd only been older----"

Like a secret door in a green wall closing, the branches swished back.
The wood muttered to itself as she went from him, and then fell so
silent that it seemed to stand with its finger pressed against its
mouth.




CHAPTER XXVIII--WAKING UP

The world is a mirror into which we gaze and see the reflection of
ourselves. So far to Peter it had been a foreground of small boys and
their sisters, with a background of occasional adult relatives. But now,
like a fledgling which has grown to strength lying snugly in its nest,
he had looked out and seen the leafy distance below him. His curiosity
was roused; the commonplace was a wonderland. What went on down there?
Where did the parent birds go, and how did they find their way back?
What was the meaning of this sun-and-shadow landscape that people called
"living"? Because he was young, when he looked out of the nest, the
distance below him seemed full of youngness. All that had happened up to
now, the collapse of Aunt Jehane's fortunes, the imprisonment of
Uncle Waffles, his father's problems and the marriage of Grace to her
policeman, were mere stories which he had heard reported. There was
a battle called life, going on somewhere, in which he had never
participated. He was tired of being told about it. He wanted to feel
the rush of wind under his outspread wings; this afternoon, in a gust of
vivid and personal experience, he thought he had felt it. What was
it? By what name should he call it? Because he was only fifteen, love
sounded too large a word. And yet----- If it wasn't love, what was it?

All along the dusty summer road, through the golden evening, as he
tricycled back to London, he argued with himself. Kay interrupted
occasionally and he answered, but his thoughts were elsewhere. They had
discovered the gray-built city of Reality, and went from door to door
tapping, demanding entrance. Ignorance had kept him unadventurous and
contented; his contentedness was breaking down--he was glad of it.
The urgent need was on him to explain creation and his presence in the
world. How were people born? Why did they marry? How did they get money?
The child's mind, like the philosopher's, goes back to fundamentals. All
this outward pageant which had passed before his eyes for fifteeen
years as a sight to be expected, had suddenly become packed with hidden
significance. What was the meaning of this being born, this getting
and spending, this disastrous and glorious loving, struggling and being
buried? There was no one to whom he dared go for an answer; he must find
the explanation within himself. In the isolation of that thought he
felt a great gulf opening between himself and his little sister, between
himself and everyone he loved. Whether he liked it or not, one day he
must grow into a man; he was elated and terrified by the certainty. And
all the while, set to the creaking music of the lumbering tricycle, one
word sung itself over and over, "Cherry, Cherry, Cherry."

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No one, looking at his childish face, would have guessed the grave
suspicions and wild hazards that walked in the desperate loneliness
of his imagination. It was the key to existence that he sought. He had
arrived at that crisis of soul and body, when every child is driven out,
a John the Baptist, into the wilderness of conjecture, there to live on
the locusts and wild honey of hearsay, till he finds the fruit of the
Tree of Knowledge.

As they neared the suburbs, a stream of bicyclists--city clerks riding
out with their sweethearts--met, engulfed and gave them passage. After
all, it was a merry, laughing world! Above the tinkling of bells,
evening birds were calling. All these people, how did they live? Where
did they come from? Had they, too, slept and been awakened questioning,
because a girl had touched them?

Down the road he saw his aunt's cottage. Riska would be there by the
gate, sitting behind her table spread with cakes, mineral-waters and
glasses. He recalled all the things he had heard said of her, things to
which he had paid no attention--that she was a born flirt and that her
mother was teaching her to catch men. As they came up, she lifted her
soft eyes and let them rest on him with contemptuous affection. Why did
she do that? Why did she always seem to despise and tolerate men and
boys? A bicyclist, who had ridden past, turned his head, caught sight of
her and came back slowly. Peter felt that it was not thirst, but Riska's
prettiness that had recalled him. He felt angry with Riska--unreasonably
angry, for she had said and done nothing.

"We're late," he told her; "we can't stop."

She nodded. She didn't care. Her whole attitude seemed to tell Peter
that he wasn't worth wasting time on. Just as the pedals had begun
to turn, Glory came out and stood in the porch. She waved to him and
shouted something. He called to her that they were in a hurry. Further
down the road, he turned his head; her eyes followed him.

It was nearly dark when they reached Topbury. Lamps stood like marigold
splashes on the dusk in a quivering line along the Terrace. In the
garden he found his parents, sitting close together beneath the
mulberry-tree like lovers. They drew apart as Kay ran up to them.

"You're late, children." It was his mother talking. "We were getting
nervous."

He kissed her; for a moment, the old sense of security returned.

"It's time Kay was in bed."

She crossed the gravel path with her arm about the little girl, and
disappeared up the white stone steps to the house.

Far away, as of old, like waves about the foot of a cliff, the roar
of London threatened. It seemed to be telling him that he would not be
always sheltered--that one day he would have to launch out, steering in
search of the unknown future by himself. It was not the boldness, but
the loneliness of the adventure that now impressed him.

"Father."

"Yes." The voice came to him out of the darkness. "What does it feel
like to become a man?"

"Feel like, Peter! I don't understand."

"To have to--to have to fight for oneself?"

His father leant out and touched him. "Have you begun to think of that
already? Fight for yourself! You won't have to do that for a long while
yet."

"But----." Peter allowed himself to be drawn into the arms of the man
who had always stood between him and the world. "But when the time
comes, I don't want to fail like----," he was going to have said like
Uncle Waffles, but he said instead, "like some people." And then, after
a pause, "I feel so unprepared."

"We've all felt that way, sonny. Somehow we get the strength. You'll get
it."

Peter sighed contentedly. He was again in the nest with the
creeper-covered walls about him. The strained note had gone out of his
voice when he spoke now. "There's so much to learn. It seems so strange
to think that one day I'll have to grow up, like you, and marry, and
earn money, and have little boys and girls."

His father laughed huskily. "Very strange! Strange even to me,
Peter--and I've done it: And, d'you know, there are times when even a
man looks back and is surprised that he's grown up. He feels just what
you're feeling--the wonder of it. It seems only the other day that I
was as small as you are; and only the other day that I was frightened of
life and what it meant. Are you frightened?"

For answer Peter stood up. "Not so much frightened as puzzled."

His father rose and led him out from beneath the leaves, which crowded
above their heads. He pointed up past the roofs of houses. "We couldn't
see them under there," he said. "Every night they come to their places
and stand, shining. Some one sends them. Some one sent you and me,
Peter. We don't know why. There are people who sit always under
trees and never look up. They'll tell you that there aren't any stars
overhead. We're not like that. We know that whoever is careful enough
to hang lamps on the clouds, is careful enough to watch over us. So we
needn't be afraid of living, need we, old chap?"

Peter pressed his father's hand. "I'll try to remember."

That night, when the house was all silent, he crept out of bed. Leaning
from the open window, he looked down on London, stretching for miles and
miles, with its huddled roofs spread over its huddled personalities.
Why were things as they were? If some one lit lamps in the heavens and
followed each life with care, why did four women, who loved children,
sit forever with their arms empty, while one sang of the sweet fields
of Eden; and why did Uncle Waffles-----? The questions were unanswerable
and endless. And then, in defiant contrast, there came bounding into
his memory the courageous figure of the Faun Man, with his cavalier
attitudes and strong determination to make of life a laughing affair.
The night quickened; the ghostly feet of a little breeze tiptoed across
the tree-tops, causing their leaves to rustle. From the far distance,
the throb of belated traffic reached him like the beat of a muffled
drum. He heard London marching to the martial music of struggle; his
heart was stirred. Life was a fight--well, what of it? When his time
came, he must be ready. He looked again at the stars, remembering what
his father had said. One need not be frightened. And then he looked away
into the blackness; somewhere over there the houses ended and the wide
peace of the country commenced. Somewhere over there was Cherry.

He waited impatiently for his next half-holiday, when he would be free
to tricycle out. When he went, she was not in the Haunted Wood; nor the
next time, nor the next. He wanted to ask the Faun Man, but postponed
through shyness; he was afraid his secret would be guessed. He was
always hoping and hoping that he would find her behind the green wall
of leaves, where the little river ran. One afternoon, when tea was ended
and Kay and Harry had gone out, he asked, "Does the girl who broke your
pictures never come here now?"

The Faun Man looked up sharply and stared, trying to guess behind the
question.

"I wasn't very decent to you that day, was I? And I was beastly to her."

"I think she was sorry," said Peter softly. "I wish you'd let her----.
Does she never come here now?"

The Faun Man leant forward across the table, with his face between his
long brown hands. "Did you like her, Peter?"

"Yes."

"Very much?"

Peter lowered his eyes. "Very much."

When he dared to glance up, he found that the Faun Man wasn't laughing.
He reached out his hand to Peter. "You're young," he said. "Fifteen,
isn't it? Well, she's a year older. It's dangerous to like a girl very
much--especially a little wild thing like Cherry. I'm a man and I know,
because I, too, like some one very much; and it doesn't always make
me happy. You'll like heaps of girls, Peter, before you find the right
one." He felt that Peter's hand had grown smaller in his own and was
withdrawing. "You think it isn't true?" he questioned. "You think it
wasn't kind of me to say that? And you want to see her?" Peter gazed out
of the cottage window to where sunlight fell aslant the Haunted Wood.
Why should he want to see her more than anyone in the world? But he did.
And he knew that because he was so young, most people would consider
his desire absurd. But the Faun Man, who found so much to laugh at, was
regarding him seriously. "And you want to see her?"

Peter whispered, "Yes."

The Faun Man's eyes filmed over in that curious way they had. He said:
"I want you to trust me. There are reasons why you can't see her. I've
sent her away because I think that it's best. I can't tell you why or
where I've sent her; or what right I have to send her. But I want you to
know that I don't smile at you for liking her. It doesn't matter how old
or young we are; when love comes, it always hurts. And it seems just as
serious whether it comes late or early. But some day I'll let you see
her. To you at fifteen, some day seems very far from now. But if you
wait, and still think you care for her, I'll let you see her when the
time comes. I don't think we ought to speak of this again till then.
We'll keep it a secret which we never discuss; but we'll each remember.
Is that a bargain?"

Peter had no other choice than to accept. They shook hands.

Shortly after this Kay and Peter went away to a farm in North Wales
for their summer holidays. Their first intention on their return was to
visit the Faun Man and Harry. On going to the stable, they found that
the tricycle was no longer there. Their father was very mysterious and
unconcerned when they told him; evidently he knew what had happened.
"All right," he said, "just wait a day or two. You'll see--it'll come
back."

And one morning it did come back, ridden by a man with a face all
smudges, who presented a bill for payment. It had entirely transformed
itself, like a widow-lady who had been brisked up by an unexpected offer
of marriage. From a sober, old-fashioned tricycle it had taken on an
appearance almost modern and festive. Its handle-bars had been replated;
its framework re-enameled; its tall wheels cut down; its solid tires
removed and replaced by pneumatics. It sparkled in the sun, as though
defying butcher-boys to jeer at it. The man, with the face all smudges,
wheeled it through the stable into the garden; he left it beneath the
mulberry-tree, and there the children, on arriving home from school,
found it.

"Why, it's a new tricycle!"

Peter looked it over, "No, it isn't, Kitten Kay. It's the old one
altered."

Their mother, hearing their shouts, came out into the garden, nearly as
excited herself. They had visions of spinning out to the Happy Cottage
at the breakneck speed of eight miles an hour. While they clambered on
to it, examined it and spotted new improvements in the way of a lamp and
saddles, she explained to them how it had happened. "It's your father's
doing. He meant it as a surprise. He thought the old tires made it too
heavy, so----."

Kay interrupted. "Oh, Peter, do let's take it out on to the Terrace and
try it."

As they wheeled it down the gravel path between the geranium beds, they
chattered of how they would surprise Harry. But Harry was fated never
to see it. On the Terrace, when they had mounted, while their mother
watched them from the window, they found that everything was not well.
The man with the face all smudges had been wise in demanding his money
before his handiwork was tested. He had cut the wheels so low that,
where the road was uneven, the pedals bumped against the ground.
Life had, indeed, become serious for Peter; through his father's
well-intentioned kindness, his means of communication between reality
and fairyland had been annihilated. For a time it looked as though so
small an accident as the indiscreet remodeling of a tricycle had lost
for him forever the new friendships formed at the Happy Cottage.

But one evening a dinner was given by Mr. Barrington to a famous man
whose work he was anxious to publish. Kay and Peter were allowed to see
him after dessert.

The moment Peter's head appeared round the door the famous man rose up
and shouted, "Hulloa, young 'un, so at last I've found you! Where the
dickens have you been hiding?"

Mr. Barrington lay back in his chair, his arms hanging limp on either
side, the image of amazement. He heard his son explaining: "It was the
tandem trike. Father wanted to be kind to us and----. Well, after he'd
had it improved, it wouldn't work. And so, you see, there was no way of
getting to you."

The Faun Man spread out his long legs, laughing uproariously; until the
appearance of the children, he'd been most scrupulously conventional
and polite. "But, Peter, an immortal friendship like ours cut short by a
tandem trike! You little donkey, why didn't you write?"

Kay rose up in her brother's defence. "He isn't a little donkey. We
were all to be pretence people, don't you remember? We didn't know your
address."

The Faun Man stroked his chin and lengthened his face. "If you'd left
me alone much longer," he said, "you wouldn't have found me; I'm moving
into London."

Then their parents began to ask questions; the story of Friday Lane and
the mouth-organ boy came out.

That evening, after Lorenzo Arran had said good-by, he turned back to
his host, just as the door was closing.

"Oh, I say! One minute, Barrington. That matter we were discussing
yesterday--let's consider it settled."

Barrington watched the tall, lean figure go striding down the Terrace.
He was so taken up with watching, that he didn't know that Nan had
stolen up behind him until she touched his hand. He turned; his mouth
was crooked with amusement. "Did you hear that? He agrees--I'm to
publish for him. And it's Peter's doing. One never knows where that boy
won't turn up."

And Peter, snuggled cosily in bed, was wondering whether, now that he'd
found the Faun Man, he'd refind Cherry. He reflected that when life
could play such tricks on you, a lifetime of it wouldn't be half bad. He
was no longer frightened to remember that, whether he liked it or not,
he must grow up.




CHAPTER XXIX--A GOLDEN WORLD

And he refound her, when he had almost forgotten her. In those four
long years, which stretch like a magic ocean between the island of
boyhood and the misty coasts of early manhood, it is so easy to forget.
Those years, between fifteen and nineteen, are the longest in life,
perhaps.

They had been spent by Peter among books, watching, as in a wizard's
crystal, the dead world-builders at work; they had risen from their
graves in the dusk of his imagination, stretched themselves, gathered
strength and marched anew to the downfall of Troy and the conquest of
befabled empires. How real those poignant religions were, telling of
the loves of ruffianly gods for perishable earth-maidens--so real to him
that he had paid little heed to the present.

In his outward life nothing had much altered; things were called
by different names. They spoke of him as nearly a man now--servants
addressed him as "sir"; they had never doubted that he was a boy once.
Kay stood a few inches higher on her legs. Romance had retired from
active business, leaving to her children the unthankful task of having
kittens.

Just as Peter was said to be nearly a man and hadn't changed, so the
nursery was said to be his study, though it was almost the same in
appearance. A student's lamp had replaced the old gas-jet. Shelves,
which had held fairy-tale volumes in which truth was depicted with a
laughing countenance, now supported serious lexicons from which truth
stared out with austerity. But his study retained reminders of those
tremulous days when it was still a nursery, and hadn't grown up--when it
was the dreaming place of a girl whose arms were empty, in whose heart
had begun to echo the patter of tiny footsteps. The tall guard stood
before the fireplace, as though it feared that the long youth, who sat
continually poring over a book with his eyes shaded by his hand, might
shrink into the curly-headed urchin who hadn't known that live coals
burned. The laburnum still leant her arms upon the window-sill and
tap-tap-tapped, shedding her golden tassels; she gazed in upon him with
the same indiscretion as when he was a newcomer, with ungovernable arms
and legs, who had to be tubbed night and morning. And she saw the same
mother, who had sung him to sleep, peer in at the door on her way to
bed, tiptoe across the threshold, ruffle his hair and whisper, "Peter,
darling, you can't learn everything between now and morning. Won't you
get some rest?"

He had exchanged tandem tricycles for lexicons as a means of locomotion
to the land of adventure. His little sister could no longer accompany
him; but the desire for wisdom had left room for the heart of
tenderness. When his lamp shone solitary in the darkened house, he
would straighten his shoulders and listen, fancying he heard the angel's
whistle.

In four months he was going up to Oxford, to live in gray cloisters
where boys at once become men. His father shared his anticipation
generously. "You're going to recover my lost chances. Lucky chap!"

It was summer. He had risen early and sat by his study window reading
the Iliad. The house was full of lazy morning sounds--bath-water
running, breakfast being prepared, doors opening and shutting, footsteps
on the stairs. Outside in the garden the sun dropped golden balls, which
tumbled through the trees and rolled across the turf. Birds, hopping in
and out the rose-bushes, were industriously foraging. Tripping up the
gravel-path, with fresh-plucked flowers in her hands, he could see his
little sister, her gold hair blowing. A tap fell upon his door. A maid,
rustling in a starched dress, entered. "It's just come, Master Peter."

"For me? A telegram!"

He slit it open and read: "_At Henley with 'The Skylark! Can't you come
for Regatta? Cherry with me._"

Cherry with him! It was signed Lorenzo Arran. So he was keeping his
promise! But why should Cherry be with him? And where had she been
hiding all those long four years? So the Faun Man had taken his
houseboat to Henley! It would be rather jolly to join him; but, after
all, He ought to stick to his work. And this girl--did he want to see
her?

The maid was waiting. A telegram at Topbury was a rarity in these days.
It cost sixpence at the cheapest; therefore its use was restricted to
the announcement of the extremes of joy and sorrow--births, deaths and
financial losses. She showed relief when he looked up cheerily and said,
"Tell the boy no answer."

When she had gone he stood up, walked about the room excitedly and
halted by the window. He wouldn't go, of course; it would run his father
into expense. Then, again he read the words, "Cherry with me." It would
be amusing to see her. He began to wonder--did she know that the
Faun Man had sent for him? If she did----? His thoughts flew back across
the years: he was in the Haunted Wood. The little river was singing,
"Turn back, turn back, turn back." He refused to turn back, and
followed; suddenly, across the scrub-oak, he found himself gazing
into the gray eyes of a girl. It was the grayness of her eyes and the
whiteness of her feet that he remembered.

He leant over the table and closed the book with its unreal love-legends
of gods and goddesses. "By Jove, but I'd like to go," he said aloud.

The maid had spread the news of the unusual happening. As he entered
the breakfast-room all eyes examined him. They waited for him to be
communicative. At last his father said, "Had a telegram?"

Peter drew it from his pocket and passed it.

His father looked up. "'Cherry with me.' What does he mean by that?"

Peter raised his eyebrows, as much as to say "How can I tell?"

His father handed it back. "Are you going?"

"Costs money, and I've too much work."

It was the mention of work that roused his mother. She smiled gently,
and glanced down the table at her husband. "It would do him good,
Billy."

"Yes, it would do you good," his father said. "Why don't you go, old
chap?"

"Yes, why don't you go?" Kay echoed.

His things were quickly packed. In a flannel suit, with his straw hat
in his hand, he was saying good-by on the doorstep. His father bethought
him. "Here, wait a second, Peter; I'll walk with you to the end of
the Terrace." While walking he delivered his warning, "This man
Arran--personally I like him and I know he's your friend, but----. I've
nothing against him, but he's a queer fellow --clever as the dickens and
all that. The fact is, curious tales are told about him--all of them too
far-fetched to be true. You know the saying about no smoke without fire,
well----. It may be that he's only different; but he strikes people as
being fast and dangerous. Be careful; I'd trust you anywhere. Have a
good time. I've got it off my chest--my sermon's ended."

At the bottom of the Crescent, to his great relief, Peter found that
Cat's Meat's master was not on the stand. He wouldn't have hurt Mr.
Grace's feelings for the world. He was free to jump into a spanking
hansom. Cat's Meat may have seen him; but Cat's Meat couldn't tell.
Surely, at his age, he must have been glad to escape the long crawl to
Paddington. The younger horse in the hansom stepped out gaily, making
his hoofs ring smartly against the cobblestones. "Cherry, Cherry,
Cherry," they seemed to be saying. Taking short-cuts by side-roads, now
following gleaming tram-lines, now dashing through mean streets, past
public houses in plenty, they sped till they struck Paddington and drew
up in the glass-roofed station. And then the drifting motion of the
train and the unbelievable greenness of the country--the glimpses of
silver water, quiet meadows and cottages in which people were born and
died, and never traveled! And the holiday crowds on the platforms! The
girls in summer dresses--the superb cleanness and coolness of them, and
the happiness! It was exciting. The wheels beneath his carriage drummed
out one word, "Cherry, Cherry, Cherry." He didn't know even yet whether
he wanted to see her.

The train achieved the surprise of the century--it arrived early. He
examined the expectant faces of the people; neither Harry nor the Faun
Man was there. He refused to hang about; his legs ached to be moving.
Picking up his bag, he set out to walk, hoping he would meet them.

Streets were garish--flowers in gardens, foamy toilets of women, college
blazers and rowing colors, and, over all, swift white clouds and the
fiercely gleaming sun. From under wide river-hats girls laughed up into
men's tanned faces. Everyone was young or, because the world was golden,
seemed to be young. Peter wanted some one to laugh with. Walking down
the middle of the street, the crowd moved in pairs, a man and a woman
together, almost invariably. The old gray town, like Peter, looked
lonely in this hubbub of jostling love and merriment.

As he came in sight of the Catherine Wheel, a distant cheering
commenced. Feet moved faster. Men caught at women's arms, and women
caught up their dresses; the army of pleasure-seekers commenced to run.
Because Peter was by himself he forged ahead and found a place on the
bridge where people stood yelling and jammed, shoulder to shoulder. At
first he could make out hardly anything, because of the sea of hats and
backs in front of him. Then the crowd swayed; he took advantage of it
and found himself leaning over the crumbling stone balustrade, gazing
down on one of the most gallant sights in England. Through a steep bank
of posies, made up of river gardens, house-boats and human faces, ran a
silver thread. Approaching, with what seemed incredible slowness, were
two specks about the size of matches. As the sun caught them, one
saw the flash of blades, whipping the water with the regularity of
clockwork. Stealthily, with infinite labor, one stole ahead. The garden
of faces on either side of the silver thread trembled; a roar went up
which gathered volume as it drew from out the distance. Peter pressed
his lips against a man's ear--a complete stranger--and shouted, "What is
it?"

The man stared at him despisingly, "The Diamond Sculls. Roy Hardcastle
again the Australian." He turned away and paid Peter no more attention.

Peter, though not much wiser, at once became a partisan and screamed the
one name he knew, "Hardcastle! Hardcastle! Hardcastle!" till his throat
felt as if it had burst.

And now they were well in sight--two men with bent backs and arms that
worked like levers, each seated in a machine as narrow as a needle, with
long wooden legs which stuck out on either side, striding the water and
keeping the balance. They looked like human egg-beaters gone mad. The
river rose to its feet; the winning-post was nearing. The channel of
free water seemed to narrow as skiffs, gigs, punts, dingeys and every
kind of craft pressed closer to the booms which marked the course.

Something happened. Both men drooped inertly forward over trailing
sculls. It was dramatic, this immediate transition from frantic energy
to listless collapse. Hats were tossed up. Launches shrieked and
whistled. Everyone tried to make more noise than his neighbor, Peter
with the rest. "Well rowed. Well rowed, sir. Well rowed."

When the clamor had died down he turned to where the man had been
standing. "Who won?" And then, "Oh, I beg your pardon."

He was gazing into the amused face of a girl with gray eyes and
brown-black hair, that swept like a cloud across a Clear white forehead.

"Who won! Roy Hardcastle, of course. England's not beaten yet."

He wasn't thinking of England's honor; the race--it had never happened.
He was looking at her mouth. They called her Cherry, because her lips
were red.

She was going from him. How straight she was! How slender! Like a slim
spring flower--a narcissus, perhaps. He went after her and raised his
hat. "Forgive me for speaking to you. Just a minute before a man was
standing there, and---"

"That's all right," she said; "I understand."

Again she was on the point of leaving. He had to make certain. "Since
I've been so rude already, would you mind if I asked you one more
question?"

She looked him over casually and seemed more satisfied that she was
willing to admit to anyone but herself. "Not at all."

He straightened his necktie nervously. "Then, can you tell me where I'll
find _The Skylark?_ It's a house-boat belonging to Lorenzo Arran."

She laughed softly and stood with her eyes cast down, tapping the
pavement with her foot. He was sure now. She looked up. "Where have
I seen you? Somehow you're familiar. It's annoying; you knew me in a
flash."

"You're Cherry?"

"Only to a few of my dearest friends."

He glanced away from her. "You were Cherry to me once for about an hour;
you've been Cherry to me ever since then."

There was a long pause. "And yet I don't know you," she said. "You must
be the friend Mr. Arran was expecting down from London."

Peter nodded.

"He and Harry went to meet you. You must have missed each other at the
station. If you like, I'll show you the way to _The Skylark_; I'm going
there. They'll be wondering whether you've come. We'd better hurry."

"Oh, please not yet."

"But why not?" she asked, puzzled.

"Because I'm--I don't know. My pride's touched that you don't know me.
Would you think it awfully cheeky if I were to ask you to come and have
tea with me first?"

She opened her parasol, gaining time while she made her mind up; and
then, "I'm game. I haven't had much adventure lately. I'm just out of a
convent school in France."

He opened his eyes wide. "Ah, so that was it!"

They entered the Red Lion and walked through into the garden. They
ordered tea at a small table from which they could see the river.

"Why did you say that?" she asked.

"What did I say?"

"You said, 'Ah, so that was it!' You opened your mouth so wide when you
said it that I thought you'd gape your head off. When I was a little
girl in America we had a colored cook with a decapitating smile--it
nearly met at the back of her neck. Well, your 'Ah' was a decapitating
'Ah.' Now tell me?"

"Because I've waited four years to find out where you've been hiding."

"Four years!" She tried to think back.

He leant his elbows on the table, his face between his hands. "Seems a
long while, doesn't it? In four years one can grow up. Last time we were
together you made me a promise--you said we'd meet again often in the
same place. I went there and went there--you didn't keep your word."

She laughed. "I suppose it's a trifle too late to say I'm sorry. I don't
suppose you minded much." She waited for him to contradict that; when
he didn't she continued, "How much do you know about me? For instance,
what's my real name?"

He laughed in return. "You've got me there. All you told me was that
people called you Cherry, because your lips were red."

She sank her head between her shoulders; then she looked up flushing and
pursing her lips together, like a child who wants to extract a favor
by being loved. "Be a sportsman. You're awfully tantalizing. Give me a
pointer that'll help me to guess. You know, I ought to know who you are;
it isn't good form for a girl to take tea with a strange young man."

"Well," he said, speaking slowly, "do you remember a day when you
knocked down and walked over, oh, let's say about twenty photographs of
the same lady?"

"Do I remember!" She sniffed a little scornfully. "'Tisn't likely I'd
forget; that was why the Faun Man sent me to a convent."

She had said rather more than she intended. She was provoked with
herself and with Peter, for the moment, because he had drawn her out.
She twisted round on her chair, so that he could see only her shoulders.

Not realizing that he was being snubbed, he pushed the subject further,
"What an unfair punishment! That doesn't sound like the Faun Man. But,
perhaps, you liked it. What did you do at the convent?"

"Always praying," she answered, with her shoulders still toward him.
"And, look here, don't you say that the Faun Man was unfair. He wasn't.
He didn't send me away only for breaking his pictures." And then,
inconsequently, "If it wasn't too childish I'd go and smash them all
afresh."

Suddenly she swung round, "I know who you are. Hurray! You're Peter. You
see, I remember the name. Shall I give myself away and tell you why I
remember?"

"Do. Do," he urged.

The answer came promptly. "Because you paid me compliments. You thought
that God said to Himself when He made me, 'I'll make the most beautiful
person I've ever made.'--Hulloa! You don't like that. It wasn't quite
what you expected. What did you expect? Until you tell me I won't speak
to you."

Compelled by her silence, he confessed, "I did hope that you might have
remembered me for something--something more romantic. You see, we met in
the Haunted Wood, and there was the river, and you were going to drown
yourself. You'd taken off your shoes and stockings as a first step,
which was very economical of you. And I--I saw your feet, and----"

She waved her handkerchief at him, her eyes a-sparkle. "I know. I know.
Very pretty and very foolish!" She rose. "We ought to be going."

Outside the Red Lion, she turned toward the river; "I left my boat at
one of the landings."

When they had found it and he had helped her in, she said, "You can row,
I suppose? All right, then, I'll steer; you take the sculls."

They drifted down with the stream, the gray bridge, spanning the river,
growing more distant behind them; the wooded hills swimming up on every
side to form a green cup, against which the sky stooped its lips. They
floated by lazy craft, in which women lay back on cushions beneath
sunshades and men with bare arms clasped about their knees watched them.
Snatches of laughter reached them, to which the murmur of voices droned
an accompaniment. On green lawns, beneath dreaming garden trees, little
groups of brightly attired people clustered. From houseboats along the
river-bank stole music, one air creeping into another as they passed,
fashioning a medley--coon songs from America, Victorian ballads of
sentiment, a wild scrap of Dvorak and the latest impertinence from
London. Of all that they saw and heard, they alone were constant in the
shifting landscape.

"After four years!" she murmured.

He stopped rowing and gazed at her wonderingly, repeating her words,
"After four years!"

Then a familiar voice leapt out at them from a sky-blue house-boat,
with sky-blue curtains fluttering in the windows and a rim of scarlet
geraniums running round it in boxes. The voice lent the touch of humor
to their tenderness, which saves sentiment from sadness and makes it
ecstatic. It sang to the twinkling tones of a mandolin, struck sharply:

                   "Come, tickle me here;

                   For I ain't what you thought me--

                   I ain't so 'igh and so 'aughty, my dear.

                   But there's right times for lovin',

                   And cooin' and dovin',

                   And wrong ways of flirtin'

                   That's woundin' and hurtin'--

                   I'm a lydy, d'you hear?

                   But just under the neck,

                   Peck ever so softly--

                   I allow that, my dear.

                   Not my lips--you're too near.

                   Come along, lovey; come along, duckie;

                   Tickle me, tickle me here."




CHAPTER XXX--HALF IN LOVE

The Faun Man looked up from his writing. Peter had been with him on
_The Skylark_ for five days--five gorgeous days. He had found to his
surprise that the golden woman was of the party. So far as outward
appearances went, the picture-smashing incident might never have
happened; Cherry conducted herself as a good comrade and the golden
woman called her "dear." They had to act as friends, since the Faun Man
had taken rooms for them at the same hotel that they might chaperone
each other. The men slept on board the house-boat.

It was nearly six. The last of the Finals had been rowed; the Regatta
was ended. Far up the course one could still hear the distant cheering
from the lawn where prizes were being distributed. The most sensational
race of the afternoon had been the Diamond Sculls, in which Hardcastle
had won by a bare half-length. Peter still tingled with the madness
of the excitement, the splendid grit of the contested fight and the
wildness of the applause. He had seen a slight young hero lifted out of
his shell and carried shoulder-high; he wanted something like that to
happen to himself so that Cherry might approve of him. He had just come
from accompanying her back to The Red Lion; in an hour, when she had
changed for dinner, he was going to fetch her. He had one more night
before him--the gayest of them all, when the crews broke training, and
then----. How often would he see her again? The gray old town would
recover from its invasion, and settle back into routine and eventless
quiet. Would something similar happen to his life? Nevertheless, he had
one more night.

As he climbed aboard _The Skylark_ and entered, the Faun Man looked up.
"Peter, i'm tired of being respectable--I want to be vulgar."

Peter threw himself into a creaking wicker-chair. "That's not difficult;
it's chiefly a matter of clothes."

"And accent," the Faun Man added; "refined speech is the soap and water
of good manners."

Peter chuckled. "Then don't tub."

The Faun Man stood up and stretched himself. "I haven't. I've written
a love-lyric that never saw a nailbrush. It's called _The Belle of
Shoreditch_. When I've sung it to you I'll tell you why I wrote
it. Isn't this a ripping tune?" He tinkled it over; then sat down
crosslegged on the floor and commenced to drawl the words out:

               "My bloke's a moke

               And 'e cawn't tell me why;

               But the fust time 'e spoke

               'Twas no more than a sigh.

               Says I, 'Don't mind me; we'll soon be dead.'

               Says 'e, 'If yer dies, I'll break me 'ead.'

               Says I, 'Why not yer 'eart instead,

               Yer quaint old moke?'

               "For yer cawn't be 'appy when yer 'alf in love--!

               Yer must taik one road or the other;

               Yer can maike o' life an up'ill shove,

               Or marry a bloke wot ain't yer brother."

"Chorus, Peter. Pick it up."

The Faun Man nodded the time, swaying from the hips and rolling his
head.

"For yer cawn't be 'appy when yer 'alf in love."

He laid his mandolin aside. "Catchy, isn't it? There mayn't be much soap
about the dialect, but there's plenty of philosophy in the sense. More
than one person in this party is half in love. Take example from me,
Peter; don't make a fool of yourself."

Peter's face went red. He didn't think he'd been so obvious. To escape
further pursuit, he turned the corner rapidly, "When are you going to
start being vulgar?"

"Ah, yes!" The Faun Man came back. He struck a pose, his left hand
resting on his hip, his right beating against his breast. "To-night,"
he said. "To-night I lose my identity. I cease to be Lorenzo Arran and
become Bill Willow, with his performing troupe of eccentric minstrels.
I wear a red nose. My clothes might have been picked out of any
ash-barrel."

Peter interrupted. "From where do you get the eccentric minstrels?"

The Faun Man grabbed him by the shoulder, as though he feared he might
dash away when the full glory of the project was divulged. "My boy,
you're one of them. You operate upon a bun-bag folded over a hair-comb.
You wear--let me see? You wear a sheet, with holes cut in it for your
eyes and mouth. Your nose may remain incognito; I've seen better. In a
word, you play the ghost to my Hamlet."

"And Harry and the girls?"

The Faun Man passed his hand over his forehead and reflected. "Let me
see! Harry blacks his physiognomy; the mouth-organ disguises the rest of
him--it always does. And as for the girls--they hang their hair before
their faces and sing through it. Believe me, nothing alters a woman's
appearance so much as letting down her hair; that's why all divorces
occur after marriage. Now, with me it's different; I look my best in
bed. Of course I can't ask anyone to see me there--that's why I'm a
bachelor.--But to get back to vulgarity; we start to-night in a punt.
We'll wait till it's dusk, and we'll have lanterns. We'll collect money
for the private insane asylums of Alaska. I'll make a little speech
explaining our philanthropy. Young feller, Bill Willow and his minstrels
are going to make this Old Regatta rememberable for years to come."

"You mean it?"

The Faun Man grinned; all the boy in him was up.

"Peter, don't look so pop-eyed; of course I mean it--I mean it just as
truly as Martin Luther did when he said, 'Here I take my stand, because
I've got nowhere to sit down.' A profound utterance! I'm tired of
watching all these people spooning under trees, wearing Leander ties,
comparing their girls' eyes to the stars and being afraid to touch each
other. They're too much of ladies and gentlemen; even we are. To-night
I'm going to be a ruffian. Cut along and fetch the girls. I've got to
write another song and it's almost time for rehearsal."

"A dress rehearsal?"

"In spots," said the Faun Man.

When Peter broke the news to the golden woman she covered her face and
laughed through her hands. She had a trick of treating Cherry and Peter
like children, although she looked no more than twenty herself. She put
her arms round their shoulders, drawing their faces close together, on
either side of hers. She was so happy and beautiful it would have been
difficult not to love her. "My Loo-ard!" she said, "I'd do a skirt-dance
to-night if it wasn't for the water under the punt. I'm all against
getting wet, aren't you, Cherry?"

Peter looked knowing. "The first thing she'd do if she knew she was
going to drown, would be to take off her shoes and stockings."

The golden woman pinched the girl's cheek. "Hulloa! Secrets
already!--But I don't like Lorie's idea for disguising us. Let's see
what we can do with five minutes' shopping."

When they rowed up to _The Skylark_ they were met by a mysterious
silence. Lifting out their parcels, they tiptoed into the cabin. Harry
was bending over a table-cloth, with a tooth-brush in his hand and a
bottle of blacking at his elbow. The Faun Man was melting the bottoms of
candles and making them stick to the bottoms of empty jam-jars.

"What are you doing?"

They both looked up.

"I'm getting the illuminations ready," said the Faun Man.

"And I'm making our flag," said Harry, scrubbing hard at the
table-cloth. "Blacking's awful stuff; it's so smudgy." They crowded
round him to inspect his handiwork and read:

BILL WILLOW'S

IMPROMPTU TROUPE OF ECCENTRIC MINSTRELS

NO FUN WITHOUT FOLLY ENVY THE POOR MAD

The Faun Man affixed his last candle. "Now, then, you crazy people,
rehearsal's in five minutes. Let's fortify our tummies."

Behind the house-boat the sun was setting; in patches, where water lay
most still among rushes, the river shone blood-red. Sometimes, beneath
the window, they heard the dip of oars and a boat drifted past. They
were miles from reality, in a hushed and painted world. They had become
little children for the moment, though the Faun Man had called it "being
vulgar." They had become immensely serious over a thing which didn't
matter. There were the words of the songs to learn, and then the tunes.
After that there were the cretonnes to cut out and run together into
burlesque night-gowns, extremely ample so as to cover their proper
dresses. The golden woman had surprised a prim widow in Hart Street by
asking for "The ugliest materials you have in your shop." She had
met with success; no materials could have been uglier. One had a
straw-colored background, strewn with gigantic poppies; across another
floated, in a kind of sky-blue gravy, the unbarbered heads of bodyless
angels. The Faun Man and Peter, when their needles lost the thread,
gave up sewing and fastened theirs together with paper pins. And all the
while beneath the absurdity of it there was an atmosphere of tenderness,
as if folly had brought them all nearer. The Faun Man kept watching the
golden woman; and Cherry the Faun Man; and Peter, Cherry. As for Harry,
he was the only one whose eyes were free to take in everybody.

When night had fallen they slipped on their masks and stepped into the
punt. Harry took the pole and pushed off from _The Skylark_. The Faun
Man sat next to the golden woman, humming snatches of song beneath his
breath, to which he picked out an accompaniment on the mandolin. She lay
back gazing up at him.

Above a wooded knoll the moon rose, setting the river a-silver. Trees
knelt along the banks like cattle, stooping to drink. In the distance
the bridge leapt the chasm of darkness and lights of the town sprang
up. Like a fleet of dreams against green wharfs of fairyland, illumined
houseboats shone fantastic. Chains of lamps, strung through boughs of
gardens, gleamed like jewels on the throat of the dusk. The river sang
incoherently, in a voice that was half asleep. Peter slipped his hand
into Cherry's; her hand seemed quite unconscious of what he was doing.

And now they drew near to the crowd of pleasure-craft, which jostled one
another and beat the water like a run of salmon in shallows. Harry laid
aside the pole and took to the paddle. They lit their candles and flew
their heraldry. In their disguises no one would know them; with the
restraint of their identities lifted from them they scarcely recognized
themselves. The Faun Man gave the word; the punt was allowed to drift.
They all struck up:

                   "Go h'on away. Go h'on away.

                   Mind yer, I'm meanin' wot I say.

                   My 'air and 'at-pin's gone astray--

                   Stop yer messin'.

                   A pound a week yer earn yer say--

                   Oh, I don't fink!- Two bob a day's

                   More like. I loves yer. Yer can stay,

                   Yer bloomin' blessin'."

They tickled the people's fancy; they were so obviously out for a lark
and so evidently intended to have it. When "My bloke's a moke" was sung,
from bank to bank the chorus was taken up; even the strollers, hanging
over the bridge, caught the swing of it.

               "For yer cawn't be 'appy when yer 'alf in love--

               Yer must taik one road or the other;

               Yer can maike o' life an up'ill shove,

               Or marry a bloke wot ain't yer brother."

The Faun Man turned to the golden woman and addressed the words to her
shamelessly. He put his arm about her, and drew her head down against
his shoulder. Through the slits in her mask her eyes gleamed up. Peter,
watching, wondered why it was that she would only be kind to him in
fun; he had noticed that, when the Faun Man was in earnest, she never
responded.

They had been singing for an hour, pushed this way and that, too jammed
to attempt steering. Their punt had drifted near a house-boat, all
a-swing with lanterns and steep with flowers. Through the windows they
could see that a dinner had just ended; tall young men in evening dress
sprawled back in chairs. Corks were still popping.

The Faun Man whispered, "They're one of the crews breaking training.
What'll we give 'em? Oh, yes, this'll do. Tune up." So they tuned up:

                   "If yer gal ain't all yer thought 'er,

                   And for everyfing yer've bought 'er

                   She don't seem to care a 'appenny pot o' glue;

                   If she tells yer she won't miss yer,

                   And she doesn't want ter kiss yer,

                   Though yer've cuddled 'er from 'Ammersmif ter Kew;

                   If yer little side excurshiums

                   To lands of pink nasturtiums

                   Don't make 'er 'arf so soft as they make you,

                   Why, never be down'earted,

                   For that's the way love started--

                   Adam ended wery 'appy--and that's true."

The young men had come out. They were slightly unsteady; some of them
found difficulty in keeping their cigars in their mouths. They held one
another's arms and laughed loudly. Their faces were flushed and their
hair ruffled. But, for all that, because they were young and had done
their work gamely that afternoon, they seemed in keeping with the
atmosphere of carnival. A voice on the edge of the darkness shouted one
word, "Hardcastle." The crowd stood up in their boats, and commenced to
cheer. From the group of crewmen one tall fellow was pushed forward and
lifted on a chair. He looked slim as a girl in his evening-dress; his
thin, rather handsome face, wore a weak, inconsequential expression.
When the babel of voices had died down he spoke thickly and
hesitatingly. "Yes, I won. I dunno. Did I win? I can't remember. Suppose
I must have. One of you chaps tell me to-morrow.--Anyway, if I did win,
here's to the losers. Plucky devils!"

Cherry had been leaning forward; her mask had slipped aside in her
eagerness. Hardcastle saw her. He stared--made an effort to pull his
wits together. In a second he had jumped from the chair, had caught
her by the hand, was helping her aboard the house-boat. She held on
to Peter, laughing and dragging him after her. The others followed
reluctantly--after all, they were out for adventure.

As soon as he had entered the cabin, Hardcastle slipped his arms about
her and swung her up on to the table amid the clatter of breaking
glasses. "Sing, you little beauty. Sing something."

The Faun Man pushed his way forward; the matter was going beyond a
joke--his intention was to stop it. The golden woman clutched him,
"Don't make a row, Lorie, They don't know who we are. We've let
ourselves in for it; let's go through with it like sports."

Cherry seemed not at all offended; the spirit of bacchanalia possessed
her. Her usually pale face had a pretty flush. She stood tiptoe, her red
lips pouting, watching through the slits in her mask these fine young
animals whom the river had applauded. Her eyes came back to Hard-castle.
"I don't want to sing." It was like a shy child talking. "If you like,
I'll dance."

In a trice Hardcastle had lifted her again in his arms. To balance
herself she had to cling to his neck and shoulders. "Clear the table,"
he shouted.

With his free hand he commenced tugging at the cloth. Others helped him.
With a jangle and smash that could be heard across the river, silver,
glass and lighted candles were swept to the floor. He set her back on
the polished surface and ran to the piano in the corner, crying, "I'll
tickle the ivories--you dance."

With his head turned, he played and watched her. From the ruin she had
caught up a red rose and held it between her red lips by the stalk. Her
feet began to move, slowly at first--then wildly. She swayed and tossed,
glided stealthily, bent and shot upward like a dart. Her breath was
coming fast--all the while her gray eyes sought the man's who
watched her across his shoulder. The other men were infected by her
madness--they took hands and circled the table, singing whatever came
into their heads. To Peter it was torture. He thought that she knew it.
He guessed that she had done it on purpose. He had wearied her with his
respect He remembered one of the Faun Man's sayings, "No woman likes to
be respected; she prefers to be loved, even by a man whom she doesn't
want."

The piano stopped. Hardcastle leapt up. "Here, I want to see her."

"No. No," cried Cherry.

"I do, and I will," he retorted. He had stumbled against the table and
caught her by the knees; his hands were groping up to tear aside her
mask. An arm shot out; he staggered. Another blow struck him between the
eyes. He measured his length on the floor. Peter dragged Cherry to him,
pressing her against him. All was hubbub. The Faun Man and Harry were
on either side of him, forming a guard. Of a sudden the lights went
out--some one had knocked over the lamps. In the darkness the sound of
scuffling subsided. The Faun Man's voice was heard, saying, "Look here,
you chaps, that wasn't very decent of Hardcastle. He's drunk, so we'll
say no more about it. But you're gentlemen. Let us out. We're going."

As they stepped into the night, Cherry felt warm lips touch her
forehead. She heard protesting voices, and one which whispered, "You get
off with her. We'll follow." The punt stole out into the darkness of
the river. When she lifted her head from the cushions she found that
the ripples on the water were a-silver, and that a solitary figure was
seated in the stern, paddling.




CHAPTER XXXI--A NIGHT WITH THE MOON

He was taking her in the wrong direction. Why? To reach the Red Lion he
should have steered upstream. Far behind, chiseled out by the moonlight,
the town stood sharp against the star-strewn sky--sagging roofs,
twisted chimney-pots and tall spires. From its walls came the shouts
of roisterers and the sound of discordant singing, which broke off
abruptly, only to commence again more faintly.

She was inclined to be penitent. She was both annoyed and amused with
herself for what she had done. On the spur of the moment she was always
doing wild things like that to people she cared for--doing them that she
might measure their love by her power to hurt them. She wondered whether
he blamed her, and how long he would keep silent.

The river had become a pathway of ebony, inlaid with silver by the
moonlight. Along its banks illuminations smoldered, scorching red wounds
in the shadows. Here and there a candle flared, sank and died, like
a heart which had broken itself with longing. Craft drifted like logs
through the blackness. They seemed deserted, unpiloted; yet they bore
with them the sense of lips that whispered against other lips and of
hands that touched. "To-morrow!" everything seemed to say. "To-morrow!
But there is still to-night."

To-morrow lovers would have vanished. Faces, which in the past week one
had learnt to recognize, about which one had built up fancies, would be
seen no more. The haunting poignancy of parting was in the night, the
memory of things exquisite and unlasting.

And Peter, he couldn't understand what had happened to him. It seemed a
dream from which he was waking; he wanted to sleep again and recapture
the illusion. From the first he had recognized an atmosphere of danger
in her presence. She was so foreign to his experience; it was scarcely
likely that a friendship with her would lead to happiness. And yet he
could not do without her. On those sunlit mornings aboard _The Skylark_,
when he had opened his eyes to hear the river tapping, had looked out
of his window to see the breeze whipping the water and the plumed trees
nodding, there had been no rest in the day's gladness till he had heard
her tripping footsteps. She had crept into his blood. All past things
were unremembered--past ambitions and past loyalties. Every beauty
grouped itself about her. The grayness of her eyes drew his soul out.
The soft, slurring notes of her voice were for him the finest music. Had
he been offered the joy of one month with her, for which all the years
of his life should be forfeit, he would willingly have accepted. The
thought of marriage had already occurred to him. That he should be only
nineteen was a tragedy. Would she wait for him? With no more than a
week's acquaintance by which to judge he knew that she would wait for no
one. She was elusive--one moment a child, the next a woman. And she sat
there gazing at him through the shadows, her hands folded meekly on her
breast--a nunlike trick which she had learnt at the convent. It gave
her an appearance of piety, which the red defiance of her mouth and gray
challenge of her eyes negatived. She was the first woman he had loved.
He loved her uncalculatingly, with his soul and body, as a man loves but
once, when he is young.

They had passed _The Skylark_ and were nearing the island. All the other
boats were left behind. Her voice came to him throbbingly, like a
harp fingered softly. "You're disappointed in me. You'll often be
disappointed."

He could not bear that she should blame herself. He drew in his paddle.
"I'm not, only----"

"Only what? A man always says 'only' when he's trying to deceive
himself."

"Only, why did you do it?"

She didn't answer his question. How could she tell why? Because she was
young; because she knew that she was pretty. "You looked splendid,"
she said, "when you struck him." And then she mentioned the one thing
concerning which he, as a man, would have kept silent. "You kissed me,
Peter."

His blood quickened. Was she reproaching him or simply saying, "You love
me; we're alone together?" She was leaning forward now, looking away
from him, her throat resting against the back of her hand. He crept
toward her, knelt at her feet and pressed his lips against her dress.

Her eyes came back to him. "You'd better go away and forget me."

He slipped his arm about her body, drawing her to him. "Do you want me
to go away--to go out of your life forever?"

"No." The word was whispered and slowly uttered. She touched him gently,
patting his hand. "Peter, I'm not your sort. You know that."

"But you are my sort, or else how could I feel--feel what I am feeling?
You'll learn to love me, Cherry."

She took it without a tremor, this declaration which had cost him such
effort. She shook her head. "The Faun Man tells Eve that every time
they're together. I wonder how many men have said it. Love comes in an
instant. You can't learn it."

"But why not?"

She bent over him like a mother. Her mouth was rounded; no wonder they
called her Cherry. She was adorable in compassion. "You don't know me.
I'm not at all what you think. Ask the Faun Man. Don't you remember at
the Happy Cottage? It wasn't for breaking his pictures that he sent me
to the convent."

"But I'll make you love me," he insisted. "You don't know what I'd do
for you. I'd die for you, Cherry. There's nothing about you that I don't
worship. You're so long and sweet--and------" He laid his face against
her cold, white cheek and caught his breath. She was like marble; he
could feel no stir in her--and his every nerve was throbbing. "Don't you
like to be loved?"

She seemed to marvel at his passion, as if it were a thing which she did
not understand, by which she was puzzled. Oddly, to his way of thinking,
she showed no terror of him. Her eyes dwelt on him with clear and kindly
interest. "Every girl likes to be loved. But that's different. I don't
think you'll ever teach me, Peter. And yet----. Hadn't we better be
getting back?"

"Oh, not yet." He felt that he was going to lose her--lose her forever.
Surely, surely he could rouse her to a sense of the poetry and drama
which was burning in his blood. It was impossible that she should not
feel it. She had been sleeping, as he had been sleeping, letting love
go by with its banners and drums. "Oh, not yet," he pleaded; "all these
years we've lived--we've hardly ever been together."

She broke the suspense by laughing. "What's your favorite hymn, Peter?"

He was puzzled. "Haven't got one. Never thought about it. What makes you
ask?"

She wriggled her shoulders. "Because mine's 'Yield not to temptation.'"

He didn't catch the significance of her remark. She saw that. "Still
a little boy, aren't you? A little boy of nineteen, who thinks he's in
love. There are heaps of other girls in the world.--Yes, I'll come."

He piled the cushions for her; then took the paddle and seated himself
so he could face her. Their conversation was carried on by fits and
starts, with long pauses.

"He was a beast." She spoke reflectively.

"Who was?"

"Hardcastle."

"But I thought--I was afraid you liked him."

She trailed her hand in the black water, watching how it slipped through
her fingers. "I did like him for the moment. That proves I'm not nice.
Women often like men who are beasts."

"But you don't like him now?"

She teased him, keeping him waiting. "I'm glad you struck him."

Presently she said, "Peter, I've been thinking, why can't we have good
times together? We could be friends and--nothing serious, but more than
exactly friends. Lots of girls do it."

Peter stopped paddling. "I should have to love you. I should be always
hoping that----"

"Then it wouldn't be fair to you," she said.

He had been silent for some minutes. "Where did you learn so much about
men? I know nothing about women."

"Where did I learn?" she laughed. "Girls know without learning. Until
to-night no man ever kissed me--not the way you kissed me. So you
needn't be jealous."

The punt nosed its way among rushes and came to rest. He crouched
against her feet, holding her hands, trembling at her nearness. The deep
stillness of the night enfolded them. Reeds stood up tall on every
side, shutting out the world. Above their heads a flock of fleecy clouds
wandered, with unseen shepherds swinging stars for lanterns. The man in
the moon looked out of his window with a tolerant smile on his mouth.
She lay against the cushions, white and impassive, her long, fine throat
stretched back.

"Peter," she said, "look up there; those clouds, they don't know where
they're going. Someone's driving them from one world to another, like
sheep to pasture. We're like that; someone's driving us--and we
don't know where we're going." And then, "You love me, with all your
heart--yes, I believe that; and I--I love someone else. We each love
someone who doesn't care; and I have to let you do it--I, who know the
pain of it. Poor Peter, what a pity God didn't make us so that we could
love each other."

And again, "I don't know any man in the world with whom I'd trust myself
to do what we're doing. Oh, I don't want to hurt you, Peter. If ever I
should hurt you, you'll remember?"

He couldn't speak--didn't want to speak. He and she were awake and
together, while all the world slept--that was sufficient.

How still it was! He could hear the soft intake of her breath and the
rustle of her dress. "So this is love!" he kept saying to himself. It
wasn't at all what he had expected. It wasn't a wild rush of words and
an eager clutching of hands. It wasn't an extravagance of actions and
language. It was just tenderness. He unbent her fingers, marveling at
their frailness. He pressed the palm of her hand against his mouth. He
felt like a little child as he sat beside this silent girl.

Cherry lifted herself on the cushions. She gave him both her hands.

"What is it?"

She seemed afraid. When she spoke, her voice trembled. "When two people
are married, is it always one who allows and one who loves? You don't
know; you can't tell me. If both don't love it must be terrible. I
couldn't bear only to give everything; and only to take everything, that
would be worse. Oh, Peter, I have to tell you. It was like that with my
mother. She couldn't give everything to my father, and then--she found
someone else. My father worshiped her--just as you'd worship me, Peter;
when he knew that she was going away from him he--he kept her." She
covered her face. "He was hanged for it. And that's why the Faun
Man----. He was his friend. Oh, I'm afraid of myself; I almost wish we'd
never met."

He held her to him; she was shaken with sobbing. Suddenly he recalled
how he had first seen her, rushing out of the Happy Cottage, with her
brown-black hair tumbled about her white face and her gray eyes wide
with tragedy. She was so wilful, and she so needed protection.

"Cherry, Cherry. Don't be frightened. Don't cry, dear. I love you.
Nothing like that could ever happen to us."

She stared at him. "Nothing like that could ever happen! I expect they
said that."

_They! They!_ And was it they who had called her Cherry, because her
lips were red?

Her eyes closed. Her lashes were wet; beneath them were shadows.
He gazed on her, clasping her to him tenderly, as though she were a
bewildered bird which had flown blindly into his breast. Her breath came
softly. He thought her sleeping and kissed her mouth; her hand sought
his and lay there trustingly.

What pictures he had of her! He saw her dancing before the flushed and
foolish faces of those men; he saw her as he had met her on the bridge
in her cool, blowy summer dress; he saw her in the Haunted Wood, where
the little river ran, bidding him turn back. Because of what she had
just told him, he felt that he had never loved her until now.

Like a counterpane tucking in the sleepy stars, the mist of dawn crept
up. Near into the bank, behind the wall of rushes, a moor-hen was
splashing. The countryside whispered with creature sounds. A bird was
calling. How long had it been calling? An owl flew over his head, in
haste to keep pace with the retreat of darkness. Along the east, above
the spears of the reeds, a little redness spread. A thrush tried over
a few staves. Before he had burst in song a perky blackbird was piping
valiantly. The fields fluttered, as though a messenger ran through them,
telling wild-flowers to raise their heads. The east smoldered higher;
conflagration smoked sideways and upward. A door opened in a cloud;
the sun stepped out. Like the unhurried crash of an orchestra the
world shouted. It happened every morning while men slept. It was
stupendous--appalling.

How white she was! He bent over her. Her eyes opened. She gave his arm
a little hug. "Were you kissing me, Peter? You mustn't, mustn't love me
like that."

Ah, mustn't! It was too late to forbid him. The insanity of the night
was all forgotten; only its sweetness was left. From his window the man
in the moon looked down; his mouth seemed to droop at the corners. He
would watch for them next night, and they would not come. He might never
know the end of their story. He was despondent; he had to go to bed.

Peter was chafing her hands.

"How good you are!"

"Not good. Only in love."

And she, "I dreamt of you. We were in the Haunted Wood. My feet were
bare, and----"

He held her eyes earnestly. "I wish I had been there. All these years
it was the grayness of your eyes and--and something else that I
remembered."

"What else? No, tell me."

"The whiteness of your feet," he whispered.

Again they were in fairyland. Yellow as a topaz set in turquoise the
sun stood free in the heavens. Inhabitants of the fearless morning
went busily about their tasks. Clear as a mirror, through the perfumed
stillness of meadows the river ran. Mists curled from ofif its surface
and hung white in tree-tops. Within hand-stretch fish leapt; peering
over the side of the punt, they could follow their retreat through
waving weeds and black willow-stumps. Only a magpie noticed their
passage and became interested, fluttering from bough to bough and asking
them, "What d'you want? What d'you want?" Dragon-flies ventured forth
as the sun's heat strengthened; butterflies and the teeming insect world
rose out of water-lilies and foxgloves--out of the destructible homes
which Nature builds for their brief and perishable existence. He and
she, drifting through the golden quiet with clasped hands, seized their
moment unquestioningly, and were thankful for it.

Ahead they saw swans; then cattle wading knee-deep. Rounding a bend,
they came in sight of a trellised garden, with green tables set out on
a close-cut lawn. Boats swung idly in the stream, tethered to a landing.
In the background was a thatched house, from whose chimney smoke waved
back in a thin plume. When they came near enough they made out a white
post, with a sign swinging from it. On the sign was depicted a brown
bird, fluttering its wings in a golden cage; painted over it were the
words, _The Winged Thrush._ In lifting their eyes to read the sign they
caught sight of the faint moon, weakly smiling, as though saying, "I've
got to go. They won't let me stay. Goodbye, and good luck."

They landed, leaving their foolish disguises in the punt. Through the
dew-drenched wistfulness of summer roses they approached the inn, and
entered. The room was strewn with sawdust, and stale with the smell
of beer and tobacco. An ostler-like person, with a full-blown face and
little blue pig's eyes, met them. They asked for breakfast. He knew his
business well enough to suggest that missie would prefer to have it in
an arbor.

While they ate he hovered round them, continually inventing excuses to
interrupt their privacy. He reminded them of the magpie in his frank
display of curiosity. He informed them that trade was wery bad. He'd
'arf a mind to try 'is luck in Australy. If it weren't for the young
bloods from Henley, he'd 'ardly take a 'appeny from month to month.
Did they know of anyone, an artist chap for h'instance, who'd like to
combine pleasure with business by tryin' his 'and at runnin' a nice pub?
An artist chap could paint that bloomin' bird out, and call the place
The White Hart or somethin' h'attractive. Whoever 'eard of an inn payin'
which was called The Winged Thrush? People didn't want their meals
messed about by a bloomin' poet. Not but what the sitiyation was so
pleasant that he'd tried to write poetry 'isself--love-poetry for the
most part. His verses allaws came to 'im when 'e were groomin' the
'orses. If things didn't brisk up, 'e'd give Australy a chance, as 'e'd
many times promised.

At last he left them. Cherry gazed out dreamily across the river.
"I wonder, is it true that one has always to pay with sorrow for
happiness?"

Peter shivered. How old she could be when she chose to borrow other
people's disillusions! He tried to restore her to cheerfulness. "What a
pagan notion! It's the old idea of the gods being jealous. You shouldn't
think such thoughts."

"But happiness does bring sorrow," she insisted. "We shall have to pay
for this to-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow."

Her voice trailed off, giving him a vision of all the tomorrows when he
would be without her. And he wasn't sure of her. She had told him
that she didn't love him. He drew her closer. "But a sorrow's crown of
sorrows is to have no happier things to remember--to be old and never to
have been young, to be lonely and never to have been loved. You mournful
little person, do you think you'd be any happier because you'd never
known happiness?"

"I don't know." She shrugged her shoulders with a touch of defiance.
"I'm not clever; I can't argue." Then, her face clearing as suddenly as
it had clouded, "I can't think why you like me, Peter."

He laughed gladly. "And I can't tell you, Cherry. It's as though I'd
waited for you always, without knowing for whom I was waiting. I was a
kind of winged thrush in a golden cage; but you've opened the door, now
you've come." His explanation wasn't sufficient. She snuggled her chin
against the back of her hand and watched him seriously, as though she
suspected him of hiding something. "But what is it that you like most
about me?"

He tried to discover; he dug back into his own sensations. What was it
that he liked most about her? For the life of him he couldn't put it
into language. Then he thought he might find out by examining the white
face, with the red lips and tragic eyes, of the girl-woman who had asked
the question. What an uncanny faculty she had for stillness! A sunbeam,
falling from the leaves above, crept up her slender throat and nestled
in her hair.

He shook his head. "It's just you, Cherry. Your voice, your eyes, the
way you walk, the way you try to be sad. It's just you and your
sweetness, Cherry. I think if I didn't love you so much I could say it
better."

She stood up. "You poor boy, you've said it well enough. I wish I could
feel like that.--And now we should be going." They had stepped outside
the arbor; they halted at the sound of voices. Coming round the bend
was a scratch eight, the oars striking the water raggedly. The men were
joking and laughing; the cox, a pipe hanging from his mouth, was urging
them to spurt with humorous insults. Having landed, they tumbled
into their sweaters and came strolling through the garden. They were
discussing the previous night in careless voices.

"Did you hear about Hardcastle?--When he isn't in training he's always
like that. Ugh! At six o'clock a hero--by midnight a swine you wouldn't
care to touch."

The voices passed out of earshot.

Cherry turned to Peter, "And I let him touch me. I'd have known by
instinct if I'd been nice. Oh, Peter, you mustn't love me."

When he attempted to kiss her she refused to allow it, saying, "I'm not
your sort."

Paddling back between flowering banks, where trees cast deep shadows
and birds sang full-throatedly, she again became tender. "Life's just
a yesterday, Peter--a continual bidding good-bye and coming back from
pleasures."

Her sadness hurt him. She knew it; she told herself that it would always
hurt him. He didn't want ever to say good-bye to her. And she, she felt
sure that their comradeship would be always finding a new ending.

"Cherry, darling," he reproached her, "don't go in search of
unhappiness. Life's a to-morrow as well as a yesterday; it's full of
splendid things--things which aren't expected. We've all the to-morrows
before us."

She trailed her hand in the water, snatching at the lilies, as if by an
effort so slight she could delay their progress and prolong the present.
She didn't lift her eyes when she whispered, "I was thinking of that--of
all the to-morrows before us."

Again her words brought a vision of the long road of future days, down
which he would walk without her. There was nothing to be said. Surely
she would learn to love him! Reluctantly he paddled forward to their
place of parting.




CHAPTER XXXII--IF YOU WON'T COME TO HEAVEN, THEN----

The train swung down the shining rails and rumbled into Paddington.
Passengers pulled down their parcels from the racks, jumped out and
disappeared in the crowd. Peter sat on. This carriage at least had known
her; she had looked in through its window and had waved her hand. Out
there in the stone-paved wilderness of London there was nothing they had
shared.

A porter looked in at the door. "Train don't go no further, sir. Lend
you a 'and? Want a keb?"

In the cab, Peter closed his eyes, shutting out the cheerful grime
of streets, the nipped impertinence of Cockney faces, the monotonous
anonymity of the ceaseless procession--the stench of this vast human
stable where lives were stalled and broken. He was trying to get back to
green banks, to a river molten in the sunset, and to a redlipped girl.

Was she thinking of him? If they thought of one another at the same
moment, could their thoughts meet and interchange?--But she didn't love
him. Oh, the things he had left unsaid--the things he would say to
make her love him now, if she sat beside him!--She had spoken
truly--happiness had to be paid for with sorrow. His share of the paying
had commenced, and hers----? Would she dodge payment by forgetting? The
law of change was cruel; it diminished all things, even the most sacred,
to mere incidents in a passing pageant. A pigmy charioteer, with the
futile hands of imagination, he was making the old foolish endeavor to
rein in Time's stallions.

He pictured himself as painted on a frieze with her in the moment of
their supreme elation--the moment when attainment had been certain,
just before it was realized. The frieze should represent a meadow in
the early morning, a river with mists rising from off it, and a boy,
stooping his lips over the naked feet of a girl. Someone else had
uttered the same fancy:

               "Fair Youth, beneath the trees, thou canst not leave

               Thy song, nor ever can those trees be bare;

               Bold lover, never, never canst thou kiss,

               Though winning near the goal--yet do not grieve!

               She cannot fade-"

_She cannot fade_. Already it seemed that the sharp edges of his
memories were lost to him. How was it that her face lit up? How did
her voice shudder and slur from sudden piping notes into tenderness?
How----? Things grew vague--he had meant to treasure them so poignantly.
Like a dream from which, against his will, he was waking, Illusion
gathered in her skirts from his clutching hands, growing faint against
the background of reality.

The waking had commenced before he left Henley. On his return to _The
Skylark_ he had found a note waiting him. It had been forwarded from
Topbury. His name and address were printed, evidently to disguise the
hand of the sender. Inside, on a half sheet of note-paper, was scrawled:

"_For God's sake meet me. Seven o'clock at the bottom of the Crescent.
I'm lonely."_

It was signed with the initials, O. W.

So he was out of jail! Looking at the date of the postmark, Peter had
discovered that for two nights the man who was lonely had waited. In the
four and a half years since he had vanished from the living world his
name had been scarcely mentioned. At Topbury the effort had been made to
blot out disgrace by forgetting. Jehane, when she had left Sandport,
had purposely dropped her old acquaintance and had passed among recent
friends as a widow. The fiction had been so earnestly cultivated that
it had seemed almost true that Ocky Waffles was dead--true even to Peter
and Glory. Now, like the remembered tragedy about a death-bed, when the
hands had been long since folded, flowers placed upon the breast and
the coffin carried out, the dead man had come back to die afresh. To say
that Peter resented his return would be an exaggeration. But he shrank
from the intrusion of the sordid past upon the golden poetry of
the present--shrank from it as he would shrink from meeting someone
hideously marred in a gay spring woodland.

The cab wheels caught in the tram-lines and jerked him into
consciousness of his whereabouts. They had turned into the High Street.
In three minutes they would be at Topbury Cock, and then----. Already in
the distance he could see where the plane-trees in the Fields commenced.
What should he do if his uncle were standing there? His father's house?
No. He raised the trap in the roof. "When you come to the bottom of the
Crescent walk your horse. Understand?"

Shops were closing. Girls and men were pouring out on to the pavement,
meeting with a quick flash of eyes and strolling away together. Some of
them boarded trams, going up to Highgate to breathe the evening air. The
sun was setting.

The horse slowed down. At the corner a crowd was gathered about a band.
People were singing. Peter caught the words:

                   "If you won't come to Heaven

                   Then you'll have to go to Hell;

                   For the Devil he is waiting,

                   But with Jesus all is well.

                   Though your sins be as scarlet,

                   He will wash them in His blood;

                   So hurry up to Jesus

                   And He'll make you good.

                   Hallelujah!"

Grace was standing in the middle of the circle banging on her drum, her
mouth wide open in her big poke-bonnet. On the cab-stand, lolling on his
box, pretending to be half asleep, sat Mr. Grace. His daughter's eyes
were on him.

Peter scanned the crowd. It was composed of idlers, onlookers and
scoffers, with a sprinkling of converts. The converts were noticeable by
their pale, indignant enthusiasm.

At first he saw no one who attracted his attention, and then----. A
man with dejected shoulders was crouching in the gateway of a house. He
seemed to be trying to be unobserved. His clothes were shabby--out of
fashion. His linen was soiled. It was the dirty white spats above his
unshone boots that made Peter notice. He told the cabby to wait for him.

He walked by the man once. In passing he noted the total slovenliness of
his appearance, the unkempt hands, the defeated air and the hat jammed
down to hide the close-cropped hair. He turned back and was repassing.
Like a whipped dog the man raised his eyes; then instantly lowered them.
Peter held out his hand; his throat was too choked to say anything. The
man seemed about to take it; then slunk back.

"You don't want to know me."

"I do. If I hadn't, I shouldn't have come. I'm----I'm awfully sorry."

"If you won't come to Heaven, then you'll have to go to hell," sang
Grace and her followers; it sounded as though they were passing
sentence.

To the driver's amazement, Peter helped him into the hansom. "Trot us
round for an hour or two," he said.

"If you won't come to Heaven, then you'll have to go to hell." The
singing hurled itself after them--seemed to be running and to grow out
of breath as they drew into the distance.

They set off through Holloway. They reached the foot of Highgate Hill
and had not spoken. Ahead blazed the dome of St. Joseph's, catching the
redness of the sinking sun. The cabby asked for further instructions.
"Go up the hill and out to Hampstead."

Waterlow Park brought a breath of country; children were laughing and
playing there. The sternness of the city, like the brutality of just
judgments, was dropping away behind them. Streets took on a village
aspect. Over to the left, within sound of the living children, lay the
stone-garden where little Philip rested. The horse clambered slowly to
the top of the ascent.

Peter touched the knee of the man beside him. "I'm glad you sent for me.
It's--it's a long time since we met. I mean--what I mean to say is, you
might have forgotten me. I'm glad you didn't."

"A long time since we met!" The dull eyes stared at him as lifelessly as
through a pair of smoked glasses. "I've been buried. They'd better have
dug a hole for me."

The man paused and looked from side to side stealthily. He had the
hoarse prison voice which whispered and cracked. It was painful to
see how he cringed and shrank. He pulled himself together and laughed
huskily. "They didn't let us speak in there." He spoke reflectively, as
if to himself. "Silent for more than four years! Strange to be back!"

They were bowling down a smooth road. To the right were cricket-fields
and boys at the nets. Across the blue stillness of evening came the
sharp "click" of balls against bats.

"So this is Uncle Waffles! So this is Uncle Waffles!" Peter kept saying
to himself. His thoughts searched back, trying to trace a resemblance
between the irrepressible, joking companion of his childhood and this
mutilated scrap of humanity. The low-pitched voice crawled on like the
sound of dragging footsteps. "I couldn't have done anything bad enough
to deserve that. If I'd only known that someone outside was caring.
There were no letters, no--no anything. Just to get up in the morning
and to work, and then to go back to bed. Sundays were the worst--there
wasn't any work.--And then they opened the gates and shoved me out. I
couldn't think of anyone but you, Peter."

Peter made an attempt to cheer him. "You could have thought of someone
else."

The man shook his head.

"Oh, yes, but you could. There was Glory."

"Glory!" He showed no animation. "She's eighteen, isn't she? No, Glory
wouldn't care. But Jehane, how is she?"

Peter had feared that question. "She's well."

The man looked away. "She won't want to see me. She never loved me.
D'you think she'd let me see her, Peter?"

"I'm afraid--afraid she wouldn't. She's thinking of Eustace, and Moggs
and Riska. But Glory--I'm sure Glory-----"

"Ah, Glory! She's forgotten me. And Jehane, she never thought of me; it
was always of the children."

His voice fell slack with utter hopelessness. Peter remembered Cherry's
words, "It's always one who allows and one who loves." Jehane hadn't
even allowed; the ruin at his side was her handiwork.

The hansom halted. Hampstead Heath was all about them, falling away
in gorse and bracken and yellow earth. A little farther on was the
Flagstaff Pond. Toy yachts were scudding across it; excited boys ran
round its edges to retrim their sails and send their craft on fresh
adventures. A dog jumped into the water, barking; they could see his
head bobbing as he swam. To their left, between the trees of the Vale
of Heath, London lay like a sunken rock with the surf of smoke breaking
over it.

The cabby spoke, "Look 'ere, young gentleman, my 'orse is tired. H'I've
got to be gettin' back. 'Ow abart a rest at The Spaniards?"

They returned over the way they had come. The tall firs of the Seven
Sisters stood up black and weather-beaten before them. In the yard of
The Spaniards they stepped out. The cabby climbed down and began to
unharness. Behind his hand he said to Peter, "Rum old party you've got
there, mister." And then, glancing up at the labels on the bag, "Been to
'Enley, 'av'n't yer? 'Ad luck?"

At the bar Peter ordered supper in a private room. He noticed that, when
they had sat down, his uncle still kept his hat on. When he reminded him
of it his uncle glanced at the door furtively and whispered, "Daren't
take it off. They may guess."

He fell upon his food ravenously. In his eating, as in his way of
talking, there was something inhuman, something--yes, lonely was the
word. Slowly it was coming home to Peter that through all these years,
while he had been housed, and safeguarded, and attended with affection,
this man had been used like an animal. He was repelled and filled with
compassion. He wanted to escape; he was unmanned.

The dusk was falling. "I'll be back in a moment. Order what you like,"
he said.

In the fragile darkness he clenched his hands. Last night he had been so
happy! How had he dared to be happy? He recalled the jolly buffoonery of
Henley--the songs they had sung, the swaying of lanterns, the swan-like
gliding of punts, the muffled laughter, the hint of stolen kisses. And
all the while this man had been lonely; and his chief fault had been the
fault of others--that he had not been allowed to love.

Peter found himself walking across the Heath, following no path. Now and
then the rough ground tripped him and he stumbled. He couldn't bear
the reproach of that--that thing that had once been a man, that had no
courage left to accuse anybody. Peter felt as though he himself were
responsible, as though he had done it. He lifted his eyes to the stars.
Indifferent and placid, stretched out on the blue-black couch of heaven,
they stared back at him and told him cantingly:

                   "God's in His Heaven,

                   All's right with the world."

He shook his fist at them. That was the trouble. God was too much in His
Heaven. He felt that he could never again be happy.

The image of Cherry grew up--Cherry with her red mouth. God had made
her, as well. He unclenched his hands and stood puzzled. God had made
her, as well! The golden panes of the inn shone and winked at him; he
retraced his steps.

The man still wore his hat, but----. Alcohol had changed him from a
thing limp and hopeless into Ocky Waffles. As Peter entered he staggered
to his feet with both hands held out.

"Why, if it isn't the ha'penny marvel. God bless me, how he's grown.
Quite a man, Peter! Quite a man!" He put his lips against Peter's ear.
"Mustn't tell anybody. They wouldn't understand. Have to keep it on."
He pointed to his hat. "Been away for a rest cure--you and I know where.
Had brain fever. Had to cut my hair. It isn't pretty." Then, in a lower
voice, "Mustn't tell anybody. You won't split on me?"

For the first time Peter was delighted to find his uncle drunk. He
assured him that he wouldn't split on him.

"Shake hands, old son; it's a compack. Cur'ous! Here's all this great
world and only I and you know about it. Makes me laugh. Our little joke,
isn't it?"

Peter took the whisky bottle from him. "You don't want any more of
that."

The trembling hand groped after it; the weak mouth quivered. "Just to
forget. Just to make me forget. Don't be hard on poor old Ocky Waffles.
Everyone's been hard on Ocky Waffles."

For a moment Peter wavered; then poured an inch more of liquid courage
into the empty glass. "That's the last for to-night; we've got to plan
for your future."

"My future!" Ocky Waffles twisted his unwaxed mustaches and spread his
arms across the table. "My future! Oh, yes. I've got a great future."

Peter tapped him on the hand. "Not a great future; but a future. There
are two people who care for you. That's something."

"Two people? There's you, but don't count me in on it. This little boy
isn't very fond of himself."

"There's me and there's Glory."

"Glory!" Ocky Waffles smiled grimly. Then he seemed ashamed of himself
and repeated in an incredulous whisper, "Glory!"

"She cares more than I do," Peter said. "She and I and you, all working
together--do you understand?--she and I and you are going to make you
well. We're going to show everybody that you're a strong, good man; and
we're going to work in secret until we can prove it."

"A strong, good man!" The subject of this wonderful experiment looked
down at himself contemptuously. "A strong, good man, I think you said.
Likely, isn't it? I've started by getting drunk."

With sudden loathing and concentrated will power he swept the glass of
whisky from him. It fell to the floor with a crash. He had become sober
and rose to his feet solemnly. "Not a strong, good man. I could have
been once. I'm a jail-bird. I've got my memories. My memories!--Good
God, I wouldn't tell you! You're young. I can only try to be decent now,
if that's enough. And--and I'd like to try, Peter, if you'll help me."

As they drove back to Topbury the fumes of the drink overcame him. He
fell asleep with his head rolling against Peter's shoulder. Even in his
sleep he seemed to remember his shame, and how he must keep it hidden
from the world. His hand kept traveling to his hat, when a jerk of the
cab threatened to remove it.

What to do with him! As the night fled by him Peter planned. No one
but Peter would have thought out a plan so humanely idiotic. The silver
moonlight fell between clumped trees and flooded all the meadows. Houses
became more frequent. Above the trotting of the horse the grumble of
traffic was heard. They were descending High-gate Hill; Peter put his
arm about his companion to prevent his slipping forward. He stirred and
muttered, "Poor old Ocky! Too bad! Too bad, going and getting drunk!
Just out of prison and all that."

Peter bit his lips and drew his brows together. Life--how strange it
was! How slender, and fierce, and pantherlike and cruel! And yet how
beautiful at times and splendid! Who could foresee anything? Last night
he and the same moon had gazed on romance--to-night on disillusion. At
the bottom of the hill lay London, like an immense quarry, tunneled,
lamplit, treacherous, industrious, carved out of the precipice of
darkness. It seemed a clay modeling of a more huge world, placed there
for his inspection. Down there this man at his side had been crushed;
they had cast him out. They had told him, "If you won't come to Heaven,
then you'll have to go to----" Well, he'd been to hell, and now they'd
got to take him back. In his heart Peter dared them to refuse him.

He spoke to the cabby and gave him an address. The man complained of the
lateness of the hour. A reward persuaded him.

They were jingling through side-streets now. They came out on to a broad
road, with trees on either side and houses standing in gardens, with
steps going up to them. The horse halted and the cabman blew his nose
loudly. "Nice little jaunt you've 'ad."

The house was all in darkness. Peter rang the bell. On the second story
a blind was raised; someone saw the lamps of the hansom. Feet descended
the stairs. The door opened timidly. Miss Florence stood there, her hair
in curl-papers, with a candle in her hand. She looked extraordinarily
angular and elderly. Behind her, peering over the banisters, were Miss
Effie, Miss Leah and Miss Madge, with petticoats thrown over their
shoulders. Peter entered the old-fashioned hall and explained his
errand. "You were going to do it once; he needs it more than ever now."

"Bring him in," Miss Florence said.

In an odd old-maidish room he undressed his uncle and slipped him into
one of the late Mr. Jacobite's night-shirts.

The situation was not without its humor. Before he left he promised to
be round early.

It was nearly midnight when he arrived home at Topbury Terrace. Only
his father was up. He opened the door to him. "You're late, Peter. We
thought something had happened."

Peter waited until the door had closed behind him. "It has. I met Uncle
Waffles. You're tired; don't let's talk about it now. He's all right for
a little while, anyhow."

His father drew a long breath. Peter knew what he was thinking: "So
the dead man has come back to die afresh!" They put out the lights in
silence and climbed the stairs. In the darkness his father laid his
hand on his shoulder. "You were always fond of Ocky; so was I once. Poor
fellow! I tried to be just."

"You were just," said Peter; "you had to be just. But it isn't justice
that he's needing now; it's--it's kindness."

His father's voice became grave--a little stern, perhaps. "For years he
had the kindness; he was dragging us all down. He lied to me so often.
Well----. Humph! Can't be helped. Do what you can. Good night, son."

As Peter entered his bedroom something fluttered. He struck a match.
It was a sheet of paper, written on in a round, girlish hand and pinned
against the door-panel. It read, "_Welcome home, Peterkins. All the time
I've been thinking of you. I've missed you most awfully. I wanted to sit
up, but they wouldn't let me. With love and ten thousand kisses, Kay_."

[Illustration: 0335]

His heart reproached him. Little Kitten Kay! In the last week he hadn't
thought much of her, and once--once she had been his entire world. He
had promised her once that he was never going to marry. And now there
was Cherry. It was Cherry he thought of as his eyes were closing--Cherry
and her saying that there are those who allow and those who love.




CHAPTER XXXIII--THE WORLD AND OCKY

Whenever Peter thought of the Misses Jacobite, the picture that formed
was of four lean-breasted women, who spoke in whispers and sat forever
in a room with the blinds down. They seemed to have no passions, no
desires, no grip on reality, no sense of life's supreme earnestness.
They were waiting, always waiting for something to return--something
which had once been theirs: youth, the hope of motherhood, love, the
admiration of men. The day of their opportunity had gone by them;
they could not forget. It was odd to remember that these gentlewomen,
prematurely aged, had once been high-stepping and courted--the belles of
Topbury. One of them sang, day in, day out, of the rest to be found
on the other side of Jordan; it was all that she had to hope for now.
Directly the front door opened you could hear her. The sound of her
singing sent shivers down your back. It made you think of a mourner,
sitting beside the dead; only the dead was not in the house. It had
never come to birth. It was something once expected, that no one dared
speak about.

When Peter called next morning he was aware of a changed atmosphere.
The sense of folded hands had vanished. The singing was no longer heard;
instead, there came to his ears a number of busy, orderly sounds--doors
softly opening and shutting, feet making discreet haste upon the stairs,
the clink of dishes in the basement and the sizzling of cooking.

As he had passed through the hall, with its varnished wall-paper, to the
drawing-room in which he waited, the portrait of old Mr. Jacobite had
gazed fiercely down. Quite evidently the old gentleman disapproved of
the use being made of his night-shirt.

Peter didn't seat himself; it would have been impossible to do so
without causing havoc. Every chair had its antimacassar, spread at its
correct old-maidish angle. He stood by the window, looking out into the
cool little garden--a green, shy sanctuary for birds, across which the
July sunlight fell. Overhead was the room in which Uncle Waffles had
slept--he hoped he had behaved himself. The chandelier shook; several
people were very industrious up there. And Peter wondered. Old Mr.
Jacobite--had he always disapproved of men where his daughters were
concerned? Had he kept them from marriage? Had the tall and reserved
Miss Florence ever been kissed by a man? In the light of his own
romantic experience he pitied all people who hadn't been kissed and
married. Life was wasted if that hadn't happened; it was meant for that.

The handle turned. It was Miss Effie, the little and talkative Miss
Jacobite, who entered. She was smiling and lifted to Peter a face all
a-flutter, thanking him with her eyes, as though he had given her a
present.

"How is he?" Peter asked. "I oughtn't to have brought him here at
all--let alone at such an hour. Only you see--you see there was nowhere
else to bring him."

She seated herself on the edge of a chair, patting out her dress. "He's
tired." She spoke with an air of concern. "He wasn't very well. We made
him stay in bed. We're going to keep him there; he needs feeding."

She was flustered. Her hands kept clasping and unclasping. She seemed
afraid of being accused of immodesty. She raised her eyes shyly. "It's
so nice to have a man in the house. Not since poor dear father----. I
wonder what he'd have said."

Peter didn't wonder. He thought it was high time that he made matters
clearer. "Of course, I'm not going to leave him on your hands. I only
brought him for a night because----"

She interrupted anxiously. "Oh, please, until he's better. He's so run
down. They made him work so hard in--in there."

So he had brought his derelict uncle to the one spot on earth where he
was regarded as a treasure! He was so amazed at Miss Effie's attitude
that he doubted whether she was in full possession of the facts.

"But--but," he faltered, "didn't Miss Florence tell you where he's come
from--where it was that he had to work?"

She answered in a low voice. "We've all done wrong." It seemed she could
get no further. She sank her head, gazing straight before her, tracing
out the great red roses in the carpet. Peter thought of her sister,
Leah, the shadow-woman; he knew what she meant. She raised her eyes to
his with an effort. "We've all done wrong; I think to have done wrong
makes one more gentle. It makes one willing--not to remember."

Miss Florence opened the door and looked in on them. "He's ready to see
you now." She hated scenes. Because she saw that one was in preparation,
she made her voice and manner perfunctory. "You'd better go alone. You'd
better go on tiptoe. I wouldn't stop too long; he's got a bad head."

Peter couldn't help smiling as he climbed the stairs, and yet it was a
tender sort of smiling. Didn't these innocent ladies know that too much
whisky invariably left a bad head? Or, with their divine faculty for
forgetting, were they willing to forget the whisky and only to remember
to cure the bad head?

It was a white room--a woman's room most emphatically. The pictures on
the walls were triumphs of sentimentality. Gallants were kissing
their ladies' hands and clutching them to their breasts in an agony of
parting, or looking meltingly at a flower which they had left. The seats
of the chairs wore linen covers to prevent their upholstery from getting
shabby. The window was wide; on the sill crumbs had been scattered.
Sparrows chattered and, grown bold from habit, flew in on to the carpet
and preened their feathers.

On the bed, the sheets drawn close up under his chin, lay Uncle Waffles.
He had the look that invalids sometimes have, of being made to appear
more ill by too much attention. He had not shaved--his cheeks were
grizzled; that help to make him look worse. The atmosphere of a sickroom
was completed by a table placed beside the counterpane, on which lay an
open Bible and some freshly plucked wall-flowers. Peter had never seen
his uncle in bed--for the moment he was embarrassed. He drew up a chair.
"How are you? Getting rested?"

Uncle Waffles hitched himself higher on the pillow, reached out and took
Peter's hand. A glint of the old love of fun-making crept into his
eyes. "I've not been treated like this since my mother--not since I
was married. They're pretending I'm ill because they want to nurse me.
Carried off my trousers, they did, to prevent me from getting dressed.
What's the matter with them? Don't they know who I am?"

"They know."

"Then why are they doing it?"

"Because they've suffered themselves."

Ocky tightened his grip on Peter's hand. "One of them been to--to where
I've been, you mean? Which one?" Peter shook his head. "They've all been
to prison in a sense--not the kind you speak of. They had a big tragedy,
when everything looked happy. Since then----. Well, since then people
have pitied and cut them. They've been left. They're glad you've come,
partly because life's been cruel to you, and partly----. Look here, I
don't want you to laugh!--partly because you're a man."

Ocky pulled the late Mr. Jacobite's night-shirt tighter across his
shoulders. It was much too large for him--as voluminous as a surplice.
"Not much of a man," he muttered; "not much of a man. Arrived here--you
know how. Before that had been hanging about street corners, watched by
the police and jostled into the gutter. My own wife won't look at me;
and yet you tell me these strangers----."

His voice shook. "I don't understand--can't see why----."

Peter spoke after an interval. "You--you haven't often been surprised by
too much kindness, have you? Comes almost like a blow at first?"

"Almost. It kind of hurts. But it's the right kind of hurting. It makes
me want to be good. Never thought I'd want to be that."

"What did you think?"

For a moment a fierce look came into his eyes. "What does an animal
think of when it's trapped? It thinks of all the ways in which it can
get back at the people who put it there. But now----." He picked up
the wall-flowers and smelt them. "She brought them this morning--the
littlest one, with the gray hair and tiny hands. They were all wet with
dew when she brought them. You need to go to prison, Peter, to know what
flowers can mean to a chap."

There was a tap at the door. Miss Madge entered, bringing some beef-tea.
When she had gone Ocky said, "They take it in turns."

Peter remembered how, going always into separate rooms with them, they'd
taken turns in owning himself and Kay when they were children. How
rarely life had allowed them to love anything!

Uncle Waffles' thoughts seemed to have been following the same track. He
paused, with the cup half-way to his mouth. "Those women ought to have
married.--Been in prison most of their lives, you said? But I don't
know; marriage can be a worse hell." He turned to Peter. "D'you remember
at Sandport how she'd never let me kiss her? It was like that from the
first. She kept me hungry. I stole to make her love me. She was always
talking about her first husband and making me jealous. And yet----."

He stopped and gazed vacantly across the room to where sparrows
fluttered on the sill and sunlight fell. Peter supposed that he had
forgotten what he was going to have said. Suddenly his face became
all purpose and pleading. He flung back the bedclothes and leant out,
gripping Peter's shoulders till they hurt. "I'd steal again to-morrow
to get one day of her bought affection. My God, how I've longed for her!
Make her come to me. You must, Peter. You shall. Don't tell her who I
am. Oh, don't refuse me."

The sharp agony and desperate determination of a man so drifting and
careless took Peter aback. He recalled those days when he had hidden him
in the stable--it had been the same then. He had always been urging that
Je-hane should be persuaded to walk in the garden that he might catch
a glimpse of her. The one strong loyalty of his weak existence had been
the love of this woman.

"Get her to come to you!" Peter said. "But how? She wouldn't. She----"
Ocky burried his face in the pillow. How thin he was and listless! How
spent! How----. What was the word? How smashed! It was as though in the
human quarry some chance stone of calamity had fallen on him, making him
a moral cripple. He was what he was through the sort of accident that
might happen to any man--to the Faun Man, if Eve refused to love him;
even to Peter himself.

The boy pulled the clothes back over the man. "Somehow--I don't know
how--somehow I'll do it. I promise."

After that, whenever Peter entered the white room, he saw how his uncle
watched for someone to follow.

The Misses Jacobite had found a doctor who supported their opinion that
their guest must be kept in bed. The prison fare and long confinement
had broken down his constitution. The doctor didn't know what had done
it; he advised food and rest.

From time to time Peter brought visitors to the room overlooking the
garden. His father came and was shocked by the wasted look of the man
who, in earlier years, had been his friend. It was of those earlier
years that they chose to speak, by an instinctive courtesy; they, at
least, had been happy territory. They recalled together their schoolday
pranks--the canings they had earned, the football matches they had lost
or won, the holidays when they had broken boundaries, going on some
secret adventure. But, when Barrington rose to go, Ocky said, "Don't
come again, Billy. You used to hate to hear me call you Billy; you'll
dislike it just as much when I'm better. We've both been forgetting what
I am, and what I've done. If you come again we may remember. For years
I've worried you; well, that's ended. But--you're a man of the world,
and you understand. I'm a jail-bird--and I don't want to spoil the
memory of this hour. Good-bye, old man."

It turned out that Mr. Grace hadn't slept on his box so soundly that
evening of Peter's return--at least, not so soundly as to keep his eyes
shut.

"All swank on my part, Mr. Peter," he said; "she's been h'at me for
years, my darter Grice 'as, and I don't mean to get conwerted. H'I'm not
a-goin' ter come ter 'eaven, so long as 'er voice is the only voice as
calls me. 'Eaven 'ud be 'ell, livin' wiv 'er in the same 'ouse, if I wuz
ter do that. We'd be for h'everlastin' prayin' and floppin'. Not but wot
religion 'as its uses; but not for me in 'er sense. That's why I shut me
h'eyes when she was a-bellowin' at the corner. But I saw yer. 'Ow is the
old bloke nar? Your uncle, I mean, meanin' no disrespeck. I've h'often
thought that if we 'ad met under 'appier h'auspices--h'auspices is one
of my Grice's words--we might 'ave been pals."

Peter brought about the 'appier h'auspices. One afternoon Cat's Meat
halted before the house and Mr. Grace climbed down from his box, a bag
of apples in one hand and his whip in the other. He was very red in the
face and embarrassed; he had anything but a sick-room appearance, though
he often drove in funeral processions. He was immensely careful about
the wiping of his feet. Peter tried to coax him to leave his whip in
the hall; he wouldn't. He seemed to think that it lent him dignity, and
explained his status in the world. So it was clutching a bag of apples
and clasping his whip against his chest, that he entered the white room
where the birds hopped in and out.

Ocky Waffles, shifting his position on the bed, caught sight of the
weather-beaten, alcoholic figure. Before he could say a word, in a
thick, husky voice Mr. Grace offered his apologies.

"'Ere. 'Ave 'em. I 'ear you ain't well." He swung the bag of apples on
to the bed. "Bought 'em from a gal off a barrer" He paused awkwardly.

"That was good of you," said Ocky. "Come and sit down."

Mr. Grace scratched his head. "I dunno as I want to sit down. I dunno
as you and me is friends. Remember the last time we met and h'all the
trouble we 'ad? You wuz a nice old cough-drop in them days. I 'ad to 'it
yer wiv this 'ere whip--the wery same one--to make yer let go o' the top
o' the gate and fall inter the stable. Well, I 'it yer in kindness; but
it's because I 'it yer that I dunno whether you and me is friends."

"We're friends," said Ocky.

Mr. Grace sat down. It was most curious, all this. He hadn't got his
bearings. This chap, lying in a decent bed and waited on hand and foot
by ladies, was Mr. Waffles, if you please. But he had been an old
cock who climbed walls to avoid policemen, and rode about at night in
philanthropic cabs. He turned to him gruffly. "Eat one o' them there
apples. Bought 'em from a gal off a barrer.--Did h'I tell yer that
h'already?" It was a sign that the truce was established.

Mr. Grace became a frequent caller. An odd friendship grew up between
these two men, both broken on the wheel of feminine perversity. They
exchanged notes on their experiences. Ocky spoke to the old cabby with
greater freedom than to anyone, save Peter. Jehane had always said of
him that he found it easy to be sociable with underlings and ostlers.
In this case he found it easy because of the wide charity of the
underling's personal laxity. Sometimes Miss Effie would steal in and
read to them of a man who chose his companions from among publicans and
sinners. Mr. Grace would pay her the closest attention and ask her
to repeat certain passages; he was picking up pointers, with which to
challenge his daughter's confident assertions concerning God's unvarying
severity.

And then Jehane! She came one afternoon to Topbury to visit Nan. She had
heard nothing; nothing was told her. Peter waited for an opportunity to
get her to himself. In the garden after dinner the others contrived to
leave them together.

"Going up to Oxford, Peter? Oh, well, it's good to have opportunities
and a father with money. My poor Eustace, he'll never have that. I
might, while you're there----."

She paused; the thought had just occurred to her--a new plan for
marrying off her girls "I might let Glory and Riska visit my father and
mother while you're there. It would be pleasant for all of you. Would
you like that?"

"Splendid," said Peter.

She eyed him, suspecting the sincerity of his enthusiasm.

"Of course, if you don't want your cousins---."

"I do," he assured her. "I'm going to Calvary College; that's just
opposite Professor Usk's house. I'll be able to see plenty of them."
Then, knowing how she liked to be appealed to as a person with superior
knowledge, "I wish you'd tell me some of the things I mustn't do; Oxford
etiquette's so full of _mustn'ts_."

She laughed; the hard lines softened about her mouth. Talking about
Oxford made her think of her girlhood, when to be the daughter of a don
was to be something akin to an aristocrat. Those days were sufficiently
far removed for her to have forgotten their dread of spinsterhood, and
for her to remember only their glamour. "You must never use tongs to
your sugar," she said; "only freshers do that--you must help yourself
with your fingers. And, let me see! You must never wear your cap and
gown unless it's positively necessary. You mustn't speak to a second
or third-year man unless he speaks to you first.--Oh, there are so many
_mustn'ts_ at Oxford; it would take all evening."

And then, "Did your mother ever tell you the story of how we first met
Billy? It had been raining, and we were waiting to go on the river. I
put my head out of the window to see if the storm was over, and there
was your father looking up at me. I used to tease your mother by
pretending that I was in love with him. I shouldn't wonder--I expect
she still believes I wanted him. You see, Nan and I were inseparable as
girls. We used to be horribly scared of not marrying--we didn't know
as much about marriage then. We used to think that girls were born on a
raft and that only a man could come to their rescue. Funny idea, wasn't
it?"

"And if the man didn't come?"

"Why, if the man didn't come, we believed girls missed
everything--believed they got blown out to sea, out of sight of land and
starved with thirst. That was what made your mother so jealous, when I
pretended to be in love with Billy. She was afraid she'd lose her one
and only chance of getting safe ashore to the land of matrimony." That
was Jehane's public version of how love had miscarried between herself
and Barrington.

So she ran on, remembering and remembering, as they walked the garden
path from the mulberry to the pear trees, forth and back, back and
forth, while the sunset reddened the creepers on the walls and the
loft-window, from which Ocky had watched in vain for her coming, looked
down on them emptily.

When it was time for her to be getting on her way, Peter volunteered to
accompany her to the station. They chose the Lowbury Station instead of
the Topbury, because it would take longer and they could continue their
conversation about Oxford, her Promised Land of the past. "You must have
had good times as a girl."

Good times! Hadn't she? She painted for him the joys of Eights' Week,
the excitement of the Toggers, the tremendous elations of a young and
vivid 'Varsity world. She painted them for him as romantic realities
which she had lived to the full and lost. And the odd thing was that she
believed that she had been happy then. All her life it had been _then_
that she had been happy. Her Eldorados had always been behind her--never
in the To-days or the To-morrows. When she pitied herself, her otherwise
barren nature blossomed into a tragic luxuriance that was almost noble,
and entirely picturesque.

She hadn't noticed where Peter was leading her. She found herself in
a broad and quiet street, through which little traffic passed. The
pavements, on either side of it, were lined with plane-trees. Houses
stood far back from the road in gardens, with stone steps climbing up to
them.

She slipped her hand into Peter's arm. Now that Nan wasn't there to be
pleased by it, she was willing to let him know that she was proud of
him. In the silver twilight, when one sees with the imagination rather
than with the eyes, she found his face like to one which had looked up
at her suddenly and held her spell-bound in the gray blur of an Oxford
street.

"Is this the right way, Peter? Is it a short-cut? Are you taking me out
of my way to lengthen our talk?"

He laughed, rather excitedly she thought. "I like to hear you telling of
the old days---- Hulloa! Why here's the Misses Jacobite's house! You
remember what you said about women being on a raft--I think that
explains them. No one came out from the land to take them off. Let's
step inside and cheer them up."

"But Peter, my train----."

"Oh, there are plenty of trains--we needn't stop more than a second."

"You rascal!" She gave his arm a little hug. "I believe you had this in
mind from the start."

"Perhaps I had."

When they were safe inside the hall and the door had closed behind them,
his manner altered. She was conscious of it in a second. He no longer
laughed, and he was more excited.

"There's someone here who wants to meet you," he informed her.

"But who? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I wanted to give you a surprise."

She looked annoyed and yet curious. "You must tell me. Is it a man or a
woman?"

He didn't dare to let her know that it was her husband.

"You'll see presently."

She was beginning to protest; Miss Florence entered. Under her attempt
at cordiality her face betrayed dismay, and something still less
comfortable--judgment. Peter employed her entrance as an excuse for his
own rapid exit. He soon returned. "They want to see you now."

Making the best of an awkward situation, Jehane exclaimed, "They! So
there are several of them! It was only 'someone' at first."

She followed him up the stairs, trying to catch up with and question
him; he was careful to keep sufficiently far ahead to prevent
conversation. He opened a door on the landing--the door which led into
the white room. He made as if he were going to accompany her, but, as
she crossed the threshold, stepped back and closed the door.

"You!"

The man held out his arms. When she stood rigid and did not stir, he
dragged himself across the bed, as if to come to her.

"Don't."

Her voice was sudden like a whip cracked.

His arms fell to his side. After all these years of absence,
her stronger will lashed down his desire. He began ramblingly,
shame-facedly, hinting at what he meant, not having the audacity to
finish his sentences. "I had to----. I made Peter promise. When they let
me out, I was thinking of you. All the time in there, for four years, I
was thinking of----. Jehane, I've been punished enough. Isn't it
possible that----? Jehane, I love you. I always have. I always shall."

He was aching to touch her. Through the mist of twilight that drifted
through the room, he fed his eyes on every detail of this woman who had
once been familiar to him. She hadn't changed much; it was he who was
altered. She also made her sternly pitiful estimate--the shrunken body,
the loose-lipped, purposeless mouth, the hair growing thin and gray
about the temples.

He stretched out his arms. "I love you."

She shuddered; it was as though a man from the grave had called to her.

"Love me!" Her voice was so low that his ears were strained to catch
what she said. "No. You never loved me; you weren't strong enough for
that. It was all a mistake; we never belonged to each other. If you had
loved me, you wouldn't have---- But we won't talk about it. I'm not
bitter; but we must go our own ways now."

He was lying across the edge of the bed, threatening to reach across the
gulf that spread between them. The nearer he came, the more she saw what
had happened. He was old--a senile, night-robed caricature of the man
she had married. In the half-light her fear of his claim on her made him
ghastly.

He was moving--he was getting out of bed. She opened the door, running
as she would have run from a skeleton. He was following her down the
stairs. She fancied that he touched her. It seemed that he leapt through
the air. Something fell. In the hall people tried to stay her. She was
in the street where the plane-trees rustled; how she managed to get
there she could not tell. She ran on, fearing that he still followed.

She halted for want of breath. Where was she? Lighted trams were
passing. She jumped on the first, giving no thought to its direction.
Not until she was safe aboard and moving, did she dare to look back.

Nothing was there, nothing gaunt and hungry--only saunterers and girls
with their lovers, drifting dreamlike through the shadows under lamps
against whose glare moths hurled their fragile bodies, beating their
lives out flutteringly.




CHAPTER XXXIV--THE BENEVOLENT DELILAHS

Despite the Misses Jacobite's efforts to keep him ill, Ocky insisted
on getting better. His cork-like nature refused to be submerged by
adversity; it was warranted un-sinkable.

At first, after repeated and urgent requests, he was allowed to sit by
the window in a dressing-gown. Then he was allowed to get partly
dressed and to ramble about the house in carpet-slippers. At last he
was permitted to venture into the garden. There, for some days, his
adventures ended. His four benevolent Delilahs had the felicity of
watching their captive-man, pottering in the sunshine, watering the
grass and tying up the flowers, while leaves tapped against the walls
and birds flew over him.

They were terribly afraid that presently he would contemplate an exodus.
It was so very long since they had had anything to do with men--they had
almost forgotten what things amused them. In those far-off days when
the world was young and lovers were frequent, they had played and sung
a little. But the drawing-room was faded, their songs were out of date,
the piano was out of tune, and their voices----. Perhaps those lovers
had never really cared for their singing; appearing to care had afforded
an excuse for sitting close to the singers, as they turned the pages of
their music.

Mr. Waffles mustn't be allowed to get dull--that would be fatal. They
asked him if he would be so good as to keep an eye on the cats--to see
that they didn't pounce on any of the birds who made a home in their
garden. Mr. Waffles promised. But the cats still stole along the wall
and crept through the bushes, unmolested by the weary gentleman in
carpet-slippers.

Something had to be done. The case grew desperate. The four gray sisters
hunted through their father's library and searched out books--Dickens'
novels in paper-covers, issued in parts at a time when a new character
from Boz was more exciting than a new comet hurled through the night
from the unseen shores of eternity. Dickens left Mr. Waffles cold;
his tastes were not literary. He fell asleep with _David Copperfield_
face-down beside his chair, while the sunlight played leap-frog with the
shadows across the lawn.

He had to be amused. Providence sent a diversion. Seated beneath the
apple tree, where the shrubbery began, Miss Florence was assuring her
Samson for the hundredth time of how glad she and her sisters were
to have him with them. To enforce the sincerity of her words, she had
stretched out her hand to touch him--had almost touched him--when a
shocked voice exclaimed, "What the devil! What the devil! Poor father!
Oh, dear! Oh, dear!"

Miss Florence jumped back from Mr. Waffles. Had he accused her? She
saw that his lips were not moving--that in fact, he was as surprised
as herself. Both looked slowly round. Their astonished glances found
nothing more perturbing than the innocent greenness of the garden and
the noiseless hopping of birds.

The voice came again, maliciously strident. "Oh, dear! Oh, dear! What
the devil! What the devil!"

Overhead, perched on a branch, was a gray and scarlet parrot. From whom
had it escaped? How long had it been there? All they knew was that,
while taking refuge in their garden, it was not above reviling them. At
night it formed the habit of roosting in the apple tree. Before anyone
was out of bed, it could be heard profaning the early morning.

The energies of the entire household were now directed toward the
effecting of its capture. Ingenious plans were concocted. A topic of
conversation was never lacking.

The four elderly ladies placed themselves under their guest's
protection. What would the neighbors think if they were to hear a
constant stream of blasphemy issuing from their walls? And, besides, the
parrot in a cage could be taught better manners and made an attractive
pet.

Mr. Grace, on a visit, learnt of the situation and volunteered to lend
a hand. He and Mr. Waffles were provided with bags of grain and
butterfly-nets. They were instructed to creep with the stealth of
poachers behind ambuscades of trees and flowers, following the gray and
scarlet peril till it settled, and then----

But the triumphant moment was continually postponed; for, whenever
they approached the parrot, no matter how warily, it spread its wings,
mocking them and crying, "What the devil!"--or something even worse.

Ocky's days were fully occupied now. He had a morning-to-evening
interest. The Misses Jacobite urged on him the importance of his
task--the safeguarding of their reputation.

But even a trust so sacred and incessant failed to content Mr. Waffles.
Peter made this discovery when his uncle asked him for the loan of a
shilling. "Voluntary contributions thankfully borrowed," was Ocky's
motto. No one ever gave him anything. It was always lent. Now money
implied an excursion into the larger world; Peter wondered what might be
its purpose. He knew next morning; his uncle had a sixpenny pipe in his
mouth and a tin of cheap tobacco in his pocket. He was stoking up to
renew life's battle; with a pipe between his teeth, Ocky Waffles was a
man.

He led Peter down the garden to the shrubbery, behind which were two
cane-chairs. The shrubbery was convenient for hiding the fact that he
was smoking.

"Peter," he said, jerking his head across his shoulder, "I've been
noticing. They can't afford it. I've got to go to work, old chap."

He spoke with his old swaggering confidence, as though the entire world
was waiting to engage his services. The carpet-slippers, which had been
Mr. Jacobite's, chafed one against the other thoughtfully.

"Got to go to work," he repeated reflectively, in a tone which implied
regret. "I think I know a fellow---- We were in the coop together, and
he said---- But I'm not going to tell you till I'm more certain of my
plans."

Had he been burdened with the weightiest of financial secrets, he could
not have made them more mysterious. Peter tried not to smile; he was
glad--this was the muddling self-deceived uncle he remembered.

Ocky knocked the ashes out of his pipe, waiting for the bowl to cool
before he filled it. "I hadn't an idea that they had so little. It's
come home to me gradually--the worn carpets and old things everywhere.
And here have I been eating my head off. We'll have to pay 'em back,
Peter--have to pay 'em back."

Peter had reason to be sceptical about the paying back; he applauded
the intention. Except in imagination, his uncle had never been much of
a money-maker. He had always been unemployable; he was ten times more
unemployable now with a prison record. Peter spoke to his father,
with the result that a position was offered as packer in a publisher's
establishment. Ocky refused it. "Got something better."

The "something better" was at last divulged. One afternoon Peter found
his uncle up the apple-tree, trying to balance a box in its branches.
In the box was scattered the kind of food best calculated to tempt the
appetite of a parrot. The box had a flap-door leading into it, propped
open by a stick from which a string dangled. If an ill-natured bird were
to enter the box and a lady beneath the tree were to pull on the string,
thus dragging away the stick, the door would shut and the ill-natured
bird would be a captive. Gathered under the tree were the four Misses
Jacobite, looking very weepy and calling up warnings to their guest,
please not to fall and to be careful.

Peter knew what it meant--these were the last offices of gratitude which
preceded departure.

When the adventurous gentleman had clambered down, it was seen that he
wore his shabby spats and that his mustaches were pointed with wax. He
led Peter aside and winked at him solemnly. It was the return from Elba;
after exile, he was going forth to conquer the world afresh.

"Well?" said Peter.

"Well?" said Ocky.

"Leaving?" asked Peter.

"'S'afternoon," said Ocky. Then, after a silence, which heightened
the suspense, came the revelation. "There's a fellow, I know, a Mr.
Widow--we were in the coop together. A nice fellow! He oughtn't to have
been there. Seems he was in the second-hand business and dressed like
a parson to inspire confidence. Well, his wife was a gadabout woman and
always jeering at him. One day, quite quietly, in a necessary sort of
manner, without losing his temper, so he told me, he up and clumped her
over the head. He went out to a sale, never thinking he'd done any more
than was his duty; when he came back she was dead. He's a nice, kind
sort of chap, is Jimmie Widow, and religious. Not a bit like a murderer.
If you didn't start with a prejudice, you'd like him, Peter. I met him
a fortnight ago. He's opened a little place in Soho and wants me to join
him. I'm to mind shop while he's out. There's heaps of money to be made
in the second-hand business. You see, I'll surprise you all and die a
rich man yet."

"Oh, yes," said Peter, "I--I hope so."

Mr. Grace thought it just as well that his friend should enter on his
new adventure with the appearance of prosperity. He offered him a free
ride in his cab. So Ocky took leave of his benevolent Delilahs not as a
pedestrian but, as he had arrived--a carriage-gentleman.

Shortly after his exit, the parrot was pounced on and eaten by a cat.
With the first money that he earned, Ocky made up for the loss with the
gift of a pair of love-birds. The Misses Jacobite named one Ocky and
the other Waffles. Which was the husband-bird and which the lady was a
matter in continual dispute between the sisters. Miss Florence insisted
that Waffles was the husband, because it had the more considerate
habits. The other she thought of as Jehane, and disliked.

The question was still undecided, when a hawker of goldfish happened to
call. No gold-fish were required; but the conversation veered round to
the sex of love-birds. The peddler confessed that in his spare moments
'e did a bit in poultry and bulldogs. He was at once invited to enter,
with all the deference that is due to an expert. Having inspected Ocky
and Waffles, he announced as his verdict that them bloomin' love-birds
wuz either both cocks or both 'ens; but, whether cocks or 'ens, even he,
with a vast experience be'ind him, could not tell.

When he had departed, a silver cruet-stand was missed from the
sideboard. And there the perplexing problem rested.




CHAPTER XXXV--WINGED BIRDS AND ROOTED TREES

A summer's afternoon in London! The gold-gray majesty of the
Embankment, basking in sunlight; the silver-gray flowing of the Thames
beneath its many bridges; smoke, bidding a casual good-by to chimneys,
sauntering off a truant into the quiet blue; trees, bravely green and
a-flutter; a steamer swerving in to the landing at Westminster!
His decision came suddenly. She had asked him to visit her.
Perhaps--perhaps, she could tell him what had happened to Cherry.

He jumped off the bus, crossed the road at a run, sprang down the steps
and thrust his money through the hole in the ticket-window. "A return to
Kew."

The man in the box was ostentatiously slow in counting out the change.
These young bloods made him bitter. With all the years before them, they
were always late and always in a hurry. He sold them their passports to
cool green places; he himself was left permanently behind by that streak
of gleaming river.

"'Eaps o' time," he grumbled. "Yes, that's your one." Then, having at
last handed over the change and a ticket, "Best skip lively, or you'll
lose 'er."

Peter skipped lively; to the man's disappointment, he scrambled aboard
just as the steamer was casting loose. She shot out into the current,
panting and splashing, kicking up a merry white wake. The Houses of
Parliament grew tall and, at last, spectral in the distance. The dome
of St. Paul's lay, a black bubble swollen to bursting, on the lip of the
horizon. The smoke of London trembled like a thin flag, waving back
the encroaching sky. The groan of creeping traffic was stilled;
stone-palaces of labor sank and sank, shorn of their height and
supremacy. This was the road to Arcady, the flowing road to the land
of birds and grass pavements. They were on the outskirts of that land
already; everybody felt it. A red-nosed minstrel drew his harp between
his knees and fumbled at the strings. He assured his public tunefully
that he had dreamt that he dwelt in marble halls. It was difficult
to believe him; he didn't look a soulful fellow. Nevertheless, in his
decrepit person, he echoed the hopes of incredible romance. The crowd
grew careless of appearances and jaunty. Cockney swains cuddled their
girls more closely; the girls, rather proud than abashed, tittered.

Battersea Park drifted by, a green mist of trees and romping children.
Against the red-brick background of Chelsea, scarlet-coated soldiers
strolled, unwarriorlike, keeping pace with pram-trundling nurse-maids.
The steamer seemed to stand still; it was the banks, on either side,
that traveled.

The harpist, having tried his nose at romance, came back to reality.
Perhaps, it was because he sang so much through it, that his nose was so
long and red.

                   "Sez I, 'Be Mrs. 'Awkins, Mrs. 'Enery 'Awkins,

                   Or acrost the seas I'll roam.

                   So 'elp me, Bob, I'm crazy,

                   Liza, yer a daisy--

                   Won't yer share my 'umble 'ome?"'

In vulgar language he gave exact utterance to Peter's emotions. Not that
he had any home for Cherry to share. He wasn't likely to have for a long
time to come. He had to go to Oxford first, there to be drilled for his
tussle with the world. And yet, unreasonably, too previously, against
all laws of caution and common sense, he wanted to hear her say that she
cared for him.

He had every reason to believe the contrary. He had written to her, and
had received only a line in answer, "_Let's forget. For your sake it
would be better._" After that his many letters had been returned to him
unopened, indicating that the address was unknown. He had tried to get
into touch with the Faun Man and Harry, but they were on the Continent,
roving. Then, he had thought of the golden woman. She had been kind to
him. She had asked him to visit her. She and Cherry were scarcely
friends, but she might tell him where he could find her.

"_Let's forget_." The words rang in his ears. They tormented him.
They made him both sad and angry. They seemed to treat all love as a
flirtation, as a stroll beneath the stars which must end. He didn't want
an ending--couldn't conceive that it was possible. Was she heartless
or--or had she mistaken him? Was it that she didn't understand love's
finality? Or that she did understand, and was frightened? Or--and this
was the doubt that haunted him most--that she didn't really like him?

Putney! Mortlake! Racing-shells skimming the surface of the water!
Bridges wading from bank to bank! Bathing boys who stood up naked,
waving to the passing steamer! Then Kew, green and somnolent, with its
plumed trees and low-browed houses. Peter landed. The crowd melted,
breaking up into couples who wandered off, purposeless and happy. They
had only escaped from London that they might be alone together. Should
they go to the Botanical Gardens? Oh, yes. Anywhere--it didn't matter.
Anywhere, so long as they could sit together and hold hands.

He crossed the bridge; stopped a stranger and asked a question; turned
along the bank and came to a house, little more than a cottage--a nest
tucked away amid shrubs and trees, with the river in view.

Like the frill on a woman's dress, a green verandah ran round it.
Everything was cool and neat and hushed. The bushes were trim and
orderly. The gravel-path had been smoothly raked--not a stone was awry.
Flowers stood sweetly demure, in rows like school-girls awaiting a good
conduct prize and trying to forget that they had ever been hoydens.
On the lawn an automatic sprinkler was at work, revolving slowly and
throwing up a cloud of spray.

As he approached the porch, misty with wistaria and passion-flowers,
he searched the windows for signs of life. They were so clear that they
seemed to be without panes, giving direct entrance to the pleasant rooms
inside. They seemed to say, "We have nothing to hide--nothing." Brasses
shone as brightly as a more precious metal. The door lent a virginal
touch of whiteness.

He rang the bell and heard a faint tinkle, then the rustling of skirts,
accompanied by prim footsteps. A severely attired maid admitted him. He
gazed round the room into which he was shown. Books, artistically
bound, lay on the table. Everything gave evidence of fastidiousness and
taste--of a certain remoteness from the everyday jostle of life. Above
an inlaid desk stood a portrait, silverframed. Out of curiosity Peter
tiptoed over; the Faun Man gazed out at him with laughing eyes. Lying
open on the desk was a well-thumbed volume, small and bound like a
Bible. A passage was underscored, which read, "Thou must be lord and
master of thine own actions, and not a slave or hireling." Turning to
the title-page, he found that it was _The Imitation of Christ_.

A voice behind him said, "Ah, so you've discovered me!"

He drew himself up, afraid she might suspect him of spying. "I--I was
interested by the words you'd underlined. I wanted to see who wrote
them. I oughtn't to have----"

She laughed softly, shrugging her shoulders. She was all in white--lazy,
splendid and vital. "My Loo-ard! Don't apologize. You were surprised.
I don't blame you." She nodded her head like a knowing child. "Oh, yes,
Peter, the golden woman reads books like that sometimes."

She took his hands in hers and drew him over to a sofa, making him sit
down beside her. "And now, what have you come to tell me?"

He recovered from his confusion and surrendered, as all men did, to her
graciousness. "That it's ripping to see you. But--but how did you know I
called you the golden woman?"

"Lorie--he tells me everything." She leant back her long fine throat,
pillowing her head against the cushions. "You must never trust him with
any of your secrets, if you don't want me to---- Now, what is it that
you've come to tell me?"

"Then, you know----?" He hesitated. The confession to him was sacred;
there was amusement in her eyes. "Then you know about me and Cherry?" He
was sure she did. She had greeted him as though his visit had been long
expected.

She placed her cool fingers about his wrist and bent her head nearer.
Her voice was low, and caressing--the voice of one who breaks bad news
gently. "I know. You told her that you loved her.---- Why didn't you
come to me sooner?"

She was looking sorry for him. "Why sooner?" he questioned.

"Because she's gone away."

It was almost as though she had told him that Cherry had died. "Away?
Where to?"

"I don't know. Lorie didn't say; he took her. Perhaps, to the convent.
Poor little girl, you--you frightened her, Peter."

He was all amazement. What a contrast there was between these two!
The boy so inexperienced and crestfallen; the golden woman so wise and
quiet. "Yes, _you_, Peter. You're so natural and uncivilized. You were
too sudden with her. You told her that you loved her just as a child
would--directly you felt it. You wanted to kiss her without waste of
time. You galloped too fast, Peter; you tried to take all the fences
at one stride." Her voice grew more tender; she folded her hands in her
lap, looking away from him, straight before her. "You're--you're the
sort of lover we older women dream of when the hour's gone by. The men
who come to us are too cautious; they watch for the lines in our faces.
They've learnt to play safe. But you, with your glorious youth----! And
she didn't recognize it--didn't know what you were offering." The blue
eyes came back slowly to his face. She ended, "And so, she's gone away."

Peter felt unhappy and yet comforted. She had envied him something of
which he had been ashamed--the unavoidable indiscretion of his lack of
age. She had called it glorious; she hadn't thought it foolish. "But
what must I do? Will she--will she come back again? Will she understand,
one day, the way you do?"

She answered evasively. "One day! We women all understand one day."

He repeated his question, "But what must I do?"

She put her arm about his shoulder. "Wait. It's all that either of us
can do."

Why did she include herself? The room was very silent. In its patient
preparedness, it must have spent years in waiting. The garden outside
seemed to listen, tiptoe. The door was white, as if little used. The
sunlight on the lawn crept slowly. Everything watched; yet nothing was
wideawake. For whom were they all expectant? _Always there is one who
allows, and one who loves_. Was that the explanation?

Above the open volume of cloistered consolation, with its disillusioned
counsels of timid patience, the Faun Man smiled from his silver frame.
Peter had always thought----.

So, after all, was it the Faun Man who had delayed?

And Cherry loved him! Had that anything to do with it? He crushed the
suspicion down--and yet it survived.

"And you don't know----. You couldn't tell me where to write?"

The golden woman shook her head. "Who can say? You don't know much
about love, Peter. It's a continual hoping for something which never
happens--or which, when it happens, is something different. People say
it's a state of heart--it's really a state of mind. I think--and you'll
hate me for saying it--I think true love is always on one side and is
always disappointed. Did you ever hear about the green tree and the bird
in the morn? You didn't?

               "A bird in the morn

               To a green tree was calling:

               'Come over. Come over.

               Night's vanished. Day's born.

               And I'm weary--I want you, green tree, for my lover;

               Through clouds I am falling,

               A-flutter, a-flutter.

               I'm lonely,

               Here only.

               And heard your leaves mutter.

               Night's vanished. Day's born.

               So run out and fold me, green tree, in the morn.'

               "The bird in the morn

               Heard a distant tree sighing:

               I cannot come over--

               Night's vanished. Day's born.

               I am rooted. But haste, oh sweet bird, to your lover;

               So freely you're flying,

               A-flutter, a-flutter.

               Sink hither,

               Not thither.

               Hark how my leaves mutter,

               Night's vanished. Love's born.'

               The bird flew--ah, whither? The tree was forlorn."

She stroked his hand. "In true love," she said, "there's always one who
could but won't, and one who would but cannot."

"Not always," he denied. He spoke confidently, remembering his mother
and father.

"How certain you are!" She watched him mockingly. "Ah, you know of an
exception! Believe me, Peter, winged birds and rooted trees are by far
the more common."

She made him feel that she shared his dilemma--that she reckoned
herself, with him, among the trees which are rooted. The bond of
sympathy was established.

"We," she whispered, "you and I, Peter, we must wait for our winged
birds to visit us. We can't go to them, however we try."

She sprang up with a quick change of expression; in a flash she was
radiant. "My Loo-ard, but we needn't be tragic."

Running to the window, she flung it wide. "Look out there. The sun, the
river, the grass--they're happy. What do they care? It's our hearts that
are unhappy. We won't have any hearts, Peter."

He crossed the room to her. With the freedom of a sister, she put her
arm about him, leaning so that her hair just touched his face. She
seemed to be excusing her action. "You're only a boy. How old shall we
say. Just fourteen, perhaps. Why, little Peter, you're too young to
be in love.---- Do you remember the saying, that every load has two
handles: one by which it can be carried; one by which it cannot? You
and I are going to find the handle by which it can be carried--is that
a bargain? I'll show you the handle--it's not to take yourself or anyone
too seriously. You're making a face, Peter, as though I'd given you
nasty medicine. You were determined to be most awfully wretched over
Cherry, weren't you? Well, you mustn't. Wait half a second."

Her half-seconds were half-hours to other people. When she reappeared,
she was clad girlishly in a white dress, which hung above her ankles. At
her breast was a yellow rose. Her golden hair was wrapped in bands about
her head. There swung from her hand a broad river-hat. Peter thought
that, if the Faun Man could see her now, he wouldn't wait much longer.
But it was contradictory--this that she had told him; he had always
supposed that it was she who had kept the Faun Man waiting. For himself
he was wishing that she were Cherry.

Before the mirror, over the empty fireplace, she stooped to adjust her
hat. Her arms curved up to her shining head, the loose sleeves falling
back from them; they looked like handles of ivory on a gold-rimmed
goblet. The motive of the attitude was lost on Peter; he only took in
the general effect. Her eyes, watching him from the glass, saw that.
He was thinking how na�ve she was to have taken thirty minutes over
dressing, and then to pretend that she had hurried by coming down with
her hat in her hand.

"Ready," she said. "Do you like me in this dress? If you don't, I'll
change it."

"If I took you at your word----. But would you really? I'm almost
tempted to put you to the test."

"I would really," she said.

"I do like you." He spoke with boyish downrightness. "You know jolly
well that you look splendid in anything."

She pretended to be abashed and hurried into the garden, singing just
above her breath,

                   "I like you in satin,

                   I like you in fluff."

She seemed to forget the words and hummed; but, as she came to the end
of the air, she crouched her chin against her shoulder, looking back at
him naughtily,

               "I love you and like you

               In--oh, anything at all."

They walked by the muffled river; trees were reflected so clearly on its
surface that it was easy to mistake illusion for reality. Everything was
asleep or listless in the summer sun. They came to a point where they
ferried across. They entered Kew Gardens and sauntered into the Palace
for coolness. They didn't care where their feet led them; all the while
they talked--about life, love, men and women, but really, under the
disguise of words, about Cherry and the Faun Man. In her company he had
found a sudden relief from suspense.

She was so smiling, so generous, and at times so anxious to be reckless,
like a clever child saying slant-eyed things of which the meaning
was half-guessed. He was elated to be seen with her; she was rare and
beautiful.

Toward evening he turned back from the land of stately trees and
grass-pavements to the clamor of the perturbed and narrow city. The
river was a thread of gold; the sun foundered red in a crimson sea of
cloud. The thread of gold broadened as bridges grew more frequent; black
wharfs took the place of meadows and sat huddled along the banks like
homeless beggars. But it was the majesty, not the meanness of London,
that impressed him. His eyes were on the horizon, where the lace-work
tower of Westminster shot up, sculptured and ethereal, and still further
beyond where, above herded roofs, the dome of St. Paul's protruded like
a woman's breast.

He landed at Westminster Bridge and ran up the steps. What a different
world! How many hours was it since he had been there? He had recovered
his sense of life's magic.

The tethered man in the ticket-office eyed him gloomily. "Still in a
hurry," he thought, "and with all the years of life before him. Ugh!"

That afternoon was the pattern of many that followed. He came from
London to Kew, simply and solely that he might speak about Cherry, and
always with the hope that he might gain some news of her. Subtly the
golden woman would lead the conversation round to herself. It was only
at parting that he would discover this. Once he said, laughingly, "Why,
we've spent all our time in talking about you!" Then he stopped, for
he saw that he had not pleased her. "Next time it shall be all about
Cherry," he told himself; but it wasn't.

He had never had a woman consult him before about her dress and the
styles of doing her hair. The golden woman did; she made him tell her
just what he preferred. When he met her, she came to express a part of
his personality.

In the intimacy which grew up between them, the small reserves of pride
and reticence were broken down. They spoke their minds aloud.

"I'm getting old, Peter," she would say. But this was only on the days
when she looked youngest.

If he had no money, he would tell her; then, she would either pay or
they would make their pleasures inexpensive. He regarded her as a sister
older than himself.

"What shall I call you?" he asked her. "Haven't you noticed that I have
no name for you?"

She slipped her arm into his. "The golden woman. I like that. It's
you--it has the touch of poetry."

"I gave you that name," he said, "the moment I saw you--years ago, at
the Happy Cottage."

She opened her eyes wide, pretending to be offended. "Years ago! How
cruel! Years ago to you; but to me not so long ago--four years, wasn't
it? Why do you say things that make me feel ancient?"

"When you're beautiful----." He got no farther; his tongue stumbled
at compliments. He was going to have said that, when you were very
beautiful, years didn't matter.

She caught at his words. "Then you think I'm beautiful?"

"Think, indeed!"

"As beautiful as Cherry?"

He avoided answering, saying instead, "See how everyone turns to look
after you."

She fell silent, only to return to the topic long after he had forgotten
it. "Yes, they look after me and go away. That isn't like having someone
with you always."

She could make him feel very unhappy--more unhappy than anyone he had
ever met. She could say such lonely things, and almost as though he
were to blame for her loneliness. She could talk exquisitely of love and
little children. He wondered why the Faun Man hadn't married her.

One afternoon he had stopped longer than usual. They had walked through
Kew Gardens, and had sat in a teagarden watching the trippers. It had
been one of their gay days, when they had built up absurd philosophies.
She had told him that all that any woman could love was the sixth part
of any man--all the other five-sixths were distasteful. Her idea was
that every woman should be allowed to have six husbands; then, by taking
what she liked out of each of them, she would have one perfect man. They
had dawdled in the tea-garden out of compassion, rescuing wasps with
teaspoons from drowning in the jam. When they rose to go, evening was
gathering. On the bridge they paused, gazing down at the gray creeping
of the river and the slow drifting of the boats. Suddenly she reverted
from gay to sad.

"If I were old, Peter, you wouldn't come to see me so often. One day,
though I try to fight it off, one day I shall be old." At the gate, in
the wistful twilight, she lifted up her face. "If I were to ask you to
kiss me, would you?"

"I think I would."

But she didn't ask him.

A strange summer made up of waiting, visits to Kew and interludes of
work! In those interludes he studied hard, putting the finishing touches
to his preparation for Oxford. The first question he always asked the
golden woman--asked her breathlessly--was, "Is there any news of her?"
The answer was always the same--a negative. Sometimes she would read him
portions of letters which she had received from the Faun Man. There was
never any mention of Cherry. He grew sick at heart with waiting. The
golden woman alone shared his secret; he could not bring himself to
speak of it at home.

His holiday was short that year--three weeks in Surrey. On his return
Glory came to stay at Topbury. How she had escaped his memory! He was
a little surprised by her quiet beauty; his surprise wore off as he got
used to her. She laid so little emphasis on herself. People were only
aware that she had been there when she had gone--an atmosphere of
kindness was lacking. Then they looked up, were puzzled and remembered,
"Oh yes, Glory. Where's she vanished? Thought she was here." She only
once penetrated into Peter's world--then only for a few hours. A boy in
love can think only of one woman.

That once occurred on a rainy morning, in the study which had been his
nursery. He had just sat down and had his nose in his books. Someone
touched him.

"Peter, you don't mind, do you? If you're busy now, I'll come again
later."

He looked up, his head between his hands, his hair all ruffled. "Sorry.
Didn't see that you were there. Anything you want me to do?"

The sensitive face flushed. He noticed that. The white hands fluttered
against her breast. "You know about father." Her voice was timid. It
strove and sank like a spent bird. "Nobody's told me. So, Peter, I came
to you."

"That's a shame. He used to be our secret. What d'you want to know about
him, Glory?"

She faltered like a girl much younger. "I want you to take me to him."

That afternoon on the top of a bus they set off to Soho together. What
that excursion meant to her, what thoughts tiptoed to and fro inside her
head, he never knew. He never guessed how proud she was to be seen alone
with him in public. Her thoughts tiptoed for that reason--so that no one
might ever guess. They found Uncle Waffles, waxed mustaches and dingy
spats, seated in a dingy shop. They had to descend a step to enter. The
riot of dirt distressed Glory. She wanted to busy herself with a duster,
until her stepfather discouraged her, telling her that it was no use--it
would be as bad to-morrow; in fact, in his line of trade, dirt was a
kind of advertisement.

Just as they were sitting down to tea, Mr. Widow, the murderer, joined
them. They found him a very severe old gentleman, with chop-whiskers
and an eye to other people's imperfections. Prison seemed to have
strengthened his moral views. Once he referred to "my poor wife," in a
tone which implied that she had died respectably of bloodpoisoning or
cancer.

Before they left, Uncle Waffles took Peter aside and borrowed
two-and-sixpence in a whisper. So the tea was quite expensive. Perhaps
the ease with which he had contrived to borrow had something to do with
the heartiness of his invitation that they should drop in whenever they
were passing.

That evening, when Glory came to bid Peter good-night, she asked,
"You'll take me again, won't you. He's--I don't think he's happy."

Peter dragged his thoughts away from his work. "Don't you? Perhaps Mr.
Widow isn't tremendously cheerful company. Of course I'll take you."

His eyes were going back to his books. Glory hesitated at the door,
saw that he had forgotten her and slipped out. There was a song about a
rooted tree and a winged bird; had he looked up at that moment and seen
her expression, he might have remembered it.




CHAPTER XXXVI--THE SPREADING OF WINGS

He might have been setting out for Australia or to explore Tibet, they
made such a final matter of his going. The way in which he was waited
on, considered and admired brought to his remembrance those early days
when he had been sent to Miss Rufus to be cured of his 'magination.

"But motherkins, dearest, Oxford's only sixty miles--a two hours'
journey. I can write to you the last thing at night and you can be
reading me next morning at breakfast."

Nan shook her head. "It's the spreading of wings, Peter--the first
flight from the nest. You'll come back, of course; but always more
rarely."

She foresaw in this first departure, all the other departures that lay
ahead. The day was coming when she would be left alone. She pictured
herself as old and grayheaded, sitting listening to phantom footsteps
of memories which passed and repassed, but never brought the living
presence. Already she tasted the bitterness of the woman who, having
been first, must learn to be second in the affections of those who were
part of her body. Kay and Peter were growing up. They would soon have
their secrets--their interests which she could not share. They would
marry and enter her house as visitors. She pictured all that; the
spreading of wings had commenced.

When Peter had been a little boy at Sandport, certain lines had driven
the tears into her eyes with their wistful yearning. They were often on
her lips now:

          "Oh, to come home once more, when the dusk is falling,

          To see the nursery lighted and the children's table spread;

          'Mother, mother, mother!' the eager voices calling,

          'The baby was so sleepy that she had to go to bed.'"

Already the inexorable law of change had taken her babies from her, and
soon----. There would come a day when the rooms would be empty; her
home would become again what it was before she had entered it--merely a
house.

When Peter laughed at her tenderly, attempting to coax her into braver
thoughts, she clung to him, searching his face to discover the odd
little boy who had asked such curious questions. For his sake she would
smile through her tears, saying, "I'm just a silly woman, getting
old, Peter. Don't think that I grudge you anything. I don't, I don't,
only--only it's the first spreading of wings--the struggling out of the
nest."

It was true--truer than she fancied; there was Cherry.

However late he worked in those last days, however noiseless he made his
feet upon the stairs, she heard him. Creeping from her room, she would
stand white-robed beside his bed, stoop above his face on the pillow and
tuck him up warmly. It wouldn't be for much longer--he was almost a man.

And Billy--he tried to laugh her out of a sentiment which he fought down
in himself. Manlike, he disguised his feelings. He took so much interest
in the preparations, that it might have been he, instead of Peter,
who was going up to Oxford. By day he pretended to be cheerful; but at
night, when she lay down beside him, after her excursions to Peter's
bedroom, he would take her in his arms, whispering the old endearments,
"Golden little Nan," and "Princess Pepperminta," just to let her
understand that, whoever went from her, he would be left.

One October afternoon Mr. Grace, the herald of Topbury's great
occasions, drew up against the pavement. Boxes were carried out. Cat's
Meat shuffled away into the distance. At the end of the Terrace, Peter
leant from the window; they were still there, waving from the steps.
He had begged them not to come to the station; he knew they would break
down. He turned the corner--his flight had begun in earnest. While
familiar sights lasted, he was conscious not of adventure, but
depression. Yes, that was the house from the dusk of whose garden a hand
had stretched out to grasp him. Strange, and this was the same Christmas
cab! Inanimate things hadn't changed; it was he who had altered.

Then came the excitement of Paddington--undergrads with golf-bags slung
across their shoulders; others who were spectacled and looked learned;
still others with ties of contrasting hues and secret significance--a
crowd superbly young and enthusiastic, which did its best to appear
blas�. And then the rush of the train, the exalted sense of opportunity,
the overwhelming consciousness of manhood, and that first night of
romantic speculation within the gray walls of Calvary College! Bells,
hanging so high and sounding so mellow that they seemed to swing from
clouds, struck out the hours. His mother had heard them, those same
bells, in her girlhood. By craning out, he could see the window from
which Jehane had caught first sight of his father and had called Nan's
attention. He was beginning his journey at the spot where his parents'
journey, halfway over, had commenced. Would he and Cherry tell their
children stories of where and how they had met? He and Cherry! It was of
her that he was thinking when Harry Arran entered and found him seated
among his partly opened boxes.

"Tried to reach you all summer," Peter said.

Harry was taking stock of the room's contents. "I say, old boy, you've
brought no end of furniture. You'll be quite a swell.---- What's that?
Tried to reach us with letters, did you? We never got one of 'em. Never
knew our next address ourselves. Just went wandering, you know. My
brother's such an erratic chap."

Peter turned away, so that his face would not be seen, and spoke in an
offhand manner. "Cherry with you?"

The question tickled Harry. He straddled his legs and watched his
friend's back, tilting his head toward his shoulder with a magpie
expression of impertinent knowledge. "Cherry with us! No, jolly fear.
She's a nice kid and all that, but we weren't out for love-affairs.
Fact is, I was trying to make that silly ass brother of mine forget one
woman. We carried knapsacks and went almost in rags. But what made you
ask?"

"I thought she was. The golden woman said----."

Harry interrupted. "Oh, so you've been seeing _her!_" He pronounced
_her_ with his old hostility. "I wouldn't see too much of her."

Peter smiled quietly. How unjust Harry had always been to his brother's
women friends! He was still the mouth-organ boy, only a little too old
now to climb trees to display his jealousy. Did he think that he could
protect the Faun Man forever from marrying? Didn't it ever enter his
head that he might fall in love himself? And yet Peter sympathized with
Harry, for he had the same feelings with regard to Kay. He would hate
any man who tried to win her. That was a long way off--she was only
thirteen at present. His thoughts came back to Harry. "So, if you were
me, you wouldn't see too much of her! Why not? I've been feeling--well,
rather sorry for her."

"You have, have you?" Harry laughed tolerantly. "Sorry for her! Pooh!
People who begin by feeling sorry for Eve end by being sorry for
themselves. She always starts her affairs like that, by getting
people sorry for her. Don't you know what's the matter with her? She's
selfish--a lap-dog kind of woman, born to be petted, but of no use
whatever in the world. She wants everyone to love her, and gives nothing
in return. She doesn't play the game, Peter; she expects to have a man
always toddling after her, but she won't marry him because----. I don't
know; I suppose it would disturb her to have children." Harry paused,
waiting for Peter to argue with him. When his remarks were met without
challenge, he continued, "She doesn't mean any harm--her sort never
does; but she's a jolly sight more dangerous than if she were immoral.
She gambles like an expert as long as luck's with her; the moment she
loses, she pretends to be a little child who doesn't understand the
rules. So she wins all the time and never pays back. She's kept my
brother feverish for years, loving him, and then, when it comes to
the point, not knowing whether she really loves him. Gives her a nice
comfortable sense, when anything goes wrong with her investments, to
feel that he's always in the background. I'm sick of it. She's a ship
that's always setting sail for new lands and never coming to anchor.
Lorie's too fine a chap to be kept dawdling his life away by a vain
woman. Some day she won't be quite so pretty--she dreads that already;
it's part of her shallowness. Then she'll run to cover, if any man'll
have her.---- You don't believe me. Suppose you think every woman's wild
to be married?"

"I don't think that." In this particular Peter flattered himself that he
had had more experience than Harry.

Harry took him up shrewdly. "If you don't think it, you wish you did.
You'll see, if you live long enough. There are heaps of well-bred
women like Eve, with the greed of chorus-girls and the morals of
refrigerators. And here's something else for your protection--Eve can't
bear to see any woman loved except herself. Lorie knows all this, and
still he's infatuated--plays Dante to her Beatrice. She isn't worth
it. She tells him she isn't worth it; that makes him think she's noble.
She--she sucks men's souls out for the fun of doing it when she isn't
thirsty, and flings them in the gutter like squeezed oranges."

Peter's case was so nearly similar to the Faun Man's that he couldn't
bear this conversation. It was as though Harry was describing and
accusing Cherry. _She sucks men's souls out and flings them in the
gutter like squeezed oranges_. And Cherry hadn't been thirsty either;
she had pretended that she hadn't wanted to do it.

"But Cherry," he said, "do you know where she is and anything about
her?"

Harry looked at him squarely, a little pityingly. He sat down and
crossed his legs. "Yes. We took her abroad with us and dropped her at
the convent-school. She's---- I don't know. She's got a queer streak in
her--she's an exotic." And then, "I suppose you know that she thinks
she's in love with Lorie?"

Peter bit his lip; he drew his knee up with his hands clasped about it.
"I know that. And the Faun Man, does he care for her?"

Harry laughed. "On that score you don't need to be jealous. He wishes
she wasn't such a little donkey. He's bored by it. It complicates
matters most frightfully; he's her guardian. We had a most awful job in
shaking her. That's why we left her at the convent. Had a rotten scene
in Paris--tears and hysterics. She'd planned to make a third in our
party. We weren't on for it, you can bet your hat."

Peter grew impatient at Harry's way of talking. He spoke shortly. "So
you know where she is? You can give me her address?"

"I can't." The grin of the mouth-organ boy, poking fun at everything,
accompanied the refusal. "The kid made us promise not to tell you. She
has her own idea of playing fair. Wish Eve had." He yawned. "By George,
time I was off to bed. I've got to be up bright and early to-morrow to
call on Mr. Thing--the tutor-bird."

Left alone in the stillness, Peter did not stir. In the street, below
his window, footsteps echoed at rare intervals. Now and then, as
men parted in the quadrangle, laughter burst on the night and voices
shouted. Then, again, he heard the bells, high up and spectral, telling
him that time was passing. He thought about Harry, envying him the
cavalier cloak of indifference behind which he hid his sensitiveness. He
thought about the Faun Man, with his fine faculty for loving wasted all
these years by an undecided woman. And he thought of Eve and how she had
misled him, letting him believe that the Faun Man had deserted her. Why
had she done it? And then he thought of Cherry, poor little Cherry, who
was keeping out of his way that she might play fair.

But he would make her love him. He would work day and night to make
himself splendid. He was nothing at present--had nothing to offer her.
But, one day----. And so, with the invincible optimism of youth, he
pulled himself together. He was a knight riding out on a quest, wearing
his lady's badge to bring her honor.

Had he cared, he might have pictured to himself the other adventurers
he had known, who had ridden out in the same brave belief that life was
romantic: Jehane, who had looked from the window across the street and
had beckoned with her eyes, only to give a husband to another woman;
Ocky Waffles, who had come to her as the feeble substitute for the
nobility she had coveted; his mother and father for whom, despite its
kindness, life had proved a pedestrian affair. But, on his first night
in this city of dreamers, he saw, stretching away below him, wide
landscapes of illusion. There was so much to do, so much to experience,
so much to dare. The spreading of wings had brought him to a crag from
which he viewed, not the catastrophe of sunsets, but the riot of
morning boiling up against cloud-precipices and pouring ensaffroned
and clamorous across the world. He saw only the glory of its challenge,
nothing of its threat.

In the weeks that followed his belief in the marvelousness of mere
living was quickened. The head and shoulders of the marvel were that,
for the first time, he was lord of his own existence. Like God, he could
create himself. Mr. Thing, the tutor-bird, advised him, in a sneering
tone of voice, that he had a chance of a first in Honor Mods. Mr. Thing
had become embittered by past experience with other brilliant students.
"If you don't take to drink and to yowling like a cat of nights, you may
do it, Mr. Barrington. But I expect you'll run wild like the rest."

Peter was claimed by Roy Hardcastle, the captain of the boats. His
breadth and height, and slightness of hip marked him as a potential
oarsman. Every afternoon he ran down through the meadows to the barges,
there to be tubbed and sworn at by the coaches. He rowed in the Junior
Fours as stroke and won his race. He was chosen as stroke for the
Toggers--after that his career as an athlete was settled. Calvary men
began to prophesy a rowing future for him. He noticed that men, not
of his own college, paused on the bank to watch his style as his eight
swung by.

The keenness of Oxford life awoke him to his powers; the contempt in
which slackers were held spurred him forward. He had never been called
upon to test his personality in competition with others. The experience
took him out of himself, but beneath externals he remained the same
simple-hearted, compassionate idealist. He was different from other men,
and other men knew it. Perhaps it was that he was uncivilized, as
the golden woman had told him--uncivilized in the sense of being
unsophisticated and intense. Perhaps it was that his standards were
pitched high, and that he was chivalrous in his attitude of cleanness
toward himself. At all events, it never entered his head that the sowing
of wild oats was a legitimate employment. Men stopped talking about
certain adventures when he was present.

Even Mr. Thing, the tutor-bird, felt it--this subtle atmosphere of
robust innocence, which Peter carried about with him, an innocence which
bore no resemblance to the lily-white priggishness of a Sir Galahad.
Mr. Thing was rather surprised; he had always felt virtue in a man to be
offensive and had compared it to a prim little maid attired for a party,
refusing to romp with bolder children for fear she should spoil her
dress.

Mr. Thing was a don of the old school, a two-bottle man; not
infrequently about midnight he was intoxicated. It was said that under
the influence of wine his scholarship was ripest. He would recite
rolling speeches from Thucydides in the language of Athens, working
himself up into fervor and tears, declaiming in a voice which trembled
with humanity and trumpeted with valor. But when, after drinking to
excess, he met Peter beneath the stars in the shadowy quads, he
seemed conscious that an excuse was necessary. He invented a lie, this
gray-haired scholar, beneath which to hide his shame from clear-eyed
youth. It was reported that he was getting ready for the Judgment Day,
that he might be letter-perfect in his apology to his maker.

"Been to the fun'ral of a dear fr'end, Mr. Barrington--a very dear
fr'end. Been taking the sharp edge off my grief. You haven't losht a
dear fr'end--not so dear as I have. So don't you do it."

He showed drunken concern lest Peter should do it, and had to be
reassured many times. At last, shaking his head sceptically, he would
permit Peter to pilot him to his room. The boy's erectness hurt him; it
accused him. It caused him to look back and remember another lad, who,
beyond the waste of misspent years, had been not unlike him. One night,
made carelessly sentimental by an extra bottle, he told the truth.
"Wasn't always like this, Mr. Barrington. I was something like you--only
a little reckless. She said she'd wait for me, and then----. So that's
why. Now you know it."

Cakes and ale in the imagination of young Oxford are usually associated
with licence. To be abstemious is to be unpopular and entails persistent
ragging. Peter believed whole-heartedly in the consumption of cakes and
ale, so long as it wasn't carried to the point of gluttony. He was eager
to taste life, and took part in all the fun that was going; only always
at the back of his mind lay the thought of Cherry--he must make himself
fine for her, so as to be worthy.

He got into frequent adventurous scrapes. He was present at the Empire
with Harry when a young lady, whose stockings were the most conspicuous
part of her clothing, came to the footlights and sang a song, each verse
of which ended with the question,

                        "Will you risk?

                        I'd risk it.

                        Wouldn't you?"

Harry couldn't bear that she should go away unanswered. The courtesy
of the 'Varsity was jeopardized. Moreover, she was pretty and only
the musicians separated him from the stage. The theme of the song was
kissing. He leapt the orchestra-rail, splashed his foot on the key-board
of the piano, seized her hand and hauled himself up beside her,
shouting, "Yes, I'll risk it."

She hadn't intended her invitation to be taken so seriously. With
becoming modesty she broke away from him, just as he was about to prove
his assertion that he'd risk it. Harry followed her, in one wing and
out the other, to and fro across the stage. The theatre rose yelling,
watching this amorous game of hide-and-seek. Of a sudden the cry,
"Proggins! Proggins!" went up. The Proctor and his bulldogs entered.
Harry jumped from the stage into his seat. Some considerate person
turned out the lights and there was a rush of undergrads for the exits.
Peter and Harry burst into the night with the Proctor's bulldogs
close behind them. Then came the long run; the brilliant plan,
Peter's invention, that they should escape over walls instead of by
thoroughfares; the clambering and climbing, the dashes across gardens
and the final escape into freedom through the house of a startled old
gentleman who threw his slipper after them--but not for luck.

Harry, as a rule, was the initiator of their escapades; Peter championed
them to a finish gamely. The mouth-organ boy walked through the world
with a roving eye, seeking always new lands of innocent adventure.
When he had almost come to shipwreck on some wild coast of whimsical
absurdity, it was Peter who hurried to his rescue. The song which he had
sung in the tree-tops of Friday Lane had been a prophecy. He still sang
it in the austere city of gray walls and spires. It was a p�an of high
spirits and irrepressible youth:

               "I've been shipwrecked off Patagonia,

               Home and Colonia,

               Antipodonia;

               I've shot cannibals,

               Funny-looking animals,

               Top-knot coons;

               I've bought diamonds twenty a penny there,

               I've been somewhere, nowhere, anywhere--

               And I'm the wise, wise man of the wide, wide world."

When he sang it, he and Peter would look at one another, with eyes
laughing, and would talk of Kay--of how they had commenced their
friendship by fighting over her, and of how--of so many things that were
kind and golden, like memories of spring days when the wind is blowing.
Little Kay, with her delicate face and shining hair, she stood a white
flower in the shadow-wood of remembrance--a narcissus-shrine to which
their steps were continually returning. So, while undergraduates of
the Roy Hardcastle type shouted themselves hoarse on Saturday nights at
college wine-clubs, making a rowdy effort to be men, Peter and Harry,
without effort, remained boys and sat concocting fairy-tale letters to
a little girl at Topbury. They refused to credit the evidence of their
eyes, that she was growing up. They signed their letters jointly,
filling them with ridiculous tenderness. She received them every Monday
morning at breakfast, and was made to feel that she was still a sharer
in their lives. Because Cherry postponed her coming, Peter had to have
some outlet for his affection. In a curious way he made his little
sister the temporary substitute for the girl he loved. It did not occur
to him to inquire what motives prompted Harry's epistolary philanthropy.

Jehane did not at once fulfil her promise to send her girls to stay with
Professor Usk. On his return home for Christmas Peter discovered
the reason. Riska was in the throes of her first romance. At Topbury
shoulders were shrugged. Of course girls of fifteen did have their
flirtations, but it was only among the lower-classes that they were
openly acknowledged and dignified into love-affairs. Jehane, however,
took the matter seriously. She explained why. The young fellow was
a good catch and four years Riska's senior; he was the son of a
speculative builder who was invading Southgate with an army of
jerry-built villas. The story of how Riska had effected the young man's
capture proved that Jehane's training had been efficient. Riska had
shown a fine faculty for seizing her strategic opportunity. Barrington's
comment when he heard it was brief and to the point, "Ought to
be spanked. If she grows up this way, she'll make her face the
dumping-ground for anybody's kisses."

That was just it; in her fear lest her girls should never marry, Jehane
had taught Riska, who was more apt a pupil than Glory, to welcome
any comer without fastidiousness. There was nothing heaven-sent about
marriage; it was a lucky-bag, into which you thrust your hand and
grabbed; or, to employ her old parable, maidenhood was a raft from which
girls who were wise escaped at the first opportunity, in cockle-boats,
on boards and even by swimming--the great object was to reach the land
of matrimony before the distance between the shore and the raft had
lengthened. Possibly one might get wet in the effort. One couldn't
be too nice over an affair so desperate. It was anything to attain a
marriage-song.

This was how Riska's first excursion from the raft occurred. She had
been out riding her bicycle and a hat had blown by her. The hat must
belong to a head. She espied the head and liked it; therefore she chased
the hat. Having caught it, she waited for the owner to come up. She
accepted his thanks and indulged in a few minutes' conversation. Next
day, riding along the same road at the same hour, she had encountered
the owner of the hat again. After that, good-luck and liking had taken
a hand in bringing them together. Soon he had been invited to tea at the
cottage. Jehane had made things easy for him. She had learnt that his
father was a self-made, ambitious man, who wore side-whiskers and hoped
to die a baronet.

"The Governor," the boy had told her, "wants me to marry well." There
lay the rub. Would his father consider Riska good enough? The name of
the young fellow was Bonaparte Triggers.

Jehane felt that it was absolutely necessary that young Triggers should
be socially impressed. She persuaded Barrington to allow Riska to bring
her suitor to Topbury. Before he came, she issued a careful warning
that no mention was to be made of Ocky Waffles. Closely questioned, she
admitted that, without deliberately lying, she had let the boy suppose
that she was a widow.

"But, if he's seriously in love with Riska, you'll have to tell him,"
Barrington objected.

Jehane's face clouded. "That's my affair. Who'd marry the daughter of a
convict? It's easy for you to talk."

"Then you mean that----? Look here, I'm not criticizing; but don't
you think that this'll look like deception? Supposing he married Riska
without knowing, he'd be bound to find out after. Let Riska tell him.
If he's the right kind of a chap, he'll love her all the more for her
honesty."

Jehane lost her temper as far as she dared. "You've always been against
me--always. Of course, if you're ashamed of us, and don't want Riska to
bring him----."

There was no arguing along these lines. Barrington gave his reluctant
consent.

Riska came, bringing with her Bonaparte Triggers, a flashy youth with
a cockney thinness of accent. The purpose of his visit was to be
impressed; he made it clear from the start that he had come to impress.
He did not belong to a world of culture and felt, as Ocky Waffles
had felt before him, that an effort was being made to rob him of
his self-possession. He resisted the effort by smoking innumerable
cigarettes, and tried to parade his own paces by accompanying himself
on the piano while he sang music-hall ditties of the latest
hug-me-quick-and-not-too-delicately order. His visit was not a success.
He was jerry-built, like his father's villas.

After he had departed. Nan had the nervous desire to fling up all
the windows and to go through the house with a duster. It wasn't
snobbishness on her part, but she was unaccustomed to see fingers
squeezed and kisses exchanged in public. Barrington found her in the
drawing-room and slipped his hand into hers. "It's as I thought; Riska's
not in love with him. Her mother's trained her to believe that the first
man to come should be the first man accepted. And, d'you know, Nan----?"

"What, Billy?"

"Didn't you notice anything? She's pretty and she's sweet, because she's
young; but already she's getting hard and calculating like Jehane. I'm
afraid for her--she's more passion than her mother ever had. She's ripe
fruit, and not sixteen yet; if she isn't plucked, she'll fall to the
ground.---- It's a horrible thing to say of a young girl."

And then, "I don't like him; but I hope he marries her."

He didn't marry her; Peter and Glory were blamed for that. Without
telling anyone, they arranged to give Ocky a Christmas treat. What form
the treat was to take caused many secret discussions. They had to
be secret--all Glory's dealings with her stepfather were secret; the
mention of his name was forbidden by her mother.

"How about a theatre?" Peter suggested.

Glory shook her quiet head. "He's not very intellectual."

"Well, a pantomime?"

Glory nodded. "I believe he'd like that."

So once again she set out alone with her tall cousin on the top of a
bus. For a few brief hours he was to be hers entirely. In anticipating
the adventure, she had racked her brains to think of entertaining
subjects to talk about. She was terribly afraid she would bore him; she
believed him to be so extraordinarily clever. She needn't have worried.
He was a big boy on that winter's afternoon and not a man. Directly they
were out of sight of the Terrace, he took her arm.

"But Peter!" she protested, her face flushing.

"Don't be a little silly," he told her; "you'll slip on the snow and
fall down.------ I say, Glory, you do look ripping. How you have got
yourself up! You've put on everything except the parlor sofa."

At Topbury Corner he wanted to take a hansom, but she insisted on a bus.
"No, really. I prefer it. I've a reason--yes. But I wouldn't tell you
what it is for worlds."

Her reason was that she was afraid to be left alone with him lest she
should grow self-conscious. It was easier to talk in crowds. And how
they did talk! Her little prepared speeches, her scraps of nervously
gathered information were all forgotten. They were two children
sailing through a Christmas world on a schooner of the London streets.
House-tops were white with snow; shops gay with decorations. In the
murky grayness of the sky a derelict sun wallowed, like a ship on fire.
It was a happy day; their eyes were bright to find something on every
hand to laugh about. Now it was a cutler's window, merry with mistletoe
and holly, all a-gleam with gnashing knives and razors, across which
was pasted the legend, "Remember the Loved Ones at Home." Now it was an
undertaker's, in which stood a placard:


DO IT NOW JOIN MY COFFIN CLUB

ANYONE CAN LIVE

MAKE SURE OF GETTING

BURIED A TACTFUL CHRISTMAS PRESENT

GIVE A YEAR'S SUBSCRIPTION

TO A FRIEND


Glory grew out of her shyness; she snuggled her chin against her
squirrel muff, laughing and chatting, saying things which surprised
herself. Peter kept glancing at her side-long. She was tender-looking.
Yes, she was like Kay. He'd noticed that before. He noticed her for a
day, and then forgot her for months. It had always been like that.
Was it his fault? She was like a snow-drop--she had a knack of hiding
herself.

They got off at Wardour Street, tunneling into dingy alleys from which
Italy watches strangers with sad brown eyes, dreaming of vineyards and
sun-baked towns.

Glory twitched his arm. "Down here. It's a short cut."

"Hulloa! You don't mean to say that you've been here by yourself?"

She looked guilty; then smiled up from beneath her lashes. She had
nothing to fear from Peter. "Often, since you first brought me. Once a
week, at least; but don't tell mother. He's got no one to love except
Mr. Widow. I--I'm sorry for him."

Mr. Widow certainly wasn't much to love. The secondhand shop had a
cheerless aspect. On this winter's day the door stood open; Mr. Widow
held that it was tempting to customers. Ocky crouched over a coke-stove,
rubbing his hands. The moment Glory entered, she hurried toward him,
putting her arms about his neck. His face lit up. "Why, it's Glory!
Little Glory!" He ran his hands over her. "How beautiful! But you
oughtn't to come. The Duchess'll find out. Oh yes, she will. She always
finds out. Then, there'll be a row."

He caught sight of Peter. "Ha! Young Oxford to see his poor old uncle!
I went to Oxford once. Humph! Got married there. A bad day's work! A bad
day's work!"

They told him their plans. He wanted to ask Mr. Widow's permission--Mr.
Widow didn't approve of theatres. "Let him go hang," Peter said.

"That's all very well." Ocky shook his head thoughtfully. "All very
well! But he may let me go hang one fine morning. What then?"

It was quite evident that Ocky was losing his pluck. He would have
forgotten his spats and would have forgotten to twirl his mustaches, if
Glory hadn't been at hand to make him jaunty.

They popped him into a hansom and whirled him off to dinner at the
Trocadero. He sat between them, holding Glory's hand and blinking at the
glaring shops; he was more accustomed to darkness. At the entrance to
the restaurant he clutched at Peter, "I don't belong here, old chap."

"Nonsense. Glory and I----"

All through dinner Peter told his uncle what he and Glory were going to
do for him. By-and-bye he, Peter, would have money. When he had money,
he would buy a little house in the country. Ocky should live there with
Glory, and he, Peter, between the intervals of making more money, would
run down and visit them. It seemed almost true, almost possible, in
that brilliant room where the corks flew out of bottles and the music
clashed. It almost seemed that the world was generous--that it would
give him another chance. He gazed from the eager boy, so keen to
convince him of happiness, to the flower-face of his stepdaughter, which
nodded and nodded, insisting, "Yes. Yes. Yes," to Peter's optimism.
He asked if he might have whisky. When he got it, he tried to deceive
himself and others as to the quantity he was drinking.

"God bless my soul! I've made my whisky too strong." Then he would
dilute it. "God bless my soul! I've made my whisky too weak." The
alcohol whipped up his courage. Of course there were good times coming.
Peter would see to it; he never promised anything that he didn't
accomplish. Then, again he caught sight of the two young faces--but what
had Peter to do with Glory?

They stepped into another hansom. Piccadilly Circus was a blazing jewel.
Streets were gun-metal, washed with liquid gold. People were silver
flowers. Peter would do it.

The curtain went up. He was a child again. He laughed at everything. How
long was it since he had laughed? He kept nudging his companions, afraid
lest they should miss the jokes. They were just the kind of jokes he
used to make--Mr. Widow was his only audience now. You couldn't expect
a murderer to be a humorist--if he were a humorist he wouldn't be a
murderer.

He had laughed rather louder than usual. Someone turned round in the row
just in front. A girl! He looked more closely. She was staring at him.
Her companion followed her eyes, seemed surprised, and nodded to Peter
and Glory. All through the evening the strange man kept turning round
stealthily--the girl, without seeming to do so, was trying to prevent
him.

Next day, when Glory returned from Topbury to Southgate, Riska met her
with clenched hands.

"Now you've done it."

"Done what?"

"Lost him for me. He's begun to suspect. He wants to know who was that
shabby man with you and Peter. Of course I daren't tell him. He says I
look like him. You stupid! And last night I'm sure he was going to have
proposed to me.--And Ocky isn't even your father."

It was all too true; Bonaparte Triggers had done with Riska. He sent
her a formal letter, breaking off everything. "My father," he wrote,
"happens to know Lawyer Wagstaff, your father's old employer. At first
I wouldn't believe that you were his daughter. I wouldn't have minded,
anyhow; I was in love with you. But you and your mother lied to me about
it. I could never trust you after that. The moment I saw that man with
your cousin and Glory I knew the truth."

So ended Riska's first attempt to plunge from the raft. She clambered
back, a little damp, but with her heart intact. Glory was blamed for
the catastrophe; in future she had to be more careful in meeting Ocky.
Barrington, after a stormy interview with Jehane in which Peter was
accused, shook his head, "Riska! Humph! Poor kiddy, I'm sorry. She's
ripe fruit, Peter. Mark my words; if she isn't plucked, she'll fall to
the ground."




CHAPTER XXXVII--THE RACE


"Get ready. Paddle."

Peter's oar gripped the water. The seven men behind him swung out. For
a second he raised his eyes from the boat, searching the faces on the
barge. She wasn't there--Cherry. The Faun Man had promised to bring her
up to Oxford for the last great race of Eights' Week. Perhaps she had
refused to come. Perhaps the train was late. Perhaps----.

On the roof of the barge he could see Kay, with Harry standing beside
her. His mother and father, most manifestly proud of him, were there.
Glory--yes, she was waving. But they--all of them together--they counted
for so little because Cherry was absent. It was his great week. He was
proving himself a man--more than a dreamer. Every night his eight had
made its bump. People said that it was the stroke-oar who had done it.
He so wanted her to see him. He was going to stroke Calvary to the head
of the river. It was the last night; only Christ Church was in front.

All along the bank to his right lay college barges, gay and animated
with girls and flowers. Behind still trees of the meadows, beneath
which cattle grazed, spires and domes soared dreamily against the deep
horizon.

The others were working as one man behind him. The eight jumped forward
as though it were a live thing. How fit he felt!

Punts and canoes blocked their passage.

"Look ahead, sir. Look ahead."

They had to halt. From the tow-path men shouted encouragement,
"Calvary--up! Up!"

They rang dinner-bells, banged gongs, twirled rattles, fired pistols. It
was deafening, maddening.

Other eights passed them, shooting down to Iffley to the lower stations.
Some were crews they had defeated on previous evenings. Then came Christ
Church, broad shoulders and tanned bodies swinging. They stopped rowing,
and rattled their oars in salute and challenge.

The red-headed cox, glancing at the rivals, leant forward and spoke
to Peter. "They're top o' their training. It'll be a long chase. We'll
catch 'em by the barges."

Peter nodded and squared his mouth doggedly. "By the barges, if not
earlier. Anyway, we'll catch 'em."

Would she be there? Inside his head he was trying to picture her. How
would she be dressed? A year since they met! So long!

They came to their station. Astern lay the other boats, trailed out one
behind the other, pointing their noses upstream for the start. He turned
to look ahead; the Christ Church crew were pulling off their scarfs.

Hardcastle, who was rowing at seven, leant forward and touched him, "For
God's sake, keep it long and steady."

A deep boom, muttering and ominous. The minute-gun had sounded. Someone
on the bank, with a watch in his hand, commenced counting off
the seconds. College-bargemen eased the eight out into the river,
maneuvering with poles to get her prow at the right angle, so no time
might be lost.

"Are you ready?"

The counting stopped. Peter brought his slide forward, bracing his feet
against the stretcher. A pause, still as death. The last gun sounded.

"Row, you devils. Pick it up. Six, you're late. Steady coming forward.
Up, Calvary! Up!"

The blades whipped the water, the river boiled past them. From the bank
came the clamor of running feet and shouting, as if an asylum had been
freed for a holiday.

Peter saw nothing--only the red fiend of a cox, his mouth wide open,
screaming shrill oaths of rebuke or encouragement. He had stopped
cursing. He was giving them tens.

Peter quickened his stroke. From one to ten, over and over, the counting
went on. Would it never stop? He ached in every muscle. Could he never
slack off? He clenched his teeth and spurted. The boat responded.

"Back him up," yelled the cox; "you're gaining."

Peter wondered whether they were; he longed to turn and see for himself.

"Now, then, for all you're worth. Well rowed, Calvary. Well rowed,
indeed. Stick to it."

Left to itself, his body would have crumbled. His back felt broken.
There was a buzzing in his head. Something stronger than will power--a
corporate spirit of honor, which the men behind him shared--kept him
going.

"Give her ten."

The cox was counting again. His face was as flaming as his hair with
excitement; he was swinging with the oarsmen, as if the jerking of his
slight body could make the boat travel faster.

"Going up, Calvary. Half a length."

Ha! The cox wasn't lying now. Peter could feel the wash of the eight
they were pursuing. They were creeping up slowly. From the bank his name
was thundered.

"Barrington. Barrington. Well rowed, Barrington. Row like hell."

By jingo, he would! He'd show 'em! There shouldn't be anything left of
him. And Cherry----.

Everything was growing dark. Sometimes the mist before his eyes parted;
he caught glimpses of the flaring head of the cox. Sometimes he could
see nothing, and heard only the endless shouting, bidding him row
faster, always faster. Where were they? Had the race only just
commenced? He seemed to have been struggling for hours. The dread grew
up in him that he would never reach the end. He would collapse. He----.
But still he went on.

Women's voices! They must be passing the barges, racing down the last of
the course. When his sight cleared, he saw them--steep banks of women's
faces, shining and nodding, and fluttering into the far distance.

Christ Church! By Jove, they must be nearly on them. He could feel the
turmoil of the beaten water. They were rowing Christ Church down.

"Give her ten."

The cox was counting hysterically. Peter tried to pick it up. He
couldn't. He knew it. He was going to pieces. His stroke was flagging.
And then----. What was that?

"Peter. Peter. Peter."

As the eight fled by he heard it--a girl's voice frantically urging him.
And a man's--he heard that, too. "Go it, Peter. Well rowed, old top."

Only the Faun Man would have called him old top. She was there to see
him! His last strength returned. He pulled himself together and swung
out. The oars behind him were getting in late; he could feel the boat
dragging. It didn't matter; he'd take her to the head of the river, if
he were the only man left rowing.

Bedlam was all about him. The cox bent forward, shrieking at him, trying
to make himself heard above the racket. He caught what he said: "Only a
foot now."

What was happening? A jerk! The boat paused and shuddered. It had
touched something. Then again it started forward. Someone was telling
him to stop. He wouldn't stop; they'd wanted him to go on before. He
was going to make sure. By his side he saw something like a broken bird,
trailing in the water. Then he saw eight men, fallen forward, spent and
panting. People were cheering. On the bank they were dancing. The cox
laid his hands on his oar to stay him. He was grinning from ear to ear.
"You silly devil! Leave off!"

It dawned on him. They'd made their bump--gone ahead of the river. And
she'd been there to watch him!




CHAPTER XXXVIII--A NIGHT OF IT

The college and its guests were assembled. Peter and his eight, with
members of the crews they had defeated, were seated at the high table.
The bump-supper was in progress. Scarcely anyone was absolutely sober.
For the first time in history Calvary had gone up seven places and had
finished head of the river.

Stoop-shouldered dons, men who held themselves aloof with a scholar's
shyness, broke their rule to-night and hobnobbed with undergraduates.
The dim old college hall was-uproarious with strong laughter and bass
voices. The animal splendor of youth, the rage of life, as seen that
afternoon on the river, had lured them away from cramped texts and
grievous truths contained in books--had opened their eyes to a more
vigorous and primitive conception of living.

A German Rhodes scholar, seated next to the college chaplain, was trying
to teach him that scandalous libel against all parsons, The Ballad of
The Parson's Cow. The chaplain, who on more formal occasions would have
felt insulted, was doing his eager best to pick up the words and tune.
He kept assuring the German Rhodes scholar of his immense gratitude.
He compared The Ballad of The Parson's Cow to Piers the Ploughman, and
affected to regard it as a literary pearl of great price.

Somewhere in the distance, behind clouds of tobacco smoke, Harry was
singing his latest. Dons said "Shish!" gazing round with half-hearted
severity. Nobody paid them much attention. Topsy-turvydom ruled;
discipline was at an end. Behind the clouds of tobacco smoke the
irrepressible voice sang on; other voices swelled the volume, taking up
the chorus:

                   "Ever been born on a Friday?

                   What, never been born on a Friday!

                   What, never been born on a Friday yet,

                   When your mother wasn't at home!"

Even Professor Benares Usk, the greatest Homeric scholar in Europe,
let himself go under the influence of wine. His bald egg-shaped head
perspired profusely. "I don't mind telling you," he kept saying. He was
one of those self-important pedants who never minded telling anybody. He
had made a corner in one fragment of human knowledge; consequently the
things which he didn't mind telling people would fill a library. Just
at present he was explaining to Roy Hardcastle, with a sugar bowl for a
galley and forks for oars, the technique of Greek rowing as revealed in
Homer. Hardcastle repeatedly broke in on him with skittish references
to Olympian immoralities. He propounded the theory to the Professor that
the Iliad, in its day, had been no more than a bad boy's book of frisky
stories. The Professor was sufficiently not himself to contest the
theory warmly.

Flushed faces, eager eyes, gusty laughter! From painted canvases, on
paneled walls, grim founders looked down on bacchanalia, some of them
sourly, others indifferently, and yet others with envy because, since
becoming angels, they could no longer enjoy a glass of port.

The air was getting stifling. Speeches were commencing. The grave old
warden was turning to Peter, and addressing him. Hardly a word was
audible above the cheers. Hardcastle, as captain of the rowing, rose to
reply.

Outside, behind stained-glass windows, the cool dusk of summer drifted
noiselessly. Creepers rustled against crumbling masonry. The faint sweet
smell of bean fields, far-blown from wide hillsides, met the wistful
fragrance of imprisoned rose-gardens; they wandered together like
ghostly lovers through the shadowy quiet of the quads.

Peter wanted to be out there--wanted to go to her. For the first time
in a year he had seen her. Strange how little he had forgotten! He
half-closed his eyes, picturing and remembering: her nun-like trick of
carrying her hands against her breast; the way her voice slurred; her
meek appearance of gay piety, which the red defiance of her mouth and
the challenge of her eyes denied. She was a girl-woman, borrowing
the attitudes of sophistication, yet exquisitely young and poignantly
ignorant of the world.

He hadn't been able to say much to her--only, "I heard you, Cherry"; to
which she, shy in the presence of his parents, had replied, "I'm glad. I
was afraid--so afraid that you wouldn't win the race."

They had walked up through the meadows, all of them together; he, with
his mother and Kay on either side; she, between his father and the
Faun Man. He had heard her tripping footsteps following behind. At the
college-gate he had said, "I'll see you again"; and she, "Perhaps."
No more than that. He had not dared to appoint a place of meeting; his
parents didn't know--they wouldn't understand. Then he had had to run
off to change for dinner.

She might be leaving early to-morrow. Did she care for him? She had
seemed more sorry for him, more as though she were trying to be kind to
him than in love with him. She was non-committal, elusive. But she was
in Oxford to-night. Where, and with whom?

All down the long hall they were pushing back their chairs, struggling
up from tables and tumbling out into the cool twilight. Men were
hurrying to their rooms to put on their oldest clothes; there was going
to be a "rag." A piano struck up; then ceased suddenly. A groping of
feet in the darkness of a wooden staircase! From one of the doorways
a jostling, shouting crowd emerged. The piano was set down in the open
quad; a chair was tossed out of a window. Harry took his seat at the
key-board and commenced jingling over the air of, "What, never been born
on a Friday yet, when your mother wasn't at home!" Several of the crew
seized Peter and hoisted him on to the top of the piano. He stood there
an unwilling statue on a burlesque pedestal. They joined hands and
danced about him in a circle. Then came the old wander-song of his
childhood, bringing thoughts of her and of the Happy Cottage, "I've been
shipwrecked off Patagonia." Harry shouldn't have played that.

A new diversion! They took him by the arms and ran him away: others
followed, staggering under the weight of the piano. Through a passage a
red glow grew up. In a neighboring quad a bon-fire had been kindled.
It wasn't high enough, broad enough, big enough--wasn't worthy of the
occasion. From windows, two and three stories up, men leant out and
hurled down furniture. Very often it wasn't their furniture. Who cared?
The sky rained desks, and chairs, and tables.

Singing and shouting everywhere! An impromptu loving-cup was drunk,
composed of anything alcoholic that came handy.

"Barrington! Hardcastle! Barrington!"

He and Hardcastle had to make speeches to one another.

A rocket soared into the night and burst among the stars. A rocket from
a neighboring college answered the challenge. Soon the sky became a
target against which Oxford aimed burning arrows.

A dispute arose as to the details of the last great race. Hardcastle
insisted that there was nothing for it but to row it all afresh. With
grave solemnity the crewmen, as though they were taking their places in
an eight, were made to seat themselves in a line along the path. A rival
crew, selected from among the defeated oarsmen of other colleges, was
arranged ahead of them. Peter took his place at stroke in this sham
rehearsal of an event accomplished. A pistol was fired; with empty
hands, the eightsmen went through all the motions of rowing, to an
accompaniment of yells of encouragement.

It must be nearly twelve--the out-of-college men and guests were
departing. Peter wished he could follow them. Good-byes were being said
with exaggerated fervor, as if long journeys were in prospect. The last
of them had seized his gown and run. The porter was locking the gate of
the lodge. Big Tom boomed the hour. The college was closed; there would
be no more knocking in or out until to-morrow. And to-morrow she might
be gone.

Peter caught Harry by the arm and led him aside. "Where's she staying?"

"Who?"

"Cherry, of course."

Harry laughed slyly. "Cherry, of course! Who else? Staying! Lorie's
taken a room for her in Bath Place. You know--between Holywell and Hell
Passage."

"Which room?"

Harry became serious. "Look here, old chap, what d'you want to know
for?"

"Because i'm going to her."

"Oh, are you?"

"Yes, to-night. You know what she is--may be gone before breakfast."

"Here, you'd better come to bed."

As they strolled across quad to Peter's room, Harry asked him, "Whatever
put such a mad scheme into your head? You can't get out of college--the
gate's shut. If you did and got caught, you'd be sent down for a
certainty."

When the door had closed behind them, Peter didn't sit down--he didn't
start to undress. He went to the window, threw it open and leant out.
"I'm going, Harry, and I shan't get caught, either. You've got to help.
It's a twenty-foot drop. If I knot my sheets together they'll be long
enough. You wait here till I come back and haul me up."

Harry didn't approve of it; but he was the mouth-organ boy and the
adventure was in keeping with the night. The rope of sheets was flung
out. For a moment Peter balanced on the sill; then he slipped down,
hand-over-hand, into the blackness.

"All right."

The rope was withdrawn.

The street was intensely quiet--empty of all sound. Houses slept. Not a
shadow stirred. A cool breeze blew upon his forehead. He had the world
to himself. He felt immensely young and exultant.

He began to run stealthily and on tiptoe, keeping close to the wall.
There was never any telling--someone might come round a corner suddenly
and take him unawares.

As he passed Professor Usk's house, he thought for a moment of Glory. In
one of those prim rooms she was lying safe in bed--she and Riska. He'd
seen Riska laughing with Hardcastle on the barge. Who the dickens had
introduced her? She was quite capable of having introduced herself.
Then he forgot everything and everyone but Cherry and the purpose of his
errand.

He came out on to High Street, flowing in a slow curve past churches
and ancient doorways. As he went by All Souls he had the sense of still
gardens and cool turf, lying steeped in moonlight. He wanted to laugh,
wanted to shout to the silent city that he would soon be talking with
her.

He turned down by Hell Passage and dived under an archway into a little
court, where a lamp smoldered in an iron bracket and echoes played
hide-and-seek behind his footsteps. There was an uncared for garden. In
one corner stood a public house, with all the lights extinguished. Along
one side, hugging the wall of a low-roofed house, ran the narrow path.
He stepped back and looked up at the windows; that must be hers to the
left.

He whispered her name, "Cherry. Cherry."

Was she awake? He fancied that he heard her stir. He picked up some
earth and threw it against the panes. He had startled her; something
creaked, as though she sat up sharply.

"Don't be frightened. It's Peter," he called beneath his breath.

She was coming. Soon she would look out. He saw her, leaning down on
him, white clad, with her dark hair falling all about her face.

"I couldn't stop away any longer, Cherry. I had to come to you. I want
you to promise that you'll be here to-morrow. When I asked you before
you only said, 'Perhaps.' Only perhaps, Cherry, after a year of waiting!
Promise me, 'Yes.'"

Was she laughing? Was she angry? He was whispering to her again. "They'd
locked all the doors. I was afraid that I'd never get out. I climbed
down, when everyone was in bed. I had to come to you."

"Oh, Peter, Peter!" She wasn't cross with him. She was laughing. "You're
so persistent. It took you to do that."

Silence again.

"But promise," he urged. He wished that he might see her clearly. They
had called her Cherry because her lips were red. "But promise. Won't you
say 'Yes'?"

Her answer came so that he could scarcely hear it. "If I promise, will
you go now?"

He nodded like a child, to give emphasis.

"Then yes--but only if you go now at once."

She waited to see him start. He turned away reluctantly. As he entered
the shadow of the archway he thought she kissed her hand.




CHAPTER XXXIX--ON THE RIVER

But had she? Had she kissed her hand? And, if she had, did it mean
anything?

Harry, having hauled him back into college, had crept away sleepily,
thankful that his watch was ended. Peter sat on by the open window,
imagining and questioning. The wide white moon rode quietly at anchor;
dusk-gray roofs were vague as an ocean bed. Not a sound. Nothing
stirred.

But yes. Behind stone walls of a college garden a recluse nightingale
commenced to warble: little notes at first, as though a child threw back
the counterpane of darkness and muttered to itself; then a cry--a
full, clear stream of song that fell like silver showered through the
tree-tops. Peter closed his eyes; imprisoned love was speaking with
its throat outstretched. In the shadows a heart was pouring forth its
yearning; the world slept. Was love always like that--a bird in a hidden
garden, with none to listen, setting dreams to music?

A sash was raised. It was across the street and further down. The sound
came from the Professor's house. It might be Glory. Odd, if they two
were keeping watch together! Should he call to her? If he remembered,
he would question her to-morrow. His eyes grew dusty; he folded his arms
beneath his head.

Someone entered. Morning! He was drenched with sunlight. A voice
addressed him discreetly, apologetically, "Overdoin' it a bit last
night? Shall I pour out your bath, sir? It'll pull you together."

Peter laughed gaily, then a little shamefully when he realized what
the scout had meant. "I'm having brekker out. My bath--no, it doesn't
matter."

Picking up a towel, he ran down to the barges through the glistening
meadows. What a splendid world, dazzling and dew-wet! Stripping, he
dived into the river. Shaking his head like a dog as he rose to the
surface, he drifted down stream, turned, fought his way back and climbed
out glowing. A day with her! She had promised.

He had to breakfast with the Professor--all his family were to be there;
and, after that------. His father might have plans. It would be ages
before he could be alone with her. The clocks of the city were striking
eight--big and little voices together. Could he manage it? There was
time for just a word.

He was panting when he came to Hell Passage and entered the courtyard.
Her window was wide. He called to her. She didn't answer. He plucked a
rose and tossed it in the air; it landed on her window-ledge. When she
wakened she might find it and guess that he had been there.

Professor Usk was in his moral mood that morning. "A great pity--a great
pity that young Oxford drinks to excess."--He was trying to impress his
wife with his own extreme temperance.

Hardcastle was a guest. Riska was seated next to him; beneath the
surface of what others were saying, they carried on a softly spoken
conversation, private to themselves. Riska's piquant face was alive with
interest. Every now and then she laughed and clapped her hands, shaking
her head incredulously, stooping her shoulders and glancing sideways at
Hardcastle. They might have been old friends. Her color came and went
when she found herself observed; behind her apparent artlessness there
lay a calm and determined self-possession.

Peter took his place between Kay and his mother. "Happy Peterkins," Kay
whispered; "your face is--is a lamp." She squeezed his hand.

He was silent and excited, impatient for the next two hours to end.
Sometimes his thoughts were in the sun-swept street, hurrying to a
little courtyard, where a window stood wide and the echoes of Oxford ran
together. Sometimes his attention was caught by a remark, as when the
Professor turned to his wife, who had just sat down, and said, "Oh,
Agnes, while you're up----" and she replied, "But, Benares, I'm not up."

His mother watched him, noticing the gladness in his eyes. She wondered
what it meant. Glory, lifting her face to his, gazed at him furtively
from beneath her lashes.

They had gone upstairs to the room from which Jehane had looked down on
Barrington. Peter had said, "There was a nightingale singing. Did any of
you hear it?" and Glory was about to answer, when the prancing of hoofs
drew them crowding to the window--it was a coach setting out for London.
On the box sat the Faun Man, reining in and steadying the chestnut
four-in-hand. The roof was a garden--river-hats and girls' faces; every
seat was taken. As they came clattering up the cobbled street, the horn
was blowing merrily. Peter took one glance, and was racing down the
stairs. The watchers at the window saw him dash out, sprint hatless to
the corner and vanish.

The Faun Man pulled up. "Hulloa, Peter! Searched for you all over
college. They said you'd gone out to brekker. Want to come with us?
We'll find room for you."

Peter wasn't looking at the Faun Man, nor at Harry, who sat behind
him. He wasn't looking at the golden woman, who was trying to catch his
attention. He was looking at Cherry. Her place was on the box, to the
right of the Faun Man. She returned his gaze with laughter at first;
then, because he didn't laugh back, she turned away her head. And
Peter--he was puzzled and hurt. Why was she escaping? She had promised.
And why, when she was escaping, did she wear his rose against her
breast?

"Going to London!" he said slowly. "No, I can't join you."

He swung round and was walking away. Harry called after him, "We're not
going to London, you chump. We're only going as far as High Wycombe to
look at a house. Climb aboard, and buck up."

The golden woman added her persuasion. "For my sake, Peter. It's
Tree-Tops--the house we're going to look at. Sounds almost as fine as
the Happy Cottage, doesn't it? Lorie's going to live there, perhaps."

Harry thought he had spotted the trouble. "We'll be in Oxford before
nightfall--catch a train back."

Peter answered shortly. "Sorry. I can't. I've got my people with me."

He waved his hand and stepped from the road to the pavement.

Cherry had said nothing. She let her clear eyes rest on him. The horses
were getting restive with standing and the passengers impatient. The
Faun Man shook out his whip; the leaders jumped forward. "Well, if you
can't, you can't," he said.

Suddenly Cherry spoke. "I'm not going. Please let me down."

The Faun Man whistled. "So that's the way the wind's blowing!"

The ladder was brought out. Peter helped her to descend.

"Good-bye and good Luck."

The horn sounded. As the coach rolled on its way, every head was turned,
looking back. It grew dim in the dust of its journey. They were left
alone in the sharp sunlight, embarrassed in each other's presence.

It was she who spoke first, in a little caressing voice which mocked its
own sincerity. "That wasn't nice of me. And yet I didn't intend----. I
didn't really, Peter--not at first. I thought--we all thought you'd be
one of the party. And then--because I wanted to go, I forgot all about
you. D'you forgive me?"

"If you wanted to go, I'm----."

She broke in on him. "There, instead of making things better, I've made
them worse. I shouldn't have come to Oxford--I've hurt you."

Shouldn't have come to Oxford! She was threatening to go out of his life
again, just when he'd refound her. "Cherry," he said, "I'm willing to be
hurt by you every day, if only I may see you. Don't you remember? Can't
you understand? I'd rather be hurt by you than loved by any other woman
in the world."

"I know that."

In silence they walked back to the Professor's house. At the corner of
the street, before they came into view, he asked, "D'you mind spending
the morning with my people? They're returning to London this afternoon;
then we can be by ourselves."

The faces were still at the window, looking out; he was very conscious
of the curiosity he aroused. When he had climbed the stairs and
entered the room, he explained, as though it were the most natural of
happenings, "I've brought Cherry with me."

His father relieved the awkwardness by asking, "What are we going to
do?"

"Why not the river?" Hardcastle suggested.

They set out in two punts from the barges. The Professor and his wife
had excused themselves, saying that they had to work. Hardcastle
took charge of Glory and Riska; Peter of the rest. They turned up the
Cherwell, past the Botanical Gardens, through Mesopotamia, coming at
last to Parsons' Pleasure. The sound of bathers on the other side of
the island warned them. The ladies got out, while the men drew the punts
across the rollers, taking them round to the farther landing. Barrington
accompanied Nan by the footpath.

Directly they were alone she turned to him, "Is there anything between
them?"

"Between who?"

"That girl and Peter?"

Her husband laughed and held her arm more firmly, "Between her and
Peter! What an idea! Match-maker!"

Nan leant against him, as if seeking his protection. "Match-maker?
Not that. I dread it. I want to keep them with us, Kay and Peter,
always--always."

Tears were in her eyes. He remembered; once before in this place he had
seen her like that. "Have you forgotten?" he said. "It was here that it
all began--everything between us. It was after we three had met--a rainy
day, with the sun coming out. I left you to take the punt round the
island, and Jehane said something behind my back--something that brought
tears. It was when I saw you crying, Pepperminta, that I loved you."

She uttered the wonderfully obvious, linking up his memory with the
present. "We little thought of Peter then."

By the Parks the river was dense with row-boats, punts and Canaders.
Girls lay back on cushions under sunshades--sweethearts and sisters.
Men, in college colors and flannels, shouted to one another, "Look
ahead, sir." Here and there a Blue showed up or a Leander, occasioning
respect and whispered explanations. The great men of the undergraduate
world were pointed out. Peter was recognized as the stroke-oar of
Calvary. He didn't notice the heads that were turned--didn't care. His
eyes rested on Cherry as often as they dared. Before his parents she
treated him casually. There were times when he spoke to her and she paid
him no attention. He was unhappy--did she dislike him? Then, as though
she felt that she was overdoing it, a secret flash would pass between
them and his fears were quieted.

"Don't forget," his father reminded him; "we leave for London this
afternoon."

Hardcastle, with his lighter burden, was pushing on ahead. Peter looked
at his watch, "It's almost one now. And I don't like to----." He stooped
to whisper to his father; then straightened up. "Cherry knows why. I
don't like to let Hardcastle out of my sight--not with Riska. He isn't
the sort of man----. We'll have to follow. If I can't punt you back, you
can lunch at the inn at Marston Ferry and catch a tram. That'll get you
to the station in time."

To Nan that day was like the repetition of an old story. Once
before--how long ago was it?--once before she had drifted up this quiet
stream, between gnarled trees and whispering rushes, to the gray inn
where a crisis in her life had threatened. She recalled Jehane, dark
and tragic, with trailing hands. She could see Billy, gay and careless.
Peter was like him, and Kay was very much what she had been then.--Her
eyes fell on Cherry; she examined her slightness, the frailty of her
throat, her astonishing gray eyes looking out of a face of pallor, the
delicate mist of hair sweeping across the whiteness of her forehead. Not
the girl for Peter! There wasn't a girl good enough. And then she tried
to believe that she was foolish. It hadn't happened to him yet--not yet.

And the parting--it was the same as long ago. Everything was repeating
itself. She and Kay and Billy stepped aboard the ferry. At the last
moment Glory said she would accompany them. The man pulled on the
rope; the ferry lumbered out into the stream. Peter and the girl, and
Hardcastle and Riska were waving to them from the bank. Nan had never
thought that she could feel so cruel toward anybody. As she crossed the
meadows she looked back. Peter and the girl, pigmy figures now, were
still waving. Jehane and Billy had waved to her like that, standing near
together. The old pang! And then she looked at Glory, walking quietly
with her head bent, never turning. In a flash little memories, trifles
in themselves, sprang up and became significant, each one pointing in
the same direction. She stole forward and took Glory's hand.

Hardcastle and Riska had vanished; their punt was gone from the landing.
Upstream the river was lost to view in a slow bend. No one was in sight.
An atmosphere of secrecy had settled down. From arbors of the inn and
tufted places along the banks came the indistinct murmur of voices. The
country looked uninhabited, stretching away for miles in squares and
triangles of meadows, each one different in coloring from the next.
Through the green panorama of trees and hedges the winding of the river
was traceable by the flowered freshness that it left. Overhead, casting
fantastic shadows, drifted white unwieldy clouds.

Peter helped her in, arranged the cushions for her and pushed off from
the bank. He had expected to say so much to her to-day; now the silence
was more happy. The day was running out; the veiled radiance of a
summer's evening crept across the landscape. A little breeze sprang up,
blew through his hair and stooped the reeds to the water's surface. She
lay curled up and contented, humming to herself; he could just hear
her voice above the splash of his pole and the lapping of the river.
Sometimes she would raise her eyes and smile down the distance of the
punt that separated them. When he wasn't looking she gazed more intently
at his tall, flanneled figure, noticing his tanned arms, with the
sleeves rolled back, and the upright litheness of his body. Did his eyes
catch hers unexpectedly, she veiled them in inscrutable innocence. The
waterway was narrowing, becoming choked with weeds and bulrushes.

"Your mother," he stopped punting and turned at the sound of her high,
clear voice; "your mother didn't like me. You may tell her that she
needn't be frightened."

What did she mean? She spoke gently, without resentment. "Not like you,
little Cherry! No one could help----."

"Oh, yes. She didn't like me." She raised herself on her elbow. "And she
was right. Won't you please stop caring for me; then we can be friends.
She saw what I told you from the first: that I'm not your sort--quite
different, Peter."

He swung the nose of the punt round, so that it crunched into a tall,
green wilderness that sprang up and closed behind their passage. He laid
aside the pole and looked down the length of their refuge, regarding her
intently.

"Stop caring for you!" He laughed shortly. "As though I could--the
matter's out of my hands. I never had a chance not to care for you. If
I didn't believe that a day was coming when--when you'd be kinder to me,
Cherry, I'd not want to go any further--I mean with living. I'm not good
at saying things in words; you're everything to me."

She avoided his glance, turning her head away so that he watched her
side-face. She spoke in a low voice, with concentrated vehemence. "It's
terrible to feel like that. People are sure to disappoint you. You've
no right to allow yourself to depend on someone else for all your
happiness."

"But if I don't mind? If I'm willing to take my chance?"

She lifted up her face appealingly. "Then it isn't fair to me, Peter.
You force me to become responsible. It isn't that I don't like you. I
admire you; that isn't love. You don't know your own mind yet; there are
heaps and heaps of better girls.--And then, there's Lorie. I tell you,
Peter, I'm not your sort--please, please stop caring for me."

The gladness died in him. It was as though the lamps behind his eyes
had guttered out. His voice trembled. His face had grown lean and sad.
"Don't say that, Cherry--it keeps us separate. You don't love me now,
perhaps; but one day you'll need me. I'm waiting till you need me, and
then----. You are my sort, Cherry; but I'll never be good enough for
you. All the time I'm trying, ever since I've known you I've been trying
to become better. It's like yesterday: whenever I'm losing the race and
getting slack I hear you calling. Then I say to myself, 'I have to be
fine for her.' I think you must be my sort, Cherry, if you can do that.
Love was meant not to make people perfect, but to make them believe
always in the best. If you do that for me, Cherry----."

She put her hands before her eyes and slipped back against the cushions,
as though she had become very tired. He stole down the punt noiselessly
and knelt beside her.

"Don't you like to be loved, Cherry?"

She spoke, still with her eyes covered. "Of course I like to be loved.
Every girl likes to know that some man cares for her."

"Then, why----?"

Her voice came wearily. "Because it would be selfish, when I don't
intend to marry you. But--but I wish I didn't have to keep away from
you."

He leant forward and kissed her cool cheek. "Then don't keep away from
me."

"You mustn't kiss me, Peter. If only you wouldn't kiss me directly we're
alone----. Why do you?"

Why did he? That she could ask such a question told him so much. She was
like a beautiful statue; he could stir no life in her.

"Everybody's done it," he said simply; "everybody since the world began.
You can't help it when you love anybody."

She withdrew her hand from her eyes and looked at him wonderingly. How
quickly she could change from sad to gay! All of a sudden, from seeming
listless and spent, she had become radiant and virile. Her face was
tender and wore an amused expression. She stooped toward him and touched
him. "Still a little boy! For the first time I feel older than you--so
much older. What good times you and I could have if only we didn't think
ahead."

He slipped his arm about her. "Dear little Cherry, you want to be loved,
but you won't believe that I'm your man. You won't let yourself love
me--that's all that's the matter. When I kiss you you turn your face
away, as if you were only enduring me."

She thrust her face forward with sweet demureness. "Try again.--I didn't
turn away then.--You're so persistent, Peter. No, that's'enough."

He pushed out from the rushes. The sun was tumbling into bed, spreading
his gold hair on the pillow and dragging his scarlet bed-clothes over
him. The river was dull as tarnished silver, but it flared crimson
where, in its windings, the west smote it.

"And to-morrow, Cherry?"

"To-morrow! Does it ever come? I'm leaving to-night. I promised you
to-day; you've had it."

"But I want to-morrow as well."

She shook her head, laughing. "If I gave you to-morrow, you'd ask for
the day after. You're a greedy little boy, never contented."

"But why must you go?" he asked.

"Because I'm expected. Lorie's thinking of buying a place called
Tree-Tops; it's at Curious Corner, near a village called Whitesheaves.
He's heard all kinds of splendid things about it. It's only thirty miles
from Oxford, so----."

"So we'll meet quite often?"

She crouched her face against her shoulder and kept him waiting. "If you
don't try to kiss me," she said. And then, seeing that he was going to
be melancholy, "You never know your luck. Cheer up!"

At the barges, when they had stepped out, Peter remembered. He turned to
the barge-man, "Mr. Hardcastle back? I don't see his punt."

"'Asn't returned as I know of, Mr. Barrington. 'Ad a lady with 'im,
didn't 'e? Any message for 'im when 'e comes?"

Peter shook his head. It was growing dusk. Walking up through the
meadows, Cherry let him take her hand.

When they had fetched her luggage from the house in the little
courtyard, and he had seen her off at the station, he hurried down to
Folly Bridge and along the tow-path. Staring across the river to the
Calvary Barge, he could see someone moving. He called. A punt put out;
when it came alongside, the man looked up through the darkness.

"Can't take you across to-night, sir. Wouldn't be no use; the
meadow-gates is shut."

"It's not that," said Peter; "I only wanted to find out if Mr.
Hardcastle's come back."

The man scratched his head. "Not yet, sir. Reckon he must 'a left 'is
punt higher up--by Magdalen Bridge, perhaps."

"Perhaps. Well, it doesn't matter."

He strolled away thoughtfully.




CHAPTER XL--MR. GRACE GOES ON THE BUST

Mr. Grace rose by stealth. Dawn had not yet broken. He groped his way
into his clothes in the darkness; he did not dare to light the gas.
Clutching his boots against his breast, with ridiculous caution for so
fat a man, he tiptoed down the stairs. In the passage he listened and
looked up, half expecting to see a head in curl-papers surveying him
from across the banisters. He heaved a sigh of relief. That fine bass
sound, like a trombone thrust out violently to its full length, was
his son-in-law, the ex-policeman; those flute-like notes, tremulous
and heart-stirrings were his daughter's musical contributions from
dreamland. All was well. He had not roused them.

In the stable he stuffed up the window with a sack and lit a lamp. Cat's
Meat raised his head and winked at him--winked at him solemnly. It was
a solemn occasion--they both felt it, this setting of a daughter at
defiance, while horse and master went on the bust.

The preliminary preparations of the past few days had awakened
suspicion. For one thing, Mr. Grace had repainted his cab: the wheels
were a bright mustard and the body was a deep blue--the color which
is usually associated with Oxford. For years--too many to count--Cat's
Meat's harness had done service, tied together with bits of rope and
string where the leather had worn out. But to-day his harness was brand
new--of a vivid tan. Yesterday, and the day before, Cat's Meat and his
master had indulged in a rest--that alone gave material for conjecture.
Grace and her ex-policeman had conjectured. What was the old boy
planning? Was he contemplating marriage? "And at his time o' life!" they
said scornfully. At any rate, they were snoring now.

As he led Cat's Meat out, he growled in his ear, "Not a drop o' drink,
old hoss, till this here is h'ended. And then---." He smacked his lips;
the lean tail flirted across the bony haunches in assent. Mr. Grace
rubbed the nose of his friend, "Go by h'every pub till h'it's h'ended,
old pal, and then----. Understand?"

He had harnessed up and was tying the last of the blue rosettes to Cat's
Meat's bridle, when he was startled by a window flung up. He glanced
round--the curl-papers he dreaded!

"Now, then, father, you just come up 'ere and tell me. You just----."

"Be blowed if h'I will."

The curl-papers vanished; feet were coming down the stairs. Scrambling
on to his box, he jerked at the reins and lumbered out into the cold
March dusk. A shrill voice calling! She was in the stable, coming down
the street after him. What had she on, or rather what hadn't she? "My
word," he muttered, "wot a persistent hussy!" He cracked his whip. Cat's
Meat broke into a stiff-kneed gallop.

At a cabman's shelter near Trafalgar Square he halted for breakfast. The
glory of his appearance attracted attention."'Ere comes Elijah in 'is
bloomin' chariot."

"Wot-ho, old mustard-pot! 'Ot stuff!"

Mr. Grace conducted himself with gravity. "I'm h'off ter the races. Got
a friend o' mine rowin'."

"Oh, you 'ave, 'ave yer? A reg'lar Sol Joel, that's wot you are."

He left his friends with a flourish. It was almost as though his youth
had returned--almost as though he hadn't a red nose and a daughter who
tried to convert him. He felt young and smart this blowy morning. He
didn't want to see a reflection of himself; he wanted to pretend that he
was a brisk young cabby, when cab-driving was an art and not a creeping
means of livelihood. Flower-girls were at the corners, shaking daffodils
and violets in the faces of the passing crowd.

"By the Lord Harry----!"

He signed to her with his whip--he felt affluent. He bought two bunches,
and leant down from his box while she pinned one in his button-hole. The
other he hid beneath the seat in Cat's Meat's nose-bag.

"Good luck, me gal--and a 'andsome 'usband."

"The sime ter you, old sport."

She blew him a kiss. Ah, if he had been young! Not a bad lookin' gal!
Not 'arf!

He turned into Deane Street and crawled through Soho, that queer Chinese
puzzle of cramped dwellings, all with fronts that look like backs. He
pulled up outside the second-hand shop and entered with his whip, tied
with blue ribbon, held out before him.

"'Ow's tride s'mornin', Mr. Waffles? Get them 'andker-chiefs, wot
you call spats, on ter yer boots. Put a little glue on yer bloomin'
whiskers. 'Urry up.--Where are we goin'? Yer'll see presently."

Ocky expostulated. The fear of Mr. Widow's displeasure was heavy on him.
"But what'll I tell him? How'll I explain to him?"

"Tell 'im yer've stroked yer wife's 'ead wiv a poker. Tell 'im she's
packed up sudden for a better land. Tell 'im yer taikin' a 'oliday on
the strength of it. Tell 'im----."

"Shish! He may hear. He's sensitive.--All right. I'll come."

Mr. Grace had his own code of etiquette. He refused to let Ocky mount on
the box beside him. "Ain't done," he said. From the nose-bag he produced
the button-hole and presented it to his friend. "Git in," he commanded,
opening the door of his cab. Before he drove off he stooped and shouted
in at the window, "Matey, this ain't no bloomin' funeral. Wriggle a
smile on ter yer mouth. Laugh at the color of me bally keb."

He cocked his hat to a jaunty angle and tugged on the reins, humming;

                   "Bill Higgs

                   Useter feed the pigs,

                   Caress 'em with 'is 'obnail boots,

                   Tum-tee-tum."

He couldn't remember what came next, so he contented himself with
whistling the opening bars over and over. He felt exceedingly merry.

Traffic seemed to be pouring all in one direction. Everyone was in high
spirits; cabbies and bus-drivers kept up a ceaseless stream of chaff.
The thud of hoofs on the wooden paving was the beat of a drum to which
London marched. Everything was moving. Overhead white clouds dashed
against sky-precipices. Window-boxes were rife with flowers. Parks and
green garden patches swam up to cheer the endless procession, stood
stationary and fluttered as it passed, then melted. Light blue and
dark blue favors showed wherever the eye rested. Newsboys climbed buses
shouting, and ran by the side of carriages, distributing their papers.
At a halt, Mr. Grace turned and shouted to Ocky, "I sye, old cock, d'yer
know where all us sports is goin'? We're goin' ter see yer nevvy.--Hi,
Cat's Meat, kum up."

Houses grew smaller, streets more narrow and old-fashioned. Then the
river, broad and full-flowing, like a vein swollen to bursting. On the
bridges black specks swarmed like ants. Along the bank crowds stood
packed against the parapet. Bets were being offered and taken. Ceaseless
banter and laughing. Jostling. Good-natured expostulation. A hat blew
off.

Mr. Grace drew up against the curb. From the point which he had
selected, by standing on the roof, a glimpse could be obtained of the
racing shells. He rattled his whip against the door.

"'Ere you, Old Bright-and-Early, come h'out."

Ocky came out--came out twirling his mustaches. He had caught the
contagion of excitement. He felt himself to be more than a spectator.
He wanted to talk in a loud voice to Mr. Grace, so that bystanders might
overhear and know that he was an important person--young Barrington's
uncle. Good heavens, half London had left its work to see just Peter,
stroking the Oxford boat against Cambridge.

During the next two hours while they waited, they swopped Peterish
stories. "And 'e sez ter me, 'Mr. Grice,' 'e sez, 'you're my
prickcaution. I've got somethink the matter with me; 'magination they
calls it. I wants you to promise me ter taik care of 'er,' 'e sez. And
I, willin' ter h'oblige 'im, I sez--."

Mr. Grace sprang up. "'Ulloa! Wot's this? Strike me blind, if they ain't
comin'!"

The box-seat wasn't high enough. They scrambled on to the roof. The
crowd scrambled after them; the roof was thronged, without an inch to
spare. Cat's Meat straightened his forelegs, trying to see above the
people's heads.

"By gosh, they're leading!"

"No such luck. They're level."

Eight men, crouched in a wooden groove as narrow as a pencil, with a
ninth in the stern to guide it! The pencil looked so narrow that it was
a wonder that it floated. The eight men moved as if by clock-work. Eight
more followed, a quarter of a length behind. Their colors were the dark
blue of Mr. Grace's cab. The light blues of Cambridge were ahead.

"Oxford! Oxford! Oxford!" Mr. Grace thumped Ocky in the ribs and
bellowed, "There's Peter. See 'im?"

As though Peter had heard, he raised the stroke from thirty-four
to thirty-six, calling on his men for a spurt. They were creeping
up--lifting their boat through the water in a splendid effort. Men swore
beneath their breath; they tiptoed and clawed at one another, utterly
selfish and careless in their wild desire to gain a clearer view of
those distant streaks of energy, which bent forward and swung back
mechanically in that gray ribbon of beaten water. They were shooting
under the bridge now, police-boats and launches spluttering, hooting and
following. The crowd swayed, broke and ran. Men leapt down from
lamp-posts and points of vantage.

Something happened. Mr. Grace was pushed from behind--pushed off the
roof of his own cab. He picked himself up indignantly from the pavement
and tried to clamber back. It mightn't have been his cab--it was
territory invaded and held by intruders."'Ere you! Git orf of it."

He laid about him with his whip and clutched at coattails. Someone
hit him on the mouth. He hit back. A policeman came up. No time for
explaining. He was angry enough to fight the whole world. What was Peter
doing?

"Leggo o' me. It's me own keb. A free country, indeed! 'Ere you, come
orf of it."

He battled his way to the box. For one moment he saw two disappearing
specks, and then----. A crack! A man was waist-deep in woodwork. The
invaders jumped down to save themselves. The policeman hopped into the
cab and levered the legs back.

Mr. Grace was purple. "Pushed me orf me keb, that's wot they did. And
now I arsks yer ter h'inspeck that roof. 'E wuz goin' to arrest me.
Garn, puddin' face. Yer daren't."

"Move along. Move along, me man."

There was nothing for it. Mr. Grace picked up the reins. "Puddin' face,"
he flung back across his shoulder. "Yes, h'it's you I'm meamn'. Puddin'
face--yer bally cop."

It was only when he had turned a corner and climbed down to examine the
damage, that he realized that he had lost Mr. Waffles.

He trundled back to London--had got as far as Hyde Park Corner, when a
yelling boy rushed by him with a sheaf of papers.

"Hi, wot's that?"

He snatched one and read:

"_Dark Blue Victory._

"_Long Stern Chase._

"_Barrington's Great Spurt._

"_Cambridge Beaten at the Winning Post_."

What did it matter? What did anything matter, broken roofs or bruised
mouths. Peter had done the trick! Peter, the queer little tyke who had
been his prickcaution! He shouted the news to Cat's Meat. He held up
the traffic, he and Cat's Meat, and the dark blue cab. He must tell
somebody,--somebody who would understand. Mr. Waffles would understand.
He had a few drinks at a few pubs and arrived at Soho hilarious. Mr.
Widow informed him that Ocky had not returned. He wandered off in search
of the flower-girl. At the back of his mind the belief grew up that she
would be sympathetic. He found her, tucked her inside and drove back
to Soho. Mr. Widow didn't approve of the flower-girl and said that Ocky
hadn't come back. How many times did he halt before the second-hand
shop? How many pubs had he visited? What had become of little
Kiss-me-Quick, the flower-girl? She'd disappeared, and he hadn't any
money in his pockets. Never mind, there was a hole in the roof of his
cab--his day's work had given him something.

Night fell. Stars came out. Did he make up the song himself? Couldn't
have. He found himself again before the second-hand shop, still on the
box of his cab. The shop was shut and he was singing to empty windows:

                   "Oh,

                   Mr. Widow, though

                   A murderer you be,

                   You're

                   Sure, a very nice man--

                   A good enough pal for me."

Mr. Widow came out, sincerely grieved, and expostulated. Mr. Grace
begged his pardon profoundly. He told him that he'd always admired his
religious whiskers; wouldn't hurt his feelings, however many wives he'd
murdered; wanted to be friends. He added, in a whisper, that he had a
daughter who'd be all the better for a poker brought down smartly across
her nut. She was religious, too, only she hadn't got whiskers. Then he
insisted on shaking hands, and was at last allowed to on condition that,
if this token of esteem was granted, he would go away and never, never
more come back--at least, not till morning.

What to do now? The night was young. A return to the stable was not to
be contemplated; that daughter of his must be avoided. Some time, when
he was a very old man, he'd go home to her. But not yet. It wasn't every
man who owned a blue and yellow cab with a hole in the roof of it.

Perhaps it was eleven--perhaps earlier. He was in Leicester Square,
affording himself the supreme luxury of refusing to be hired. Coming
down the steps of the Empire was a group of young men, broad-shouldered,
slim of hip and in evening dress. Their arms were linked. As soon as
they appeared, cheering began; a crowd gathered round. Someone commenced
to sing. Others took it up:

                   "Mary had a little heart.

                   She lent it to a feller,

                   Who swallowed it by h'axerdent

                   And didn't dare to tell 'er.

                   She asked it back and said she'd sue--

                   Away the feller ran.

                   Whatever will poor Mary do?

                   She's lost both heart and man."

They'd all gone mad. Pandemonium broke loose. Mr. Grace wondered vaguely
what it meant. Why were people dancing? Why were people shouting? Then
he saw that the maddest of the mad wore a dark blue badge. He heard
someone explain to a neighbor, "The winning crew."

His brain cleared. He was off his box in a flash, struggling, panting,
fighting his way to that tall young chap who was in the centre. He was
wringing him by the hand.

"Why, by all that's wonderful, it's Mr. Grace! Where did you spring
from?" Before the question was answered, Peter was introducing him, to
the Faun Man, to Harry, to Hardcastle, to a host of others.

Mr. Grace was both elated and abashed. "Want a keb? Sime old keb, Mr.
Peter--got it 'ere a-witing for you."

"Want a cab! I don't know. You see, there are so many of us."

"'Ow many? There's plenty o' room, Mr. Peter, both inside and h'out.
There ain't no charge. Put h'as many h'as yer like on the roof, so long
as Cat's Meat can drar yer. I've 'ad a ole cut for yer legs on purpose."

Harry laughed. "If Cat's Meat can't manage it, we'll shove."

They piled in uproariously. The suggestion was made that Cat's Meat
should be taken out and that Peter should be allowed to ride him. Mr.
Grace wouldn't hear of it. "None o' that, young gen'lemen. Cruelty ter
h'animiles. The keb 'olds 'im h'up.--Where to?"

The Gilded Turtle was mentioned.

For all that there were four on the roof and six inside, Cat's Meat
never made an easier journey--that was due to the singing mob of
undergraduates who lent a hand. And Mr. Grace--he reflected that it
wasn't for naught that he had repainted his growler. He was the proudest
cabby in London that night--he was going to be prouder.

At the Gilded Turtle he was seated next to Peter and treated as an
honored guest. He had a misty impression that the waiters were stowed
away beneath tables and that their places were taken by Peter's friends.
He believed and asserted to the day of his death that he made the speech
of the evening--something reminiscent about "prick-cautions," which
meandered off into moral reflections about a person named Kiss-Me-Quick
and flower-girls in general. He distinctly remembered that, more than
once, he turned his pockets inside out, asking plaintively, "What lydy
done this?" Then the gentleman whose ears moved like a dog's sang a
nonsense-song about Peter. They all joined in a rousing chorus, clinking
glasses:

               "He kissed the moon's dead lips,

               He googed the eye of the sun;

               But when we've crawled to the end of life,

               We'll wonder we ever begun.

CHORUS

                   "And Peter was his name--

                   So Peterish was he,

                   He wept the sun's eye back again,

                   Lest he should never see."

                   "He fought the pirate king,

                   Where stars fall down with a thud;

                   But we, we even quake to hear

                   Spring rhubarb break into bud.

CHORUS

                   And Peter was his name, etc.

                   "He sailed the trackless waste

                   With hair the colour� of blood;

                   But we, we tramp the trampled streets

                   With souls the colour of mud.

"                   And Peter was his name--

                   So Peterish was he,

                   He wept the sun's eye back again,

                   Lest he should never see."

Where was Peter? Where were Harry and the Faun Man? He was out in the
streets--only the wildest of the young bloods remained with him. It
didn't matter to this cab-driving Falstaff if they all went away and
only Cat's Meat stayed, he was going to make a night of it.

Hardcastle was complaining that he'd never been arrested and taken
to Vine Street. He insisted that it ought to happen to every English
gentleman at least once. They drove back to Leicester Square to see
if they could find a policeman who'd make up this deficiency in their
education. They found three, only they chose the wrong side of the
Square and discovered that they were being taken to a less aristocratic
station. Then they explained their mistake, and their captors, being,
as the Faun Man would have said, "very human fellows," accepted
compensation for wasted time, called them "My Lords," and allowed them
to escape.

It was Mr. Grace who provided the final entertainment. They had grown a
little tired of his constant enquiry as to "What lydy done this?" Being
unwilling to lose their esteem as a humorist, he drove them down side
streets to a second-hand shop, which he had promised "never no more to
visit."

The house was in complete darkness. He threw down the reins and stood
up, his whip clasped against his breast, his eyes lifted to the white
moon sailing in silence over sulky chimney-pots. Singing ran in his
family; it was from him that Grace inherited her talent. What his voice
lacked in sweetness it made up in volume. He startled the stillness
lustily:

                   "Oh,

                   Mister Widow, though

                   A murderer you be,

                   You're

                   Sure, a very nice man--

                   A good enough pal for me."

If Mr. Widow had been a sportsman, he would have felt flattered that the
winning Oxford crew should take the trouble to greet him thus musically
at two o'clock in the morning. He wasn't. A night-capped head appeared
at a window. The singing grew more hearty. The head vanished. The street
door opened. A gentleman, very hastily attired, carrying a pair of
white spats in his hand, shot out on to the pavement. A voice from the
darkened shop pursued him, "'Ad enough of you. A man is known by 'is
friends."

The door closed as suddenly as it had opened.

Mr. Grace hailed the new arrival, "'Ulloa, duckie! Been lookin' for you
h'everywhere."

"I wish you hadn't," growled Ocky.

Cat's Meat shivered in his harness. Mr. Grace, aware that he was somehow
in error, picked up the reins. "Well, good night, young gen'lemen. Me
and Mr. Waffles is goin' 'ome ter bed. Kum up, Cat's Meat."

But Cat's Meat didn't come up; he lolled between the shafts, listless
and dejected. Mr. Grace climbed down from the box to examine him. "Wot's
matter, old pal? Got a 'eadache?"

He stretched out his hand to pat him. Cat's Meat shivered again, lolled
over a little farther and crashed to the ground. He flickered his
eye-lid just once, wearily and reproachfully, saying as plainly as was
possible for so dumb an animal, "Old man, we've been and gone and done
it."

A hat was passed round. When its contents were presented to Mr. Grace he
pushed it away from him. He was sobbing. "H'it's not that; it ain't the
money. 'E were the only man 'as ever understood me. 'Is h'intellergence
wuz a thing to marvel h'at. A wonder of a 'oss, 'e were. I've often said
h'it. 'E'd bring me 'ome as drunk as a lord and as saife as a baby. 'E
wuz a reg'lar mother ter me, 'e were."

[Illustration: 0421]

The revelers melted into the night down the shuttered street, leaving
Mr. Grace with the disregarded hat of money, the dead horse sprawled
across the broken shafts and a gentleman, from whose hand a pair of
white spats dangled, contemplating the ruin disconsolately.




CHAPTER XLI--TREE-TOPS

Tree-Tops stood half-way up the hill, looking out across a terraced
garden. At the foot of the hill lay a plain, where hamlets nestled
beneath the wings of trees, and meadows washed about the shores of
yellow wheat-lands like green rivers in flood. In blue pastures, beyond
the edge of the horizon, white clouds wandered like browsing sheep.

The windows of Tree-Tops were latticed. The roof was thatched. It was
no more than a converted cottage. It blinked at you as though it wore
spectacles.

Behind it ran a Roman road, buried deep in the leaves of centuries. On
the brow of the hill was a legionaries' camp. To show where the road
ended a white cross had been cut, by turning back the sod from the
underlying chalk. Gathered about the camp in a half-circle, spreading
back for miles through uplands, was a beech-forest whose leaves
fluttered like green butterflies crucified on boughs of silver. Clouds
trailed slowly over it, or hung snared in its topmost branches.

Over the shoulder of the hill, immediately behind the Faun Man's house,
lay a golf-course with vivid squares of close-cropped turf from which
red flags waved angrily as poppies. Across the valley shone fields of
mustard, like sunlight falling in sudden patches.

The Faun Man puzzled Curious Corner. The village might have been named
in prophecy of his advent, with such extraordinary oddness did he
conduct his household. Like birds hopping in and out of a hedge,
his visitors came and went without knocking. Nobody tried to explain
anybody; no one at Tree-Tops thought explanation necessary.

The women were young and dashing; certainly they were not married to the
men. If they were wicked--which was never proved--they were decidedly
light-hearted.

By day they played golf and rode horseback. By night they sat in the
terraced garden, where fragrances wandered like old, sweet memories;
there, to the tinkling of banjos and mandolins, they sang till dusk had
brimmed the valleys and the moon sailed solitary. When their laughter
had grown tired, a light would spring up in a room beneath the thatch
where the Faun Man worked. Sometimes it would outstay the dawn. The
villagers watched these doings from a distance. They wagged their heads.

But if Tree-Tops had the reputation for being wild, there could be no
doubt that its master had money. He drove a four-in-hand from Oxford to
London. He rode a horse called Satan, which no one could manage; it had
killed two men already. And the money! He coined it with his pen--so it
was reported.

But the inhabitants of Curious Corner never guessed the motive of
all this frivolity: that the Faun Man wasn't really living--was only
distracting himself, till a woman with golden hair should nod, when life
would commence.

And the golden woman! Peter saw her often: in Oxford; when he cycled
out with Harry to Tree-Tops; during his vacations in London. He couldn't
believe what Harry told him--that she was cold and selfish. Everything
that she did was tender, from the caressing way she had of speaking to
the childish frankness with which she slipped her hand into his own
when she was happy. She made everyone love her and everyone forgive
her--everyone except Harry and Cherry. She had studied the art of
appearing adorable, so that what in others were faults in her took on
the glamour of attractions. She was so fond of the Faun Man--why didn't
she marry him? Peter didn't know. He gave it up--shrugged his shoulders.
Somewhere underground, as in his own life, the body of love lay buried.
In the stillness, did he listen, he could hear jealousy gnawing--gnawing
like a rat in the coffin of a dead princess. Once, in reading one of the
Faun Man's books, he came across a jotting in the margin, the thought of
which had no bearing on the text. It was as though thwarted longing had
cried aloud, suddenly becoming aware of its own tragedy. The sentence
read: "Life is slipping away from us. I have tried to make you love me.
And yet----."

The bond of sympathy which existed between himself and the golden woman
increased in strength and knowledge. He could talk to her of so many
things concerning which he was silent to other people. Being in love, he
had to talk to someone. She was so wise in the advice she gave him. By
the patience with which she listened, she seemed to tell him that she
herself had endured the same indifference. How that could be he did not
understand. She encouraged him to make confession. It became a habit.
Perhaps the trust which he placed in her flattered her. It may have been
that his capacity for being so sheerly young tantalized her--she desired
above all things to be always young herself. Without doubt his implicit
faith in her goodness helped to silence her self-despisings.

But she was not above using their friendship as a means of provoking the
Faun Man. She would slip her arm about Peter's neck and say, "No chance
for you now, Lorie."

Her lover's eyes would rest on her broodingly and film over, hiding his
thoughts, "Oh, well, I have Cherry." Even though Cherry knew that it was
said in pretence, her face would grow radiant. It hurt Peter. He would
willingly have given the best years of his life to make her care for him
like that. It was then that he listened, and heard within himself the
gnawing of the rat of jealousy.

Cherry--he made no progress with her. She seemed to like him, and she
held him off. She avoided being left alone with him. In company there
were times when she treated him with intimacy--times when she ignored
him. While all his actions told her plainly that in his life she was the
supreme interest, she seemed to go out of her way to inform him, without
words, that in hers he was secondary. Then, when he had grown tired and
had almost determined to cure himself, she would do something unexpected
and considerate which kept him hoping. Only at parting did she allow
herself to appear glad of him. She had the power of chilling him with
her graciousness, while with her gray eyes she allured him. Cherry!
Cherry! Her name set all his world to music.

One day he found her alone at Tree-Tops. She had fallen asleep in the
bay-window, which looked out over the plain where the meadows flowed
smoothly and the wheat-fields ripened. The others had left her--had
gone over the shoulder of the hill to play golf. He had cycled out from
Oxford without warning. Climbing through the steep garden, busy with the
stir of birds and insects, he espied her curled up like a kitten among
the cushions, her eyes fast shut and her breath coming softly. He
stooped over her, tempted by the redness of her mouth. Her eyes
opened. She showed no embarrassment--made no attempt to brush away her
sleepiness. She did not move, but lay there meeting his gaze quietly.

He broke the silence. "Cherry, why do you always avoid touching me?
We're farther apart now than we were--were when we first met. I can't
surprise you any longer by telling you that I love you. And yet--and yet
to me it's still wonderful. Why do you always treat me as though I were
nothing?"

"Do I? I don't mean to."

He sat down beside her and took her hand. "Shall I go away? If I went
away you might learn to miss me."

She turned toward him gently. "Please, please, Peter, don't do that."

"Then you do want me--you would miss me? I never know what you think of
me. You never tell me--never betray yourself."

She let her fingers nestle in his hand. "There's only one Peter. Of
course I'd miss you. I don't need to tell you that. I like you very
much, Peter."

He looked away across the unheeding country. "Like! Yes, but liking
isn't loving."

Voices were heard and footsteps approaching. She sat up hurriedly,
smoothing out her dress. "I'd so much rather be friends. I'd be such a
good little friend to you, Peter, if you'd only be content with that."

Content with that! He shook his head.

"Cherry, I couldn't."

The Faun Man and the golden woman entered. They were laughing. "You
always treat me in public as if we were alone together. Really, Lorie, I
wish you----."

Then she saw Peter seated close to Cherry. Her eyes saddened.




CHAPTER XLII--THE COACH-RIDE TO LONDON


I wonder why he doesn't come!"

Peter stepped out of the college-lodge, gazing up and down the cobbled
street.

Harry, always undisturbed and good-natured, laughed. "One can never be
sure of Lorie. Looks as though it was going to rain. P'raps he's put it
off because of that."

"If he had," said Peter, "he'd have sent us word."

For two hours they'd been inventing excuses for the Faun Man. He had
told them to invite a party of their friends and he'd drive them to
London. To go to London without permission was against all rules; but to
ask permission would be useless, since most of the men, like Peter and
Harry, were sitting for their Finals within the next fortnight. That
they were taking a sporting chance of discovery lent a touch of daring
to the excursion.

All of them had risen early and had been ready for the start since
nine. It was nearly eleven. If the Faun Man didn't turn up shortly they
wouldn't have time to cover the sixty odd miles to London and to catch
the last train back. That last train back was very necessary. If they
weren't in college or their lodgings by midnight when doors were locked,
there was no telling what would happen. Probably they'd get sent down,
which would mean that they'd miss their Finals, and would either lose
their degrees or have to wait a year before they were examined.

They were getting fidgety, pulling out and consulting their watches.
Some of them were already saying that it was too late to risk it. A horn
sounded. Peter glanced back from the road into the lodge and shouted,
"Hi, you fellows! Here he comes."

Round the corner swung the chestnut leaders, tossing their heads and
jingling their bridles. As the wheelers followed and the coach drew into
sight, an exclamation went up, "Why, he isn't----"

They looked again to make certain. No, he wasn't. Instead, a woman sat
on the box, erect and lonely, perched high up, governing the reins with
her small, thin hands. Her trim figure was clad in a dark blue suit,
close-fitting as a riding-habit, with pale blue facings. Her hair was
caught back into a loose knot against her neck and dressed so smoothly
that it shone like metal. The effort of controlling the horses had
brought a flush to her cheeks. Her eyes sparkled with mischief at the
sensation she was creating. She reined in against the pavement, glancing
down provocatively at the group of young men. She looked a goddess,
and had the sense to know it. "Given up hoping for me," she cried
cheerfully; "is that it?"

Peter nodded. "Pretty nearly. But where's the Faun Man and Cherry? Why
are you driving?"

She shrugged her shoulders. "I'll tell you later. Scramble up."

They scrambled up, filling the roof and joking, all their high spirits
and anticipation recovered.

"Ready."

The guard sprang away from the leaders' heads and clambered up behind as
the coach started forward.

It was a gray day, with patches of blue gleaming through it, like light
through holes in the roof of a tent. As they passed over Magdalen Bridge
the willows shuddered and stooped above the water, prophesying that rain
was coming. The moisture in the air made colors stand out sudden and
separate. Even sounds seemed accentuated. From farmlands, near and far,
live things called plaintively. Cocks bugled shrill alarms. Cattle waded
restlessly knee-deep in summer meadows. Birds fluttered out of hedges,
as if setting out on journeys; then thought better of it and hastily
returned. Fields lay hushed. In contrast, the sky was torn and rutted.
Clouds lurched forward, black and sullen, like artillery taking up
positions. Detached wisps of mist hurried hither and thither, like
isolated bands of cavalry. Through the brooding stillness the coach
swayed onward. The horses' hoofs rattled as castanet accompaniment to
the laughter of conversation.

At the long, white inn of The Three Pigeons they changed horses, getting
ready for the climb out of the valley past Ashton Rowant. The golden
woman called to Peter to come and sit on the box beside her. She was a
pleased child, patting his hand and smiling down at him side-long as he
took his place. She treated him in public with the same affection that
she used to him in private; she had complained of the Faun Man for
treating her like that. Peter wondered.--Her eyes were immensely blue
and wide this morning. She seemed no older than on that first day when
he had seen her in the white room of the Happy Cottage. He watched her
now, as she leant out with her whip to catch the reins which the ostler
tossed up. How graceful she was, how determinedly young and buoyant!

He touched her. "You were going to tell me why Cherry and the Faun Man
didn't----."

She broke in upon him. "Was I? Perhaps later. Can't you forget Cherry
just for once? I'm here and--and won't you be content with only me for a
little while, Peter?"

She spoke lightly, with a pretence at wounded feelings, and yet----. He
had piqued her pride. He had noticed it before, especially of late--the
same flippancy of tone and quick turning away of the head when Cherry's
name was mentioned. Harry explained it by saying that she was envious of
any affection given to another woman.

The new team was full of fire--it took all her attention. "So, girl! So!
Steady there. Steady!"

Peter knew these grays; he had heard the Faun Man speak of them,
"Nervous as cats. Take a devil of a lot of holding." She handled them
like a veteran.

"Golden woman, you're wonderful."

She shrugged her shoulders coquettishly, raising her brows and laughing
silently. Her eyes were between the leaders' ears on the road in front
of her. "I know. Can't help it, Peter. It's the way I was made." And
then, "But what an awfully long while you've taken to discover it."

"I haven't. But where was the good of my telling you? The Faun Man let's
you know it every day of your life."

She pouted. "He does. But--but that isn't the same." Green pasture-lands
of the valley were falling away behind. As they rose higher, woods
sprang up, standing tiptoe, drinking in the clouds. The atmosphere grew
more heavy and thunderous. The horses were walking now, scrambling for a
foothold and zigzagging from side to side as they took the steep ascent.
The men dropped off the coach to lighten it and went ahead.

Harry caught hold of Peter's arm. "Where's Lorie? Did she tell you?"

"No. When I ask her, she says, 'Later, perhaps.' Can't get another word
out of her."

Then Harry saw a great light. "I bet you I've guessed. Something
happened at the last minute to delay him. He's coming over from
Tree-Tops to join us at High Wycombe. He'll be there with Cherry for
lunch. It's because of Cherry, to give you a surprise, that she won't
tell you." At the top of the hill Peter took his place again beside the
golden woman. He understood her air of mystery now and played up to it.
In an instant all his world had changed. He was going to see Cherry. A
new sparkle came into his eyes. The golden woman noticed it. "Hulloa!
Wakened? What's happened?"

"_You've_ happened," he said. "You're a topper. You don't mind my saying
it, do you? You're most awfully kind."

She looked at him curiously. "Am I? What makes you say that?"

"I know what's happened to the Faun Man and Cherry. You can keep your
secret; but I had to thank you."

"Thank me!" She fell silent.

He talked on in high spirits; it must have been the horses that
suggested Mr. Grace. "He hasn't been so bloomin' prosp'rous
lately--that's his way of putting it--not since Cat's Meat died. He has
to hire his horse and cab now, and doesn't seem to make much profit
out of it. 'Bloodsuckers!' he says. 'I 'as ter give 'em back all I
earns--and that's wot they calls 'iring. Bloodsuckers!'"

As they came down the hill by Dashwood's into High Wycombe, he ceased
talking, casting his eyes ahead. He thought it just possible that Cherry
and the Faun Man might have walked out to meet them. The guard was
sounding his horn in long flourishes. They were in the town now, passing
by the Market-place. Now the coach was drawing up before the hotel. No
one was there to watch them descend except the ostler and some idlers.
He hung about while the horses were taken out; every now and then he
stepped into the road, trying to make himself believe that, if he waited
long enough, he would see the girl with the red lips and gray eyes
hurrying down the street toward him.

Harry came out. "Guessed wrong that time, didn't I? Come along in. We're
having lunch."

It was absurd, this anxiety that he felt--all out of proportion. And
yet it was always like that when he was going to meet her--it was always
like the first time. He never lost the thrill of choking gladness and
surprise. Each time he discovered something new in her of sweetness,
leaving him amazed at his former blindness.

Harry was speaking to the golden woman. "So they're not coming?"

She crouched her chin against her shoulder, gazing at him innocently and
wide-eyed. "Who?"

"Why, my brother and Cherry. What's the secret? Look here, Eve, you
ought to tell us. I'm certain he sent a message--some sort of an
explanation."

"Are you?" She gave him a tantalizing smile; then turned to Peter.
"Peter shall know; perhaps before we reach London."

There was a low rumble, followed by a crash. The rain came smashing
against the panes. They pushed back their chairs and ran to look out.
In an incredibly short time streets were flooded; gutters were turbulent
with muddy rivers. Rain thudded against the pavement and sprayed up in
little fountains.

"Doesn't look to me," said Harry, "as though we'll ever get as far as
London."

"Got to," said the golden woman.

The deluge commenced to slacken, but the storm still hung above
the valley, moaning and grumbling. Rain swept like smoke across the
house-tops.

Harry laughed. "Got to! You can't drive a four-inhand to London through
that. May as well make the best of it. We've to be back in Oxford before
midnight, or else----. Perhaps there's still time to do it. We'll give
it a chance."

Some of the party burst into the room. "I say, you chaps, we've
discovered a regular circus. Such a rum old cock! Come out and talk to
him!"

The golden woman raised her head. "Why not bring him in here?"

"But we didn't think you'd------."

She lifted her hands and let them fall despairingly. "You men! How
selfish you are, keeping everything that's vulgar to yourselves!"

Scuffling sounded in the passage and a voice booming protests, "Not like
this! It ain't fitting. Not before a lady."

A red-faced sailor, in the loose blouse and baggy trousers of the
Royal Navy, was pushed through the doorway. In a deep bass voice he
immediately commenced to excuse himself. "Not my fault, miss." He tugged
at an imaginary lock on his forehead. "I'm Mr. Taylor, I am--'ome on
a 'oliday, tryin' to find a nice gal wot'll appreciate my h'un-doubted
fine qualities."

The golden woman stretched back her neck, half-closed her eyes and
chuckled. "Are you sure you have any, Mr. Taylor?"

The man fumbled at his cap. "Used to 'ave--used to sing terrible."

"Sing terribly for me now, won't you?"

He struck an attitude, flattered by the request, and hitched up his
trousers. It was a ballad of betrayed maidenhood that he sang, solemn as
a dirge and intended to be hugely affecting. It told of the home-coming,
with her two babies, of a girl whose sweetheart had deserted her. It had
a chorus in which, with an unhappy wag of his head, the sailorman signed
to his audience to join:

               "Go ring those village bells,

               Let all the people know,

               It was on a dark and stormy night,

               One, two, three--perished in the snow."

When they came to the enumerating of precisely how many perished, they
stuck out their fingers three times. But some of them weren't content
with only three deaths in one family; they wanted to go on counting.
Then the sailorman would stop singing and reprove them gently, "You
know, young gen'lemen, that ain't right. It ain't fitting to joke on
death."

At last it occurred to him that something was amiss. "I'm afraid I'm
a-makin' a fool of meself."

"Don't mention it, Mr. Taylor," they shouted.

Their answer didn't reassure him, though they hurled it at him in
varying keys many times. He insisted on leaving, making his exit
backward because he had heard that a gentleman must always keep his face
toward a lady.

The rain was over. The sky had a sorry look for having been petulant.
The sun, though he still refused to come out, hung golden ladders from
the clouds. They stepped into the street, gazing up and feeling the air
with their hands.

"What about it?" asked Harry.

"Why, of course we're going," said the golden woman. Her eyes met
Peter's; they seemed to beg him not to call off, but to accompany her.
Why was she so insistent about getting him to London? Who was waiting
there? Why wouldn't she tell him anything about the Faun Man or Cherry?
He calculated how long the drive would take. They were not quite
half-way. If they continued the journey they'd barely catch that last
train back. Again he recognized the appeal in her eyes.

"What about it? What do you say, Peter?"

"I? Why, I'm game. I'm going."

Some of the men refused. The party was reduced to six when they started.

What a wet clean world they entered! It had all been made new and,
somehow, tender. The spray of rain was still in the air; it swept
against their faces coolly, vanished unexplained, and touched them again
without warning. In meadows and tree-tops there was a continual muffled
patter, as of little unseen people treading softly. From the back seats
came bursts of laughter and snatches of song, mimicking Mr. Taylor's
impressive chorus:

               "It was on a dark and stormy night,

               One, two, three--perished in the snow."

The golden woman bent her head aside, "Tryin' to find a nice gal wot'll
appreciate my undoubted fine qualities! That's what all you men are
doing."

"Oh, I don't know."

"Yes, you are, from the minute you put on long trousers to the last
moment when you step into the grave. Men don't find her often; when they
do, as likely as not she doesn't want them."

"I know a little about that," said Peter; "so does Lorie. Women aren't
very kind to the men who love them."

"Oh, aren't they!" She flicked at the leaders so that they leapt like
stags. "You're young; you need civilizing. You don't know nothin', as
that sailorman would say. How many marriages are made for love? They're
made because women are kind. Many a woman marries because she can listen
to a man talking all about himself without letting him see that she is
bored by it. Happiness is the only reality; and love--love's almost,
almost a delusion."

Peter looked at her quietly. She could say jaded things like that
when she was made so beautifully--when everyone turned to look after
her--when the finest man in the world would give his life to save her
from pain! What had God done with the years of her life? She never
looked any older. And she wasn't grateful. Perhaps, after all, Harry was
right--all her goodness had been put into the perfection of her body,
and her soul had suffered.

She was aware that his eyes rested on her in judgment. She tried to
refrain from the impulse. Turning, she flashed on him a sudden smile.
"Too bad to say things like that to you--you who hope for so much from
life! What's the trouble?"

"I was thinking."

"Thinking?"

He spoke slowly, "That love only seems a delusion to people who refuse
to be loving."

A common-land sprang up; geese wandered across it. Evening was falling
early, washing colors from the landscape, blurring everything with its
watery light. The sky stooped near to earth, threatening to tumble,
monstrous with bulging clouds.

They drew up at the inn at Gerrard's Cross. Peter climbed down to
stretch his legs while the horses were being changed. He found his
friends gathered about a timetable, peering over the shoulders of the
man who held it.

"We're not going to manage it," one was saying. "There's another storm
brewing. Besides, we're not making haste--going as leisurely as if we
had all the day before us. Nothing for it, we'll have to drop off and go
back by train."

"There's a train leaving here in half an hour," said the man who held
the time-table. "I'm going to catch it. Getting sent down just before
your Finals isn't good enough." Harry interrupted. "Before we decide
anything, we'd better go out and speak to her."

The case was explained to the golden woman. They were most awfully
sorry. It wasn't very gallant conduct on their part; but what other
choice had they? Wouldn't she leave the horses and the guard at the inn,
and come back with them to Oxford? Or could they see her on the train
to Paddington? Having told the guard to go on with the harnessing, she
listened to them quietly. When they had finished she said, "Peter and
I are going to drive to London. You're willing to take a chance, aren't
you, Peter?"

He broke into his boyish laugh. "It'll be sport. I'll chance it."

As the coach moved off he turned and waved to the others, who stood
watching from the common. The guard from his back seat, raising the
horn, gave them a farewell flourish. In his heart of hearts Peter wished
that he were among them. But----. Well, the golden woman had a secret.
She was going to tell it to him. It had something to do with Cherry. And
it wouldn't have been decent to have left her to finish the drive
alone to London. He'd get the last train back from Paddington, barring
accidents.

She was speaking to him. "That's better. At last we're alone together."

"Do you think we'll do it?" he asked. .

"Do what?"

"Get there in time."

She drew her brows together. "Peter, Peter, what does it matter? You
take life so seriously."

They laughed.

"What are you going to do with it?" she asked. He looked puzzled. "With
life, I mean," she added.

"Don't know. It depends."

"On what?"

"People," he answered vaguely, taking care to avoid mentioning Cherry.
"I may travel for a year. Perhaps Kay will come with me. After that I'm
going into my father's business."

The golden woman's face became grave; beneath its gravity was a flame of
excitement. Her voice trembled and reached him softly. "That's not what
I meant. That's not doing anything with life. Those things are
incidents--externals. I meant, are you going to live life, or are you
going to miss everything? Life's an ocean, full of enduring, dotted with
a few islands. Are you going to be an explorer--or are you going to miss
everything?"

Odd that she, of all persons, should have asked him that! He remembered
how Harry had said that she was a ship, always setting sail for new
lands and never coming to anchor.

"An explorer! I'll first see the islands."

A strand of her hair broke loose and fluttered about her eyes. "I can't
put it back," she said. "I wish you'd do it." Her hands were occupied
with the reins. He leant across her. As his face came under hers, she
held her breath. To him it was nothing. The horses, feeling her hands go
slack, broke into a gallop; for a moment she lost control of them. When
she had quieted them, she turned to him impulsively, "Peter, you're a
darling." Her eyes held his with an expression of appeal and challenge;
then faltered, as though they were afraid to look at him.

Her excitement communicated itself. He was embarrassed. He didn't
understand. He guessed that she was in trouble and was asking for his
kindness. "Golden woman, how easily you and I say things like that. If
Cherry had said it to me, or if you had said it to the Faun Man, how
much more----."

She cut him short. "Don't."

They had traveled half a mile in silence, when she whispered, "It wasn't
easily said."

In the west, behind them, the sky began to burn. Little tongues of flame
licked the edges of black clouds. Mists writhed and drove across the
sinking sun. Peter stood up in his seat, looking back; it was a glimpse
of hell. He glanced ahead--everything over there was blackness. Trees
looked blasted; they bowed their heads. Roads and fields were empty.
There was no life, no color in the meadows.

"We're in for it," he said.

Rain began to patter, softly at first. Wind was getting up and breathed
across the country in a long sigh. He spread a coat across the golden
woman's shoulders. She didn't thank him. Gathering the reins more firmly
in her hands, she whipped up the horses.

Their heads were bent together. Behind them, out of ear-shot on the
back-seat, the guard huddled. She spoke. "We're going to be late. I
intended we should be late. I wanted to get rid of the others. I knew
that you'd stick by me."

And again she said, "You were talking of women not being kind.---- Men
aren't kind to the women who love them."

She had changed. Her face had sharpened out of its contentment. Usually
its expression was lazy and laughing, but now----. Pain had come into
it. It was intense and thin with purpose; it was purpose she had always
lacked. He tried to find a word for the new thing that he found in
her. Was it only the distortion that the storm was working? A flash of
lightning slit the heavens; it ripped the clouds like a red-hot blade.
A shattering crash! The dynamite of the gods exploding! Darkness came
down. Another flash! Trees leant forward, like fugitives with arms
extended. And she--her face was white and dominant. It looked beautiful
and Medusa-like--snakes of loosened hair blew about it. She no longer
crouched her head. She sat tall and defiant, the rain splashing down
on her. What strength she had in her hands! She held in the quivering
horses, speaking to them now harshly, now caressingly. They pricked up
their ears, listening for her voice. He found the word for the new thing
that had come to her. It was passion.

"Come nearer. What did you mean when you told me you had guessed my
secret?"

"The Faun Man----"

She took him up. "Yes, Lorie--he and I had our first quarrel this
morning. We've both wasted our lives, waiting for something--something
that could never happen."

"Why never?"

"Because I can't bring myself to--not in his way. He told me this
morning----. It doesn't matter what he told me. It hurt me to hear him
speak like that, so strongly and quietly and sadly. Lorie and I, we've
drifted--let life slip by. We've wakened; we're tired." Then, like a
child, appealing against injustice. "He said I hadn't a heart--that
I was made of stone, not like other women. It's not true that I'm
different--is it, Peter?" And again, "Is it, Peter?" And then, "It hurt
to be blamed for not giving--giving what would be his to take, if he
were the right man."

"The right man! That's what Cherry says. How does a woman know who is
the right man?"

She avoided a direct answer. "The right man is always born too late
or too early; or else he's wasting himself on someone who doesn't want
him."

It was a city of the dead that they were entering. Rain swept the
streets in sudden and vindictive volleys. Lamps shone weakly; some were
extinguished. Few people were about. At Ealing they halted for their
last change.

"Won't be goin' any further?" the guard suggested.

When he was informed to the contrary, he glanced up at the drenched
faces. He seemed to see a thing that startled him. "Blime!" While he
hurried the ostlers with the harnessing, he tried not to look at those
white patches in the dusk; his eyes returned to them, unwillingly
fascinated. When he had released the leaders' heads, he stepped back and
swung himself up behind as the coach lunged into the storm.

There was barely time to reach Paddington. Peter calculated. If he
missed the train, the consequences would be grave. He asked the golden
woman to hurry. She listened, but made no attempt to quicken their pace.
She didn't seem at all disturbed by his dilemma. He almost suspected
her of holding in the horses. Too late to leave her now! As they trotted
through the premature night, he began to ask himself questions. Why had
she been so determined to finish the journey? Why had she shown such
eagerness to be alone with him?

He leant forward. "Where's Lorie?"

"In London."

"And Cherry?"

She tossed her head impatiently, "With you, it's always Cherry."

"Well then, Lorie--is he going to meet us?"

"If he does, what difference will it make?"

"To me? Not much. But to you--you'll know then, and you'll be happy."

"Shall I?"

Her indifference spurred him into earnestness. From differing points of
view, the golden woman and Cherry used the same arguments. If he could
convince her, he could perhaps convince Cherry. In fighting for the Faun
Man, it was his own battle he was fighting.

"You don't know yourself, golden woman--you don't know his value. He's
become a habit--you'll miss him terribly. He's been too extravagant in
the giving of himself. He's made you selfish. If you were to lose him,
if suddenly from giving you everything, he were to give you nothing-----"

Her voice reached him bitterly. "That's what he threatens--to starve me
after giving me everything. He didn't say it in those words, but----.
What do I care?"

"You do care. You're caring now. All day long you've been caring. If he
isn't there to meet us----."

"I shall be glad."

"You won't." He spoke eagerly. "You won't. To-night you may think you'll
be glad, but to-morrow--to-morrow you'll be without him. Just think,
you've kept him marking time all these years. He's expected and
expected. You've banked on him--felt safe because of him. You're
foolish. You can't cheat at the game of life--you can't even cheat
yourself; in the end you're bound to play fair."

She didn't answer.

"You won't be glad if he's not there."

Silence.

"Is he going to meet us?"

"If he doesn't---- She went no further.

"Will Cherry be there?"

Her face flashed down on him, white and stabbing. "_Again_. Always
Cherry."

Later she whispered, "Forgive me, Peter."

Without a word, they passed through tunnels of muted houses. The sky
closed down on them. The rain drew a curtain about them. The slap of the
horses' hoofs upon the paving started echoes. Traffic slipped by them
spectrelike, as if moving in another world. Now it was between shuttered
shops of Regent Street that they trotted. At last Trafalgar Square, vast
and chaotic, a pagan temple from which the roof had fallen!

They strained forward from the box, searching through the darkness. From
the entrance to The M�tropole light streamed across the pavement. It was
the end of their journey. As the horn sounded, a man stepped out from
shelter. For a moment--but no; he had only been sent to take the coach
to the stables. As they clattered to a standstill, several guests came
out on to the steps of the hotel to watch them. The guard climbed down
and ran to the leaders' heads. No one was there to greet them--no one
who was familiar.

She laughed high up, excitedly, "What did I tell you?"

"Not there," he agreed reluctantly; "neither of them." She touched his
hand and caught her breath. "As I said--neither of them care. You
and I--we're still alone." He was sorry for her, guessing her
disappointment. Had Lorie been there it would have spelt forgiveness.
Big Ben boomed ten. He started. "Hulloa! I'm dished. I can't get back."

"You're not going back? You don't want to leave me? Say you don't."

He was embarrassed. He didn't know what to make of her. She was on his
hands; he ought to be in Oxford. Evidently she had been harder hit than
she acknowledged. He tried to speak cheerfully. "Look here, it's time we
became sensible. That chap's waiting for us to scramble down--he wants
to take the horses. Let's go into the hotel. I'll engage a room for
you--high time you got those wet things off. Nice little mess we've made
of it! When I've seen you settled, I'll toddle off to Topbury and spend
the night with my people."

"Will you?"

She glanced at him slantingly. To his immense surprise, she brought the
whip down smartly across the horses. As the leaders darted forward the
guard, taken unaware, was thrown off his balance. As Peter looked
back through the steaming mist, he saw him picking himself up from the
pavement, waving his arms and shouting.

Utterly bewildered by her shifting moods, he turned to her, "You've left
that chap behind.---- I wish you'd tell me what the game is. I don't
want you to drive me to Topbury and, anyhow, the Embankment's all out of
the direction."

"I'm not driving you to Topbury, stupid."

He spoke more sternly, "Seriously, you must tell me. You've brought me
to London and--by Jove, I almost believe you tried to make me miss my
train. It isn't sporting. Why don't you turn back to The M�tropole. I'll
get you a room and----."

"Too many people to see us," she said shortly.

He had only one means of stopping her--to catch hold of the reins. Too
risky! He gazed about him, wondering what to do. They were traversing
the Embankment--it was empty save for outcasts huddled on benches like
corpses. The night looked sodden. The river gleamed murkily. Lights on
bridges, hanging like chains, shone obscurely.

She was mocking him in low caressing tones. "You don't want to leave me?
Say you don't."

The odd repetition of the question struck him. He had missed its first
significance. It couldn't be! He pressed nearer, peering into her
face. He caught the hungry pleading in her eyes--the mad defiance. "You
mean----? You never meant----. Eve, you're too good a woman."

She halted the horses, and gazed down on him smilingly. She shook
her head slowly, denying his assertion of her goodness. "You hadn't
guessed?"

"Guessed!" He drew himself upright. The passion in her voice appalled
him.

Her arms went about him; cold wet lips were pressing his mouth. "You
dear boy-man! You dear boy-man!"

He thrust her from him. He was choking. Her lips--they scorched him. He
had seen in all women's faces the likeness to his mother's and Kay's.
But now----.

A bedraggled creature, in tattered finery, with a broken plume nodding
evilly across her forehead, struggled from a bench, shuffled across
the pavement and whined up at him. He took no notice. He tried not
to believe what had been meant. Through their nervous silence trees
shuddered; the muffled skirmish of the rain thudded.

The golden woman was watching him. A gleam of hatred in her eyes at
first--the reflection of his own loathing. Then, as pity replaced his
loathing, a look of horror spread. She sank her face in her hands; her
fingers locked and twisted. She looked like one who had become sane, and
remembered her madness. "What am I? What have I done?" She whispered the
questions over and over; the storm beat down upon her shoulders. He sat
like one turned to stone, not daring to touch her, powerless to put his
pity into words.---- And of this the bedraggled street-walker, whining
up from the pavement, was sole witness.

A policeman tramped heavy-footed out of the distance. "'Ere you, none
o' that. 'Urry along." This to the streetwalker. To the golden woman,
"H'anything the matter with the 'osses, me lady?"

She came to herself. The street-walker was limping into the shadows. Her
eyes followed her with fascination. She felt for her purse; not finding
it, she commenced unfastening the brooch that was at her neck. Seeing
her intention, Peter put his hand in his pocket. She stayed him with an
impatient gesture.

Calling to the woman, she leant down from the box and said something.

The policeman waited stolidly. He repeated his question, "H'anything the
matter with the 'osses, me lady?"

"No."

She swung the coach round. There was no explanation.

Of that wild drive back through the night Peter saved but a blurred
remembrance. Scarcely a word was spoken--there was nothing that could be
said. After they had struck the open country, they went at a gallop most
of the journey. Every now and then they drew up at a darkened inn.
He climbed down from the box and hammered on a closed door. A window
opened. A rapid explanation. Grumbling. Sleepy men appeared, only partly
dressed, carrying lanterns. Horses were taken out and a fresh team
harnessed. As the dawn came up, pale and haggard, he saw her face; it
was hard-lipped and ashen. He would never forget it. Every year showed.
The golden hair had broken loose; it was the only young thing left. She
was no longer the golden woman; he drove that night beside the figure of
repentance.

Hills taken cruelly at a gallop! Cocks crowing! Unawakened towns! The
waking country! He pieced her into his experience. What was it that
women wanted? To be married and not to be married? To accept the
flattery of being loved and not to return it? Riska, his Aunt Jehane,
Glory, Cherry--all the women he had known--they passed before him. He
tried to read their eyes. Their heads were bowed; all that he could
learn of them was the pathetic frailty of their bodies.

Marching through the meadows came Oxford, its spires indomitably pointed
against the clouds. Now they were traveling the austere length of High
Street. At Carfax they turned. On Folly Bridge they drew up.

She had brought him back. He wanted to say something generous.

"Lorie, he loves you. If he asks you again----"

She nodded. "If he asks me," she said brokenly.

He walked along the edge of the river, golden in the early summer's
morning, silver with mists curling from off it. He plunged in at a point
opposite the Calvary barge. As he swam, he looked back. From the coach,
high on the arch of the bridge, her eyes followed him. Just before he
landed, she raised the whip; the horses strained forward.

Running through the meadows, he came to the wall which went about
Calvary, found a foothold and dropped safely over. After he had
undressed, he hid his dripping clothing. He was in bed and sleeping
soundly, when later in the morning his scout came to wake him.




CHAPTER XLIII--AN UNFINISHED POEM

Strong sunlight streamed across the foot of his bed. Below, in the
quad, he could hear the clatter of breakfast-dishes being cleared away.
Fumbling beneath his pillow, he pulled out his watch. Ten o'clock! Time
he dressed and got to work! Less than a fortnight till his Finals, and
he'd lost a day already!

A sound of running on the stairs! Someone was entering his outer room.

"Hulloa! I'm still in bed. Who is it?"

The bedroom door flew open. Harry stood panting on the threshold,
holding a London paper in his hand. For all his haste, he didn't say
a word. He simply stared--stared rather weakly and stupidly, as though
he'd forgotten what he'd come about. His lips quivered. The twitching of
his fingers made the paper crackle.

Peter raised himself on his elbow. "Got back all right, old man. Why--."
He saw Harry's face clearly; it was drawn and ghastly. "Don't look like
that. What is it? For God's sake, tell me."

"Dead."

"Dead?"

He threw back the clothes, leapt out and snatched the paper. Standing in
the sunlight he caught the head-line, TO SAVE OTHERS. His eyes skipped
the matter below it, gathering the sense: "At the crowded hour--in Hyde
Park yesterday afternoon--lost control of his horse, Satan--bolted to
where children were playing--swerved aside--rode purposely into an iron
fence--thrown and broke his neck."

The paper fell from his hand. He picked it up and reread it. Some
mistake! He wouldn't believe it. The Faun Man dead! He'd been so
brimming with life. Never again to hear his mandolin strumming! Never
again to hear his gallant laughter! To walk through the roses at
Tree-Tops--and he would not be there!

Peter sat down on the edge of the bed, clenching his forehead in his
hands. The voice, the gestures, everything--everything that had been so
essentially the Faun Man he wanted to recall before he could forget.

               "If yer gal ain't all yer thought 'er

               And for everyfing yer've bought 'er

               She don't seem to care-----"

He could see him bending over the strings slyly smiling. He had been of
such high courage that he could coin humor, out of his own unhappiness.

Then, like a minor air played softly, "Lorie, he loves you. If he asks
you again---" and the golden woman's broken assent, "If he asks me."

She had kept him waiting too long. He had asked her for the last time
that morning. He couldn't ask her again, however much she desired
it--couldn't. She'd blamed him for his first neglect of her--had made it
an excuse for her own unfaithfulness. He hadn't met her. His neglect of
her had been simply that he was dead.

Word came two days later--they had brought him home to Tree-Tops. That
evening Peter gained leave of absence.

_Whitesheaves!_ The name was embroidered in geraniums on the velvet of
the close-cut turf. The train halted long enough for him to alight, then
pulled out puffing laboriously. It seemed an affront that people should
be journeying when across the fields the Faun Man lay, his journey
forever at an end. Only one other passenger got out--a young chap, in
flannels and a straw-hat, who was instantly embraced by a radiant-faced
girl. They sauntered arm-inarm to where a dog-cart was standing and
drove away into the evening stillness, their heads bent together, their
laughter floating back in snatches.

Peter set out reluctantly by a short-cut through wheat-fields. He didn't
want to prove to himself that it had happened. He was trying to imagine
that he had come on one of his surprise visits. He would find the Faun
Man dreaming, sprawled like a lean hound in the twilight of the terraced
garden.

The sun hung large and low in the west. A breeze swept the country with
a contented humming, bowing the heads of the corn. In the distance,
above Curious Corner, chiseled in the greenness of the hill the white
cross glistened. Through trees a spire shot up. Beneath boughs thatched
roofs of the village showed faintly. He rounded a bend; the house to
which he was going gazed down on him. It hadn't the look of a house of
death. Its windows shone valiantly above the pallor of the rose-garden,
out-staring the splendor of the fading west.

He climbed the red-tiled path--came to the threshold. The door was
hospitably open. Like birds hopping in and out of a hedge, the breeze
and the fragrance of flowers came and went. He knocked. No one answered.
He tiptoed in. A breathless silence! Mounting the stairs, he came to the
door with the iron latch, which gave entrance to the Faun Man's bedroom.

Flowers! He had always loved flowers. They were strewn on a bed
unnaturally white and unruffled. An unnatural peace was everywhere. The
sheet was turned back from the face; the brown slight hands stretched
straightly down. Each was held by a woman who knelt beside him with her
head bowed. The attitude of the women was tragic with jealousy.

How long and graceful he looked in death! How gaunt and tired! All
the striving, the brave pretending, the famished yearning which he had
disguised showed plainly now. A smile hung about the corners of his
mouth--a little mocking perhaps, yet tender. A bruise was on his
forehead. He had the look of one who, having been puzzled, understood
life at last and was content.

Peter felt that he had intruded. He had no right to stay there. Those
bowed heads reproached him. He felt what men often feel when death
is present: the body had been put out to usury; at the end of the
trafficking it belonged to women, as it had belonged to a woman before
the trafficking commenced.

He wandered out into the garden. Twilight weakened into darkness. His
feet were always coming back to the window; he stood beneath it, looking
up to where she knelt. If it were only for a moment, surely she would
come to him. Again he entered. No stir of life in the house. He peered
into the bedroom. She had not moved since he left.

Beyond her was the door which led into the Faun Man's study. Noiselessly
he stole across to it and raised the latch.

The room was in darkness. Set against the open window was a desk.
Moonlight drifted in on it. A chair was pushed back from it. A pen lay
carelessly on the blotting-pad, waiting for the master to return. Here
it was possible to believe that the mind still lived and worked.

A movement! He stretched out his hand. Someone rose. Into the shaft of
moonlight came the face of a man. "Oh--oh, it's you, Harry!"

He struck a match and lit the lamp. They talked softly, in short
whispered sentences. On the floor, on tables, on chairs, books and
manuscripts lay scattered. The breeze blowing in at the window turned
pages, as though an invisible person were searching. A sheet of paper,
lying uppermost on the desk, fluttered across the room to where Harry
sat. He stooped, picked it up, ran his eye over it and handed it to
Peter. "The last thing he wrote. Thinking of her to the end."

Peter took it and read,

               "She came to me and the world was glad--

               'Twas winter, but hedges leapt white with May;

               With snow of flowers my fields were clad,

               Madly and merrily passed each day,

               And next day and next day--

               While all around

               By others naught but the ice was found.

               'O ungrateful heart, were you ever sad?

               She was coming to you from the first,' I said.

               She turned to me her eager head,

               Clutching at what my thoughts did say.

               "She went from me and the world was sad--

               'Twas spring-time and hedges were all a-sway;

               With snow of winter my fields were clad,

               Darkly and drearily passed each day,

               And next day and next day--

               While all around

               By others naught but spring-buds were found.

               'O foolish heart, were you ever glad?

               She was going from you from the first,' I said.

               She turned to me her eager head,

               Clutching at what my thoughts did say."

"Like his life--an unfinished poem." Peter leant out to return it to
Harry, but found that he had fallen asleep in his chair.

The lamp burnt itself out. The chill of dawn was in the air. Through the
window the sky was gathering color, like life coming back to the
cheeks of the dead. The door opened slowly. Stiff with long sitting he
staggered to his feet. "Cherry!"

Pressing her finger against her lips, she motioned him to be silent.
Glancing at Harry she whispered, "The first sleep in two days, poor
fellow."

As he followed her across the dusk of the bed-chamber, a pool of gold
caught his attention; it glittered on the pillow by the face of the Faun
Man. The golden woman lay crouched like a pantheress beside the body,
her eyes half-shut and heavy with watching.

In the pallor of the rose-garden Cherry halted. She gave him both her
hands. "We can never be more to one another. Since this--I'm quite
certain now. I always wanted to be only friends."

The heart of the waking world stopped beating. His hope was ended.
Clasping her hands against his breast, he drew her to him. She gave him
her cold lips. "For the last time." She turned. He heard her slow feet
trailing up the stairs.

As he walked to the station through rustling wheat-fields the sun lifted
up his scarlet head, shaking free his hair, like a diver coming to the
surface at the end of a long plunge. Birds rose singing out of corn
and hedges, proclaiming that another summer's day had commenced. But
Peter--he heard nothing, saw nothing of the gladness. He saw only the
final jest--the smile, half-mocking, half-tender, that hung about the
Faun Man's mouth; and he heard Cherry's words, "I always wanted to be
only friends."




CHAPTER XLIV--IN SEARCH OF YOUNGNESS

To you I owns h'up; I 'as me little failin's, especially since Cat's
Meat------He could never mention Cat's Meat without wiping his eyes.
"But if I 'as me little failin's, that ain't no reason for callin' me
Judas His Chariot and h'other scripture nimes. She's a dustpot, that's
wot she is, my darter Grice."

"A what?" asked Peter.

Mr. Grice was surprised that a man just down from Oxford shouldn't know
the word; he was flattered to find himself in a position to explain.

"A dustpot," he repeated. "That means a child wot sits on 'er father's
'ead."

"Oh, a despot!"

Mr. Grace had learnt to be patient under correction. "Now, Master Peter,
ain't that wot I said? I sez, 'She's a dustpot'; then you sez, 'Oh, a
dustpot!' 'Owever yer calls it, that's wot I calls 'er."

They were sitting in an empty cab in the stable from which Mr. Grice
hired his conveyance. Peter touched the old man's hand affectionately.
"I've been wondering--thinking about you. You know, I'm going traveling
with Kay. My friend, the Faun Man, left me a thousand pounds to buy what
he called 'a year of youngness.' He was great on youngness, was the Faun
Man."

Mr. Grace nodded. His eyes twinkled. "Remember that night, Peter, and
the song 'e made h'up about yer?

                   'Oh, Peter wuz 'is nime,

                   So Peterish wuz 'e,

                   'E wept the sun's h'eye back agen,

                   Lest 'e should never see.'

H'I orften 'um it ter the 'osses when h'I'm a-groomin' of 'em. Sorter
soothes 'em--maikes 'em stand quiet."

"I remember," said Peter; "but here's what I was going to say: you
hav'n't had an awful lot of youngness in your life and yet you're--how
old, Mr. Grace? Seventy? I should have guessed sixty. Well, it doesn't
seem fair that I----."

"Nar then, Master Peter! H'it's fair enough. Don't you go a-wastin' o'
yer h'imagination. I don't need no pityin'."

"But it doesn't seem fair, really; so I'm going to make you an offer--a
very queer offer. How'd you like to live in the country and get away
from Grace?"

"'Ow'd I like it? 'Ow'd a fly like ter git h'out o' the treacle? 'Ow'd a
dawg like ter find 'isself rid o' fleas? 'Ow'd a----? Gawd bless me
soul--meanin' no prefanity --wot a bloomin' silly quesching!" He paused
reflectively. "But a dawg, Master Peter, gits sorter useter 'is fleas,
and a fly might kinder miss the treacle. H'I'd like it well enough; but
if there warn't nothink ter taik me thoughts h'orf o' meself, I'd feel
lonesome wivout 'er naggin'."

Peter laughed. "I'll give you something to do with your thoughts. My
Uncle Ocky----."

Mr. Grace woke up, turned ponderously and surveyed Peter. "That's h'it,
is h'it? That awright. Rum old card, yer uncle! H'I never fancied
as h'I'd let h'anyone taik the plaice wot Cat's Meat 'eld in me
h'affections. 'E 'as. Tells me h'all 'is troubles, 'e does. Life's
gone 'ard wiv 'im since Mr. Widder sent 'im packin.' My fault--I'm not
denyin' h'it. We 'as our glass tergether and we both 'ates wimmen--or
sez we does. 'E borrers a bit from me nar and then. Mr. Waffles and me
is good pals--we 'as lots in common. You, for h'instance."

Peter inquired from Mr. Grace where he would be likeliest to find his
uncle.

"Likeliest! H'if yer puts it that waie, h'I should saie yer'd be
likeliest ter find 'im in a pub."

Out of the tail of his eye Ocky saw Peter entering.

"Horrid stuff," he said loudly; then in a whisper to the barmaid, "Give
me another three penn'orth.---- Why, hulloa, old son!"

Peter led him into a private room and said he'd pay for it. "D'you
remember that night at the Trocadero--you know, when Glory was with us.
I told you what I'd do for you if I ever had money. Suppose I could give
you a chance to pull straight, what would you do with it?"

Tears came into Ocky's eyes; he'd grown unused to kindness. "Is it
the truth you're wanting, Peter?---- If you gave me the chance to pull
straight, I'd do what I've always done--mess it."

Peter shook his head incredulously and smiled. "Don't believe you. You'd
pull straight fast enough if you knew that anyone cared for you."

"No one does, except you, Peter."

"Oh yes, there's someone--someone whom you and I, yes, and I believe all
of us, are always forgetting."

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Ocky looked up slowly. "You mean Glory." He leant across the table,
tapping with his trembling fingers. "Know why I went to hell?--it sounds
weak to say it. I went to hell because I had no woman to hold me back
with love. If I could have Glory---. But she'll be thinking of marrying.
I've spoilt her chances enough already."

"If you could have Glory," Peter insisted, "and if you were to have,
say, five hundred pounds, what would you do then?"

"The truth again?"

"Nothing else would be of any use, would it?"

"If I had five hundred pounds and Glory, I'd move into the country and
buy a pub. I've lived to be over fifty, I've learnt only one bit of
knowledge from life."

"What is it?"

Ocky flushed. "To you I'm ashamed to say it."

"Never mind. Say it."

Ocky twirled his mustaches, covering his confusion, "To know good beer
when I taste it."

Peter leant back laughing, "That's something to start on, isn't it?"

Next day he told Glory, "They're willing--both of 'em."

In searching the papers for advertisements, he came upon an
announcement.

_Near Henley, The Winged Thrush. Comfortable riverside hostelry;
pleasantly situated; suitable for artist or poet, desirous of combining
lucrative business with pleasure, etc. A bargain. Reason for selling,
going to Australia._

He remembered--that last night of the regatta, the sun-swept morning,
the glittering river, and the breakfast in the arbor with Cherry.

The purchase was arranged. Ocky, Glory and Mr. Grace went down to see
the place. Mr. Grace was to look after the 'osses--if there were any; if
there weren't, he was to help in serving customers. For a reason which
he would not explain, Peter refused to accompany them on their tour of
inspection.

During those last days, before he and Kay set out on their year of
youngness, he saw Glory often. From her he learnt of Riska and her many
love-affairs; how they always fell short of marriage because she carried
on two at once or because of the deceit concerning her father. She was
getting desperate; she had been taught that the sole purpose of
her being was to catch a man--so far she had failed. She still had
hope--there was Hardcastle. In a sly way, she saw a good deal of him.
Exactly how and where, she had pledged Glory not to divulge.

And Peter learnt of Eustace. Eustace had gone to Canada, to take up
farming with money lent by Barrington. Jehane, with her tragic knack of
hanging her expectations on loosened nails, boasted that Eustace was
to be her salvation. Perhaps he was careless, perhaps he had gained
a distaste for the atmosphere of falsity which had formed his home
environment; in any case, he wrote more and more rarely, and showed less
and less desire for his mother to join him as the period of his absence
lengthened. Jehane, as she had done with his father before him, invented
good news when good news was lacking, bolstering her pride in public.
Her children, despite her sacrifices for them, watched her with judging
eyes and, directly they arrived at a reasoning age, began to detect her
hollowness. Eustace was gone. Glory was going. Riska, failing another
accident, would soon be married to Hardcastle. Only Moggs, Ma's Left
Over as they had called her because of her tininess, remained. She was a
child of twelve, submissive in her ways, colorless in character and with
Ocky's weak affectionateness of temperament.

It was the morning of Kay's and Peter's departure. During breakfast, the
last meal together, Barrington had sat looking at the landscape by Cuyp,
as he always did in moments of crisis. The cab was at the door; the
luggage had been carried out. The adventure in search of youngness had
all but begun. The door bell rang and the knocker sounded. A telegram
was handed in. Barrington opened it--glanced at the signature. "Ah, from
Jehane!"

As he read it, his face grew grave. He passed it to Nan and led Peter
aside. "Don't tell Kay. It's about Riska. She's run off with that fellow
Hardcastle. Whether she's married to him or----. It doesn't say."

His own rendering of the situation was plain--"Ripe fruit, ready to fall
to the ground."

They entered the cab, driving into the great worldwideness. And Riska,
with her impatient mouth and pretty face, she also, in her stormy way,
had gone in quest of youngness.




CHAPTER XLV--LOVE KNOCKS AT KAY'S DOOR

The castle stood like a gleaming skull, balancing on the edge of a
precipice. The centuries had picked it clean. Through empty sockets,
about which moss gathered, it watched white wings of shipping flit
mothlike across the blue waters of the Gulf of Spezia. It had been the
terror of sailors once--a stronghold of pirates, Saracens and Genoese,
fierce men who had built the hunchback town that huddled against the
rocks behind it. Now it was nothing but a crumbling shell, picturesque
and meaningless save to tourists and artists. The tourists came because
Byron had written _The Corsair_ in its shadow, and the artists----.

One of them had left his canvas on an easel in a broken archway. Kay
tripped across and looked at it--a wild piece of composition, all white
and green and orange, splashed in with vigor, with the fierce Italian
sky above it. It interpreted the spirit of the place--its loneliness,
its lawless past, its brooding sense of unsatisfied passion. She turned
away, awed by its power, a little frightened by its intensity. It made
her feel that, from behind tumbled mastery, eyes were gazing at her.
Climbing the splintered tower, she watched the sunset. In the great
stillness she could hear stones dropping down the sheer cliff into the
racing tide beneath.

She had forgotten how time was passing. That low bass humming! It was
the voice of the sea; it seemed as though the sun's voice spoke to
her. Across the blue of the Mediterranean a golden track led up to the
horizon. At its end a fiery disc hung, like a gong against which the
waves tapped gently.

It had been a tumultuous day--a day of excited fears, winged hopes and
strategies. Harry was coming. Peter had received the astounding telegram
that morning.

"Queer chap! This was sent off from Genoa. He's almost here by now. Why
on earth didn't he let us know earlier?"

Why hadn't he? Kay knew--because, if he had, there would have been still
time for her to turn him back. The persistent mouth-organ boy, he was
always quite certain that he had only to make up his mind and he'd get
his desire. She didn't like him any the less for that, but----.

No, she wouldn't be there to meet him. She had excused herself to Peter
and had accompanied him to the sun-baked pier, at which the steamer
called on its way from Lerici to Spezia. She had waved and waved till he
was nearly out of sight--then she had fled.

Why? She couldn't say--couldn't say exactly, but very nearly. She
had forbidden her mouth-organ boy to come--and he was coming. She was
secretly elated to find herself defied. After all, she didn't own Italy,
and----. But Harry wasn't making the journey to see Italy, nor to see
Peter. She was well aware of that--Peter wasn't.

So she had persuaded one of her fishermen friends to sail her across the
gulf to Porto Venere. Down there in the sleepy harbor he was waiting,
his brown eyes lazily watching, his ear-rings glittering, his fingers
rolling cigarettes, not at all perturbed but wondering, with a shrug of
his shoulders, why she so long delayed.

And Harry, he too would be wondering, thinking her unkind. Peter had
probably brought him back to San Terenzo by now. They would have been on
the lookout for her directly the steamer rounded the cypressed headland.
When they hadn't found her on the pier, they would have made haste to
the yellow villa in which they lived, which had been Shelley's. And
again, they hadn't found her. She could imagine it all--just what had
happened: Peter's discreet apologies, and Harry's amused suspicion that
he was being punished. His laughter--she could imagine that as well; he
always laughed when he was hurt or annoyed.

Kay clasped her hands. It was rotten of her not to go to him. All day
she had wanted to be with him. He had traveled all the way from London
to get a glimpse of her. And yet, knowing that, she sat on in the ruined
castle, while the reluctant day, like a naughty child at bed-time,
saffron skirts held high, stepped lingeringly down the purple hills,
keeping the sun waiting.

She was trying to arrive at a conclusion. To Peter she was
everything--more than ever this past year had taught her that. He made
no plans for the future in which she was not to share. It was just as it
had been when they were girl and boy--he seemed to take it for granted
that they were always to live together. The thought that she should
marry never entered his head. Save for the mouth-organ boy, it would not
have entered hers.

But the mouth-organ boy! Long ago, when she couldn't see him, she had
heard him playing in the tree-tops. It was something like that now.
Since she had left England, his letters had followed her. Sometimes
she hadn't answered them. Sometimes she had answered them casually.
Sometimes she had had fits of contrition and had written him
volumes--compact histories of her thoughts and doings. It made no
difference whether she was punctual or neglectful; like a familiar
friend in unfamiliar places, his handwriting was always ahead of her
travels, waiting to greet her.

"What does he say?" Peter would ask her.

Then she would read him carefully edited extracts--nice polite
information, entirely innocuous. Peter hadn't guessed. He mustn't.

How preposterous it had seemed when Harry had first written her that he
loved her! She hadn't regarded him in the aspect of a lover--didn't want
to. It had seemed almost treachery to Peter. But now----. Now it didn't
seem at all preposterous--only wonderful, and true, and puzzling.

How long ago was it? Eight months since he had told her. She had been a
child then--seventeen, with cornflower eyes and blowy daffodil hair. The
knowledge that she was loved had startled her into womanhood.

She ought to be getting back. But Peter, Peter from whom she had no
secrets, didn't know. She dared not tell him--and Harry was there. Peter
had given her so much--this year of romance; and yet, with all his
giving----.

He might give her his whole life; he couldn't give her this different
thing that Harry offered.

She rose to go. Her attention was arrested. It couldn't be! Gazing
sheer down, she leant out across the broken parapet. In the racing tide,
through its treacherous whirlpools, a man was swimming. She could see
his reddish hair and beard shine as they caught the sunset. As he lunged
forward, they sank beneath the surface. She held her breath.

He was keeping near in to the rocks--so near that, had she dropped a
stone, it would have struck him. With all his fighting, he was making
little progress. It was too far to the town to run for help--moreover,
none of the fishing-boats ever ventured there. She wanted to cry out
encouragement; she feared to distract him from his effort. Now, in
rounding a bend, he was lost to sight. Ah! There he was again. She saw
where he was going--to the weather-beaten steps which wound down the
precipice. He stretched out his hand and pulled himself up, dragging
his body across the rocks like a fly which had been all but drowned. He
stood up, white and magnificent, squeezing the water from his beard
and hair. As he commenced to climb the stair in the cliff-front, he
vanished.

She couldn't go now. Her curiosity was roused. What kind of a man could
be so foolhardy as to do a thing like that? Drawing back into the shadow
of the tower, she waited.

Whistling--faint at first! It was a gay little Neapolitan air. Singing
for a stave or two! It broke off--the whistling took up the air. Gulls
flew up, circling and screaming. Above the moldering ramparts, red and
gold against the red and gold of the sunset, came the valiant head of
a man who might have been the last of the pirates. His eyes shone
like blue fire. The wind was in his beard and hair. When he had lifted
himself on to the wall, he stood there, on the very edge, looking back
perilously. He was of extraordinary height and strength. The teeth,
through which he whistled, were strong and white--everything about him
was powerful, his hands, his shoulders, his courageous face. He seemed
a survival of ancient deity--a sea-god who, thinking himself unobserved,
had landed at the spot where, centuries ago, Venus had been worshiped
by a forgotten world. He looked solitary and irresponsible--a law to
himself. Because of his size and the remoteness of the place, Kay was
filled with lonely terror.

He walked slowly over to the easel in the broken archway. He was
bare-armed and bare-footed; his shirt was collarless and turned back at
the neck. Still whistling, he picked up the palette, pushed his thumb
through it, glanced across his shoulder seaward and commenced touching
in streaks of color. He worked carelessly, yet with rapid intensity.
Sometimes he left ofif whistling, stepped back from the canvas, his
head on one side, and surveyed his handiwork. The light was failings Kay
prayed that he had finished--but no. Driven to desperation, she thought
she could creep by him. Harry and Peter would be getting nervous.

She had drawn level with him. A stone turned beneath her foot. His head
twisted sharply. She commenced to run. Glancing back, she saw his eyes
following--he was laying down his brushes and palette. In her panic, she
had chosen the wrong direction; a wall rose in front, blocking her exit.
He was coming--she could hear his bare feet overtaking her. She climbed
the wall; below lay the sea, now orange, now sullen in patches. There
was no way of escape; she looked down. The space made her dizzy; she
groped with her hands as if to push back the distance. She felt like a
bird with its wings folded, falling, falling. Everything had gone black.

For a moment she was held out above the sea, her flight arrested. Blue
eyes bent over her laughing. She was swung back. She found herself lying
on the sun-scorched turf. The man was kneeling beside her, chafing her
hands and forehead. Her faintness left her. As she gazed up at him,
he smiled and said something in an unintelligible language. She sat up
bewildered, trying to appear brave. "I'm--I'm all right, thank you. I'll
go now."

"Ah, a little English girl!" His voice was deep and pleasant.

She surveyed him with growing confidence. How concerned and gentle he
was for so large a creature! She scrambled to her feet. He was quick to
take her hand, but she withdrew it from him. "I'm really all right. It
was only dizziness. Good-by, Mr.--Mr. Neptune."

"Mr. Neptune!" He plucked at his red beard and planted himself in front
of her. His eyes twinkled. "Strange little English girl, why do you call
me that?"

"Because you came out of the sea. And d'you know, before I go I want
to tell you--I was awfully afraid you'd get drowned. Do you always swim
when you come to the castle?"

Mr. Neptune placed his hands on her slight shoulders. They were large
and masterful hands, barbaric with vivid smudges of the colors he had
been using. She was conscious that, in his artist's way, he was looking
not so much at her as at her body.

"Always swim to the castle! No. It was the first time. Your poet, Byron,
was the last to do it. Thought I'd try just for sport, as you English
call it."

"I wouldn't do it again," she said wisely; "and now I must really go."

He didn't budge from her path. She waited. He regarded her with
amusement. "Going! Not till you've promised to let me paint your
portrait."

Kay was astounded and--yes, and flattered. He might be a great artist;
he had the air of a man who was important. But she was more frightened
than flattered: he looked so huge standing there in the yellow twilight.

"Please, please," she said, "you must let me go. My brother's waiting
for me and he'll be nervous."

He made no sign that he had heard, but gazed down at her intently with
his bare arms folded. She hesitated. A sob rose in her throat. "Why--why
should you want to paint me?"

"Because," he said, "you are beautiful. What is beautiful dies, but I--I
make it last for always." Then, in a gentler voice, "Because, little
English girl, if I don't paint you, we may never meet again."

It was the way in which he said it--the thrilling sadness of his
tone. She felt that she was flushing, and laughed to disguise her
embarrassment. "But, Mr. Neptune, I've thanked you and--and it was
your fault that we met--and isn't it rather rude of you to prevent me
from----?"

"No," he spoke deliberately, "not rude. You're adorable--too good to
die. I want to make you live forever. If I were Mr. Neptune, d'you know
what I'd do? I'd swim off with you, earth-maiden."

Her words came quickly; she was afraid of what he might say or do. "I
promise. You shall paint me."

She tried to pass him. He put his arm before her as a barrier. His
eyes flashed down on her, gladly and gravely. "When the English promise
anything, they shake hands on it. Is that not so?"

She slipped her small hand into his great one. She heard a footstep
behind; it was her fisherman who had at last come in search of her. She
nodded to let him know that she was coming. Now that she was not alone,
she lost her fear of the giant. She became interested in him. She almost
liked him.

"Where will you paint me?" she asked.

"Here, against the sky. It's the color of your eyes. We're going to
be friends--is it so?" He stepped aside. "Then, little English girl,
good-night."

As she passed under the broken archway, she turned and waved. His blue
eyes still followed her through the yellow twilight.

Down through the hunchback town she went. Its streets were deformed,
steeply descending, scarcely more than a yard wide. It was eloquent with
memories of unrecorded fights, in which a handful had held Porto Venere
against armies. Beneath its close-packed roofs it was already night.
Before little shrines in the walls candles glistened. Sailor-men,
with gaudy sashes round their waists, bowed their heads and crossed
themselves reverently as they passed. In crooked doorways mothers sat
suckling their babies--madonnas with the oval faces and kind eyes that
Raphael loved to paint. To them the mystery of love was divulged; many
of them no older than Kay.

After her great fear she was strangely elated. She had seen admiration
in a man's eyes. "Why should you want to paint me?" She could hear his
deep voice replying, "Because you are beautiful." Then came the wistful
knowledge of life's brevity, "What is beautiful dies." She had never
thought of that--that she and Harry and Peter, and all this world which
was hers to-day must die. The old town with its defaced magnificence,
its battered heraldry, its generations of lover-adventurers who had
left not even their names behind them--everything reminded her, "What
is beautiful dies." She was consumed with a desire she had never known
before--to experience the rage of life.

Why was it? What had made her waken? Was it contact with a primitive and
virile personality? She had gained a new understanding of manhood. Would
Harry be like that, if he lived to-day as though it were a thousand
years ago?

She stepped into the boat, curling herself in the prow among nets where
she would be out of the way of the sail. Darkness was stealing across
the sky, a monstrous shadow-bird whose wings roofed in the gulf from
shore to shore. The sail began to bulge; the boat lay over on its side.
Outlines of wooded hills grew vague. To the north Spezia lay, a blazing
jewel. At the mast-heads of anchored men-of-war lanterns twinkled
faintly. She trailed her hand, watching how the water ran phosphorescent
through her fingers. A fisher-boat crept out of the dusk. A guitar was
being played. A man's voice and a girl's, singing full-throatedly! They
faded voluptuously into silence.

"Because you are beautiful." Her young heart beat flutteringly. Had
others thought it and been afraid to tell her? She leant back her head;
stars gazed down on her, approvingly and placid-eyed. All sounds and
sights were touched with poetry. The whole of life before her! Peter and
Harry waiting! So much of youth to spend; so many choices! Yet, only one
choice--Peter.

A voice hailed her. "Hulloa! Is that you, Kay?"

So soon! She sat up. San Terenzo with its golden eyes! On the crazy quay
she made out two blurs of white.

"Yes, Peter, it's Kay. Is Harry with you?"

Before the boat had stopped, as it nosed its way along the side, Harry
leapt in. "At last! It's you."

His voice was strained and impetuous. For eight months he had waited; he
had been kept waiting an extra day--the longest of them all.

"Hush!" she whispered. "Peter---- I've told him nothing. You shouldn't
have come, Harry; you really shouldn't."

She took a hand of each as they helped her to land. Walking back to the
villa, she gave them laughing glimpses of her adventure, "So it's
not such a bad day's work; he's going to make me live forever in a
portrait."

Good-nights had been said. From her window Kay had seen the lights blown
out in other bedrooms. The fishing-village, fringing the shore, had been
in darkness for two hours. She leant out, gazing across the bay to where
the headland of Lerici curved in like a horn. Life--that was what she
thought about. It was in this very room that Shelley had wakened and
recognized the cowled figure of his soul, and had heard it question,
"Art thou satisfied?" It was the same question that she asked herself.

A knock upon the door! She started from the window and looked back. It
came again, so lightly that it seemed to say, "Only you and I are meant
to hear me."

She threw a wrapper about her; her long bright hair fell shining across
her shoulders. It might be Peter. Again it came.

On the threshold Harry was standing.

"Let me speak to you."

She hesitated.

"You gave me no chance to say anything. Am I to stay or--or to go
to-morrow?"

He ought to go. She knew that. And yet----.

"I can wait, Kay. Though you send me away, I shall wait forever for
you."

She was sorry for him--and more than sorry. This pleading of the living
voice was different--so different from the pleading of letters. Dimly
she heard within herself the echo of his clamor stirring.

"Dear Harry, I want you to stay--but to stay just as you were always."

He caught his breath. It was almost as though he laughed in the
darkness. "It was always as it is now. You didn't know; it began that
first day when I fought Peter, showing off like a boy. So if it's to be
as it was always-----."

He looked so lonely standing there. He oughtn't to be sad with her--it
hurt; they'd always been glad together. She took his hands tremblingly,
"Stay and be--be the mouth-organ boy. We'll have such good times, Harry,
we three together. Don't be my--anything else. I'm too young for that,
and----

"And?"

"Peter hasn't learnt to do without me. Lorie was the same with you--you
understand. So Harry, promise me that you won't let Peter know--won't do
anything to make him know, or to make him unhappy."

He put his arms about the narrow shoulders, stooping his head. "Trust
me."

She leant her face aside sharply. "Not on my lips. They're for the man I
marry."

"But one day I----."

She freed herself from him gently. "Neither of us can tell."

In the days that followed, when they walked and swam and sailed
together, Harry recognized what Kay had meant when she said that Peter
hadn't learnt to do without her. With the end of his hope of Cherry, all
his affections had flown homeward and had concentrated on the love of
his sister. It seemed as though he made an effort to find her sufficient
for his heart's cravings. To all other women his eyes were blind. The
thought that any other woman should come into his life seemed never to
occur to him.

Glory--she wrote to him, as Harry had written to Kay, with conscientious
regularity. But he read her letters aloud, obviously without editing;
they were serious letters like her eyes, searching and quiet, with a
hint of need behind them, and with bursts of fun when she told of the
struggles of her stepfather and Mr. Grace to run The Winged Thrust both
genially and for profit.

And the man who lived to-day as though it were a thousand years ago--a
week after Kay had first met him, they sailed across the gulf to
discover him. They found him in the castle painting.

"Ha! The little English girl!"

He threw down his brushes and came toward her with his arms extended. He
gathered her hands together into his own and bent over her intently with
his eyes of blue fire, "I thought I'd lost my earth-maiden."

That was all. So long as Harry and Peter were present he was no more
than a shaggy artist, a little self-important, a little shy. When they
had walked off to explore the town it was different.

He picked her up as though she were a child, and sat her on the broken
wall, where the blue sea swept behind her shoulders and the white clouds
raced through her corn-colored hair. For a while he was utterly silent,
touching in sketches of her, testing various poses. The smell of wild
thyme mingled with that of flowers, fermenting in the sunshine. From far
below the wash of waves rose coolly.

Presently he spoke. "You stopped a long while away. Every day I've been
here watching for you. I don't often watch for anybody. If people don't
come----," he snapped his fingers, "I begin again. I begin with someone
who won't keep me waiting."

His egotism seemed not conceit, but justified consciousness of power.
Kay was beginning to explain; he cut in upon her. "It's all right. For
you I'd wait till--oh, till there wasn't any castle--till it was all
swept into the sea by rain. But only for you--for other people life's
too short." He stopped sketching and looked up at her. "Little English
girl, life is very short. Phew!" He blew out his cheeks. "Like that, and
you are old. All the lovers are gone. No one cares whether you live or
die. With us men it's the same, only we--we search for the great secret.
You have it in your face. There's so much to do; it's not kind to keep
us waiting."

"The great secret! What is it?"

He appeared to take no notice of her question. Picking up his pencil, he
went back to his sketching. Then, while he worked, glancing occasionally
to her face where the radiance of the sunshine fell against her profile,
"The great secret! It's hard to say. It's why we're here, and from where
we come, and where we go. It's the knowledge of life and the meaning
of death; it's everything that we call beauty. I see it in your face. I
paint it. How it came there, neither you nor I can say."

Next day he set to work on canvas. The picture grew. It wasn't for
the picture that Kay went to him; it was for the things he said in the
loneliness, lifted high between the waste of tossing sea and restless
sky. He set her thinking; he made life more glad, more eager and,
because of its mystery, more poignant. The great secret! He didn't hope
to find it; but he told her of the men who had sought.

In telling her, he brought the soul into her eyes and set it down on
canvas. A young girl with blowy hair, perched among things ancient, her
white hands folded, patient for the future, with the pain of joy in her
wide child's eyes! That was what he painted.

And she--she was stirred by him. He gave her the freedom of his mind.
He treated her as a woman, teaching her knowledge and the sorrow of
knowledge--from all suspicion of which she had been guarded. She was as
much repelled as attracted by him; through him she learnt to love Harry.
She began to understand the suffering of love that is kept hungry. She
began to understand its urgency. At last she understood that such love
as Harry brought her must always stand first, sacrificing every other
affection. It was this that gave pain to her joy.

One day in early June, the man laid aside his brushes. "The last touch.
It's finished."

He lifted her down very gently and watched her as she stood before it.
Clasping and unclasping her hands, she gazed at her own reflection with
an odd mixture of wonder and ecstacy. "But--but it's beautiful."

He put his arm about her shoulder, speaking softly, "And so are you."

"But not so beautiful."

"More. I couldn't paint your voice."

She stretched out her hands toward it. "Oh, I wish--I wish I could have
it."

He tilted up her face. "Little English girl, it's yours. I did it for
you. You'll know now how you looked when your beauty dies."

Tears came. It was like the world complaining against God's injustice.
"But I don't want it to die."

He drew her head against him. "Kay--what an English name! Little Kay,
one thing will keep it alive." She waited. "The great secret," he
whispered; "it lies behind all life. For other people your beauty will
have vanished; a man who loves you will always see it."

Before she was aware, he had touched her lips. If was as though he had
stained her purity.

On the sail back to San Terenzo, as the darkness drew about them, she
crept closer to Harry. He felt her hand groping for his own. "Kiddy,
you're burning--as hot as a coal. What is it? A touch of fever?"

She spoke chokingly. "Harry, my lips. They're yours."




CHAPTER XLVI--THE ANGEL WHISTLES

It was the longest day in June. The room was stifling, filled with
greenish light which fell in stripes through the slats of the closed
shutters. On the tiled floor water had been sprinkled. Walls were
stripped bare. A sheet, dipped in disinfectants, was pinned across the
open door. On the other side sat the nun who had come to act as nurse.
She sympathized with the jealousy that kept them always at the bedside
and only intruded when she was sent for, or to give the medicines. This
desperate clinging of flesh to flesh while the soul was outgrowing
the body--how often she had watched it! She could not speak their
language--didn't understand anything but the quivering tenderness of
what was said. She was a little in awe of these two young Englishmen who
seemed so angry with God, and who sat day and night guarding the dying
girl lest, in an unheeded moment, God should snatch her from them.
Reckless of contagion, they bent above the pillow where the flushed face
tossed between the plaits of daffodil hair.

The fight was unequal; it couldn't last much longer. It had been going
on for a week. Had they known in time that it was typhoid----. By
the time they knew it was too late for her to be removed. The
fishing-village had none of the necessities of nursing; the doctor had
to come from Spezia.

Someone had to go for him at this moment; she had had a relapse. Harry
looked at Peter. "I'll go." He spoke quietly, knowing that she might not
be there when he returned.

Peter touched Kay's hand, attempting the cheerfulness which they had
feigned from the first, hoping that it might deceive even Death.

"Kitten Kay."

She opened her eyes. She had gone back years as her strength had failed.
She spoke as she looked, like a slight child-girl far distant from
womanhood.

"Belovedest?"

They had been crowding the gentleness of a full life into the words
exchanged in those few days.

He started to speak; choked and had to start afresh.

"Harry's off to Spezia to fetch the doctor--the man who's going to make
you well."

"Well!"

It was uttered deliberately, with a wise disbelieving smile.

"Harry! Harry!"

Her face grew troubled as she tried to recollect a name that was
familiar.

Harry's eyes filled with tears. He went on his knees beside her,
pressing her hand to his lips.

"Kay, don't you know me--your mouth-organ boy?"

The puzzled look melted. A low laugh came to her parched lips. "My dear,
dear mouth-organ boy!"

At the door he gazed back longingly. Peter caught him by the arm. It was
the struggle not to be selfish--it had been going on through seven days.

"You stay. Let me go."

Harry shook his head. "She was yours before she was mine."

He slipped out. His footsteps faded down the stairs.

In the house there was no sound--only her weary sighing. Everything was
hushed and shuttered. Outside waves dragged against the sand and broke
in long sparkling ripples. A pulley creaked as a fisherman hoisted sail.
Across the bay came the panting of the steamer from Lerici. It drew in
against the pier; boys' laughter sounded and splashing as they dived for
money. Again the panting, wandering off into the distance. It rounded
the headland.

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Silence----. So much of life in the world and none to spare for her! And
this had come at a time when her father was ill, so that neither he nor
her mother could come to her.

She threw back the sheet which was spread above her slender body. Her
hand groped out. "Peter, Peterkins, you hav'n't left me?"

"I'll never leave you, and when you're better----."

Again the incredulous smile! He' could get no further. Her voice, quite
near to him, reached him remotely. "If I should die---."

He spoke quickly. "You're not going to."

"But dearest, if I should----. You won't be bitter--won't break your
heart about me? If you did, I should know. I shouldn't be happy. Promise
that you'll still trust God and be happy."

Against his belief he promised.

He thought her sleeping. Her lips moved. "God! No man hath seen----.
Beloved, we hav'n't, have we?"

He was shaken with sobbing. He had to wait. "Dear little heart, you've
been God to me and--and to everybody."

"Hold my hand, Peter." He was holding it. "I'm so tired. It's night.
Light the lamp. I want to see you."

He unlatched the shutters. Across the dazzling blue of the gulf the sun
stared luridly, swinging low above the sea-line.

Her brain began to wander. She spoke unforgettable things--unforgettable
in their tenderness. It seemed that behind the confusion of her words
her spirit was preparing him. It was as though she turned the pages of
memory haphazard, chancing on phrases which summed up her short eighteen
years of existence.

"Peter in a Christmas cab!" There was what he had called the laughter of
birds in the way she said it. "Oh, it must be something splendid."

She came to a winter when she had nearly died--when Peter had been sent
for hurriedly from Sandport. "Peter! Peter! Peter!" She wailed his name
childishly. Then, as though she snuggled warmly against one she trusted,
"He's never going to leave me. I shall get well now."

For some minutes she was silent. Of a sudden she sat up, crying, "I
don't want to be a dead'un. I don't want to be a dead'un."

It all came back--his boyish attempt to explain heaven to her, and her
terror because there was no means of escape by trains or trams. As then,
so now, he failed to console her. She sank on the pillow exhausted by
her panic.

During those brief minutes while the sun fell lower, she re-enacted all
the joys and bewilderments which had been their childhood. Now they were
playing in the garden at Topbury. Now riding out to the Happy Cottage
on the tandem trike. Once it was a flowered meadow; she was trying
to whistle. His startled question of long ago went unspoken. Only her
tearful protest gave the clue to her wandering, "I never heard it,
Peter--truly--never. I made it up out of my own head."

For one thing which she said he had no picture, "Not on my lips. They're
for the man I marry."

He buried his face. It was intolerable. "My God, I can't bear it." Love
and marriage--she spoke of them; she would never know them.

Lying there so stilly, while death crept through her body, she seemed
uncannily sensitive to all that happened in his mind. She knew that
something she had said had hurt him.

Her delirium went from her. "Softy me, Peter, like you used to; I shan't
be afraid then."

He leant his face against her hair, his cheek touching hers. She lifted
her hand and stroked him comfortingly.

Was she wandering? He couldn't tell. Her eyes were wide, gazing into a
great distance. "In heaven they are all--all serious." Feeling him touch
her, she was filled with a wistful regret. "Beautiful warm flesh and
blood."

She tried to turn her head. He raised himself over her.

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It seemed that her sight had returned. He forced himself to smile lest
she should take fright at his crying.

"In heaven they are all--all----."

He listened for her breath.

With unexpected strength, she fastened her arms about his neck and drew
herself up.

"Listen. Listen."

She was staring through the open window to where a red spark smoldered
on the edge of the sea-line----. A sighing of wind across water! From
far away, whistling--a little air, happy and haunting, trilled over and
over! It was like a shepherd calling.

Her lips broke into a smile. "Beloved, I hear----."

She drooped against his breast. The whistling grew fainter. The red
spark was quenched. The longest day was ended.





CHAPTER XLVII--"THEIR VIRGINS HAD NO MARRIAGE-SONGS; AND THEY THAT COULD SWIM----"

In the first stabbing sense of loss he hoped that he had caught the
contagion and might die. Life without her was unthinkable. Then, through
very excess of grief, his feelings became blunted. It seemed impossible
that he would ever again fear or expect.

He moved as in a shadow-world. Time had no significance. Days slipped
by uncounted. He was trying to understand life, searching behind the
external show for its secret meaning and purpose. Up till now, with
the gay generosity of a child, he had shared himself with those whom
he loved and by whom he was loved, concentrating and intensifying his
affections. Now, dimly at first, he began to view existence from the
angle of responsibility, as a river ever broadening and growing more
adventurous, pouring down from forgotten highlands to the conjectured
sea. It was not his journey that counted; it was the direction and
journey of the total river. If he suffered and had been glad, there
were multitudes who were glad and had suffered. What was the meaning of
it--this alternating sorrow and gladness? For the first time he asked
himself how other people thought, felt, endured--people like Jehane and
Riska, like the golden woman and Glory.

A month ago, had anyone told him that his sister would be taken from
him, he would have defied God by turning infidel. But now----. He
realized reluctantly how his very passion for her might have crippled
her, shutting out the natural and fine things that belong to every man
and woman. In giving her too much, he might have deprived her of what
was most splendid, giving her ultimate curtailment. How near he had come
to doing this he had learnt from Harry.

Her words were continually recurring in his memory, dragging him back
from despondency. "You won't be bitter--won't break your heart about
me? If you did, I should know. I shouldn't be happy." The shame that
he might be paining her was always with him. He had the sure knowledge
that, though he could not see her, she still lingered in the house.
Sitting with closed eyes, especially at twilight, he believed he could
hear her moving--moving gladly. The sound was always behind him, even
when he turned his head. He placed flowers about her room, pretending
she was alive; he liked to picture her surprise when she found them. A
white wraith of laughing mist, he imagined he saw her stoop above them.
In his mind he heard her voice, "Oh, Peterkins, how good you still are
to me!" The wind touched his cheek; it was her mouth.

While her body remained in the house his grief was inconsolable. Yet
peace came to him even before the mortal part, long and lily-white, was
borne through the sun-swept village to the garden on the hill gazing out
to sea, cypress-shadowed and quiet.

Through the first long night he sat beside her, fixing her features,
everything that had been her, indelibly in his mind. The swathed feet,
immobile as marble beneath the tall candles, brought back her saying,
"The joy goes into my feet when I'm glad."

Wearied by watching, he slept. Again she was dying. He could hear her
voice, trying so hard to be patient. Someone entered, bringing a new
body, exactly like the old one but well. She rose and slipped into it,
just as if she were trying on a new dress. She caught him by the hand,
laughing excitedly. In their gladness, as they left the room, neither
of them remembered to look back to the bed; they had no pity for the
abandoned fleshly garment.

----And was death no more than that to the dead--clothes cast aside,
outworn by the spirit? What a little to make a fuss about!

Through the open window dawn was breaking. In a chair Harry slept, his
chin fallen forward. Peter rose to his feet and tiptoed over to the
still face lying on the pillow, framed in the golden hair. He stood
gazing down. The morning wind walked the sea, like the feet of Jesus
bringing peace to sinful men. Far back he remembered another early
morning when Kay's eyes had been closed and he had heard those same feet
walking--snow had lain on the ground. Another girl, strangely like her,
with the same bowed mouth and penciled brows, had been stretched beside
her. While Kay's eyes were shuttered, the other eyes had opened.

As the days went by, the desire grew strong within him to see Glory--he
wanted to trace Kay's likeness in the living features. And yet he
postponed.

It was September. Harry had left for London, called back by work.
Letters from Topbury implored his own return. He was afraid to abandon
scenes familiar; in losing them he might lose the sense of Kay's spirit
presence.

Then to him, as to Harry, came the imperative cry of the need of the
world.

A telegram sent from Paris and forwarded on from Topbury reached him. Of
all persons it was from the golden woman. It bade him urgently to join
her. He took no notice. Another, saying that it was not she who wanted
him but someone whom he could help. A third, still more insistent. The
first he had suspected; this last was too pleading for insincerity. He
packed up and left.

In Paris she met him; even then she refused to tell him why she had
sent for him. She was a different golden woman, grave and quiet. The day
after his arrival, she took him out to a gray Normandy village. On the
train journey she had little to say; only once did she explain herself.
A flight of swallows was passing over a meadow going south, moving
steadily as a cloud. She met his eyes.

"Yes, I'm different. The stork knoweth her appointed times, and the
turtle and the crane and the swallow, but----You remember the passage. I
didn't know mine. I waited too long. Foolish! Foolish!---- The winter
came. My appointed time went by me." And a little later, "Don't let that
happen to you, Peter."

They walked down a white road and came to a cottage. She knocked. A
voice, which he ought to have recognized, told her to enter. Sitting in
a low chair, her foot rocking a cradle, was Riska. She rose, overcome
with surprise, lowering her face, awaiting his judgment. As he pressed
her to him, the baby began to cry. She stooped, picked him up and held
him out to Peter.

"Isn't he sweet?"

The first words she had spoken--spoken without shame or apology, almost
with pride! It seemed impossible that a sin which had made a thing
so beautiful could need excusing. He met her eyes, reading in them
sacrifice. Where was the old Riska, impatient of restraint, eager to
catch men, with the petulant, fluttering mouth? The passion which
should have destroyed had purified, just as his grief which might have
embittered had made him more anxious to help.

On the way to England she told him of Hardcastle. "I got so tired
of trying and trying to get married. All the men found out
something--father, or my shallowness, or something. I don't blame them.
And all the time, ever since I was a little girl, mother talked about
the raft and what happened if a girl didn't escape from it. I grew
desperate and frightened. It was anything to catch a man. And then
Roy----. He said he'd marry me in Paris; afterwards he put off and put
off. When he'd deserted me, I didn't like to write. After the baby
came----. I don't know, it may be all wrong, but I wasn't a bit ashamed
of myself. I didn't write then because I couldn't bear to think of
people despising him. If the golden woman hadn't met me---- Oh, well, I
should have gone on somehow, earning money for baby with my
hands.----But, dear Peter, I'm so glad you found me. I never understood
you till now."

At Topbury that first night, after a hurried reference to Kay, they
didn't trust themselves to talk about her. They tortured themselves the
more by their reticence. Everything spoke so loudly of her absence. Nan
sat with Riska's child in her arms--the child which should have been
unwelcome. It seemed to fill a gap in her life; they all knew what
was passing behind her eyes. The evening grew late. She and Riska went
slowly up to bed.

Peter turned to his father. For hours he had sat grimly watching
the landscape by Cuyp, where the comfortable burgher walked forever
unperturbed by the banks of the gray canal.

"Father."

"Yes."

"We're not doing right."

"Right!" He shrugged his shoulders. His gesture accused God defiantly.

"No, father--not doing right. One of the last things she said was that
she'd know and be unhappy if we broke our hearts about her. She does
know, and--and I think we've been making her sad."

For a long time his father sat brooding. He stretched out his hand,
"Your imagination, Peter--you've never outgrown it. But--but we don't
want to make her sad."

The house was hushed. It was some hours since they had climbed the
stairs. He crept out of his room into the one that had been hers. It was
the same as when, years ago, they two had shared it. He gazed across the
lamp-lit gulf to where Hampstead lay shrouded beneath the night. And
he remembered: the moon letting down her silver ladder and bidding him
ascend; the windows in streets he had never traversed, which had seemed
to watch him like the eyes of cats; the mysterious whistling from the
powder-cupboard, "Coming! Coming! Coming!"

He tried, as of old, to eliminate barriers by the magic of imagination.
It was true, surely, and he hadn't grown up. Soon he would hear the
angel whistle. On the straight unruffled bed he would see the gentle
little body, with the tumbled honey-colored hair.

He forgot his promise not to break his heart about her. Throwing himself
down, he knelt beside the pillow, with his empty arms spread out.

A sound! Someone was holding him--someone who, coming on the same
errand, had discovered him. "Peterkins! Peterkins, don't cry."

His arms went about her neck. "Little mother, it's long since you called
me that. I'm so tired--tired of pretending to be brave and trying to be
a man."

They sent for Jehane next day and the next; at last they had to go
and fetch her. Her heart was hard because of the disgrace of what had
happened. She spoke with bitterness of her children. Glory's joining her
stepfather at The Winged Thrush she construed as an act of treachery. "A
daughter of mine," she said, "serving in a public-house!" She had given
up all hope that Eustace would ever ask her to come to Canada. His
infrequent letters had given her to understand tacitly that she was
not wanted. Only Moggs was left--a subdued child, a little like Glory.
Against disappointment from that quarter Jehane forearmed herself by
taking disappointment for granted. Her sense of injustice centered in
the paradox that Ocky was happy, despite his mismanagement, while she,
after all her painstaking rectitude, was sad.

Throughout the journey to Topbury she insisted vigorously that she would
never take Riska back. As she entered the hall of his house, Barrington
heard the last repetition of her assertion. "We don't want you to," he
said; "she and her child are going to live with us." Then Jehane saw
Riska, and recognized the change; promptly she turned her accusals
against herself. She had been unwise. She had spoilt her life both
as wife and mother. Her calamities were her own doing. She needed
Riska--wanted her. "You'll come with your mother, won't you?"

Riska shook her head gently--so gently that for a minute she looked like
Glory. "Mother dear, I can't. I would if it were only myself; I've baby
to consider. You'd do for him just what you've done----. You couldn't
help it. I'm going to stay here with Aunt Nan and learn--learn to be
like her--like Kay."

Jehane covered her face with her hands. "I'm a bitter woman--yes, and
jealous. But that my own child should tell me--and should be able to say
it truly!"

She looked up. "If I were to try to be different, if I could prove to
you that I was different----."

Riska put her arms about her mother's neck, "That's all in the future.
But, oh, I'm so sorry, so sorry. I know you've done your best."

"My best!" Her voice was full of self-despisings. "Oh, well----!"

She had lost her last illusion--her faith in her own righteousness.
Barrington, watching the disillusioned woman, tried to trace in her
features the eager face, tell-tale of dreamings, that had beckoned
to him from a window on a summer's afternoon in Oxford. He found no
resemblance.

He turned to Riska, who had played life's game so recklessly, plunging
off the raft of maidenhood, swimming and drifting on chance-found d�bris
to the land of maternity, about which her mother was always talking.

In searching Riska's face he found Jehane's dreamings come
true--self-fulfilment and mastery. Sacrifice, by the road of sin,
had accomplished them. He recollected how he had said of her, "Ripe
fruit--ready to fall to the ground." He smiled wisely, remembering his
own unwisdom.




CHAPTER XLVIII--AND GLORY

He was late. It didn't matter; no one had been warned of his coming.

He punted down the last stretch of river. It had been Peterish, yet
appropriate of him to choose this means of travel. He had arrived in
Henley that morning. Had he gone by road, he could have been at The
Winged Thrush for lunch. Now, full behind him, spying beneath the bent
arm of a willow stooped the setting sun.

All day he had had the sense of things watching--memories, associations
of the past, hopes and dreads which had lost their power to help or
harm him. A new hope had become his companion; he gazed back, taking a
farewell glance at the old affections.

As he stole down the streak of silver, through ash-gray autumn meadows,
he had many thoughts. Cherry and the last time he had made that journey!
The Faun Man and himself--the way in which men mistake their love!
Withered reeds rustled with the motion of his passing. Fallen leaves,
scarlet and brown and yellow, starred the water's surface. Thrusting
himself forward, he sang and hummed,

               "I've been shipwrecked off Patagonia,

               Home and Colonia,

               Antipodonia-."

He broke off, smiling whimsically. In a figurative sense his own
autobiography--almost a fulfilled prophecy! A brave song! He liked
it--it paid no heed to regret and recorded only the joy of pressing on.

Letting the punt drift, he stared back into the evening redness. It took
courage to learn what things to remember and how to forget. For some
weeks he had been trying to learn--this river-journey was the testing.

He rounded a bend. Ahead swans sailed placidly. Cattle stood knee-deep
in water. In the stream, tethered to a landing, boats swung idly. On
a close-cut lawn green tables were set out in the shadow of trees.
Everything stood hushed and huddled in the gilded quiet.

He stepped out and strolled up through the trellised garden. Finding no
one, he wandered round the inn to the back. From the stable-yard came
the splashing that water makes when a brush is plunged into a bucket;
then a droning sound, punctuated with the hissing of an ostler. Peter
laughed inwardly.

"Whoa there, boy! You ain't a patch on Cat's Meat. Call yerself a
'oss?--- Ah, would yer! Shish-shish-shish.

                   Oh Peter wuz 'is nime,

                   So Peterish wuz 'e,

                   'E wept the sun's h'eye back agen

                   Lest 'e should never see."

"Hulloa, Mr. Grace!"

The old man started and overset his bucket. "Ho, me tripe and h'onions,
wot a fright yer did give me!--- Why, Master Peter, 'oo'd 'ave thought
ter see you 'ere. Thought yer'd forgotten h'us and wuz never comin'. H'I
wuz just a-singin' about yer. H'I h'orften does when h'I'm a-groomin' of
a 'oss. Sorter soothes 'im--maikes 'im stand quiet."

"Where's Uncle Ocky?"

"Gone ter 'Enley, white spats and h'all."

"And Glory?"

Mr. Grace caught the tremble in the question and glanced up sharply.
"And Glory!" He passed his hand in front of his mouth, "Miss Glory,
she----. H'it's lonely for 'er, a bit of a gel, with two old codgers,
like me and yer h'uncle. We does our best, but----. Ho, yes! Where
is she? On the river, maybe, a-dreamin'. If yer'll wite till h'I've
finished with this 'ere 'oss----

"On the river!" Peter spoke quickly, to himself rather than to his
friend. "Couldn't have passed her. Must be lower down."

He was turning away. Mr. Grace called after him, "'Alf a mo'! Got
somethink ter tell yer." Peter halted. "H'it's abart me darter, Grice;
h'unexpected like she's----"  Peter waved his hand and passed out of
ear-shot. Mr. Grace winked his eye at the horse. "Ho, beg parding!"

The sun had sunk behind the trees; the moon was rising. A little breeze
shook the brittle leaves, laughing softly among them as they broke from
their anchorage and swooped like bats through the dusk. On the edge
of the lawn, overhanging the river, a white post stood ghostly. As
he untied his punt, Peter looked up and read the legend, _The Winged
Thrush_. On the sign was depicted a brown bird, fluttering its wings
in a gilded cage. He pushed off into the stream, creeping sharp-eyed
between misty banks through the twilight.

_And Glory!_ Until the last few months his world had consisted of other
people--people who had seemed so important--and Glory. But now--now that
he could no longer follow the shining head of his little sister, he had
halted. Looking back, all through the years from childhood he seemed
to hear Glory, tiptoeing behind him. He had noticed her so rarely. He
remembered the time when he had told her to remain seated on the garden
wall, had forgotten her, had missed her and had recollected her only
to find her still waiting for him, crying in the darkness. The terror
seized him that to-night he might have remembered too late--might have
lost her.

Something tapped against the side of his punt. He leant out--a floating
oar! The stream was beginning to quicken; ahead rose the low booming of
water rushing across a weir. He gazed about him. Down the shadowy river,
darkly a-silver in moonlight, a black thing, like a log, bobbed in the
current. As he came up with it, a figure huddled in the stern, called
nervously to him, "Oh please, I've dropped my oars; do help me." He
maneuvered alongside. "Why, Peter! Dear Peter----!"

There was no time for talking. From bank to bank ahead of them the
stream leapt palely, like the white mane of a plunging horse. Putting
his arm about her, he lifted her rapidly into his punt. The empty boat
hurried on into the darkness. Working his way upstream, he ran into
safety in a bed of rushes.

"Glory, if I'd lost you!"

She shook her head laughing, "You couldn't."

He knelt beside her, clasping her hands. "But how----? What were you
doing?"

"Dreaming. Just wondering. While I drifted, they slipped from the
rowlocks."

"Dreaming!" He stooped his face. "Of what--of whom?"

Her voice sank. "Must I tell?"

From his sky-window the man in the moon drew aside the curtain; he
peered out knowingly.

Peter had her in his arms. His lips touched hers in the dusk. His eyes
met hers--Kay's eyes; even in the darkness he knew them.

"And you do care?---- You really want me?"

She drooped her head against his shoulder. "Oh, dearest, I always
wanted----. But I'm a girl, Peter; I didn't dare----."

THE END







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